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《aiwanqiquezhenhou，woqinertingjiannanyoushuo：nizenmehaibusi》shiyibulingrenchenjindeduanpianyanqingxiaoshuo，youzuojiabuchicongdelaoshuchuangzuo。gushizhujiaolinwanchenmoliuqianqiandemingyunjiuchanzheaiqing、youqinghemaoxian，dailingduzhejinruyigechongmanjingxihebukesiyideshijie。“lin**，”zhaoyishengdeshengyindaizheyisiweinan，“nizhanghushangdezhiliaofeiyong，baokuojichudeweichihebiyaodezhentongyaowufeiyong，yijingsuoshengwujile。zuichihoutian……。

精彩章节

1xiaodushuideweidao，xiangshijintoulemeiyicunkongqi，wukongburudizuanrulinwandebiqiang，

chengweitashengmingdaojishilizuishuxiyezuiyanedebeijingyin。tatangzaicangbaideciyandebingchuangshang，

shentiqingdefangfosuishihuihuazuoyilvqingyan。yuanbenheshendebinghaofurujinkongdangdangdiguazaishenshang，

chendetabojingxianxi，suogutuchu，xiangyijianyisuideciqi。shoubeishangbumanqingzidezhenkong，

shiwushucihualiaoheshuyeliuxiadeyinji。chuangwaideyangguanghenhao，touguobanladechuanglian，

zaitakugaodelianshangtouxiayixiaopianweiruodeguangban，quequbusantayandichenchendemuqi。

aixibaozaitatineigongchenglvedi，dailaiyizhenzhenshenrugusuideduntong，taxiguanlemomochengshou，

bizheishenglitengtonggengshigude，shixinjianshangneidaoriyikuodadequekou。“zhiya——”yisheng，

bingfangmenbeiqingqingtuikai。linwanandandeyanmoulishunjianliangqiyisiweiruodexiji，xiangfengzhongcanzhu。

tafeiliditailetaichenzhongdeyanpi，wangxiangmenkou。raner，yingruyanliandejingxiang，rangneidianweiguangzhouranximie，

binglengdehanyishunjiandongjieletadexueye。jinlaideshichenmo，taxiangailewunian，cengyiweihuigongduyishengdenanren。

tachuanzhetaquniansongtadeneijianshenlansechenshan，yijiutingbayingjun。keshi，tabingfeiduziyiren。tadebeiwanli，

xiaoxinyiyidichanfuzheyigenianqingjinglidenvhai——liuqianqian。liuqianqian，chenmogongsideshixisheng，

bilinwannianqingwusui，yongyouyitouhaizaobannongmidejuanfa，jifuchuidankepo，chuanzheyitiaoehuangsedelianyiqun，

yangyizhelinwanzaoyishiqudejiankangyuhuoli。taxiangyizhuxibaoleyangguangdezhiwu，jiaoyanyudi，

yubingchuangshangxingxiaogulidelinwanxingchenglecanrendeduibi。chenmodemuguangluozailinwanshenshang，

youneimejiduanzandeyishun，lveguoyisinanyibuzhuodefuza，xiangshikuijiu，youxiangshifanzao，

danhenkuaibianbeiyizhongkeyiyingzaodeshuliyulengmofugai。tabikailinwanzhishideyanshen，

shengyinpingwendetingbuchurenhebolan：“linwan，qianqiantingshuonibingdezhong，feiyaolaikankanni。

”yuqipingdandexiangzaichenshuyijianyujiwuguandeshiqing。liuqianqianjinjinyiweizaichenmoshence，

fangfoneishitazhuanshudelingdi。tashoulipengzheyidashushengfangdebaihe，

nongyutiannidehuaxiangmengdiyaguolexiaodushuideweidao，zhichonglinwandexiujue，rangtaweiliyizhenfanjiangdaohai。

