人渣的第一视角自叙岁三秋-著

小说简介

zaisuisanqiudebixia，jinhelihongyichengweileyimingbeizhudingyaoyumingyunkangzhengdeyingxiong。tamianduizheyigemoshengerweixiandeshijie，xuyaoyongqihezhihuilaizhanshengxieeshili。zheibuduanpianyanqingxiaoshuoronghelemaoxian、qihuanheaiqingyuansu，daijiduzhewujindejingxihegandong，neimehaodeguniangzhongguihaishibunengdechangsuoyuan。“neishilijiaershaolihongyideweihunqi，bushishutongzhoulide。……jiangrangniyubabuneng，yinfaneixindeshensi。

精彩章节

[**jiushi**，zonghuiweizijideexingzhaoyigehelideshuoci]eryueer，longtaitou，

zaizhenzishangdeyiciyejianjishishang，lijiaershaoyelihongyiyingshibawolalechulai，jishishanghenrenao，

renliuyongdong，zashuawushiyipaixinchunqixiang。neiyitianwanshang，wohelihongyilianggerenyirendaiyimianxiaoshoumianju，

zhishiweiletoutoujianyigeguniang，renaodeyezongshichongmandenghuode，milerendeyan，kanshenmedoubutaizhenqie。

zhijidejiandaoneigeguniangshi，taduziyirenzuozaichaguanli，mizheyanjingtingzheshu，

zhidaolihongyipailepaitadejianbang，tacaizhengkaileyanjing，sihujiandaodezuimeilideguang。tayouyidianqiaopi，

xiaodeshihouzhenghaoluchuliangkehuya，haiyoulianggejiuwo，zhenshiwuyouwulvzuichuncuidexiaorong。

zhihoujiushiyiqiquyouhukanzhangezhonghuodong，zongzhi，wozhiyaozuohaoyanhu，rangneierrenwandekaixinjiuhao。

woneitianwanshangjutizuoleshenmewangjile，queshizhongjidewoneitianwanshangzaixiangshenme。shushangshuo，

youjiuwodeguniangshangbeiziguodedouhenku，meiyourenqulianxitamen，sihouguonaiheqiaoshi，weiyoumengpokeliantamen，

yongbianhuazhidianzaitamenlianjialiangbian，zhuanshihoushengchengjiuwo，zhaorelianai。

neishiwodiyicijianxiajiawu**xiajinhe。xiajiazuolaranshengyi，lijiazuodeshiladeshengyi，

congxiaolihongyibianhexiajinhedinglewawaqin，lijiajiadayeda，xiajinheshixiajiadichudezhangshangmingzhu，

daoyeshimendanghudui。benlaiyaoshimeichuneiyidangzishier，zheishihoutamenyinggaidouyouhaizileba！

kepianpianjiushichuleshiqing，longtaitoualongtaitou，minjianyaoqingzhugonglimianyeyaoqingzhu，shangmianwoshuole，

lijiajiadayeda，shihuangshang，longtaitoushiyaoyongdejitianlazhuchulewenti。huangdilaoergangnaqilai，

jingranquandoumiele，dianyedianbushang，zheikezhenzhenchujilejunwang，dachenmenziranbuganshuoshihuangdishide，

chalaichaquchadaotigonglazhudelijia，kexiangerzhi，lijiawanle。lijialaoyezidaoyejueduan，

gangtingdaozheigexiaoxiyibahuojiangdazhaishaole，jiuzheiyang，zheigelongduanlezhenggejiangnanlazhuchanyedelijiameile。

dangzhenshichengyehuangshangbaiyehuangshang。kewozhidaolijiahailiuleyisixuemai，lihongyimeisi，

zaiwodefangjianlibaozheyitanjiu，biankubianhe，heduole，tuguole，kuyale，yiyeguohou，

zhenzishangmeilelijia，meileneigefengliutitangbuchengqidelijiaershao，

baijiadashaoyeshenbianduolegecongminglinglizhishudalideshutongzhouli。

xiajiayebuzaitijishijinianqiandewawaqinyishi，kaishijibaobeidewu**lingmoufuxu，

tingshuowu**weicinaoshangleyichang，houlaibulelezhi。renmengeguogederizi，xianganwushi。

danlashangzheimedayikuaichanyedoukonglexialai，zongshiyaoyoubierenchixialaide，

zheishihouwoneigebamianlinglongdediedaochuzouguanxichenglexindehuangshang。woxingbai，mingbaisheng。

lijiazhiwaizuidadelashangdashaoye，baijiaweilaidejichengren。zhoulibuzaishiyiqianneigelihongyi，

tazuoshixiangdegengduo，zuoshigengxizhi，suiranwoyijiwodejiarendoudaitahenhao，danzhongguitabushiyiqiandekuoshao，

