我要死了，他们都说爱我
《我要死了，他们都说爱我》 小说介绍
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第一章
18suineinian，qinshengfumuzhaodaolewo。
weilebuchangwo，tamenhuileyuanbendehunyue，jiangwojiajilenianqingyouweidegujiadashao。
yangnvguaiwoqiangletadeairen，fuqichuguoliuxue，chuchehuoshenwang，suoyourendoubatadesiguaizaiwotoushang。
bamazaiwo23suishengrineitian，biwozhengrongchengyangnvdeyangzi，wobuken，tamennachuqinziguanxiduanjueshu，shuodangchupaoqiwodeshihou，jiuyinggaizhijiebawoqiasi。
gumingyizhemowoweile，daiwocanjiagezhonggaoduanjuhui，quehebiedenvrenaimei：“niyiweijiajiwo，jiunengdaitiayindeweizhi？hehe，gufurenbushinizheigexiangbalaonengwangxiangde！”
tamendouchuanzhexizhuanghelifu，zhiyouwochuanzhediaosedekatongchenshanheniuziku，yuzheigeshijiegegeburu。
buguoxinghaowodelejuezheng。
zheixiabamaheguming，yinggairuyuanle。
1.
23suishengrizheiyitian，yishengnachuyizhangaizhengzhenduanshu。
“xianzaizhiliao，haiyou30%dechenggongjilv。”
wochuixiatou：“womeiyouqian。”
yishengyouxiechayi：“zaizenmeyang，niyeshiguxianshengdeqizi，jishiwanyenabuchulaima？”
我不知道怎么回应。
yishengzhidaowodeshenfen，shiyinweigumingkeyijiwomaileresou，taxiangrangquanshijiederendouzhidao，woshiyigeweileduxiangjiachan、jiaruhaomen，buxibisiyangjiedebaijinnv。
bujinbujiwoyifenqian，haixiangfangzeiyiyangfangzhewo，zaijialianzhuangleshexiangtou。
“jiwokaixiezhitongyaojiuhaole。”
wodakaishouji，kanleyanyue，yanleikongzhibuzhudiwangxiadiao：“buyaojinkoude，yaozuibianyide。”
yishengtanlekouqi：“huiquheguxianshenghaohaotantanba。”
“wojianguohenduohebingrenguanxibuhaodeqinshu，mianduishengsi，meishenmeshibunenghejiede........”
huidaogumingdedabieshu，tazhengdaizhejigepengyou，hereladenvlangkaipaidui。
dengrendousanle，woxishangweiqun，kaishidasaoweisheng。
guminglouzheyigenvlangcongwoshizouchulaideshihou，wogangbagezhongjiupingdabaohao，zhunbeinaqumai。
tabuxiedichixiaoyisheng：“wokannihainengzhuangduojiu。”
“jigepopingzijiunengmanzunideweikou？weilegujiadecaichan，zheixienianrendehenxinkuba？”
weile**wo，tadangzhewodemian，jiangyidiechaopiaosaijinnvlangdexiongbu。
erzicongwojiajita，gumingchulemairichangyongpindezhichu，meiyoujiguowoyifenqian。tahaicidiaolesuoyoudeyongren，rangwoyigerendasaoruodadebieshu。
tayiweizheishiduiwodezhemohewuru。
yiweiwochichibukenzou，shibuganxinzheixieniandefuchu，haizaitumoutadeqian。
kegumingbuzhidao，duiwolaishuo，youyigenengchibaochuannuandedifangjiuyijinghenxingfule。richangzhichudeqianshengyixie，meigeyuehainengliuxialiangqiankuai。
takanburuyandepingpingguanguan，shiwoguoquhenzhangyiduanshijiandemoushengshouduan。
“wobuyaonideqian，dannikeyijiewoyixiema？”
xiangqiyishengdehua，woniejinyijiao，guqiyongqiduigumingshuo：“wodelejuezheng，ruguonengzhihao，woyidinghuipinmingzhuanqianhainide。”
gumingdemeitoushaoshaoningleyixia，yanzhongdecuoeyishanershi，zuijiaoyouguashangneimobiaozhixingchaofengdexiao。
“niyinrenzheimejiu，biechulaidezhaoshijiuzheimediji？”
“haijuezheng，niyaozhendelezheiwanyier，wogaibaneipingjishiniandehongjiunachulai，wanshangzaikaiyigepa。”
wojiongpodidixiatou，tizhejiupingzitaoyiyanglikailebieshu。
医生错了。
gumingguaiwohaisiyangjie，babudewochangming。
怎么会与我和解呢？
2.
