于心有愧
《于心有愧》 小说介绍
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wochuchehuotangzaidishangbunengdongshi，shenyingniandaizheqinyinongjingzhilikai。
“woyijingtitajiaolejiuhuchele，zoubawomenqujiniguoshengri。”
jiuhuchejiangwosongwoyiyuanxuyaojiashuqianzishi，woduocibodatadianhua，junshiwurenjieting。
zaiwocongshoushushichulaihou，kanjianqinyinonggengxinyitiaopengyouquan：
“xuezhangjiushishijieshangzuihaoderen，songwodeshengriliwushiqubalikanshizhuangzhou......”
tupianzhongshenyingniankaixindichaozhejingtoubiye，yanlimanshichongni。
womeiyoudadianhuaquzhiwen，zhishipingjingdienxishouji，zhuanxinyangbing。
houlai，wolikaihoushenyingnianfafengsidizhaowo。
......
chuyuanneitian，wojiedaoleshenyingniandalaidediyitongdianhua。
talisuodangrandishihuanwo：“yanmo，nixianzaikaichelaijichangjiewogenyinong。”
woditoukanleyandazheshigaodetui，pingjingdishuo：
“去不了。”
shenyingnianwenyanlijihechiwo：
“yanmo，xianzairangnilaijieyixiadouzhuduotuichi，zhiqianjiehundeshihoushuo.....”
kanzhemianqianxuyaoshoushidongxi，wobunaifandidaduanta。
“wozaiyiyuan，meikongqujieni。”
shenyingnianxiangyemeixiangjiukaikouwen：
“nizenmebuzhaogehaoyidiandejiekou，turanjiushuozaiyiyuan，yanmoni.....”
tazhizedehuajiaranerzhi，xiangshituranxiangqiwochehuodeshi。
woyemeiwen，zhishidandandiwentahaiyoushenmeshima？
shenyingniantantedishuo：“nizhiqianchehuozhuyuanzheimejiuma？woyiweinizhishishouqingshang。”
wozhengchouzhezenmeshoushizheixiedongxi，suiyidifuyanyiju：“ng，meishi。”
“meishenmeshijiuguale，wohaiyaoshoushidongxi。”
shuowanwojiuguaduandianhua，buguanshenyingnianzaineibianshishenmefanying。
wojiannandijiangdongxibandaolouxia，zaidenglebangexiaoshidechecaihuidaojia。
tuikaijiamenshi，yingruyanliandeshishenyingnianzhengmanlianxintengdipengzheqinyinongdetui，qingqingchuizheshangmiandeshangkou。
napawoshiliyizhihenhao，woyekanbudaoneigeshangkouzaina。
qinyinonghuitoukanjianwo，lijishoumangjiaoluandizhanqilai。
“yanmojie，wozhishi......zhishibuxiaoxinshuaidaole，woyihuijiuzou，nibuyaojieyi。”
shenyingnianjiantazhanqilai，lianmangzeguaididenglewoyiyanhou，wenshengdiduiqinyinongshuo：
“nidejiaohuashangyijingliuxuele，nibuzhuzaizheiwobufangxin！”
“nizhiqianyijingdayingwole，zenmekeyituranshiyanni，zhenshixiaohuaidan。”
qinyinonglianjiaweiweihongle，queyoubuandishuo：
“keshiyanmojietayeshoushangle，xuezhangzhaogubulaizheimeduoren。”
shenyingniankanyemeikanwoyiyan，jixuhongzhetashuo：
“tagennibuyiyang，tapicaorouhou，nizheixipinenroude，shoushanglekedakexiao。”