woxintengta，queyewunengweili，zhinengjinliangduitahao，zhinengjinliangbutijiguoqu。zhidaoneizhuangshideyinianhou，

juranyoumeipolaiwojiajiwoshuoqin，duixiangjingranshineigewu**deshihou，fuqindarenduizheizhuanghunshihenshimanyi，

wenwodekanfa，wocaiyishidao，hongyihexiajia**zenmeban？neigexiaoqilaiyanzhongyouguang，

daizheqiaopijiuwodekeaiguniangyibianyouyibiandechuxianzaiwonaohaizhong。

wohuidaoshufangkandaozhengzaineilikanshudehongyiduitashuo：“xiajialaitiqinle。”taweiweiyileng，

zhuangsibuzaiyidefangxiashu，wendao：“nagexiajia？neijiaguniangnikexihuan？”“xiajinhedexiajia，

laranxiajiadezhangshangmingzhu。niwenwoxibuxihuan？neishinideqi！”wodingzheta，wobuxiangxintabuzaihu，

duoshaocijiezhewodayanhuzhiweiquzhaoneiguniang，tadeyongqingwozenhuibuzhi？

neimehaodeguniangzhongguihaishibunengdechangsuoyuan。“neishilijiaershaolihongyideweihunqi，bushishutongzhoulide。

kuangqielihongyiyisi，neiqinshizuobudeshu。”tadeshengyinyouxiezhandou，danhaishishuolechulai。“pangrenbuzhi，

woqihuibuzhi，niqiegaosuwo，zhishini，nikexihuanneigexiawu**。”tameiyoushuohua，

zhishihenaishangdekanzhewo，moleyouhuanhuandenaqineibenshu，beiguoshenzi，shuo：“wopeima？”“nizheimehao，

zenhuibupei！”“baisheng，nibieshuole，woxinliyoushu，wonengjitashenme？

ruoshiwodeshenfenbaoluhaihuilianleileta，xianzaidewobuguoshiyigeshenwufenwendexiaoshutongbale，

xiajiabuhuitongyi，wozijiyebuhuitongyide。”wokanzhetashouxuedejianbang，shoudashangtadejianbang，

rangtakanzhewo：“nizhidaodangshinishizenmetaochulaidema？

niyeyechudajiaqianrangzhenzhengdezhoulidingtilenidesi，guanfushichabudaode，ranhouyouweituowozhaoguni，

xianzainijiushizhouli。”“weishenmeshiwo？weishenmezhirangwoyigerenhuozhe，

ruoshidagehuozheyinggaibuhuixiangwozheime......”dangshihongyizhizhidaoshiwobatadayunkangzoujiulehuilai，

erjialirendoutaobuguozheiyijie，tazhishijiaoxingyouwozheimeyigepengyou，kexianzaizhidaoshilijialaoyezimouhuade，

zhitayigerenhuozhe，xinzhongziranwufajieshou。“zheijianshiwobenbuxiangtongnishuo，zheiyangniyebuhuizheibannanguo，

keshihongyi，lijiazhiyouninenghuoxialai。”“weishenmeshiwo，weishenmezhinengshiwo？”talenglengdekanzhewo，

keshiwozhidaotawendebushiwo，ershizuochuzheigejuedingdelijialaoyezi。wozhidaoshiweishenme，

keshizhenzhengyuanyinjiaoworuheshuochukou？“lijiademiezushitianzijueding，

nijiusuanqusongsiyebuguoshiduanlelijiazuihoudexianghuo，wojiangyunizheixiezhishixiwangnikeyihaohaode，

nibubihaipashenme，bubiyoushenmegulv，nimeiyoushenmedanyoudebiyao，nikeyiquzhaoneixiawu**。

”“wo...woyaohaohaohuozhe.....”“dui，xiangyiqianyiyang，niwanquankeyixiangyiqianyiyang，

youwozai，wokeyihefuqindarenshuoshouniweiyizi，ranhounikeyiguangmingzhengdadeyingquxiawu**。”“baisheng，

zhei......zenkeshide！”tadeshengyinfazhan，youxiekuangxi，yinianlaideyinyuyeyoulexiexiaosan。

keshiqingzaiwoxiangfuqintijishi，chulechazi，fuqindarenzhizhewodebizinumadao：“nizi！”ranhouni？

bimensiguoma？shirihou，fuqinqulexiajialachengyizhihunyue，xiajinhechenglewodeweihunqi，

hongyiziwoguanjinbihouyebuzhisuozong。yizhidaosangeyuehou，chengqinneiri，shuoshijishi，ketianquehuimengmengde，

