逆爱：吴所畏内心深处的回响荒芜大叔-著

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yiqiankanguohenduoleisideduanpianyanqingxiaoshuo，dan《niai：wusuoweineixinshenchudehuixiang》zheibuzhenderangwotingbuxialai，juqingbusutao，rensheyehenxinying。xiaoshuoneirongjiexuan:yizhongqiyidedianliugancongzhijiancuanshangshoubei。chichengdechunjiaoweiweishangyang：“suowei？wusuoweijudeyisi？”wusuoweizhengzhule。qianshichichengyeshuoguotongyangdehua，dannei……

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wusuoweicongweixiangguo，yichangjingxincehuadebaofuhuirangzijixianrugengshendexuanwo，dangchuanyuehuidaxueshiguang，

tafaxianchichengyedaizhejiyiguilai。yuanbendechoudizaishikongcuoweizhongzhongxinshenshibici，

neixiebeiyinzangdezhenxiangbifuchougengjiacitongrenxin。di1zhangwusuoweizuihouyicijianchaleshoulidewenjian，

zhijianzaizhizhangbianyuanweiweifazhan。chuangwaidebeijingxiazhexixililidexiaoyu，

rangzheizuofanhuadoushibiandemohuerbuzhenshi。qinianle，tacongyigehuaichuaimengxiangdemeishuxueyuanbiyesheng，

bianchenglerujinzheigezaipojiuchuzuwulijielinghuodeluopochahuashi。erzheiyiqie，

doushiyuneigejiaoyueyuedenvrenheneigejiaochichengdenanren。“wuqiqiong，nijiuzheidianchuxi？

”taduizhejingzilidezijilengxiao，zheigemingzirujintingqilairucifengci。

qiqiong——qipantanengrucangqiongbanguangkuo。kexianzai，talianmingtiandefangzudouyaofubuqile。shoujituranzhendong，

shiyitiaoyinxingduanxintixing：zhanghuyuejinsheng832.6yuan。wusuoweiwojinquantou，zhijiashenshenqiajinzhangxin。

jiuzaitazhunbeishuaishoujideshunjian，chuzuwudelaojiudianshijituranshanshuoqicimudebaiguang，

bansuizheyizhenzheneryulongdeleiming。wusuoweigandaotianxuandizhuan，fangfobeijuanruxuanwo，shiquyishiqianzuihouyike，

tafangfokanjianchichengneishuangshenbujiandideyanjing。di2zhangwusuoweixinglaishifaxianzijitangzaidaxuesushedeshangpu，

chuangbanshanghaitiezhetadayishichongbaideyaogunleduihaibao。yangguangtouguochuanglianfengxisajinlai，

kongqizhongyouqingchunteyoudeweidao——hunhezhexiyifen、hanshuihexiwangdeqixi。“wuqiqiong，haishui？

diyijieshiwangjiaoshoudexifangmeishushi，nixiangguakema？”sheyouzhangyangyibianwangshubaolisaikebenyibianhandao。

wusuoweimengdizuoqi，zhuaguochuangtoudeshoujiyikanriqi——2018nian9yue12ri。tahuidaoleqinianqian，

dasangangkaixuedeshihou。jingguozuichudezhenjinghehunluan，wusuoweizhujianjieshoulezijichuanyuehuidaxueshiqideshishi。

tajidezheigeshijiandian，yueyueganggangdayingtadezhuiqiu，

erchicheng——neigehoulaiduozoutayiqiedenanren——cishihaimeiyouchuxianzaitamendeshenghuozhong。

yigejihuazaiwusuoweixinzhongyunniang。jiranshangtianjitazhonglaiyicidejihui，tayaozaichichengchuxianqianjiuxianfazhiren。

tayaorangchichengchangchangbeiwannongganqingdeziwei，ranhouzaichedicuihuita。jiexialaideliangzhou，

wusuoweiliyongzijiduiweilaidelejie，qiaoqiaosoujiguanyuchichengdexinxi。tazhidaochichengshifaxueyuandegaocaisheng，

jiajingyouwo，pingshikuaiyangshe，jingchangchuruxuexiaodongbeijiaodepachongshe。juchuanwen，taxinggegugao，

henshaoyurenshenjiao，queyouzhelingrennanyikangjudemeili。di3zhangjiuyuemodeyigewuhou，

wusuoweizhongyuzaipachongshewaidengdaolechicheng。tajiazhuangbujingyidiluguo，

zaiyuchichengcajianerguodeshunjianguyishuaidaozaidi，shouzhongbaozhedehuacesanluoyidi。“xuyaobangmangma？

