《遇见林安奚》 小说介绍
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houlaihaishilinanxixianxingguolai。
qishiyinggaishuotagenbenmeishuizhe。
ningguzuizhonghaishikudeyitahutu,yaozhezuichunzenmedoubusongkou,zuihoubaozhetajiuneimeshuileguoqu。linanxixixinbangtaqingliganjing,youhuanlexindechuangdan。
lingchensandianzhongle,linanxixiankaibeizitangjinqudeshihouninggudaoshihenzijue,fanlegeshenjiusuojinletadehuaili。linanxiyeshunshilouzhuta,jifuxiangtiedeganjuerangtajuedeyichangmanzu。
tashuidehenshu,meijianyinyinzhouzhe,zuichunyinweiganggangdefanfuqinwenbiandeyoudianzhong,heianlibingbushihennengkanqingtadelian,ketawenredehuxiquejinzaizhichi,redaojihunengpimeisuoyoudewennuanriguang。
tadeshoubeibaozaixiongkou,neishiyigejimeiyouanquangandezishi。linanxiwozhutadeshouchanraochengshizhijiaokoudeshoushi,ladaochunbianqinwendeshihou,shuiyixiuzibiandiaolexialai,zuoshoushouwanshangyouxuduoshanghen,dabufenshijiushang,yeyoubufenshijiejiadexinshang,shanghenleilei,zonghengjiaocuo。
linanxidingzhetadeshoubeikanleyihuier,yanjinglideqingxushendaokanbuchulai。
tamosuoleyihuiertadeshangba,suijijiangneixiecuoluozhengningdebafangdaozijichunbian,luoxiayigewen。yichujizou,danruyuyi。tatanlekouqi,shenshoujiangtakoujinhuaili,yijueduizhanyoudezishiyutachenchenshuiqu。
ningguxiangshizuoleyigemeng,menglideliehuoshaoganledadidexue,yushuiniliujiaomanlezhenggeshenhuisedecangqiong。tazhanzaishijiandecuoyingli,hailangyishengyishengdiyongdaoerbian,chaoshuimanshangjiaobei,dailailejiduchaoshiwenredefeng。youyigerenzhanzaitadeshenqian,neishenyingdanbotouming,kongkongdangdangrutongchaoshuidiaoluoxingchengdejudakongdong。tataishouyongbaoneigerangtabuduanbuduanxintongdebeiying,queyoubuduanbuduan,yicicidiejinxindemengjing。
xinglaishitianyidaliang,kongdangdangbaisensendetianhuabanyingruyanlian。tafangfohaizaimengjinglimeiyouzouchulai,dingzhefabaidetianhuabankanlebantian,touyunmuxuantianhundiandecuojueyishunjianxiongyongpengpai,xiayimiao,tabiantingdaochufangliyoudingdingkuangkuangdeshengxianglianmianbujue。
ninggufanshexingdichengzheshentizuoqilaiquezhouranganjuedaoshentimouchuchuanlaijidadebushigan,tadaileqimayoushushimiao,caizhongyufanyingguolai。
suoyouyishihuilongzhihou,tahedewuzhulezui。
昨天……
宁辜睁大眼睛。
takuzhedeyan,linanxishenruanyedeyanshen,haiyouneishuangshou,zhiqingqingfumoletadelian,bianzuyidaijitajudaanweideshou。
tahetahunqianmengyinglezheixuduonian、meiwanmeiwandouzaichaosimuxiangderen,fashenglezuiqinmideguanxi?
为什么会这样?
ningguniezhebeiziwufasikao,tatoutengdixiangqizuowanhaoxiangshizijipuguoqu,rulangsihujihuyaobarenchaichirufuyibandizhanranlelinanxideqingbai……
weishenme,weishenmehuifashengzheiyangdeshiqing。
niweishenmezheimetianbuzhichini,ninggu?
ninggujihulikejiutaishoujilezijiyierguang。
shuiyihuaxialai,luchushoubeishangdeshangkou,ninggulengleyixia,faxianzheishenshuiyishixinhuanshangde。shilinanxibangtahuanleyifu,neitayoumeiyoukandaozijishoubeishangdeshang?
jiuhouluanxingjianzhishidaji。ningguzhenshihenjilezijizheifumoyang,haoburongyijiandaozijixihuanlexujiuderen,jieguojuranbeizijihuile。tayaozhechun,youdianxiangku。
ninggushentijidubushi,naozixianzaiyeshiyituanluan,wushuniantoujitizaofanjingpenshiguanmannaozi,rangtaganjuetoutongyulie。
shendongderiguangbenjiubugourelie,neireduluodaofangjianyewufawennuantafaliangdeshenti。
zhengzaizheishi,linanxiqingqingtuimenzoulejinlai,jiandaotayijingqilaixiayishiyitiaomei:“xingle?younalibushufuma?”