wochulaimeiduojiu，nvlanggenleguolai。
tachuanzhexinggandepiyi，youyitou**langjuan，qizhekanshangqujiuhenyouzhigandeheisedamotuo，chongwozhaolezhaoshou：
“qunaer？wosongniya。”
womeiyoulita，tizhejiupingzi，chilidiwangqianzou。
tadianlezhiyan，jiangmotuohengzaiwoshenqian，mizheyan，manshihaoqididaliangzhewo。
woyouxieshengqi：“nidangzhewodelula！”
woyiweitayeshilaixiluowode。
5nianlaigumingshenbianhuanleshubuqingdenvban，jihumeiyigerendoushuowochun，xiaowojian，sihougumingneimejiu，haimeiyoutamenyiwanshangzhuandeqianduo。
“gumingmeiyoupengwo，tafaxiannihuilai，rangwoquwoshizhishiyanjinikan。”
woyouxiechayi，meixiangdaotahuigenwoshuozheixiehua。
haimeihuiying，tarengjiwoyizhangmingpian：“buguoniyebuyaogandong。tameixinsipengwo，haizuozheixie**ni，xianranshiyougoutaoyannide。”
“zhuansheideqianbushizhuan？biezaiyikeshushangdiaosi，xiangtonglejiwodadianhua。”
shuowan，tafadongmotuoche，zaihonglonglongdezaoyinzhongyangzhangerqu。
wolenglengkanzheshouzhongdemingpian。
jiangwan，yigesirenhuisuodejingli。
youkanlekanchouhonghongdejiupingzi，heshoujishanglianyitaishoushuyezuobuqideyue。
momodicunxialetadedianhuahaoma。
3.
wozhengyouyuzheyaobuyaojijiangchundadianhua，mamadedianhuaxiandaleguolai。
woxintouyisuan，xiangqijintianshiwo23suideshengri。mamahaijide，zhongyubuhenwolema？
wocalecayan，lianmangjietong，xiaoxinyiyidijiaoleyishengma。
neibianchenmojimiao，caifachushengyin：“wohenibazaidengni，weizhifajiniweixinle，ganjinguolaiyitang。”
wojidongdekuaiyaokuchulai。
potianhuangdaleliangchuzuche，bapingzimaile，ganguoquzhaotamen。
didianzaishizhongxindeyijiazhengrongyiyuan，bamakanshangquyijingdengdehenbunaifanle，lazhewojiuwangyiyuanzou。
keshengribugaishiqucantingma？
tamenshoulibujinmeiyouliwu，liandangaoyemeiyouti。
woyishidaobuduijing，zhengkaimamadeshou：“nimenyaodaiwoquganshenme？”
“ganshenme？woyaonibayinyinjiwohaihuilai！”
mayixiazihongleyan：“nihaisiyinyin，haidewohenibazheijiniandoumeishuiguojigehaojue！woyaonizhengrongchengyinyindeyangzi，daititapeiwomen！”
woxintouyizhi，jihuchuanbuguoqi。
yishidaobamazheibeizidoubuhuiyuanliangwole。
wokewang18niancaizhongfengdeqinshengfumu，yongyuandoubuhuiaiwo。
“kuyoushenmeyong，liujidilei，yinyinjiunenghuoguolai？”
balengzhelianguolaichewo，beiwoyingjidishuaikai。
“wobunengzhengrong，wobeiquezhenaizheng，bunengdongdaozi。”
yishengshuoaizhengpohuailewodemianyixitong，yigeweixiaodechuangkou，douyoukenengyinfayanzhongdeganran。
ruguozhengchengyangjieneiyang，woyaobeigehenduodao，yigeyiwaijiuhuisizaishoushutaishang。
“aizheng？ninianjiqingqingzenmekenengturandeaizheng？bieyiweinishiwomendeqinshengnver，zheimeshuowomenjiuhuixintengni！womenyangleyinyinneimejiu，duitadeganqingbinishen！”
mayaozheya，yifukudachoushendeyangzi。
shenzhihainachuleqinziduanjueshu，ruowobukenzhengrong，jiuyaochedihewoduanjueguanxi。