“wanwanjie，”liuqianqiandeshengyintiandefani，daizheyizhongkeyideguanqie，“nihaihaoma？aiya，

liansezenmezheimecangbai，kanzhezhenrangrenxinteng。”tashuozhe，muguangzhuangsiwuyidisaoguolinwanshoutuoxiangdelianjia，

ranhoujiangneishuxianyandebaihefangzailechuangtoujushang，bupianbuyi，

zhenghaodangzhulelinwanhechenmoxiaorongcanlandeheyingxiangkuang。linwandeshixian，

sisididingzaichenmoneizhishoushang——neizhicengjingzhihuiqianta、baota、zaitananguoshibenzhuodicashitayanleideshou，

cikezhengwenwendi、shenzhidaizhedianhehuyiweidi，fuzailiuqianqianbuyingyiwodeyaojian。

yizhongbeiliqiguanchuanxinzangdejutong，mengdijuezhuleta，birenheyiciaitongdoulaidejianrui、menglie。

tazhanglezhangzui，houlonggansezhuotong，xiangshibeishazhimoguo，fabuchuyigeqingxideyinjie。zhinengyanzhengzhengkanzhe，

kanzhezheiduizitaiqinmidenannv，zhanzaitadebingchuangqian，rutonglaikanyichangyutawuguande、qicandezhanlan。

2bingfanglidekongqifangfoninggule，chenzhongderangrenchuanbuguoqi。liuqianqianfangfoganshoubudaozheigangazhixideqifen，

tasongkaichenmodeshou，zitaiyouyadinaqichuangtoujushangdeyigepingguoheshuiguodao，

zhijianxianhongdedankouyupingguodehongsexiangyingchengqu。“wanwanjie，wobangnixuegepingguoba，

shengbingleyaobuchongweishengsu。”taxiaoyinyindishuo，yanboliuzhuanjian，daizheyisibuyichajuedetiaoxin。

chenmojibukewendi“ng”leyisheng，muguangyouyi，zuizhonghaishiluozailechuangwai，

sihubingfanglideyiqiedourangtagandaobushi。liuqianqianxuepingguodejishuhenxianshu，guopilianmianbuduandichuixia，

tayibiandongzuo，yibianyongneizhongtianzhenyoucanrendeyuqishuodao：“wanwanjie，nibiedanxin，

wohemogehuijingchanglaikannide。duile，

womenshangzhouhaiyiqiqukanlenizhiqianyizhiniantaozhexiangkandeneige‘xingchendahai’yishuzhanni，

zhenshitaizhenhan、taimeile！mogehaishuo，neizhongchenjinshidetiyan，tebieshihefangsongxinqing。kexinimeinengqucheng。

”“xingchendahai”……zheigemingzixiangyigenzhen，henhenzhajinlinwandeermo。neigezhan，tahechenmoyuelesanci，

diyiciyinweitalinshijiaban，dierciyinweitaturanfashao，disanci……tajiubeiquezhenleaizhengwanqi，

chedizhujinleyiyuan。neishitatangzaibingchuangshang，haixinxinnianniandeyihan。tamengdikanxiangchenmo，

yandidaizhezuihouyisiweiruodeqiqiu，xiwangtanengshuodianshenme，napazhishiyiju“shia，kexile”，

huozhefourenliuqianqianhualineizhaoranruojiedeqinmi。danchenmozhishijibukechadiculecumeitou，

shixianyijiuwangzhechuangwai，shengyindichen，daizheyisibuyichajuedebunai：“qianqian，shaoshuoliangju，

rangtaanjingxiuxi。”zheihuatingsizuzhi，quemeiyourenhezebeidelidu，fanergengxiangshiyizhongwunaidezongrong，

shenzhi……moren。liuqianqianweiqudipielepiezui，jiaoshengdao：“woyeshixianggenwanwanjiefenxiangdiankaixindeshima，

rangtabiezongxiangzheshengbing。”tajiangxuehaodepingguoqiechengxiaokuai，chashangyaqian，