ninggumannaozimomingqimiaodeqingxuhuibuguoshen,zharantingdaotadeshengyinyouxiebeihedao,huiguoshenlaikandaotazhihoulikeyaotou,taishouroulerouyanjingzhuangzuogangxingdemoyang,yaozhechunqingshengshuo:“haihao。”
linanxidingzhetabeizijiroudaofahongdeyanjingkanleyihuier,shuranxiaole,zouguolaiqingqingqiaoleqiaotadeetou:“xiashuo。”
ningguyixiazidengdashuangyan,rouzheyanjingdeshoudoufangxialai:“linanxi……”
linanxiquehuangruoweiwentadezhenjinghecuoe,wanyaojiangtacongbeizilidahengbaojinhuaili,kuandadeshuiyiwangxiahualeyixialuchuyuanrundejiantou,linanxideyanjinganleyixia。
“quchidianzaocanhaobuhao?zuolejiangzhizhuangnaihejiandan,buzhidaonixibuxihuanchi,danyihuierniyouke,buchizaocansunshangshenti。”
ninggucubujifangdibeibaoqilai,shouxiayishijiudazailetadejianshang。linanxishenshangderedulikeshenjintademaiboli,xueyefantengyongjinxinzang。
tadexintengleyixia,zhizhidingzhetalengjiaofenmingdecelian,taquebulvpingwen,baozhetazouxiangketing,meiyibudouxiangcaizailetadexinshang。
tadeshoujinwochengquan,zhangxinquanshizhijiaxianjinpiroulidetonggan。tatingzhelinanxidexintiao,biziyoukaishifansuan。
takanbuqingchutadaodizaixiangshenme,tadaodishishenmeyisini?
cantingdeyizishangdianlerouruandedidian,linanxijingzibatabaodaoleyizishangzuoxia,shunshoumotadetou,bamianqiandejiangzhizhuangnaididaotagenqian:“diyicizuo,buzhidaonihuibuhuixihuan,xianchangchang?”
zheihuashuodejijinwenrou,ningguhaifanyingbuguolai,kanzhetagenfadaiside,tabianyitiaomei,yaoleyishaodidaotazuibian。
ningguzhazheyanjingbuganxiangxin,lengshizhangbukaikou。
linanxibianhongta:“guai,chiyikou。”
taguyiyadileshengyin,buxianghong,daoxiangshiyou。ninggunaozihenluan,haoxiangyouqianwantiaochanzaiyiqidexianyaoli,shenzhibuqingyiyang,tahongleyiju,tabianzhendeguaiguaihele。
xushitayizaoshangbianmanbanpaidebiaoxianranglinanxichedibuxiangxintashizhende“haihao”le,kaishishishiqinliqinwei,chuanyishufa,yangyangbujiatashou,ninggudoukaishicuojuezijishibushigecanjirenle。taxiangjujuetashuozijikeyi,jieguotazuoyijubienao,youyijuguai,siliangboqianjinhuijueletasuoyouxiangyaozhengmingzijibushigecanjirendeyaoqiu。
shijianganghaoshierdianban,linanxishunleshuntadetoufa,shuo:“jintianzhiyouyitangkeba,xianzaiguoqushangkegangganghao,nixialekewozailaijieni。”
zhihouyilushangninggudoujuedenaliguaiguaide,keshiyoushuobushanglainaliguai,zhidaoxiacheshikandaoxuexiaodamen,tahuranfanyingguolai,weishenmelinanxihuizhidaotajintianyoujijieke?taweishenmehuiyouyizhong,duitaleruzhizhangdeganjue?
tabuan,kaikou:“linanxi,ni……”
linanxiquelazhutadeshoujiangtachejinhuaili,baozhutadaduan:“guai,haohaoshangke,xiakelejiwodadianhua,wolaijieni。”
ningguyouchenggongbeidaipao,yunliwulide,quezhuazhulezheijuhuadeguanjianci:“dianhua。”
linanxibianxiaozhecongtadeshubaolinachutadeshouji,diaochutongxunlujitakan,xinzenglianxirenliyouyigexingbiaolianxiren,jiao“tea”。
ninggulenglengdibuzhidaoshuoshenme,zhinengtaitoukanta,taquehaishixiaozhe,hexuwennuan。
“sha,zuowanshangcunde,nibushitaileile,xianshuilema!”