”chichengtingxiajiaobu，shengyindichenerfuyoucixing。wusuoweitaitou，

diyicirucijinjulididaliangzheigeqianshichouren。chichengbitajiyizhonghaiyaoyingjuntingba，

meiyujiantouzheyunianlingbufudechenwenheruili。zuilingrenbushideshitadeyanjing，

neishuangshensedeyanmoufangfonengkantourenxin。“meishi，wozijikeyi。”wusuoweidixiatou，

keyibiaoxianchujujinbuan。chichengyijingdunxiashenbangtashoushihuazuo。dangnaqiyifusheleisumiaoshi，

tatingdunleyixia：“nihuadehenhao，henchuanshen。”“wozhishiouerlaizheibianxiesheng，juedezheilideshehenmei。

”wusuoweisahuangdao，shijishangtatedihualezheixielaiyinqichichengzhuyi。“chicheng，faxueyuandasan。

”chichengshenchushou，muguangzaiwusuoweilianshangtingliudeyouxieguozhang。“wusuowei……meishuxueyuande。

”tayouyuleyixia，haishishuochulezheigehoulaigaidemingzi。dangtawozhuchichengdeshoushi，

yizhongqiyidedianliugancongzhijiancuanshangshoubei。chichengdechunjiaoweiweishangyang：“suowei？wusuoweijudeyisi？

”wusuoweizhengzhule。qianshichichengyeshuoguotongyangdehua，danneishitamenxiangshibannianhoudeshile。

jiexialaideliangzhouli，wusuoweianzhaojihua“ouyu”chicheng。

tazhidaochichengmeizhousanwuxiawuhuizaitushuguansanloukaochuangdeweizhikanshu，

yushizongzaitongyishijianchuxianzaineili；tazhidaochichengxihuanheheikafeibujiatang，

meiciqukafeitingdouhui“qiaohe”didiantongyangdeyinpin；tashenzhizhidaochichengdeshengri，

bingzaitashengridangtian“wuyijian”songshangyihetazuixihuandejinkouqiaokeli。yiqiejinzhandeyichangshunli。

chichengsihuduitahenganxingqu，zhudongyaoqingtagongjinwucan，haidaitaqucanguanzijidesirensheleishouzang。

danlingwusuoweibuandeshi，chichengkantadeyanshenzongdaizhemouzhongshenyi，

fangfozaoyikanchuantadebaxiqueyouleyupeihe。gengrangrenbuandeshi，

wusuoweifaxianzijiduichichengdeganjuezhengzaifashengbianhua。takaishiqidaimeicijianmian，

huiyinweichichengdeyigeweixiaoerxintiaojiasu，shenzhizaizuohuashibuzijuedigoulechuneigetingbadeshenying。

“zheizhishiyanxi，”wusuoweimeiwandoutixingziji，“biewangletashizenmehuidiaoniderenshengde。

”shiyuezhongxundeyigeyuye，wusuoweiconghuashichulaiyishishidianduo。yuxiadehenda，tameiyoudaisan，

zhengzhunbeimaoyupaohuisusheshi，yibaheiseyusanchengzailetatouding。“zheimewanhaizaiyonggong？”chichengzhanzaiyuzhong，

banbianshenziluzaisanwai，henkuaibeiyushuidashi。“nizenmehuizaizheili？”wusuoweijingyadiwen。

huashilichichengdesushehenyuan，bugaishitaouranluguodedifang。chichengmeiyouhuida，

zhishijiangsanyouwangwusuoweineibianqinglexie：“wosongnihuiqu。”di4zhangyuzhong，liangrenjizaiyibasanxia，

julijindenengganshoudaobicidetiwen。wusuoweiwendaotashenshangdandandetanmuxiangqi，hunhezheyushuideqingxin。

neiyike，tahuranxiwanghuisushedelunengzhangyidian，zaizhangyidian。“nizhidaoshenmeshizhenzhengdekongjuma？