qinyinongxiangshizaikaolvzheijianshi。
shenyingnianzhouzhemeidikanzhewo，yuqizeguai。
“yanmo，nibuhuizheimexiaoqiba？yinongshoushanglezhishizaizheizhuliangtian。”
wohuilaihouyijuhuayemeishuo，qinyinongjiukeyijiangzheiyiqiedecuowudiujiwo。
danwoyijingbuxiangyiqianneiyang，yudaotadewentidouhuihuashenfengzi。
wowusuoweidishuo：“xihuanzhuduojiujiuzhuduojiu，womeiyijian。”
qinyinongdeyanlishanguoyisichayigenbuman。
tadagaiduizijimeitiaoqiwogenshenyingniandezhengchaoerbuman。
ketabuzhidaodeshi，woduishenyingniandoubuzaiyile，youzenmehuizaiyitazhubuzhuzaizheini。
yiqianzheigefangziduiwolaishuo，shiwogenshenyingniandesirenkongjian。
rujinzhibuguoshiyigeluojiaodedifangbale。
dengshangyanghao，wojiubanzoule。
zaiqinyinongyunniangxiayichangzhandoushi，wobianzhijiezoujinwoshiguanshangmen。
shenyingnianjiangqinyinong“andun”haohuiwoshishi，woyijingtangzaichuangshangzhunbeishuijue。
taditoushangchuangshi，wobujingyidipieguoqu。
kanjiantaboziminghuanghuangdexianhongyinji。
sihushiqinyinongzaideyidichaowoxiao。
yaoshiyiqian，woyikandaoneigeyinjijiuhuibuguansanqiershiyixianjianglianggerenzhagebiantilinshang。
meicidoushishangjiyiqiansundibabai。
kerujin，wozhishijixuditoukanshouji。
shenyingnianduiwolengdandetaiduyoudianjingya。
tazhengxiangkaikoushuoshenmeshi，shixianjiuluozaiwotuishangdadeshigaoshang。
shenyingnianlianshangluchuyisihuangzhang。
“yanmo，nituizheishineicichehuozhongshoushangdema？”
wozairenzhenkanziliao，yishimeiliuyitashuoshenme。
shenyingnianjianwomeifanying，naixindizhongfuleyici。
wozheicaitingqingtadewenti，xinlijuedewubifengci。
qinyinongneiyidingdiandeshangkou，tadoukeyikanjian。
wodazheshigaozaitamianqianzheimejiu，tayequanranmeizhuyi。
worenbuzhuzichaodixiaoleyisheng。
“嗯，是的。”
shenyingniansihuyoudiankuijiu，takanxiangwodeyanshenlidaizheyisixinteng。
这让我有点惊讶。
但也仅仅是惊讶。
jiantameishuohua，wobianzhunbeiditoukanshouji。
shenyingnianturangenwojieshi：
“neitianwoliuyidaonishouzheimezhongdeshang，houlainijiwodadianhua，woyiweinishixiangyaogenwowuliqunao，suoyijiumeijie，womeixiangdaoni......”
suiranzheishitazheiliangniandiyicigenwojieshizijidexingwei，danwoyijingbuzaiyile。
houmiandehuawoyemeitingqing。
shenyingniankanwotaidulengdan，mianziyouxieguabuzhule。
却还是忍耐下来。
“nixiacihuanyaoshishenmeshihou，wopeiniqu。”
tingzhetazheishishebandehua，wozhengxiangzenmetuituoshi。
shenyingniande**jiuxiangle。
qinyinongbuandeshengyincongtingtongneibianchuanlai。
“xuezhang，wo.....woyoudianrenchuang，ninengbunengguolaipeipeiwo？”
“yaoshiyanmojieyoushijiu......”