ningguxiangbeichuozhongnagedianyiyang,jijimangmangdaduanta:“linanxi……”
linanxibazheiguiweihaixiu,shanjierenyiditinglexialai,nielenietalian:“haole,guai,qushangkeba。”
ninggujiangshoujiwozaishouxinli,nidayilimianhaichuanleyijianrubaisegaolingmaoyi,shilinanxiqinzibangtatiaodeqinshoubangtahuande。dongtiandefengneimechangjue,quewufatongguozheimaoyidekongxizuanjintadegufeng。
keshiweishenmeni?tazhendebudonga。
tazouleliangbu,youtingxia,meiyouzhuanshen,zhishibeiduizhelinanxiditou,qingqingdishuoleyiju:“linanxi,nixiangzuoshenmeni,wokanbumingbaia……”
tamenzhijianjingdehaoxiangzhiyoufengsheng,linanxikantadizhetoudebeiying,dongrilinandewennuandeyangguangluozaitadetoufashang,quezaitadeshenshangsalemanshenjimohechouchang。
neiyishunjian,linanxibuzhidaoxiangdaoleshenme,xinzangbeiqingqingcheleyixia,quetengdelihai。tabilebiyan,dabuzouguoqu,congbeihoushenshoujiangtalanjinhuaili,ditou,yigewenluozaitadefajian,shuo:“suanle,wohaiyoushijian,xiansongniqujiaoshi。”
caiyidianzhong,jiaoshilikongwuyiren。linanxiqianzheningguzuodaozuihouyipai,ranhoucongshubaolinachuleyiduixiaolingshi,zaininggufalengdeyanshenzhongtiaoleyigetilamisudedangaodakai,yongchazichaleyikuaididaotazuibian。
“benlaixiangrangnizijifaxiande,danshijiranwohaizai,neiwodailaoyehao。”
ninggumimihuhuchiwandangaozhihouyoujiantacongbaolitaochuyigenuanbaobaotiedaoletademaoyishang,ranhoubangtabadayijikouleqilai。
“tianqileng,buxiwangnibeidongzhe。”
宁辜:“……”
她又被揉了头发。
linanxiyizhipeitadaidaoleliangdian,zhidaojiaoshiluxuyourenjinlailinanxicaizhanqilai,wanyaonielenietadelian。
“haolee,wozoule,huitoujienixiake,ruguo……naliyoubushufu,jiujiwodadianhua。”
ninggubeimailehaibangzheshuqiansideguaiqiaodiandiantou。
linanxirenleyihuiershizaimeirenzhu,haishiditouyongzuichunpenglepengtadeetou。
tameizaiguoduodouliu,gaobiezhihouzhijiekaichequleluyinpeng。jigedadangyijingzaidengtale。
linanxishenshaolaidezheimewanguo,jigedadangdoudaqutashibushishuiguotoule。linanxiyebumantamen,suiyidao:“yebushi,peinvpengyouqule。”
zheisuandeshangbangeshihuale,kexiwurenxiangxin。
“nikeladaoba,linanxi,nigewanniandanshengouhuiyounvpengyou?niyaogaosuwoniyounanpengyoukexindudoubizheigegao。”
linanxiyehenwunai,yemeizaiduoshuo,luwanlezijidebufenhetamendalegezhaohubianlikaile。
tayouhuidaoleninggudejia。yebuzhidaoninggushixindahaishizhendefangxinta,yaochifangzaitazheilitadoumeichajue。taxianglexianghaishijuedexiaciyoubiyaotixingtayixia,ruguoshiyinweihouzhe,neimetalejianqicheng,ruguoshiqianzhe,neimetabujieyiyongteshufangshijiaotanvhaizixuyaoshikexiaoxin。
ninggudefangjiangejuhenjiandan,linanxiqingyibianzhaodaolezuowanbuxiaoxinmiaodaodeneifenzhenduanshu。
xxyiyuanfushuxinlizixunjiankangzhongxin
姓名:宁辜
性别:女
年龄:19岁
zhenduan:ptsd(chuangshanghouyingjizhangai)
jianyi:peiheyishiyaojizhiliaohexinlizhiliao,jinliangbuyaoquhui**xinlidedifang,dingqizuoxinlifudao。
医师:季衍青
linanxidingzhezheifenzhenduanshukanleyihuier,youfanghuiyuandi,taochushoujiboleyigedianhua。
dianhuaneitouhenkuaixiangqiyigeqingshuangdenansheng。
“ngheng?youheguigan?”
linanxixiaodejiduyiweishenzhang:“youshixiangqingnibangmang。”
dianhuaneitouderenlikemomodalegelengzhan:“keladaoba,nigekenghuo,shangcijiurangwobangnichayigeshenmexiaoguniangdexinxi,laozichadianmeileisi,nizhibuzhidaozheishizaiweifadebianyuanshitanle!wozhishigeheike,bushigezhengkea,nizheiciyouyaozhengshenmeyaoezia?”
linanxizaizheitoumeishenmeliangxindixiaolexiao:“haishishangcineigeguniang,nibangwochayicha,tazheixieniandoujinglilexieshenmeshiqing。xianxiele,xiaciqingnichifan。”
qinshuyuanbuzhidaozijizheihaopengyoushichounamenzifeng,zenmejiuheyigexiaoguniangsikeshangle,tayebuhaowen,tongchuangsannian,haoyoushunian,duoshaolejielinanxidexingge。
“zhidaole,xiaciyuelouhuilaiwomenzaijuba,jiuzheiyang,guale。”
gualedianhuazhihou,linanxizuijiaoyinyuehainengkandaoxiexuxiaoyi,keyanliquebujianyisiyihao,zhiyouyoushenderutongheiandeqingxu。
linanxikanzheshoujilizuowanpaixialaideninggudeshuiyan,cuzhemeifangfoshuibuanwen,jiusuanshidaolemenglitayiranxiaoxinyiyi。
nidaodi,jinglilexieshenmeni?