bayekuzhelianquandao：“suanbaqiunile，xintengxintengwomenhaobuhao？”
“nihaisiyinyindeshi，womenbujijiaole。zhiqiunizhengchengyinyindeyangzi，rangwoliangkuanweiyixie，zheidoubuxingma？”
woshizaikongzhibuzhu，yibaduoguoduanjueshu，xiesidilidihoudao：
“neiwoni？sheilaixintengwo？”
“nimenshuoshiwohaisileyangjie，weilerangnimenyouyigeqingxuxuanxiededifang，wocairenxia。”
“ketadesi，hewoyoushenmeguanxi？dangranshinimenpaoxialewo！houlainimenyouqianlehewoxiangren，yeshiweilemibuzijidekuijiu，caibawojiajiguming。woconglaidoumeidexuana！”
“gumingbawodangchourenjiusuanle，tabutaiqingchuwomenjiazheixielanshi！kenimenpingshenmebawodangchouren，pingshenmerangwozhengchengyangjiedeyangzi？”
wokudezhibuqiyao，quehaishipazaidishang，yaozheyazaiqinziduanjueshushangqianlezi：
“wotaoyannimen，wocaibuyaozheiyangdebabamama！”
4.
tamenpaoqiwodeshihou，wohaibudao1geyueda。
gueryuanderenfaxianwo，jiangwodailehuiqu。
guanyutongniandejiyi，zhiyouxiatiandewenzi，dongtiandedongchuang，yijiganbuwandehuoerhechibubaodeduzi。
meicikanjiandajieshangchizhelingshi，chuanzhepiaoliangyifudehaizishi，wodouhuirenbuzhuku，huanxiangzijiyeyouyigebabamama，tengwoaiwo。
zhidao15sui，likaigueryuanburushehuideshihouwocairenming。
wobuzaikewangbabamama，zhiqiunenghaohaodihuoxiaqu。
kezheimeposudeyuanwangyehenjiannan。
womeichengnian，nalidoubushoutonggong。zhinenggenzheyigezangxixidelaonainaijianjianpingzi，zhaobuyaoshenfenzhengdelinggong，jiyidunbaoyidundihuozhe。
suoyi18suibamazhaodaowodeshihou，woganjuexiangshizuomeng，kulehaojiuhaojiu。
woyiweiwozhongyuyouyigejia，keyiguoshangxingfudehaorizile。
zhuanyanshengmingzoudaojintou，caifaxianzijishiyigexingfujueyuanti。mingmingbamahegumingyigebiyigeshenqing，quemeiyoubandianaishijiwode。
laideshihougulinglingyigeren。
yaosile，haishigulinglingyigerenzou。
“haolehaole，dajieshangfashenmefeng？”
jianhaoduolurenweiguan，baganjuemianziguabuzhu，bawofuqilaibunaifandishuodao：“bachengren，shiyouzuodebuduidedifang。kebamayeyizhizaizhaonia，shizaizhaobudao，caishouyangleyinyin。”
“renxindoushirouzhangde，zhiyaonizhengchengyinyindeyangzi，bamajiujuedenimendouzai，yihounijiubanhuilaihebamayikuaizhu，bushihaoshima？”
wokuxiaoyisheng：“woshuole，wodeleaizheng，bunengzhengrong。”
mawuzhexinkou，qichongchongdizhizhewo：“nikankan，nikankan，daoxianzaihaizaisahuangzhuangkelian，jianzhiyidianxinyemeiyou！”
“womendangchubugairengleta，gaiqiasita，zheiyangjiubuhuihaisiyinyinle。”
badenaixinyehaojin，lazhemajiuyaolikai。
woshenhuyikouqi，zuihoujiaolesheng：“ba，ma。”
jiantamenhuiguotou，wojichuyisixiao，wen：“nimenhaiyoushenmeyaoshuodema？”
woxiangtingyijushengrikuaile。
kekantamendeyangzi，xianranshiwangle。
wozhihaohuilehuishouzhongqianguozideguanxiduanjueshu。
“再见啦~”
youkeneng，zaiyebujianle。
5.