queziranerrandixiandileyikuaidaochenmozuibian，“moge，nichangchang，tianbutian？”chenmolengleyixia，

yanshenfuzadikanleyiyanlinwan，zuizhonghaishiweiweizhangkou，jieguoleneikuaipingguo。zheiyimu，

xiangyibashaohongdeluotie，tangzailelinwandexinshang。tajide，yiqiandoushitazheiyangweita，

tazonghuixiaozheshuo“wolaopoxuedepingguozuitian”。“liuqianqian！”linwanyongjinquanshenliqi，

congyafenglijichuzheisangezi，shengyinshayadexiangpojiudefengxiang。“qianqianyeshiweinihao！”chenmohuranzhuanguotou，

daduanta，yuqidouranbiandeyanli，daizhexianeryijiandebunaifan，“tashuodenandaobuduima？

nikankannixianzaizheigeyangzi，meitiankaozheangguideyaowuheyiqiweichishengming，tongkudituozhe，

chulerangzijigengnanshou，rangguanxinniderengenglei，daodiyoushenmeyiyi？

”“guanxinnideren”……linwankanzhetahuzailiuqianqianshenqiandezitai，zhijuedewubifengci。weitahao？

rangtagenglei？neixietapeitachipaomianzhudixiashiderizi，neixietaaoyebangtazhenglichuangyeziliaoderizi，

neixiezaitadigushitabulibuqideguli……nandaodoubibushangyanqianzheizhangxianhuojinglidelianpangma？

liuqianqianjianzhuang，yanzhongfeikuaidishanguoyisidechengdekuaiyi，suijilikehuanshanggengjiaweiquwugudebiaoqing，

qingqinglazhuchenmodegebo，shengyindaizhezhanyin：“moge，nibiexiongwanwanjiema，tashengbingle，xinqingbuhao，

shuohuachongdianshizhengchangde。doushiwobuhao，wobugaiduozui，rewanwanjiebugaoxingle……”shuozhe，

yanquanjingranweiweifanhong。chenmolikehuanheleshense，qingqingpailepaitadeshoubei，

roushenganfudao：“buguannideshi，niyeshihaoxin。”tazhuanerkanxianglinwan，yanshenbinglengruili，

rutongshujiuhantiandebingzhui，shuochudehuagengshicuilejudu，jiangtazuihoudexinfangjidefensui。“linwan，

qianqianxindishanliang，caihuibugujihuilaikanni。nibiebabierendehaoxindangchenglvganfei，bushihaodai！

youshihouwozhenjuede，nizheiyanghaowuzunyanhexiwangdituozhe，duiniziji，duishenbianderen，doushiyizhongzhemo。

ni……nizenmehaibu……”houmianneijigezi，tazhongjiumeiyouwanquanshuochukou，danneiqingxidekouxing，

neilengmozhongdaizheyanqideyanshen，linwandudongle——“nizenmehaibusi。”shijie，zailinwanmianqian，

shunjiantianxuandizhuan，shiqulesuoyoudesecaiheshengyin。

zhishengxiachenmoneizhangwubishuxicikequeyouwubimoshengdelengkulianpang，yijiliuqianqianyiweizaitashenpang，

neiyanshibuzhude、shenglizhedezitai。3neijuweijindeeyu，xiangyibashengxiudedundao，

zailinwandexinshanglaihuiqiege，liuxiamohudexuerouheyongnanyuhedeshangba。

taganjuezijidelinghunfangfoyijingcongzheijutengtongbukandequqiaozhongchouli，xuanfuzaibankong，

lengmodi、juewangdikanzhexiafangzheichuhuangdanzhijidebeiju。jiuzaizheishi，haowuyuzhaodi，

yizhenshuxide、sixinliefeidejutongmengdixijuanleta，shiaitongfazuole。zheicidetengtonglaidegewaixiongmeng，

rutongyouwushushaohongdetieqianzaitatineiningjiao，sichezhetadeshenjing。tatongdeshunjianquansuoqilai，

shentikongzhibuzhudizhandou，etoushangshenchudoudadelenghan，lianseyoucangbaizhuanweihairendehuibai。