duiyulinanxizuodezheixie,ningguyigaibuzhi,xiaofudemaoyishangshilinanxiqinshoutiedenuanbaobao,nuanyirongrong。
ningguchaobiji,chaozhechaozhe,naozilijiubuduanfuxianlinanxidelian,neimoxiao,ningguzongjuedetashibieyouyongxinde,keshi,jiusuanbieyouyongxin,yebunengyongxindaozijishenshangba?bijing,taconglaiburenshiziji,ouranyudaoyishibukeqiudeencile,tayouzenmenengxiaoxiangqita。
linanxilinanxilinanxi……
tazaishudefeiyeshangxietademingzi,fanlaifuquzaixinlimonian。taxiangdaozuotianwanshangneixieyifabukeshoushidefanlanqingxu,xinzangdoubeicheqilai,suansuande,youdianteng。
weishenmeni?aihetong,doushitajide。
linanxi,wozhendekanbudongnia。
yitangdakefenliangjiexiaoke,quanbushangwanzhihouyijingsidianduo。ningguyudaobushaotongxuechaotadazhaohu,tabushanchulizheiyangderenjiguanxi,jiongpoganrangtapobudeyixiangzhaogemibidekongjian,yexuyinweitadebing,taconglaipaichirenduodedifang。
taxiayishidiletou,quezaiditoudeyishunjiantingdaoyourenzaijiaota。
“宁宁。”
哎?
宁宁?
ninggujihuliketailetou,jiukandaolinanxizhanzaizoulangdejintou,tazhengleyixia。
tachuanzhekaqisedayi,neidabaisechenyi。buzhishifouyinweiguangxianyuanyin,shendongjijielihunandezoulangshang,tadexiaorongliyunzanglewushumaorongrongdewennuan,rangninggudexinzangyixiazijiunuanheqilai。
haoxiangmeiyicikandaotadouhuijuedetagenghaokanyidian。
ningguhouzhihoujuedichajuedaozijidexinzangzhongxinhuobengluantiao,lianhuxidourerede。
“林安奚……”
taxiaoshengjiaolezheimeyisheng,taishoumole**kou。
linanxiqueyijingchuanguoxiongyongdelengkongqizoudaotamianqian,shijingrouzhetadetoufa,kanzhetawangzhezijishabulajidebiaoqingxiaodao:“sha,shuolexiakeyaolaijienide,zheimekuaijiuwangle?”
linanxitiaomei,jixudouta:“a,neiwoketaishangxinle。shenweizuixihuanderenjuranbeinihulvele。haoba,nigaosuwoningning,qishinishuowoshinizuixihuanderendoushihongwodeba?haoqie,kehaishiyaobaochiweixiaoni。”
ninggushale,lianmangyaotou,baizheshouhuanghuangzhangzhangdijieshi:“bushizheiyangde,neige,bushihong,yemeiwangji……”
youshihoulinanxihuijuedeninggushiguyide。danghenduonianhoutayichengweiyigehaoqizi、haomamadeshihou,linanxiyiranjuedeningguxianzaizheifushashalenglengdeyangzijiushiguyide。guyi,rangzijiyibuyibu,beizheiyinniansuierfajiaopengzhangdeganqingcengcengbaowei,zaiwutuilu。
ninggudetoufashaoduan,haiweijijian,meimeitourangtalianshangdeyingerfeihenmingxian。chunzhuoruofuqu,yishuangyanjingruoyu,yanbowanzhuanjiangewailingdong,tabaizheshoupinmingjieshidexiaomoyangxiangjilepinmingpaozhuanlundexiaocangshu,jiaohandekeai。
linanxixintoufaruan,shizairenbuzhu,shenshoujiujiangtachejin,laqitadeshuangbeihuanzhuzijideyao,ditoukaojintaqingshengshuo:“sha,dounini,nizenmeneimerongyishangdangni?ng?woshuoshenmenidouxin?”
ningguhaizaiyinweitadedongzuoanandaoxiqi,weiyouxiemangrandidiantou:“ng……douxinde。”
linanxiyandiqingxuzhouranshenleyixia,takaotagengjin,taishoufumotadelian,shuo:“ganggangluyinhuilai,huilaidelushangkandaoyijuhua,juedetingyoudaolide。”
ninggubudongtazenmehuatihuanzheimekuai,zhalezhayanjing:“shen……shenmehua?”
linanxiyangqizuijiaoxiaodeyiweishenzhang,tadingzheningguyinhongdezuichun:“nanshengqinwennvhaizideshihouyidingyaojingguonvhaizidetongyi。”
ningguyileng,shahuhudibanzhangzhekou:“a?”
linanxibianlikeditouwenleshangqu。
ninggudangjilengzaileyuandi,hunshenjiangying。
zuichunxiangtie,huxixiangwen,meiyicunxueyedewendubicidouqingxikejian。
ninggunaozizaiyicimale,tounaoyipiankongbai,fangzailinanxiyaoshangdeshouyejiangle,xianggenmutouside,tashenzhiwulisikaoweishenmelinanxishuozheshuozhejiuqinleshanglai。
linanxipiankebianlakailehetadejuli,tayongshouzhiqingqingfumoleyixiahaizaifalengdeta,xiaodeyuefashenyi:“ya,haoxiangwangjizhengqiunidetongyile,xianzaiwenhailaidejima?”
ninggu:“……”xianranhaimeihuishen。
linanxiqueyibenzhengjingdizhengqiuqilai:“suoyiningning,wokeyiqinnima?”