shenyingnianxiangyemeixiangdicongchuangshangqilai，yuqiwenrou。
“meishi，shiwomeixiangdaonirenchuang，woxianzaijiuguoqupeini。”
guaduandianhua，tatouyebuhuidilikaile。
认床？
我讽刺地笑出声。
qinyinongjiwofaleshubuqingdetagenshenyingnianbutongjiudiandechuangzhao。
shuijiudiandeshihouburenchuang，xianzaidaoshirenchuangle。
zheizhongyouzhideliyouyeshizhiyoushenyingniandangzhen。
buguoyigeyuandayigeyuanai，rujinyegenwomeishenmeguanxile。
fanertameizai，woanxinxiuxi。
womeiyouxiangguoquyiyang，zhiyaoshenyingniangenqinyinongyiqi，wojiuyebunengmei，zhizhedidengtahuilai。
zheiwanshang，woyijueshuidaotianliang。
xinglaihou，caikandaoqinyinongzaibanyeshijiwofalaiyizhangzhaopian。
zhaopianli，shenyingnianluchudepifushangmanshitamenenaideyinji。
woyayizhexinzhongdetongku，jiangzheishangsulihundezhengjubaocunxialai。
xishuwanwokanyanshouji，caifaxiangenlvshiyuedeshijiankuaidaole。
wolianmangjiannandezijihuanhaoyifu，zhunbeichumen。
danbeicongchufangchulaideshenyingnianhanzhule。
“yanmo，zheimezaochumenquna？xianlaibazaocanchile。”
wotingdaotadehua，yanlilveguoyisichayi。
jiehunwunian，zheishitadiyicizhudongjiwoxiachu。
shangyicichihaishiwoshengbingzhuyuan，tajiwozhuleshourouzhou。
houlaiwulunwozenmeqiutadoubuzaijinchufang。
ketahuiweiqinyinongzuoyiqietaxiangchide。
guoran，qinyinonggenzhetashenhouchulai，deyidikanzhewo。
“yanmojie，yiqilaichia，xuezhangzuodedongxiwokeaichile。”
“xingkuixuezhangduiwohao，woshuoshenmedouhuijiwozuo。”
shenyingniannandeyouxiegangakanzhewo。
wowangxiangtashoushangdedongxi，xiaole。
“buyongle，nimenchiba。”
shenyingnianbujiedikanzhewo，“zhiqianbushiyizhiqiuzhewojinizuochidema？zenmexianzaiyoubuchile？”
我冲他微微一笑。
“shenyingnian，wojidanguomin。”
tashoushangdedongximanmandejidanye。
shuowanwobudengtashuohuajiunashangyaochichumenle。
jiandaolvshishi，tawenwomeiyoudasuanxieyilihunma？
woxiangdaozuijinfashengdeshi，pingjingdiyaotou。
“zhijieqisulihun，jiexialaideshijiubaituonile。”
wojianglihundeshiquanquanweituolvshi。
chuliwanzheijianshi，wowanglingyuanqu，zhunbeijiangbamadeguhuiqianhuilaojia。
dangchuwobamayiwaiqushishi，woshangxinyujue。
shishenyingnianquanquanchuliwobamadehoushi。
danglingyuandegongzuorenyuangaosuwoxuyaodangshibanliderenqianmingtongyishi，woyouyishunjianzhengleng。
wonazhetongyishuhuiqufangzaishenyingnianmianqian。
tameitoujinzhou，bujiediwenwoweishenme？
wozhazhayanshuo：“wozuotianmengjianbama，shuoxianghuilaojia。”
shenyingnianhaishibutaizantong。
“neiyihouqujibaibujiuhenmafan？”
wobamashengqianjiangtadangqinshengerziyiyangduidai。
zhiqiandemeinianjiri，shenyingniandouhuizhunbeihenduodongxiqujibaitamen。
kezicongqinyinongchuxianhou，tajiumeiquguole。
yinweitagenqinyinongrenshiderizigenbamajirishitongyitian，shenyingnianneitiandexingchengjiugaipeiqinyinongguojinianri。
wocengjinggentataolunguozheigewenti。
shenyingnianzhouzhemeitoukanwo，yuqiquanshibuman。
“bamadoulikaile，tamenbuhuixiwangwoyinweizheizhongxiaoshishiyuepengyoude，erqietamenbuxiangni，buhuijijiaozheixiede。”
xiangdaozhei，wopingjingdishuo：“bamadoubuzaile，tamenbuhuijijiaozheixiede。”
dangxiangsideyijuhuacongwozuilishuochushi，shenyingnianjinguanbushuang，danquewuhuakeshuo。
“签吧。”
wojiangtongyishutuidaotamianqian。
shenyingnianhaixiangzhengbianshenmeshi，zaicesuodeqinyinongchuanchuyizhenjinghu。
talijijiangzaizuibiandehuatunlehuiqu，naqibizaitongyishushangqianmingbianyilianzhejidiwangcesuozouqu。
wokanzhetongyishushangdeqianming，diyiciwubiganjiqinyinongzheime“qiahao”dijiangshenyingnianyinzou。
buranwohaiyaoxiangliyouquyingfuta。
怪累的。
wonazhetongyishuzhengzhunbeizaiciqulingyuanshi，cesuolichuanlaishenyingniandehuhansheng。
“yanmo......”
