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qizhongzuizhongyaodeyitiaojiushi：wulunfashengshenme，wulunnikandaoshenme、tingdaoshenme，
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“zhaozhaowobeitouzoudelian”……“wodelian”……xiabanhou，womeiyouzhijiehuijia。guishishenchadi，
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shifanzui！”“……jinwanyoukaishile，
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bijilishuode“neixieshengyin”，shicongzheilichuanchulaidema？wotiejinneicucaodefengdumian，shituzhaodaofengxi。
jiuzaiwobaerduocoushangqudeshunjian，yizhongjiqiweiruo、fangfohuanjuebandeshengyin，
sihucongzhuanqiangdehoumianchuanlechulai。xiangshi……mouzhongmocasheng？
youxiangshi……jiqiqingweide、duanduanxuxudetanxi？wohunshenhanmaodaoshu，mengdihoutuiyibu，
shoudianguangjuliehuangdong。shihuanjue！yidingshidixiashitaianjing，wotaijinzhangchanshengdehuanjue！wobuganzaidaixiaqu，
zhuanshenjihushipaozhechongshangletaijie，likaileneigelingrenzhixidedixiashi。zhongxinhuidaodimiandehuazhuangjian，
suirantongyangpobai，querangwoyouzhongzhonghuirenjiandecuojue。wojinjinzuanzheneigebijiben，
touyebuhuiditaolilehongxingjuyuan。8huidaojia，wofansuohaomen，zuozaishafashang，jinghunweiding。
neigebeifengsidedixiashirukou，neiweiruodeshengxiang，haiyouneigeqiyoutong，
douzaizhixiangyigelingrenbuandekenengxing——shinianqianneichanghuozai，yexubingfeiyiwai。erzhaojie，
sihujuanruqizhong。wozaicifankaineigebijiben，zixiyueduneixielingluandeduanluo。jiluzhemeiyouliuxiamingzi，
dancongyuqikan，tayinggaishijuyuandeneiburenyuan，kenengshiguanliyuan，huozhedaojushi。
tadui“tamen”dexingweigandaokongjuhefennu，er“ajie”shicanyuzhezhiyi。“chenggongle”？“lian”？
“taixiangle”？zheixiecizuhezaiyiqi，rangwochanshengleyigemaogusongrandelianxiang。
zhaojierangwobangtazhao“beitouzoudelian”。nandaoshuo，“tamen”dangshizaijuyuanli，
zaijinxingmouzhong……**“lian”degoudang？erneizhanglian，jiqixiangmougeren？xiangshei？
huibuhuijiushi……zhaopianshangde“wo”？zheigeniantourangwobuhanerli。ruguozhenshizheiyang，
neizhaopianshangde“wo”jiubushiwo，ershidaizheneizhang“lian”debieren？huozhe，
shimouzhongwowufalijiedeguiyixianxiang？wobixuzhidaozheigejiluzheshishei。yexutanengtigongguanjianxiansuo。
bijibendezuihouyiye，sihubeisidiaoleyijiao，canliudebianyuanyouyigemohudeyinji，
xiangshiyigeyinzhangdejubu。wozixibianren，yinyuekanchushi“……wushi”jigezi。“wushi”？shenmewushi？
caiwushi？fuwushi？haishi……yiwushi？hongxingjuyuanhuiyouyiwushima？dagailvbuhui。neizuikenengde，
jiushi“caiwushi”huozhe“houqinbangongshi”zhilei。kanlai，haidezaiquyicijuyuan，zhaodaozheige“wushi”，
kankanyoumeiyougengduoxiansuo。lingwai，zhaojiedejiejie，huoxuyezhidaoxieshenme。tadangshidefanyingtaibuxunchangle。
jiuzaiwoshulisilushi，shoujituranxiangle。shiyigemoshengdebendihaoma。woyouyuleyixia，jietingqilai。
dianhuaneitouchenmolejimiao，ranhouchuanlaiyigedichen、youxieshayadenansheng，
yusuhenman：“shi……fulingxianshengma？”“woshi，ninawei？
”“woxingwu……shiguanyuhongxingjuyuandeshi……”nanrendeshengyindaizheyizhongqiguaideqiangdiao，“nizuijin，
shibushiquguoneili？hainazouleyixie……bushuyunidedongxi？”wodexueyeshunjianlianglebanjie！
tazenmezhidao？woqujuyuanyinggaishimimide！tazenmezhidaowodemingzihedianhua？“ni……nishishei？
”wodeshengyinyinjinzhangerganse。“bieguanwoshishei。”nanrenmanyouyoudishuo，“tingwoyijuquan，youxieshi，
buzhidaobizhidaohao。youxiedifang，bugaiqujiubiequ。badongxifanghuiyuanchu，ranhou，wangjizheiyiqie。
zheiduiniyouhaochu。”“nidaodizhidaoshenme？zhaojieshizenmeside？”wochongkouerchu。dianhuaneitouchenmole，
ranhou，chuanlaiyishengjiqingde、lingrenmaogusongrandelengxiao。“zhaojie？
tashiyinweitaihaoqile……jiuxiangnixianzaiyiyang。”nanrendeshengyindouranbianleng，“jizhuwodehua，
zheishizuihouyicijinggao。buran，xiacijinidadianhuade，kenengjiubushiwole。”shuowan，dianhuabeiguaduan，
zhishengxiadududemangyin。wowozheshouji，shouxinbingliang。wobeijianshile？haishishuo，woqujuyuandeshihou，
beirenkandaole？zheigexingwudenanrenshishei？shibijilitidaode“tamen”zhiyima？weixie，**luodeweixie。
danzheifanergengjiajiandinglewoyaochaxiaqudeniantou。zhaojiedesi，jueduibujiandan。erwo，
sihuyijingbeijuanruleyigeweixiandexuanwozhongxin。9xingwudenanrendeweixiedianhua，
xiangyikuaijushitourubenjiubolananyongdehumian，rangwochediyishidao，woyijingtazuyipianweixiandeleiqu。
tuisuohuoxunengzanshianquan，danneigesirenzhaojiedezhinian，neizhangguiyidezhaopian，
yijibeihoukenengyinzangdeguanyuwozishendemimi，dourangwowufahuitou。wojuedingzhudongchuji。diyigemubiao，