“e……yao……wode……zhitongyao……”tajiannanditaiqirutongguanleqiandeshoubei，

shouzhizhandoudizhixiangchuangtoujudechouti，meiyigezidouxiangshiconghoulonglijichulaidexuemo。chenmozhanzaiyuandi，

shuangshouchazaikudaili，meitoujinsuo，yanshenlimeiyousihaodedanyou，fanerlveguoyisiqingxideyaneyubunaifan，

fangfozaizeguaitazheibuheshiyidetengtong，daraoletaheliuqianqiande“tanshi”，

pohuailetamenzhijianneilingrenzuooude“hexie”。liuqianqianyandishanguoyisiguiyideguang，talikeshangqianyibu，

yuqidaizheyizhongkuazhangdejiqie：“wolaibangnina！”talakaichouti，nachuneigelinwanshuxidebaiseyaoping。

zaibeiduizhechenmohelinwanshixiansijiaodeyishunjian，tadedongzuojikuai，

jiangzaoyizhunbeihao、zangzaishouxinshenchudejikewaixingxiangsideputongweishengsupian，hunruleyaoping，

ranhouxunsudaochuliangli“yao”，didaolinwanzuibian，yuqi“guanqie”：“wanwanjie，kuai，chiyao！

”linwanyijingbeijutongzhemodeshixianmohu，yishihuansan，meiyoujingliqufenbianneixiweidechabie，

jiuzheliuqianqiandiguolaideshui，jiannandijiangneiliangli“yao”tunlexiaqu。raner，

yuqidezhentongxiaoguofeidanmeiyoudaolai，neikepadetengtongfanerbianbenjiali，

rutonghaixiaobanyiboqiangguoyibodichongjizhetadeyizhi。tatongdehunshenjingluan，zhijiashenshenqiaruzhangxin，

liuxiayueyaxingdexuehen，houlonglifachuyayibuzhude、rutongbinsixiaoshoubandewuyan。

“zenme……meiyong……haotong……”talenghanlinli，xiangshigangcongshuililaochulai，

yanshenhuansandiwangxiangneigeyaoping，chongmanlejuewanghebujie。liuqianqiannaqiyaoping，

yilianwuguhekunhuo：“zheijiushinidezhitongyaoa，wanwanjie，yishengkaide，meicuoa。

shibushi……shibushinidebingqingyoujiazhongle，zheiyaoyijingbuguanyongle？”tashuozhe，danyoudikanxiangchenmo。

chenmokanzhelinwanyinweijizhitongkuerniuquzhengningdelianpang，yanzhongzuihouyisinaixinyexiaohaodaijin，tachixiaoyisheng，

yuqidaizhecigudechaofeng：“linwan，goule！biezaiyanxile！yongtengtonglaiboqutongqing？

nibujuedezheizhongshouduanhendiji、henkexiaoma？qianqianhaoxinjininayao，nihaixiangzenmeyang？

shibushifeiyaosuoyourendouweizhenizhuan，kannibiaoyantongku，nicaimanyi？”yanxi？boqutongqing？biaoyantongku？

linwankanzheyanqianzheigetaailewunian，qingjinsuoyouquzhichi、qupeibandenanren，

kanzhetazhanzaineigexinrushexiedenvrenshenbian，yongzuiedudeyuyanchuaiduta、gongjita。yikexin，

congzuichudejutong，daomamu，zaidaocike，chedichenrulebujiantianridebinghaizuishenchu。

lianzuijibendexinrenheyisiyihaodelianmindoumeiyoule。tabuzaiaiqiu，yebuzaijieshi，

zhishisisidiyaozhulezijidexiachun，zhidaonongyudexuexingweizaikouqianglimanyankailai。

tayongshentichengshoudejizhitongku，laimabineikeyiranchedisiwangdexin。leishuiwushengdihualuo，hunzhelenghan，

