一心求死
《一心求死》 小说介绍
zuozhe“liulianmalatang”jingxinbianxiewanchengdeyanqinggushi，《yixinqiusi》shizheibenshudemingzi，zheibuxinzuopinzuijinhuobaoshangxianle，gushiqingjieshengdongganren，zhurengong：chenyancaochencaoshihan，liangrenzhijiandeqingganjiugefeichangjingcai，xiaoshuojianjie：jiedaoxiaofangdianhuashi，nverzhanzaidingloubianyuanzhengzhunbeiwangxiatiao，wogandaodeshihoudaohaijiazaibozishangweixiesuoyourenhoutui。……
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nveryidankepeng，fengrenjiushuomamaandishangdade，suoyourendouduiwozhizhidiandian。
zhangdahoutaoke、dajia、chouyan，fudushishangkediaoqing，genjiaodaozhurenshuowojialirenkongzhiyutaiqiang，taxiangsi。
houlai，taaishangtaohuadianhaiyaosiben。
woweilezuzhita，beitadexiaonanpengyouzhaozhunjihuituijincheliunianchengrouni。
nverdangjidakaishoujiluxiang：“ma！nizenmenengyongsizuzhiwomendeaiqing！”
zaizhengyanwohuidaoletasibendeqianyitian。
wopaishougesongtaweidadeaiqing：“aiqingjiagenggao，dadanquzhui。”
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jiedaoxiaofangdianhuashi，nverzhanzaidingloubianyuanzhengzhunbeiwangxiatiao，wogandaodeshihoudaohaijiazaibozishangweixiesuoyourenhoutui。
woxinlilengxiao，jiaojizoushangqian，tacaishebudesini。
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weifangzhiwofanhui，tayaoqiuwonazhihebiantiaofendianxiebaozhengshu。
napazheiyangtayijiubumanzu，tayaoqiuwohezhangfuweitamaifangmaiche，meigeyuehaiyaojitashiwanshenghuofei，yinweitadexiaonanpengyoumaibuqi，tabuyuanyijiangdishenghuoshuizhun。
meiqimingyue，zheixieshitazaipojiadediqi，ranhoubuchubannian，suoyoudongxidoudaoletananpengyoumingxia，liyoushitabuxiangrangbierenzhidaotananpengyouchiruanfan。
wojujuelemeiyueshiwandewuliyaoqiu。
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shangyishijiabuzhutakuqiong，meigeyuejileyiwankuai，taquedaochuxuanyao，chongmanleyouyuegan。
“nvhaijiushiyaojingjidulipojiacaikandeqi，ningyuanxiajiayebuyaogaopan。”
“neigeyishentongchoudelaohuanglianpowoshuoshenmejiushishenme，tayaoshibudayingwojiuqutiaolouzisha，zhuangzhuangyangzitajiuhenbudebajiachandoujiwo。”
woshenhuxi，gaosuzijibushengqi，shengqiduanming，pingjingzoujinketing。
ketinglixianruchenmo，jimiaozhongguohou，nverbiyidikanzhewo：“nixiangtongle？zheigeyuedeshiwanshenmeshihoudaozhang？”
wodanranyixiao，dandaozhiruwenleyigewenti：“nimenshiyinweizhenaizaiyiqi，haishiwuzhi。”
nverdangshijiuzhamaole，shengyinqili：“nizenmeshuohuade！wobuyunxuniwuruwomendeai！”
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“zhenaiwujia，niyebuxiangwoyongangzangdeqianwurunimendeaiqingba？”
“yongganzhuiai，zhichini。”
nifangxindadanfei，shuaisilegenghao。
wozhunimenzhangzhangjiujiu，bainianhaohe。
caoshihanmeixiangdaowohuishizheizhongtaidu，jiangxinjiangyiwangzhewo，danxinwozhishiquanyizhiji。
caoshihan，yejiushiwonver，shenqingdaizhi，wochentameifanyingxunsuzhenglihaotadexingli，jiaolailehuolili。
“xingliwoyijingrangsijibanshangchele，chefeiyefule，zaibuzoujiuganbushangninanpengyoujiadewanfanle。”
caoshihanzheicaihuiguoshen，wojingranshirenzhende，taneiweisuodexiaonaodoubugouyongle，chixiaoyisheng：“zaozheimezuobujiuxinglema？wosileniyelaobudaohaochu，haiyaobeichuojilianggu。”