宁辜:“……”
ninggujuedezijidexueqizhichongnaomen,shenzhirangtajuedetong。
keyi,zhiyaoshini,shenmedoukeyi,kezheirangtazenmeshuodechukouni?
tazhanglezhangkou,gangxiangshuoxieshenme,quebeibeihouyishengxiaoxiaodejinghudaduan。
liangrenzhuyidaozheibuhexiedeyisheng,zhuanguoshen。
ninggufaxianshitongbandeyigenvtongxue,jintianshangkeshiganghaozuozaizijipangbian。
ninggudelianyixiazijiusaoreqilai,tazenmewangle,zheihaishizaixuexiaoa……
tajihushixiayishijiuduojinlelinanxidebeihou,yaozhechunshifenganga。
neimingnvtongxuexianranyeshimeixiangdaoyiningguzhei“moshengrenqingzidongliwosangonglikaiwai”dexinggejuranhuihebierenzheimeqinmi,yishizhijianmeikongzhizhu,beifaxianlezijiyeyoudianganga,mangshuoleshusheng“buhaoyisi”。
suoxinglinanxibingbujuedeganga,dadafangfangdishuole“meiguanxi”。
keshinvhaizidehaoqixinhebaguazhihunbukexiaoqu,gangzhuanshenmeiduojiujiujininggufaleweixin。
“ninggu,gangcaitangtule,niheneigeshuaigeshishenmeguanxia?”
ningguniezheshoujigangadebuzhidaoruheshihao,fangfonalegetangshoushanyu。tahezheigetongxuejiechubuduo,bu,zhunquelaishuoshitahebanlimeiyiweitongxuedoujiechubuduo,zicong……qunianzhihou,tadaoashishangdaxuedingju,heyiqiandepengyouyezaimeiyoulianxile,tayemeiyoujingliqujianlixindequanzi。bushihenshuderenzhijianliaodaozheizhonghuatidequeyouxieganga,ranerzaochengzheiyiqiedezuikuihuoshouteaquewanquanmeiyougangazheixiangjuewu,feichangzhitanrandijieguoninggudeshouji,henkuaihuifuguoqu。
“jiushinixiangdeneizhongguanxi。”
宁辜:“……”
yushiningguyilushangdouzaixiangzheijigezishishenmeyisi。
nixiangdeneizhongguanxi?shizenyangdeguanxi?tadouyouzhongchongdongquwenwenzijineigetongxue,taxiangdeneizhongguanxi……tayiweide,zijihelinanxishishenmeguanxi?weishenme,zijiyidiandoubumingbaini。
daoninggujiadeshihouqinshuyuanjilinanxidalegedianhua,gaosutaninggudeziliaoyijingfatayouxiangle,bingzaizuihoujialeyiju:“anxi,wozhidaonizaidengyigeren,ruguoxianzaidengdaole,zhaodaole,neime,kanzheifenziliaodeshihou,zuohaoxinlizhunbei。”
linanxizhoulezhoumei:“hao,duoxie。”
linanxikailekongdiao,youbangninggutuodiaoledayiguazaixuanguan,tacuizheningguquheshui,zijizetaochushoujidiankaiqinshuyuangangfaguolaideyoujian。
fujianyoudianda,linanxinaixindidengtaxiazaiwan。
zhongyu,banfenzhonghou,youxiangtishixiazaiwancheng。
linanxidiankaineifenwenjian,shouxiantiaojinshixianlideyijuhuajiushi:ninggu,qunianhongdongyishide“jingchafufuyuhaian”shouhaizheningkanyuqiqizihuangxiaodedushengnver。
林安奚狠狠一怔。
linanxikanzhewenjianshangdezizijuju,jihushiqingbuzijintaitoukanxiangketinglizhengzaiyangtouheshuideren。tatuoleyongzhongleizhuidedayi,xiushenmaoyitiezhemeiyicunguge,shencaiguoyudanbole,yiyanwangqushoudeheren。linanxixiangdaobaozhetadeganjue,dequeqingdeguofenle。
tadeshoujinjinwozheshouji,xiongkoutengdelihai。
linanxijiuneimekanzheta,suihouweiweibilebiyan。bishangyanjingdeheianliyouxiaoyeruhuadeta,youtabeihoudefengjing,hechuanxiuli,shanhexiangwei,ertazhanzaiyangguangli。
ketabuzhi,tacengshenchulianyudeheianli。
“宁宁。”他叫她。
“ng?”jihushilike,tajiukanxiangtadeyanjing。yingruntouming,wanruoxinghe,ertahaiyiranzaiguangli。linanxinaoziliyoushanguowenjianlideneijigezi:cengkanzhezijidefumusizaiyanqian。
linanxijuedexinkoudeduntongjihurangtashitai。
tagangxiangshuohua,ningguqueyueguotakandaoletabeihou,biaoqingshunjianjinge,lenglengdidingzheta:“neishi……”
linanxishunzhetadeshixianzhuanshen,kandaolezijixiawugangtuoguolaidexinglixiang。
linanxiwolewoquantou,zouguoqubatachejinhuaili,rouleroutadetou,huxiyouxiezhong,shuochulaidehuaquehenqing:“congjintiankaishiwobanjinlaihaobuhao?”
ninggu:“shen……shenme……”
ningguyoudianbeihedao,jinghuangshicuodixiangyaotuikailinanxidehuaibao,queyoubeilinanxizhongxinkoujinhuaili。
tadeyuqihenqinghenqing:“niwangleba,nideyaochidouzaiwozheili。nikana,wobuzaideshihounizheimebushefang,wanyichuleshenmeshiqingni?wobanjinlai,jiubuyongpalea,duibudui?”