”zoudaobanlu，chichengturanwendao。wusuoweixintouyijin：“shenmeyisi？”“youxierenhaipashe，

youxierenhaipagaochu，youxierenhaipagudu。”chichengdeshengyinzaiyushengzhongxiandemenglong，“danworenwei，

renzuihaipadeshimianduizijidezhenxin，yinweitazonghuizhiyinnizouxiangzuibukekongdefangxiang。”wusuoweitingxiajiaobu，

zhuantoukanxiangchicheng。yumuzhong，duifangdemuguangzhuoredelingrenxinjing。“niweishenmezheimeshuo？”chichenghuanhuanbijin，

zhidaoliangrenjihubijianxiangchu：“wusuowei，huozheshuowuqiqiong？nimeitianfeijinxinjijiejinwo，shiweileshenme？

”wusuoweidexinzangjihutingzhitiaodong。tazhidaole？zenmekeneng？“wobumingbainideyisi。

”tamianqiangbaochizhending，shengyinqueweiweifazhan。chichengdixiaoyisheng，reqihezaiwusuoweierpan：“neinimingbaima？

dangnikanzhewodeshihou，nizaixunzhaoshenme？dangnijiejinwodeshihou，niyouzhenzhengxiangyaoshenme？

”wusuoweishuobuchuhualai。yushengzhong，tazhinengtingdaozijizheneryulongdexintiao。“wokeyipeiniwanzheigeyouxi，

”chichengdeshouzhiqingqingfuguowusuoweidexiahe，dongzuoqingrouquedaizheburongkangjudeqiangshi，“danjizhu，

youxideguizeyouwolaiding。”shuowan，tajiangsansaijinwusuoweishouzhong，zhuanshenzouruyuzhong，

henkuaixiaoshizaiyeseshenchu。di5zhangwusuoweizhanzaiyuandi，jiujiuwufayidong。chichengdehuazaitanaozhonghuidang，

meigezidouanshizhetazaoyikanchuanyiqie。danzuilingrenkongjudeshi，wusuoweifaxianzijibingbuzaihushifoubeikanchuan，

tazaihudeshichichengliqushineigegujidebeiying。neiwanzhihou，yiqiedoubianle。

wusuoweibuzaixuyaofeixinzhizaoouyu，yinweichichengzonghuizhudongchuxianzaitashenbian。tamenyiqichifan，yiqizixi，

chichengshenzhikaishichuximeishuxidezhanlan，zhiweilekanwusuoweidezuopin。

wusuoweifaxianzijijianjianmishizaizheichangxizhong。takaishizhenzhengxiangshouyuchichengzaiyiqideshiguang，

huiyinweiduifangdekaojinerlianhongxintiao，huizaiyeshenrenjingshifanfuhuiweimeiyigeduishihechupeng。

chichengbuzaishifuchoujihuazhongneigebinglengdemubiao，ershiyigeyouxueyourou、huixiaohuinuderen。gengkepadeshi，

wusuoweifaxianchichengyuzijiyinxiangzhongdeneigechourenjieranbutong。

tajiyizhongdechichenglengku、zisi、weidamudebuzeshouduan；danyanqiandechichengsuirantongyangqiangshi，

quehuiduixuyaobangzhuderenshenchuyuanshou，huiweilebaohuyizhishoushangdexiaodongwuertingxiajiaobu，

huizaitingwusuoweitanlunyishushiluchuzhenzhengganxingqudebiaoqing。“wohaoxianggaocuoleshenme。