我决定放弃治疗啦。
womeiyouqian，yebuxiangweile30%dechenggonggailvtangzaiyiyuanchiku。yinweiwochiguotaiduokule，zhidaozijiconglaidoubushixingyunderen。
shengxiadejigeyue，zhixiangwancheng23nianlaicunxiadeyuanwangqingdan。
1.吃零食吃到吐。
2.jiangzijidabanchengpiaopiaoliangliangdegongzhu。
3.看一眼大海。
4.被爸爸妈妈爱。
5.zhaodaoyigeaizijidezhenmingtianzi。
xiexialaizhihou，woyoumomohuadiaole4he5dexuanxiang。
quchaoshihualeyibaiduo，maileyidaduilingshiheyinliao，huidaogumingdebieshutongkuaidichileqilai。
18suizhiqian，wolianfandouchibubao，genbenbushedechilingshi。
hebabamamaxiangrenzhihou，woyezhiguolejigeyuedehaorizi，bianjiajileguming。
meigeyuesuirannengcunliangqianduokuaiqian，danwopayouyitianbeigumingganchulai，suoyiyebuganluanhuaqian，yigexingqizhiganchiyibaoshupian。
zheiciweilenengduochiyixie，wobianwangzuilisailingshi，biansichuzhuanyoubangzhuxiaohua。
faxianbieshuhaoduodifang，douchengzaizhesuipianhuadenanwangjiyi。
liruxuanguanchu，haoduociguminghedezuixunxunhuijia，wodouhuipengzheyiwanxingjiutangchongguolai，weiguminghexia。zheishihoutajiuhuinandewenroudirourouwodenaodai，duojiwojibairichangzhichufeiyong。
haiyoutashuiguotou，faxiankuaiganbushangchuchafeijideshihou，jiuhuihuangluandibahuanxiyifuwangxinglixiangsai，wangwangjijianjiubaxinglixiangsaiman，ranhouyongqiuzhudemuguangkanxiangwo。
wobiandaxianshentong，shoushihaotadesuoyouxingli，hailiuyoujinhuyibandekongjian。
tabianhuijingyadishenchudamuzhi：“niua！”
dangranle，woyinqindizhaoguta，bingbushichuyuxihuan、huozheshishewangchengweizhenzhengdegufuren，jinjinshibazijidangzuobaomu，shouhuzhezheifenlaizhibuyidegongzuo。
可有时候。
jinjinshiyoushihou.......
womendouchenrushenghuodediandiandidi，wangjiyangjie，wangjitaquwoshiweilebaofudeshihou。
woyehuixianru，zijiyouleyigejia，youleyigezhangfudexingfucuojue........
“shayatou，buyaohusiluanxiangla！”
woyaoyaotou，lianmangwangzuilisaileyibashupian，ganzouzheixiebuzhenshidexiangfa。
zheishihouwozhuanyoudaoleshufang，shuzhuoshangbaifangzhewoyangjiedezhaopian，qianmianhaiyouyitiaohaopiaoliangdezhenzhuxianglian。
zheishiyangjieliujigumingzuizhongyaodeyiwu，pingriwodasaoweishengdeshihounuodongyixia，tajiuyaodafaleiting。
woxiangqijiangzijidabanchenggongzhudeyuanwang，guishishenchadixiangxianglianshenchuleshou。
haimeipengshang，turantingjiangumingdeshengyin：“zhushou！”
xiayike，tachuanzhecuqipaojinshufang，fuzhemenkuangcaimeiyoudaoxia。
wokanlekantoudingfazhehongguangdeshexiangtou，yishidaogumingjicongcongdiganlai，shipawotouyangjiedezheitiaoxianglian。
neishunjianwoturanjuedehaoweiquhaoweiqu，kongzhibuzhudikuleqilai。
yanleipapadidiao，zuilideshupianyeyanbuxiaqu，kanzheguminghanhubuqingdijieshi：
“我没有要偷。”
“wozhishijuedexianglianhaopiaoliang，woxiangdaiyixia。”
“duibuqi，wozaiyebuhuipengle。womashangjiuzou，yihoudoubuhuilaile。”
woyiweiguminghuizhuaizhewo，haobuchiyidijiangwoganzou。
meixiangdaotajingranbieguotou，yifuqixiaoledeyangzi：“xianbushuoxianglianle——”
“wozhejiganhuilai，shipanichitaiduolingshibazijichengsia！”