jianzhixianghongxiaohaieryiyang。
ninggujuedenalibutaidui,keshiyoushuobuchulai,mimihuhu,zhalewushuxiayanjing:“keshi……”
“嘘——”
linanxidaduanta,zhijiejiangtabaoqilai。tabaozhetazoudaoshafashangzuoxia,jiangtafangzaizijituishang,kailedianshishuodao:“xiawuluyinle,henleia,ningningxiawushangleliangjieke,yeyinggaihenleileba?kandianshifangsongyixia?”
ningguyouyuleyixia,qingqingdiantou。
keshizheizhongzishi,zheimeqinmidezishi,ninggugenbenliansikaodeyulidoumeiyou,gengbieshuokandianshi,mianqiangdinglebangexiaoshi,dianshilijianghuadeshinanshinvtadoumeifenchulai。linanxifangfoyechajuedaotasihuxinbuzaiyandelihai,nielenietadelianrenbuzhuxiaodao:“zenmezaifadaini?buxiangkandianshima?”
ninggushunjianhuishen,huangzhangdijiuyaofouren,linanxiquehuranbaozhetabangtahuanlegezishizuozhe,bianweikuazuozaizijituishang。linanximeituodayi,tabianchezhetadeshouhuanzhuzijideyao,ranhouyongdayijiangtaguoqilai,ditouhetaetouxiangdi,kongdiaofanglidelianggerendounuandebuxianghua。
linanxikanzhetamangrandeyanjingshuo:“neiningning,hewoliaohuiertianhaobuhao?”
ninggufaxian,haoxiangzhiyaoshilinanxi,buguanshishenme,tadouwufajujue。tadexinhaoxiangbianchengleyikuaixumanshuidehaimian,linanximeixiangtakaojinyibu,tadexueyexunhuanbianjiangneipengbodeshuijijinyankuanghuaweidawumangmangdeshiqi。
“hao。”tayongdaizhekuqianghezhandoudeshengyinhuida。
linanxibianxiaole:“xiangbuxiangtingwojintianluyindeshiqing?”
ningguyexiayishixiao,yonglididiantou:“ng!”
linanxiyourouroutadetou:“zhidaowojintianqululeshenmema?”
宁辜摇头。
“《xingmang》zhongzhiban。”
ninggujingya,banzhanglekou:“《xingmang》yaochuzhongzhibanle?keshi……guanfangmeiyoushuo……”
“guanfangdedasuanshixianchuzuopin,ranhouzaigongbuxinxi。”shuozhe,tayoumeirenzhuqinleqintaliangjingjingdeyanjing。
“nikeshidiyigezhidaozheigexiaoxidequanwairenle,jidetiwobaomi,buranwokeyaokougongzile,shuobudingyizhengjidepeiyindoubaipeile。”
ningguyishijianyewanglezheigeqinmidaogangadezishile,xinlitianyifanteng,tanulicaimeirangzijixiaochulai,zaiciyonglidianletou。
ninggudetoufashangyouxiangqi,linanxiwenjiulejuedeshuxin,kaishibawantadetoufa,banshangyouxianghuranxiangdaoshenmeyibantiaomeiwen:“ningning,wohenhaoqi,nizuichuxihuandeshinagejiaose?”
tawendeyinggaishizijicongnagejiaosekaishixihuantadeba。
ningguyoudianbuhaoyisi,yaozhezuichunzhalebantianyanjing,zuoguyoupanlexujiucaiqingshengshuo:“bushijiaose……shi‘xingsheng’nianduhaixuanshi,nishuodeyijuhua。”
xingshengshilinanxigangquribenliuxueshiqiandediyigegongzuoshi,shuolaiyeshipengqiao,ninggudangshigaosan,xueyefanzhong,weilejianyabianshichangquyigeguangbojiemulitingguangbo,zhengfengyipeiyangzuiyouxiudezhuanyecv(shengyou)weimubiaodegongsi——xingshengjinxing“tingshenghaixuandasai”,tazhishizaixiezuoyedekongxijiangguangbosuiyifangzhe,zainingshenqutingshibiantingdaoyijuyongriyuwanchengde:“dajiahao,woshijiuhaoxuanshoutea,linanxi。”
taneishihouhaibuzhidaozheijuhuashishenmeyisi,ketaduizheigeshengyinyitingzhongqingle。
tajiushineigeshihouxihuanshanglinanxide。
baokuohoulaisousuoguanyutadexinxi,guanzhutademeiyichangbisai,fanfutingtademeiyijupeiyinhenianbai,shenzhizaigaokaozhihoucanjiatadediyichangyeshizuihouyichangxianxiahuodong。
neishitadiyicixihuanyigeren,diyicichangdaosuoweizhuizhu、suoweiyangwangdeganjue。diyiciweiyigerenzhishenpaodaoyiguotaxiangzhiweijiantayimian。
neigeniansuideninggu,haihuibaduanfazhachengbanwanzitouzaizhoumoshichuanzuimingyandeduanqunbenpaozaizuiyanlideyangguangxia。neigeshihoudeta,suoyoukeyiweilinanxizuodeshi,fengkuangde、pingfande,doubukenengfuzhidaodiergerenshenshangle。
taneigeshihouzongshiheshenbianderenkaiwanxiaoshuo,neijiushitadeduyiwuer。
tadierciweiletaquribendeshihoushidezhitadesangzishousun,kenenghuijiucituichuwangpeiquan,taxiangguoquzaijiantayimian,napayongjinyiqiebanfa。keshizaitadaoribendediertianbianjiedaomuqindedianhua,shuotadebabachushile……
zuihouyitangribenzhixingtameijiandaolinanxi,zhixieleyifengxinjidaoletadegongsi,buguokexiangerzhineifengxinkendingshichendahai。zhibuguomeixiangdao,cengqiuerbudedelinanxiquezaizijishenbian,liziji……neimeneimejindejuli。
ninggukanzhelinanxijinzaizhichideyanjing,xiayishijiumoleyixiazuoshouwanshangdeshangkou,youdianteng,youdianyang。tazhalehaojixiayanjingjiangjihuyaodiaoluodeleizangzhu,daizhezhanyishuo:“woyiqianconglai……doumeixiangguonihuihuiguo……”
还会来到我身边……
woshenzhidaoxianzaidoubuganxiangxin,zheishizhenshide。
你是真实的吗?