xiaoshizaibinglengdezhenjian。4chenmoheliuqianqianshishenmeshihoulikaide，linwanyijingjibuqingle。shijianduitalaishuo，

bianchenglemohuerhuanmandejianao。jiexialaidejitian，tarutongshenghuozaiyigexingzhedeemeng，

yigewushengdediyuli。shentidetengtongyinweibeihuandiaodeyaowuerchixujiaju，debudaoyouxiaodehuanjie，

meiyicifazuodourangtazaiguimenguanqianpaihuai。erjingshendecuican，zelaizichenmoheliuqianqianbudingshide“tanwang”。

tamenyoushihuibingjianzuozaitachuangweideshafashang，pangruowurendidishengshuoxiao，

liuqianqianshenzhihuijiaoxiaozheweichenmochishuiguo，yanshenshibushipiaoxianglinwan，daizhexuanyaohelianmin。youshi，

liuqianqianhui“buxiaoxin”jiangshuibeipengdao，weiliangdeshuisazailinwandebeizishang，jinshitadanbodebinghaofu，

ranhoulianliandaoqian，yandiquezangzhekuaiyi。youshi，

chenmohuikanzhetayinweitengtongerquansuo、erlenghanzhiliu、ermianrongniuqudeyangzi，

lenglengdidiuxiayiju：“zaodianjietuo，duidajiadouhao。”linwanjihubuzaikaikoushuohua，

xiangyijubeichouzoulelinghundequqiao，chenmodichengshouzheyiqie。tashenzhikaishihuibihushitongqingdemuguang，

jiangzijichedifengbiqilai。zhidaoneitianxiawu，zhuzhiyishengzhaoyishengnazhebingliben，mianseningzhongdizoudaotachuangqian。

“lin**，”zhaoyishengdeshengyindaizheyisiweinan，“nizhanghushangdezhiliaofeiyong，

baokuojichudeweichihebiyaodezhentongyaowufeiyong，yijingsuoshengwujile。zuichihoutian，bixuyaoxufeile，

fouze……yixiefeijinjidannengjianqingnitongkudefuzhuzhiliao，yijibufenxiaoguogenghaodezhentongyao，

kenengjiuzhinengtingzhile。”linwanlengzhule，gansedeyanjingfeilidizhalezha。tasuiranbingzhong，

danzhiqiangongzuoduonianyouxiejixu，jiashangfumuzaonianyiwaiqushiliuxiadeyibipeichangjin，tayizhihenjiesheng，

suanxialaizugouzhichengtahenzhangyiduanshijiandezhiliao，zhishao，nengrangtazaixiangduijianqingtongkudeqingkuangxia，

zouwanzuihouyicheng。zenmehui……zheimekuaijiumeile？yizhongbuxiangdeyuganxiangbinglengdeshe，chanshangletadexinzang。

tazhandouzhe，yongkushoudeshoumosuochuzhentouxiadeshouji，shouzhiduosuodejihuwobuzhu，

haoburongyicaidiankaileshoujiyinxingapp。shurumima，chaxunyue。pingmushangbinglengdeshuzi，xiangyibajiandao，

cichuanletazuihoudejiaoxing。yuexianshi，jiuzaijitianqian，youyibijuekuanxiangbeizhuanzoule，

zhuanzhangjinejingquedaolejiaofen，jihutaokongletaneigezhanghu。zhuanzhangren——chenmo。

neishitamendangchuyiqicunde“weilaijijin”。kazaichenmoneilibaoguan，mimabicidouzhidao。tashuo，

neishitamenmaifang、jiehun、shengzideqidongzijin，shitamende“mengxiangchuxuguan”。taneimexinrenta，

bazijisuoyoudejixudoufanglejinqu，qidaizhedengbingqingwendingxie，

huoxuhainengyongzheibiqianquchangshiyixiexindezhiliaofangan……tazenmeneng……tazenmegan！

