《放手与他而言,是解脱》 小说介绍
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suihouhuidaoshufang,dakaihuihuadianzipingmumianban,kaishiwei《qingmeizhuma》huaxiajieju——
baxianshi,yibiyihuabanjinmanhua。
爱而不得。
ruguoyouxiabeizi,wobuxiangzaijiandaochenyu。
yitianyiye,woshoubihou,yishiyijingyouxiehunchen。
pinzhezuihoudeliqi,wodengluweibozuozhezhanghao‘qingyu’,bajiejufabudaowangshang,liuxiawanjieganyan。
或者说,遗言。
【hengaoxingdajiaxihuan《qingmeizhuma》zheibenmanhua,qishiwojiushizheibenmanhuadezhurengong。sannianqian,wohewoaiderenjiehunle。】
【womenweizhuangenai,woyiweitazongyouyitianhuijieshouwo,jinguantaconglaidoubupengwo……】
【xianzai,tadechulianhuilaile,yegenwotilelihun,wocaimingbai,buaijiushibuai,jiusuansannian,wunian,shinian,yijiuruci。】
【fangshoushichengquan,yutaeryan,shijietuo。】
【congciyihou,womenjiuhubuxiangqian,hubuganraole……aiyigebuaizijiderenhenlei,xiwang,meiyourenzaihewoyiyang。】
fawanzheixie,worushizhongfu,kexiayimiaoxinkoujiuxiangdaojiaoyiyangnanshou。
suihouwobizi,zuijiaohuranyongchuxianxue,shentixiangshiyoubadaoyaobawopoukai。
wodakaidianhuajiemian,gangxiangda120,laidianxianshi“mama”。
wojiannandihuaxiajietingjian,ruerjiushimamabengkuidedanyou:“xier,kuaigaosumamanixianzaizainali?ni……nizaiweiboshangshuodeneixieshishizhendema?”
worenzhejutong,naohailikaishihuixiangmamashuodehuashishenmeyisi,chengzhezuihouyisiyishi,wodiankaiweiboyikan——
quefaxian,woganggangdengludeweibohaobushizuozhe‘qingyu’,ershi——chenfuren。
di9zhang
jidangzhixia,woyououchuyikouxue。
mamazaishuoxieshenme,woyijingtingbuqing。
……
zaicizhengkaiyanjingdeshihou,woyoudaoleyiyuan,bingchuangbian,mamaheguimidengyishouzaichuangbian,yanjinghaihongzhongzhe。
woshituquqianmamadeshou:“ma,duibuqi,yourangnidanxinle……”
mamamangwojinwohuanhuantaiqideshou,neijiuhanlei:“meiyou,shimabuhao,shimameiyouzhaoguhaoni,cairangnizheisannianzaihunyinlishoujinweiqu。”
“bomu,xiaoxi,nimendoumeicuo,cuodeshichenyuneigezhanan!”guimiwozheshouji,xiaoxincoudaowochuangtou,“dengnihaole,wojiudaizheniquchenshijituannaotagetianfandifu。”
“tayiweikuaisuyaxialexinwenjiunengmeishile?pei!fuxinhan!”
wodunshixiangqilehunmiqianfashengdeyiqie,jileqilai,woqiecuoleweibohao,wofadeneixiedongxibiranyinqixuanran**。
“ma,nengbashoujijiwokankanma?”
zheishi,wodeshoujiqiahaoxiangleqilai。
shoujideteshu**rangwomingbai,laidianshichenyu,danqiguaideshi,cike,wodexinlijingranmeiyouyisibolan。
guimiquedangjijiuguaduanledianhua:“zheifuxinhanhaihaoyisidadianhualai,zanmenbulita!”
henkuai,shoujiyouxiangqiduanxintishi。
zheici,wopingjingkaikou:“yiyi,bashoujijiwoba,wogenta,zongyaoyoushiyouzhong。”
jianzhuang,tamendouchenmole。
wojieguoshoujiyikan,pingmushangyouwushuweijielaidian,laizichenyu,youliushibatong。
wangxiahua,shitagangcaideduanxin。
“woxianzaizaiguowai,dengwohuiquxitanhaoma?”
wobutaimingbai,womenzhiqianhaiyoushenmehaoshuode?