”wusuoweizairijizhongxiedao，“yaomeshiwojiyichulewenti，

yaomeshizheigechichenggenbenbushiwosuorenshideneige。”shiyiyuechu，xuexiaojubannianduyishujie。

wusuoweidezuopinbeixuanweizhuzhanzhiyi，neishiyifumiaohuisheyuyingduizhideyouhua，chongmanleliliangyuzhangli。

zhiyoutazijizhidao，neitiaoshedeyanjingshiyichichengweiyuanxinghuizhide。zhanlandangwan，renliuruzhi。

wusuoweizhanzaizijidehuazuoqian，xianglaibinjiangjiechuangzuolinian，muguangquebushipiaoxiangrukouchuxunzhaomougeshenying。

chichengdayinghuilai，danzhijinweijianrenying。“zaidengren？”yigeshuxideshengyincongshenhouchuanlai。wusuoweizhuanshen，

kanjianchichengzhanzaidengguangxia，chuanzheyishenjiancaidetideheisexizhuang，bipingrigengjiayingtingbiren。

tashouzhongnazheyishuhanjiandelanseyuanweihua，xiangzhengzhexinyangyuxiwang。“songjijinwanzuiyaoyandeyishujia。

”chichengjianghuadijita，muguangwenroudelingrenxinhuang。wusuoweijieguohuashu，zhijianbujingyijianchudaochichengdeshou，

yizhendianliubandejidongcuanshangshoubei：“xiexie，woyiweinibulaile。”“lushangdangele。

”chichengdemuguangzhuanxianghuazuo，ningshipiankehouqingshengwen，“zheitiaoshe，tazaixiangshenme？

”wusuoweishunzhetademuguangkanqu，kanzhehuazhongneitiaoangshoumianduifeiyingdeshe：“tahenhaipa，danyehenjianding。

tazhidaozijikenenghuishu，danrengranxuanzezhandou。”“weishenme？”“yinweiyouxiedongxizhideweizhizhandou，

jishizhudingshibai。”chichengzhuanhuitou，shenshenwangjinwusuoweideyanjing：“neinini？

niyoushenmezhideweizhizhandoudedongxima？”di6zhangwusuoweipingzhuhuxi。zaineishuangshensuiyanmoudezhushixia，

tajihuyaowangjizijizuichudejihua，wangjineixiebeibeipandetongku，wangjiqinianlaimeigegujideyewan。cike，

taweiyinengxiangdaodedaanshi“ni”。dantabunengshuochukou。jiuzaizheishi，yueyuechuxianle。

tachuanzheyishenliangyandehongselianyiqun，xiangyituanhuobanpuxiangwusuowei：“qiqiong！nidehuataibangle！

woweinijiaoao！”wusuoweijiangyingdijieshoutadeyongbao，gandaochichengdemuguangshunjianlenglexialai。

qianshijiushizaizheigeshihou，yueyuekaishiduitaruojiruoli，zuihoutourulechichengdehuaibao。“zheiweishi？

”yueyuezhuyidaochicheng，yanjingmingxianliangleqilai。“chicheng，wodepengyou。”wusuoweijieshaodao，youzhuanxiangchicheng，

“zheishiyueyue，wode...nvpengyou。”zuihousangezishuochukoushi，wusuoweigandaoyizhenmomingdexinxu。

tafaxianzijizaihudebushiyueyuedefanying，ershichichenghuizenmexiang。chichengdebiaoqingmeiyourenhebianhua，

zhishilimaodixiangyueyuediantouzhiyi：“xinghui。”yueyuequeduichichengbiaoxianchujidaxingqu，

buduanzhuiwentadebeijinghexihao。wusuoweizhanzaiyipang，kanzhezheiyimuyuqianshiheqixiangsi，weiliyizhenfanteng。

“buhaoyisi，wohesuoweiyoudianshiyaotan。”chichengturandaduanyueyuedehua，lazhuwusuoweideshouwan，