宁辜看着他。
他也看着宁辜。
dianshijilifangzhebuzhisuoyundeguanggao,peilequeshishoudaokuide《baisejiedaohelansefengyi》:“あなたとsi,きっとaiしてる,ずっとaiしてる。(woheni,yidingshiaizhe,yeyizhixiangaizhede。)”
nvshengdirouwanzhuan,weilashangdechuanglianjiangyesefanglejinlai,meiyoukaidengdefangjianzhujianbeiheianbaowei。
linanxizaiheianlirouzhetadelian,shengyinyinyadichen:“wotiqianwanchenglexuexiaokechengranhouhuiguohepengyouchenglileyigegongzuoshi。《xingmang》zhongzhibandepeiyinshiyouwomengongzuoshifuzede,zheijitianzailuyinle,xiangqukankanma?”
ninggujinge:“ke……keyima?”
linanxixiao:“dangran,nimingtiandekezaixiawu,ganghaoshangwujiukeyiguoqu。”
ninggukanzheta,yerenbuzhuxiao:“hao……haoa。”
tawufajujuetade,yebuhuixiangyaojujuetade。
erqie,neishitadeshijie,tajuranyuanyibazijideshijiefenxiangjita,tazenmekenenghuijujue。
lianggerenxiangguwuyan,weiyouxiangshierxiao。
linanxipingfulexindineizhenjihurangtayazhibuzhudexintengzhihouzhongyulizhizhongxinshangxian,fanyingguolaixianzaiyijinghenwanle,ertamendouhaimeichidongxi。
takuitanzijiyouyitianjingranyehuiyouzheiyangcuoshoubujideshihou,taishouniezhutadelianwangwailacheleyixia,wen:“quxizaohaobuhao?woquzuofan,xiangchishenme?”
ninggutaishoumoleyixiazijibeitaniededifang,yanjingliangjingjingde:“keyidiancaima?”
林安奚:“当然。”
ninggu:“shen……shenmedoukeyima?”
linanxitiaomei:“ngheng,shuoshuokan,woyinggaikeyimanzu。”
ninggudeshouhaidazailinanxideyaojian,zuoyoushanduodeyanjingpoyouxieguzuoyoueryantadeyiwei。
linanxiyebuji,manyouyoudengzhe。
“woxiangchijishiguo……keyima?”
林安奚笑意加深。
“wanshangchizheimetiande?”
ningguyingzhetoupidiantou:“keyizaiguoyidiantilamisuma?”
linanxideyanshendunshijiubiandeyiweishenzhangqilai,tadingzheningguyouyideyanjingkanleyihuier,meishuohua,zhishikanzheta。
ninggubeidingdebuhaoyisi,shijingyiyaochun,haishishuo:“ni……niyiqianzaitwitter(tuite)shangmianshaiguonizuodejishiguo……”
xushibuhaoyisidaolejizhi,tahuadoumeishuowanbianzhijiediletou。linanxikanzheta,xindirenbuzhuditanxi。
“zhenshibaijinile……henyihan,womenningningkenengyaozhangpangle,jintianganghaojiucongchaoshilimailemianfenhehuangyou。”
ninggutaitou:“ni……”
taditouqinqintadeetou:“haole,quxizaohaobuhao?xiwanzaojiukeyichile,teatezhijishiguo。”
ningguguaiguaicongtatuishangzhanqilai,tabaolezijineimejiu,tuiyinggaihuihenma,tayoudianbuhaoyisi,momobizi:“linanxi,ni……detui……”
linanxiquedaduanta,tiaomei,beiyizaishafakaobeishang,yizhishoubeiyedazaishangmian,youxiesuiyideyonglan。
“ng?zenmele?zheishiyaoyaoqingwogongyuma?”