danwohaishinaqishoujibianjileyitiaoduanxin。
“chenyu,jiusuannibuxihuanwo,niyebugaibawoyinsifajimenglu,zaizheiduanganqingliwobushishujinimen,woshishujileaiqing,shujilewoziji。”
“lihunxieyiwoyijingqianhaojidaolenigongsi,womenzhijianjiuzheiyangba。”
dianjifasongyihou,woyijingyouxieleile。
chenyuyoufeikuaihuileyiju:“dengwohuilai。”3
zheiyangdehuixiaoxisudu,jiuhaoxiangtayizhishouzaishoujineitoudengwo。
ruoshicongqian,wokenenghuikaixinhenjiu,danxianzai,wozhijuedelei。
“ma,woyouxielei,xiangshuiyihuier。”
“……好。”
hunhunchenchenjian,wofangfobeijuanjinyipianheian。
yinyinyueyue,wotingdaolemamadekusheng,beiqie,xinsui,jiugendangnianbabalishideshihou,wotingdaodeyiyang。
“妈,别哭……”
wozhengzhazheyaoxinglai,kejutongquecongsimianbafangyonglai,zhouweideheianwanruzangleqianwandaogangzhen。
nulilehenjiu,wodelinghunhaoxiangdouyaobeigelie。
“……妈,我疼。”
“好疼啊……”
danwohaishixiangxinglai,wohaixiangjianyijianmama。
yishizaiciqingxing,yijingshishenye。
wodebingchuangshang,haiyoulaibujichulidexianxue,shence,mamajinjinzuanzhewodeshou。
chajuedaowodeshoukaishidongle,mamalimachakanwodeqingkuang。
kandaowozhengkaileyanjing,mamaluchuxinxizhise,suihoulimayouchuixiayanmou,wokandaomamadeyanleiyikekediaoxialai。
“xier,haitengma?”tazhandouzhe。
疼。
tengdaowoyijingbunenghuxile。
danwoduishangmamadeyanjing,quejichuyigeweixiao,“ma,ninbaobaowoba。”
抱抱,就不疼了。
wozhongyubeimamabaozhu,tadehuaibaoyijiuwennuan,wennuandaorangwoshebudefang:“ma,wozhendehaohouhuimeiyouduopeipeinin……”
“……wozoule,babayebuzai,zhishengxianiyigeren……”
woyijingyuelaiyuemeiyouliqi,shixianyemanmanmohu,erbianhaiyinyuenengtingjianshengyin。
“meiguanxi,mamayelaole,meijinianjiuhuixiaqupeinimen。”
mamakouzhongzheimeshuo,quejinjinlouzhewo。
“xier,daolexiamianyebuyaohaipa,zhiguanquzhaoniba,tazuichongni,genzheta,niyidingbuhuizaishouweiqule……”
“buyaodanxinma,quzhaonibaba,jianleniba,nijiubutengle……”
wojiannanhuxizhe,xiangzuihouyongbaomama,kejianjiandi,tingjuexiaoshi,chuganxiaoshi,wodeshouzhongjiuchuilexiaqu。
……
第二天清晨。
chenyuxialefeiji,gangtashangashidetudi,xinkoumomingyizhencitong。
他顿在原地。
tiqianlaijiejidemengluxiaozhelaiwanta,quebeitamengdiceshenduoguo。
mengluxiaorongyijiang:“nizenmele?”
chenyurumengchuxing,nieleniemeigucaishuo:“meishi,kenengyoudianlei。”
menglusonglekouqi,xiayimiaomashangxianbaodishangyifenwenjian:“nikan,huoxiyijingqianlelihunxieyi,womenmashang——”
“你怎么有这个?”
chenyuchenlian,hedemenglubuan:“zenmele?huoxilihun,niziyoule,zheiduiwomenlaishuobushihaoshima?”
“wogentazhijiandeshi,buxuyaonichashou。”
chenyushuowan,jiumeilihuichenluchayideyanshen,duoguolihunxieyijiuchaoqianzou,duliuchenludaizaiyuandi。
wangyoubuguoaimeidianping:shaoyoudejiufenyishangdeshu,chengjibushishuade,zhenxinbucuo,henhaokan,keyimanmankan, jiushizhangjieyoudianshao,yaoyangyang。
wangyoudaicizenmeyongbaodianping:《fangshouyutaeryan,shijietuo》shiwodudediyibenyanqingxiaoshuo,zheipianxiaoshuoqucaixinying,quanwenjiezoukuai,huoxichenyuzhijiandegushishizaitaijingcaile,tuijian!
放手与他而言,是解脱