“shipeiyixia。”budenghuiying，tajiulazhewusuoweichuanguorenqun，laidaozhantingwaideyangtai。wanfengweiliang，

chuisanleshineidemenre。“nihaihaoma？”chichengsongkaishou，meitouweicu，“niliansehencha。

”wusuoweikaozailanganshang，shenxiyikouqi：“womeishi。zhishi...limiantaimenle。”chichengchenmopianke，

turanwendao：“niaitama？”di7zhangwentizhibaidelingrencuoshoubuji。wusuoweizhanglezhangzui，

quefabuchushengyin。tayinggaihuida“ai”，zheishijihuadeyibufen，yeshishishi——zhishaozaiqianshi，

taqueshiaiguoyueyue。danxianzai，neigezikazaihoulongli，shuobuchukou。“wobuzhidao。”tazuizhongchengshihuida。

chichengdemuguangbiandeshenchennandong：“ganqingbushiyouxi，wusuowei。ruguonibuquedingzijidexin，

jiubuyaoqingyijibierenchengnuo。”zheijuhuaxiangyijierguangshanzaiwusuoweilianshang。tahuranyishidao，

zijizhengzaichengweicengjingzuizenghendeneizhongren——wannongganqing、buzeshouduan。“nishuodedui。”tadishengshuo，

gandaoyizhenziwoyane，“wobugai...”huaweishuowan，yueyuedeshengyincongmenkouchuanlai：“qiqiong？

nimenzaizheilizuoshenme？dajiadouzaizhaonini。”wusuoweizhuanshen，kanjianyueyuebuyuedebiaoqing。

taxiayishidiyuchichenglakaijuli：“meishenme，zhishichulaitoutouqi。”yueyuezouguolai，

qinmidiwanzhutadeshoubei，mingxianshizaixuanshi**：“neiwomenhuiquba，wangjiaoshouxianghenitantannidezuopin。

”wusuoweibeidongdibeilazhezou，huitouwanglechichengyiyan。duifangzhanzaiyinyingzhong，mianwubiaoqing，

yanshenquelengdelingrenxinji。neiwanzhihou，chichengkaishishuyuanwusuowei。buzaiyououyu，buzaigongjinwucan，

shenzhilianduanxindouhuifudejianduanerlengdan。wusuoweigandaoqiansuoweiyoudeshiluo，

fangfoshengmingzhongmougezhongyaodebufenbeichouzoule。tashitugaosuzijizheishihaoshi，julijihuachenggongyoujinleyibu。

danmeigeduziyirendeyewan，tanaozhongfuxiandedoushichichengdeshenying——taweixiaoshidechunjiao，

tachensishiweicudemeitou，tashuohuashihoujiedegundong...di8zhanggenglingrenbuandeshi，

yueyueyefashenglebianhua。tabuzaixiangqianshineiyangzhujianlengdan，fanerduiwusuoweiyuefayinqin，

jingchangzhudongyuetawaichu，songtaliwu，shenzhizaishejiaowangluoshangfabudaliangliangrendehezhao。

danmeidangwusuoweitiqichicheng，tajiuhuibiandejinzhangerhuibi。shiyiyuezhongxun，wusuoweizhongyurenbuzhu，

zaichichengchangqudekafeiguanduzhuleta。“womentantan。”tazhijiezuozaichichengduimian，zuzhiduifanglikai。

chichengcongshubenzhongtaiqitou，muguangpingjingwubo：“tanshenme？”“niweishenmeduozhewo？”wusuoweidandaozhiru。