宁辜:“……”
“bushi,wobushineigeyisi,womeiyou……”
linanxiguzuojingya:“a,yuanlaibushia。”
宁辜:“……”
linanxijianzhizai“fengdupianpian”he“yiguanqinshou”shenfenshangqiehuanziru,ningguzheiliangtiandejinglitaiguomohuan,shizaiwufagenshangtasichufasandesiwei,zhinengzhanzaiyuandishouzuwucuo。
linanxikantazheiyifubeiqifuledemoyang,renbuzhuxiaole,zhanqilainietadelian:“haole,dounide,guai,quxizaoba。”
ningguhaichenjinzaifangcaideqingxuliwufaziba,liangjiucaifanyingguolaizheishiyoubeidiaoxile,yibianbuhaoyisidinaotou,yibianyoumomosongkouqi。guoran,jishizuohaolexinlijianshe,kezhenyaohelinanxi……dehua,guoranhaishixuyaoyongqia。
ninggulianjiafashaodijinleyushi,youdianxiangtao。
linanxizaibeihouxiaodehendichen。
ningguxiwanzaochulaishilinanxiguoranyijingzuohaole,beijiaoshangtilamisudejishiguokanzhejiutiannidaofahuang,danningguchidehenkaixin,chidexinzangfazhang,yanjingfasuan。
tachidaoyibandeshihoulinanxixiwanzaochulaile,ninggukanzhetameinuokaiyanjing,linanxiyehetaduishileyihuier,ranhouxiangdaoleshenmeyiyang,zhuanshenjinleninggudefangjian,sihunaleshenmedongxi,ranhouguanshangmen,jiangmenfansuoleqilai。
tahuanglehuangshoulinazhedesanbayaochi:“ningning,zheishinifangjiandeyaochiba?”
ninggubumingsuoyi,yaozheyikoujishiguodiandiantou。
linanxibianzhuanshenjiangyaochidiujinlematong,chongjinlexiashuidao。
宁辜:“……”
linanxi:“zenmebanya,ningningjinwanyaoshuizainalini?”
宁辜:“……”
linanxi:“dangranbunengrangwomenningningshuishafayaduiba,neizhinengweiquniyixiale,hewoyiqishuikefangba。”
宁辜:“……”
linanxizoudaotashenbian,jiangtadeyizizhuanlegefangxiangmianduiziji,liangshouchengzaicanzhuoshangjiangtaquanzaizijihuaili,ditouxiaodetanranwubi。
“吉事果好吃吗?”
tajihutiaojianfansheyibanhuida:“haochi。”
tanaozihaizailinanxiganggangdexingweizhongfameng,zhuanbuguowan,danhenxianran,zheishi**luodeyinyou。kezenmeban,tawulidikang。taxiangshilianxudiejinyiqianlingyicimengyandebingren,kuaiyaozaimengjingdeshamolikesi,quehuranyudaoganquanrangtazhongxinfeitengletineixueye。tazenmekeneng,jujuedele。
yushixiayimiao,linanxibianditouqingqinghanleyixiatadechun,zaitaitoushiyandiqingxuyiranfanteng:“guoranhentian。”
ninggujuedetayinggaizaishuozijizuichunshangzhanrandetilamisu,shangzaisisuo,bianzhouranbeibaoqilai,linanxibaozhetazouxiangbaitiantajiushoushihaodekefang:“haokuna。”
ningguxianshijinzhang,xintiaojiasu,danhenkuaidiaozhenghaolehuxi,guaishundilouzhuta,diantou:“ng。”danhenkuaiyou“a”leyisheng,xiaoshengshuo,“danshi,haimeishuaya……”
林安奚:“……”
neitianwanshangtongyangshilinanxibaozheninggushui。zuowanninggushuidesi,duilinanxibaozhetazheijianshibingmeiyoutaishendeganshou,danjinwanbuyiyang。
conglinanxidexintiaodaotaqingqiandehuxi,yijixiwanzaozhihoushenshangyiliudemuyuluxiangqi,tadoumingzhufeifu。
linanxijitadewennuan,shitacengjingqiuerweiguodexinshangzhushahechuangjianmingyue,ningguzaiheianliluoxialeilai,xiaoxinyiyidibaozhutadeyao。
ninggushaoyoude,xiangqizijidefumumeiyouhunshenfadou。taxiangdaotamenyijiasankoucengzuozaiyangtaishangshaizuinuandedongritaiyang,bababangtahemamabolejuzididaoshouli,pengyoujiyangdaotajiadejumaotangzaijiaobianyonglandiyixiayixiadisaozheweiba。
mamachileyibanjuzi,ditoudedongzuohenwenrou,tashuo:“zheigeshijiezongshijiaojinderutongwantong,lecibupidiyinwushurenzhengxiankonghouzangshenyuguadanshenghuozhong。chaimiyouyan,suosuifanza,suoyoudelangmandouhuimojingle。keyouxierenzongshitangguoshijiandehongliuzhihou,yiranwenroulezhenggeyuzhou,jishisuiyuezhengrong,danrifuyiri,mumuchaochao,xinhuaichuxin,suisuiyijiu。”
mamaduininggushuo:“youyitian,niyidingnengyudaoyigejishinishenchuheian,yiranjiangtafangzaixindizuiganjingdifangderen,ruguoyudaole,qingyidinghaohaozhenxi。wodebaobei。”
ninggutangzailinanxidehuaili,qingqingqingqing,yidiyidiluolelei。
mama,wohaoxiangzhaodaole。
她说。
遇见林安奚