woyilianzhenjing：“niyemeizaoshuonizhaodaozhenailea！”
tazheishihoucaixiangqizainaozishazhiqian，conglaimeigenwoshuoguozheijianshi，buguoshitaxiayishiyiweiwohuifanduisuoyixianxiashouweiqiangyongzishaweixiewo。
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ketabuleyi，haishuobuxiangfudule，xianzaijiuyaojiaguoqu，zhengkeyibuling，hunliyidingyaoxianbanle，nvrenzuizhenguidejiushinianling，guolezheigenianjijiumeiyoujiazhile。
jiwotingdeyilengyilengde，wogaosuta，shengyujiazhibudengyujiazhi，taquefanguolaimawo：sansishisuidehuanglianpoyoushenmezigejiaoxunwo，nijiushijiduwobininianqing，youzheixianxingenwocijinghaiburuduozaizijishenshangxiagongfu。
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congtahuishuohuakaishiwojiufaxiantazongshisahuangtuize，qichuwoyiweineishixiaohaisiweigoujianbuwanshanbiaodabuqingdaozhide。
kedaolexiaoxuetayijiuruci，chuzhonggengshizhaogezhongliyougenwomenyaoqian。
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woshenzhihaiminglianlihetatongxuedatingtashibushibeibalingle。
neitongxueqingpiaopiaosaolewoyiyan，yanshenduoshan。
yizhouhouwoshoudaoleyitiaoduanxinshangmianxieleyigedizhi
genzhedizhiguoquwocaifaxian，tabushibeibalingle，ershitabenshenjiushibalingzhe，neixielinghuaqiandoubeitayonglailalongxiaodixiaomeile。
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houlaiwohelaogongshangliangjitameigeyuejitajiayidianlinghuaqian，biedehaiziyongyoudedongxidoujitazhunbeiyifen，jinliangmanzutawuzhishangdexuqiu。
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“woshanglenianjigenbushangnimenxiaonianqingdesixiangle，niyouxuanzezijirenshengdequanli，wojiubuganshele，zhuiqiuziyouyehao，chuoxuezhuiaiyehao，nixihuanjiuhao。”
wotaochuleyigecunzhehuanglehuang，“zheilishijinicundedaxuexuefeiheshenghuofei，xianzaijiudangshinidejiazhuangle。”
tayanqianyiliang，shenshoujiuyaoqiangguoqu，woyanjishoukuaiduokaile，tadangjijianjiao：“niyouxiangzuoshenme？wojiuzhidaomeizheimejiandan，nizheizhongheixingandenvren……”
wodandanxiaole，dishangzhihebi，“wobuxiangyongqianwurunimendeaiqing，wurunidemengxiang，zheishiwankuaimaiyifenduanqinshu，nibukui。niyihouyebuxianghewomenyouqianche，buxiangjiwomenyanglaoduiba？”
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tayiweiwozhishiqibuguo，danxinguojitiangaibianzhuyi，suoyitachenredatierangwobatadehukounongdaotaxiaonanpengyoujiali。
我求之不得。
tazouhouwozhenggerendoufangsongxialai，fashaoliangtian。
caochentiqianjieshuchuchadaiwoquyiyuanguashui。
zhonghuizhichanglianggeyue，jinshenglegaojiyanjiuyuan。
wozaiyicitazuworeaideshijie。
weileqingzhushengzhi，womenquchilehuoguo、shaokao、fantuan、shousi，haiyouhaijingwancan。
yiqianzongshijiangjiu，jiuerjiuzhijiuchenglexiguan，xiguanchengziran，zuihouchenglelisuoyingdang。
caoshihanchishengdewomenchi，tabuxiangchidewomenchi，houlaiwanglezijixihuanshenme。
haizaidushushiwobuxihuanchixiangcai，caochenbuxihuanchijiucai，zheixienianjiumeiyoubuchide。
yuchusifangcaiqueshibucuo，gaodangcantingxizhuanggelvxiaoliqunderenbushao，wangchuangwaikanqushimianyanwujidewaitanhaiyouwanjiadenghuo。