我没理。
ketadejiashihaoxiangwobulitajiubukenbaxiuyiban。
wodantuitiaozhedaocesuomenkou，zhouzhemeiwentayoushenmeshi。
shenyingnianjinzhangdishuo：“yinongdetuiniudaole，nibangwoyiqisongquyiyuan。”
woditoukanzheyiliantongkudeqinyinong，qingshengyixiao。
“buhaoyisi，meibanfa。”
沈应年立即生气了。
“yanmo，xianzaibushinichicudeshihou，yinongshoushangle，ninengbunengbuyaozheimexiaoqi？
我不耐烦地打断他。
“wodetuiyedongbule，nizijibuxingwojiutinijiaojiuhuche。”
shenyingniannierulejixiazuichun，shuobuchuhua。
danlianshangdebumangenxianqimeiyousihaojianshao。
jiehunzheimeduonian，wozhidaotashizaixianqiwobangbushangmang。
rangtadexiaoxuemeishoushangle。
jianwoyizhizhanzhebudong，tasihuzhaodaoleqingxudexuanxiekou：
“neinihaibugankuaijiaojiuhuche！zhanzaizheiganma？zhenhuiqi。”
“wozenmehuiqunizheiyangdenvren！”
womanyouyouditiaochuqunaqishoujiboda120houbianhuilewoshi。
jiuhuchejiangrendaizouhou，wojiushoudaoleshenyingniandexiaoxi。
“jirannizheimebuxihuanyinong，wozheijitianjiubanquyinongjiazhu。”
“zhenghaowomenlengjingyixia，niyehaohaofanshengyixiazijidewenti。”
看着信息，我笑了。
shenyingnianyirujirandihuituixiezeren。
yaoshiyiqian，wokanjianzheiyangdehua，kendinghuilijixiangtadaoqianrencuo。
bingqiehuibuguzijituishangdeshangquyiyuanbangmangzhaoguqinyinong。
weidejiushibujitaliangduchudekongjian。
kerujin，wojuedemanshenqingsong。
yigerendeshenghuoyetinghaode。
jiexialaideshijian，woxiangmayibanjiayiyang。
jiangjialishuyuwodedongxishoushihaojihuilaojia。
zuihouwokanzheduizaimianqianzheixieluohuideqinglvwupin，zichaodixiaoleyishenghoujiujiangdongxizhuangjinlajidaili，diudaoxiaoqumenkoudelajitongzhong。
zhidaowotuikeyichaishigaoneitian，shenyingniandoumeiyouhuilai。
zaiqinyinongdepengyouquanzhong，wokandaoleshenyingnianduitawuweibuzhidezhaogu。
wochaiwanshigaohouzaicesuomenkoukanjianqinyinong。
takanjianwoshi，yeshiyileng。
suihouzuijiaotiaoqiyimotiaoxindexiaorong。
“yanmo，nituihaola？zijilaogongbeiqiangzoudeganjuebuhaoba？”
“yaoshiwojiurenbuxiaqule，bijingzheimedadelvmaozidaizaitoushang。”
duiyutazheiyangrenqianrenhoulianggemoyangdexingzi，woyidiandoubujingya。
wobuxianggentashuofeihua，zhijieyueguotajiuxiangzou。
sheizhidaoqinyinongzhijiechaowoguixialai，kuzheshuo：
“yanmojie，qiuqiunibuyaojiangwoganzou，wozhiyouxuezhangyigejiarenle。”
我皱着眉看她。
xiayimiao，shenyingnianbiannuqichongchongdizouguolai。
taishouzaiwolianshanghenhenshuaileyibazhang。
“yanmo，meixiangdaonijingranzheimeedu，bizheyinonggennixiagui。”
woyongshejiandingledingbeidadelianjia，zichaodixiaochusheng。
“shia，wojiushizheimeedu。”
“jiranzheiyangshenyingnian，womenlihunba。”