“womeiyouduozheni，”chichengheshangshu，xianghoukaozaiyibeishang，

“zhishijuedebugaidaraonihenvpengyoudeerrenshijie。

”wusuoweiminruidibuzhuodaotayuqizhongdeyisibuyue：“nishizaishengqima？yinweiyueyue？”chichengqingxiaoyisheng，

tingbuchuqingxu：“woweishenmeyaoshengqi？neishinidexuanze，nideshenghuo。

”“dannimingming...”wusuoweidunzhule，buzhigairuhebiaoda。dantaquexin，chichengduitayouhaogan，

jiuxiangtaduichichengyiyang。neizhongyanshen，neizhongchupeng，neizhongruoyouruowudeaimei，bukenengshijiade。

chichengzhushizheta，turanwen：“nizhidaowoweishenmexihuanshema？”wusuoweiyaotou。

“yinweitamencongbuhuiyanshizijidebenxing。jieshijiushoulie，shoushangshijiuduobi，

congbuhuiweiletaohaobierenerweizhuangziji。”chichengxiangqianqingshen，shengyinyadi，“nini，wusuowei？

nishenmeshihoucainengtingzhiweizhuang，mianduizhenshideziji？

”di9zhangwusuoweidexinzangkuangtiaoqilai：“wobumingbainideyisi。”“nimingbai。

”chichengdemuguangruilirudao，fangfonengpoukaisuoyouweizhuang，“congwomendiyicijianmianqi，nijiuzaiyanxi。

nidiaochawodexihao，mofangwoganxingqudehuati，shenzhikeyizhizaoneixie‘qiaohe’。”“nimingbai。

”chichengdemuguangruilirudao，fangfonengpoukaisuoyouweizhuang，“congwomendiyicijianmianqi，nijiuzaiyanxi。

nidiaochawodexihao，mofangwoganxingqudehuati，shenzhikeyizhizaoneixie‘qiaohe’。

”wusuoweidexinzangjihuyaocongxiongqianglitiaochulai。tazhanglezhangzui，quefabuchurenheshengyin。chichengzhidaole，

tayizhidouzhidao。zheichangziyiweitianyiwufengdefuchouxima，yuanlaicongyikaishijiuzaiduifangdezhushixiajinxing。

“wo...”wusuoweijiannandikaikou，shengyingansederutongshazhimoca，“wobushi...”“bushishenme？

”chichengweiweiqianqing，neishuangshenbujiandideyanjingjinsuozheta，“bushiguyijiejinwo？bushidaizhemouzhongmude？

”kafeiguanlidekongqifangfoninggule。beijingzhongyanmokafeidoudeshengxiang、gukedediyu、beidiepengzhuangdeqingcui，

quandoutuihuachengmohudebeijingyin。wusuoweizhinengtingdaozijizheneryulongdexintiao，

yijichichengpingwenerweixiandehuxisheng。jiuzaiwusuoweijihuyaoquanpantuochudeneiyike，tadeshoujituranxiangqi。

pingmushangyuedongzheyueyuedemingzi。taruhuodashe，jihushihuangluandijieqidianhua：“wei？”“qiqiong，

nizainaer？”yueyuedeshengyindaizhemingxiandejiaozao，“bushishuohaojinwanpeiwocanjiajucandema？dajiadoudaole，

jiudengnile。”wusuoweipieleyiyanchicheng，houzheyijingkaohuiyibei，mianwubiaoqingdifankanzheshouzhongdeshu，

fangfogangcaineichangjianbanuzhangdeduizhicongweifasheng。“woyoudianshi，kenengqubulele。”wusuoweidishengdao。

“shenmeshibiwohaizhongyao？”yueyuedeshengyintaigaolejifen，“wuqiqiong，nizheijitianzhendehenqiguai。

shibushiyinweineigechicheng？”wusuoweixiayishidiwuzhuhuatong，danweishiyiwan。

chichengdechunjiaogouqiyimoruoyousiwudehudu，xiangshichaofeng，youxiangshibiedeshenme。“wobanxiaoshihoudao。

”wusuoweicongcongshuowan，guaduanledianhua。tataiqitou，zhunbeijixugangcaideduihua，quefaxianchichengyijingzhanqishen。

“nvpengyoucuile？”chichengdeyuqipingdanwubo，“neijiuquba，bierangrendengjile。”“dengdeng，

”wusuoweijimanglazhutadeyixiu，“womenhaimeishuowan。

”chichengdemuguangluozaiwusuoweizhuazhezijiyixiudeshoushang，yanshenfuza：“youxiehua，shuotoulejiumeiyisile。