guaibudecaoshihanzuihaozheikou，meigeyuedouyaolaijici。
buguowozuixihuandehaishihuoguo，youqishifanqieweidehuoguo。
meijiehunzhiqianjingchangheguimiyiqilai，jiehunhoudoumeileshijian。wohelaogongdeshijianzongpengbudaoyiqi，zaihoulaiyoulecaoshihan，jiuzaiyemeishijianle。
weilesanxin，womenxinglidoumeishoushijiufeiquwh，wanshangguanglejianghanlu，baitianzaichengshilicitywalk，manwumudedizou。
zhenhuainianyiqianwuyouwulvdeyangzi。
buyongkaolvshengcunwentidenianji，yiqieyoufumudoudi，zailaiyichangshuozoujiuzoudelvxing。
liangtianhouwomenhuidaolexiaoqu，wotizhedianxinjiuyaowangjializou，beilaogongyibazhuaizhu，yigeshuxideshengyinzuanjinleerduo，duanduanxuxu，yijiunengtingqing。
“wobajingchangchucha，womanakuaidideshihou……erqiewoqinyanjiandaotahekuaidiyuan……”
“zheilihaiyoutasaoshounongzidezhaopian……”
weiguandelinjubiaoqingyijiang，buzhidaogaibugaikan，chiyilejimiaohaishijiabuzhuhaoqi。
“fangxindadankan，tadoubupadiuliannimenpashenme，womayangwozheimedawobugaizheimezuo？congxiaotajiubuguanwo，jiujiwojikoufanchi，meitianeduzi。”
“zheiliangtianjialimeiren，gujiyou……”
linjuqieqiesiyu，yanshenxianqiyouaimei，xianqiwozheizhong“shuixingyanghua”denvren，aimeiyuqingshibaguabenshenjiunairenxunwei。
wohuranmingbaiweishenmeneixiebiyiyouxianqideyanshenshizenmehuishile，youweishenmetamenduduhenverguanxihao，jingchangzhaohunverqutamenjialiwan。
laogongyigejianbushangquduoguoshoujifankan，yuewanghoukanlianseyuelaiyuenankan，neibushishoujixiangce，ershiyigezhaopianjiaoyiqun。
“nichennimaxizao**haizaoyao？！”
caoshihankanzhenuhuozhongshaodelaogong，buganhewomenduishi，“ba，wobushi……shita……”
“wobushiniba！zheiliangtianhetazaiyiqideshiwo，woshiyenanren。”
caoshihankanjianbuyuanchudewo，lengxiaoyisheng：“niheneilaonvrenshiyihuode！bujiushipaijizhangzhaopianpaijigeshipin，zhiyuma？sheixihankanta。tayejiuzheidianjiazhile。”
tafanlegebaiyan，jingzhilikai。
zhouweidemuguangrumangcibei，woxiangjieshi，danwozhidaocishicikezaiduodejieshidoumeiyong，napashiyaoyanrenmenyegengyuanyixiangxintashuode**yanlun。
renmenzongshigengrezhongyutanlunnannvqingshi，youqishifeifuqizhijiandeaimeigushi，napazhenxiangshimoxuyou。
dajiajianmeixikanle，hengjiliangshengjiusanle，linzoushikanwodemuguangshineiyangde**，wushugengangzhenzhajinlewodeshenti。
woshenhuxi，yongsuoyourendoutingdaodeshengyinshuo：“nijinnianshijiusui，duguoshuyexueguofalvzhishi，nizhidaozaoyaohuisuntarenmingyuqiexingzhieliegaizenmepanma？”
tajiaobuyidun，meiyouhuitou，suijijiakuailejiaobu。
woyebuguanzheta，dangshijiudadianhuazhaoledanglvshidelaotongxue，jiayebuhuile，kaichezhibenpaichusuodengji。
jialiyipianlangjie，yigenbangqiugunbeifengchuidedaochugun，chuanghudoubeizale，suoyouchouti，nengzhuangdongxidedifangdoubeidakaile，jiulianhuakuangyemeifangguo。
dayile，wangjihuansuole。
zoujinketing，manqiangdejixue，dishanghaihengzhejizhiji。
lingyimianqiangshijigepenqipenchulaidedazi。
yanseshennong，henyizhishen。
qiangshangxiemanleduiyigenvxing、yigemuqindexiuru，haiyouweixiedehuayu，jiandanlaishuojiushiyijuhua：jiqian，bujiqianwohailainao。
jiwokanxiaole，yedui，yitahuaqiandashoudajiaodesudu，youbukenjiangdishenghuozhiliang，jigeyueshiwanzaohuawanle。