judadefennuhejuewangrangtayanqianyizhenfahei。tafengleyiyangbodachenmodedianhua，shouzhiyinweiyonglierfanbai。

dianhuaxianglehenjiu，jiuzaitayiweibuhuiyourenjietingshi，zhongyutongle。beijingyinshicaozadonggandeyinlesheng，

yinyuehainengtingdaoliuqianqianjiaoqiaodexiaoshenghe“ganbei”dehuanhu。“wei？

”chenmodeshengyindaizheyisibeidaraodebuyue，beijingyinjianjianbianxiao，sihutazoudaoleshaoweianjingdiandedifang。

“qian……wodezhiliaofei……shibushinizhuanzoude？”linwandeshengyinsiya，daizhebinlinbengkuidezhandou。

dianhuaneitouchenmoleliangmiao，ranhouxiangqichenmolisuodangran，shenzhidaizhedianbunaifandeshengyin：“qian？shiwozhuande。

linwan，nifanzhengyezhibuhaole，yishengdoushuomeibanfale，hebizailangfeineixieqian？tangzaiyiyuanliyeshishaoqian，

haowuyiyi。”tadunledun，

yuqishenzhidaishangleyisilingrenxinhande“guihua”yiwei：“qianqiankanzhongleyigegongyu，diduan、huxingdouhenhao，

litagongsiyejin。womenzhunbeijiehunle，zhenghaoyongzheibiqianfushoufu，zuowomendehunfang。

”hunfang……womendehunfang……yongtajiumingdeqian，qujitahebiedenvrenzhuzaoaichao？

linwantingzhedianhuaneitouchuanlaidemangyin，shoujicongchedishiquliliangdezhangxinhualuo，

“pa”diyishengshuaizaibinglengdeshuinidishang，pingmushunjiansuiliechengzhuwangzhuang，

rutongtacikezhiliposuiderenshenghexinzang。zuihouyidianguanyuguoqumeihaodehuiyi，

guanyuzheigenanrencengcancunde、huoxuzhishitayixiangchulaidewenqing，zaizheiyike，beizheitongdianhua，

beizheibibinglengdezhuanzhang，chedijidefensui，huifeiyanmie。lianyisihuijindoumeiyouliuxia。

5neishiyigekuangfengbaoyudeyewan。chuangwaidefengrutongfanudejushou，fengkuangdipaidazhechuanghu，

fachuwuwudesihou。mijideyudianzazaibolishang，pipazuoxiang，fangfoyaojiangzhenggeshijieyanmei。

bingfanglidedengguangyinweidianyabuwenerweiweishanshuo，yingzhaozhelinwanhaowuxuesedelian，mingmingmiemie。jutong，

zaiciruyueerzhi，rutongyongyuanbuhuipijuandekuli。yinweimeiyouzugoude、youxiaodeyaowu，yeyinweixinsizhihou，

shentizaiyezhaobudaorenhekangzhengdeliyouheliqi。tatangzaibinglengdechuangshang，ganshouzheshengmingderedu，

zhengyidiandiancongzheijupobaibukandequqiaozhongliushi，xiangshalouliwukewanhuidesha。

meiyicihuxidoubiandejiannanerchenzhong，feibuxiangpojiudefengxiang，fachuhehedeshengxiang。tazhidao，

tadeshijianbuduole。hushilaiguoyici，kandaotaqingkuangyichangzaogao，jianceyishangdeshuzibodongdelingrenxinjing，

zhuanshenxiangqujiaozhibanyisheng，quebeilinwanyongjinzuihouyisiliqi，weiweitaishouzuzhile。tadeyanshenyichangpingjing，

shiyizhongkantouleyiqie、fangqileyiqie、zaiwurenheliuliandechenji。neishiyizhongbijuewanggengshenchendedongxi，

shixinsizhihoudewanlaijuji。taduizhedanyoudehushi，jiqihuanmandi、jihunanyichajuediyaoleyaotou。