yaoshishangyishi，takucanwomengujijiuzhenjile。
xianzai，tayoutaderensheng，woyouwoderensheng，woyouleyigeziyoudexiabansheng，buyongweizhetazhuan。
zuochucuowuxuanzedeshita，neitajiuyaochengdanxuanzedehouguo。
ziganduoluoyoubuziaideren，meiyourensheng。
jingchashangmenzuowanbiluhou，womenshaoweishoushishoushijiushuile，linshuiqianhaishangliangzhehuangexinfang。
zheilishixueweifang，haishilaoxiaoqu，dangchuweilenvernengshangzuihaodegaozhong，womenyizhimeihuan。
diertiangangsongzoumaifangzhongjiecaoshihanjiudaizhetananpengyouyijiashangmenle。
taxiaonanyoudemamajingranhaishiwocengjingdechuzhongtongxue。
“chenyan？zheiyatoushininver？”
wangchunyanshuowansaoshisizhou，yanshenxianqi，pailepaishafaziguzizuoxia，haibaichuyifugaoaodezitai。
chuzhongtongxuedemingziwodouchabuduowangguangle，weidujideta，gujidaduoshurendoujideta。
tachuerneinianhecaochenbiaobai，caochendangchangjujue，tingshuowohecaochenshiqingmeizhuma，zhaorenbawoduzaifeiqijiaoshi。
曹晨就是我丈夫。
zaihoulaitahexiaowaidatashisuidexiaohunhunzaiyiqi，chusanbiyekaodoumeicanjiajiupaole，jialirenlaixuexiaonaoleyizhenmeijieguoyejiuzoule。
houlaitingshuotajiehunyoulihun，yemeitingshuoyougeerzia。
“jirandoushishuren，neiwojiukaimenjianshanle。jiazhuangershiwanbuduoba？haiyouzheifangzi，poshipoledian，zhuandaotamenxiaoliangkoumingxiadanghunfangyehaixing，dankebunengjiuzheimesuanle，nimenhaidejitamenmaixinfang，fangzitaixiaoyijiasankoudoufeijing，qinqilailekezenmeban？”
“haiyouninverzheitiaojian，yejiunianlinghenengshengzheilianggeyoudian。woerzixindishanliang，congxiaoboxueduoshi，xinsixini，xinggeyehao，kebunengjiuzheimebianyinijia。”
wobudongshengse，zhaolegechuzhongtongxuedatingleyixiaxiaoxi。
jushuo，tamenmuzi，erzizongjuedesheidouxihuanta，mayerenweizijierzirenjianrenai，shibukeduodederencai，yibiaorencai。
woyuguangsaoleyiyanwangjiabao，budebugantanqinmalvjingdeqiangda。
ranhou，zheiyidatingjiwohedehuarongshise。
wangjiabaobushitaohuadian，shicaihuahpv。
tamieshidipiaolewoyiyan，dafacibeidao：“nibutongyiwoheshihanzaiyiqi？nizhidaowoshisheima？xihuanwoderenduolequle，yaobushitashangganzhejia，wocaibuxihanni。”
tamenyueshuoyuelipu，wonasaobabatamensaolechuqu，zuilidunangzheyaomoguiguaikuailikai。
caoshihanchongjinlaizhiwenwoweishenmezheimezuo。
wodefangzi，tamenbuqingzilaihaiyifuzhurenzitai，wohainengbunengganzoule？
wotaidujianjue，shiwankuaimaiduantazaihewomenwuguan，hunshiyetongyile，cailijibujidoubuguanwodeshi。
“nibiehouhui！”caoshihandashengrangdao，yinlaileluguodelinjumenkanrenao。
renyiduotayouhuifuleshunvzitai，manyouyoudao：“nibijingshiwoma，daoshihouwoyidingjiniliuyifenqingjian。”
wohaishimeirenzhuwenchuneigewenti：“nixihuantashenme？”
穷且有病？
nveryilianjiaoao：“taqingwochishichuanyangrouchuan。”
bushi，womenduannichichuanle？jichuanyangrouchuanjiubanihongzoule？gaodangcantingdeniupaiheriliaobuxiangma？
“tahaijiwozhupaomian。”
woetoututude，texiangwenpaomianjiahuotuilema？pidanshourouzhouhaishihaixianzhou？
erwangchunyanyitingdaoduanqinshu，liansebianleyoubian。
“caochenmashangjiuhuilaile，niquedingyaoliuxialaixujiu？”
wangchunyanlimapaqilai，tuileyikou，lazhewangjiabaoxunsulikai，jiuhaoxiangyourensuomingdeyiyang。