xiangshipojiudeniuzibuyoudiaojinderangang，wozaifuqindejianduxiayibuyibudezouchujinbishi，zoujinqinshi，

huanshangxifu，zoujinhuating，zoudaotingyuan，chulebaijiadamen，yingquxinniang。

laibinyingkedelianshangdouxiaozheqingzhuzhezheiyiqiedefasheng，fuqinbengjindelianshangyejianjianfangsong，

sihuzaiyingjiezhewodexinsheng，cishidewoquezhixiangyizoulezhi，wozhudingduibuqixiajinhe**，duibuqihongyi。

yibaitiandi，erbaigaotang，fuqiduibai，shanwuling，jiangshuiweijie。dongleizhenzhen，xiayuxue。tiandihe，

naiganyujunjue。zhongyaofujunxin。yeweiliang，shengjianxie，dongfanghuazhu，zhuleiluoruzhu，xinniangwanzuochuangqian，

woheshangmen，zheibianshixiajia**，jinhele。wocishengdeqima？wocishengyaoxiangshouderenma？keshihongyi，

zhongjiushitanleyikouqi。duimianderenerweiweizhandouzhe，tingdaomenguandezhiyayisheng，youshihenhenyizhan。

tabuzhizijiyaomianduideshiyigezenyangdefu，xiongyebuxiong？youshifoushigeliangren？

danzhongjiuhaishiburutongtaxiangbanyijiudehongyi。tadingshipajilede，zheiyangyigekeren，wohaishihedaoleta。

woxinzhongyouxiesuanyi，wosuanbudeliangren，manmanzoudaotadeshenbian，tiaoqihonggaitou，

rumudequeshiyizhangmanlianleihendelian，xiniangzhuanghuadeyitahutu，zhiliangzhiyanjingzhengdedadade，zhongzhongde，

youyouyuanyuan，xiemankonghuangyuhenyi。hen？tahenwo？muguangxiangjiao，zhuguangshandong，dahongjiayi，xinniangluolei，

manshininan。woqingqingfushangtademianjia，shiqumanmianzhulei，zhongshitanlekouqi：“nishuiba！

wo...shuidishang。”taxiudetonghongdelianmengdetaiqikanzhewo，dianlediantou，heyiermian。neiyiye，

henzhanghenzhang，zhangdaowotingdaochuangwaifengqi，yudiandaluo，hongzhuranjin，shandianzhaoliangmanshi，leishengluoxia，

tingdaochuangshangdetafachujishengdingning，youzaikule，kudeyinren，kudeneiyangshangxin。wozuoqilai，

tatingdaowodeshengyin，mashangtingxialeshengyin，jixiaoshengdeshuo：“jinhecuole，jinhezhishitaisinianjiazhongfumu。

”“hongyiqishimeisi。”“ni...woburenshishenmehongyi。”“eryueer，longtaitou，

nikehaijideyipangdeshaonian？”“........”tameiyouzaishuoshenme，danwonengganjuedaotazaikanwo。

youbuzhiguoleduojiu，tingdaotayouzhangdehuxisheng，ningjingde，yushengjianxie。hongyiqulenali？wozhendebuzhidao。

ciri，jifuqindarendiguoxifucha，jinhechenglebaijiashaofuren，jiuzheiyangyoutiaobuwendejinxingzhe，guanlijiawu，

chulicangku……wocongxiaowumu，jiazhongshiqingyizhishidaguanjiazhaogu，jinhededaolai，

fuzhongsihuyoulebieyangdeshengqi，tazaichizhongzhongxiamantangbailian，yangleyizhilihuamao，shichangbaozhe，

youshiyuanyuandekandaowo，haihuiduiwoxiaoyixiao，taiqimaozhuaxiangwohuangyihuang。zheixiewoconglaimeiyouguanguotashenme，

zaifuzhongjiletazuidadeziyou。wojuede，wozongshiduibuzhutade。youshiyinianlongtaitou，

cishiwoyujinheyijingchenghunbannianyouyu，zheiqijianwoyizhizaizhaohongyiquezenmeyezhaobudaotadexialuo，

wowenguofuqin，fuqinshuotadangshizhishijianghongyiganchubaifu，zhiyutadequchujiubuzhidaole，fuqinmeiyoupianwo。

zheiri，woyujinhedoudaizheyizhixiaoshoumianju，tashixianbuzhude，zoudaowodiyicijiantadechaguan，

buzijueliaodaolehongyi。“baisheng，tahuizainani？”jinhezheishizaixiangta，wokandechulai，

tameishikedouzaixiangta。haijidediyicijianta，mouzhongdaiguang，yanliwushuang，xianzaidetawenwanrushui，

zhishudali。“taa！taneiyangderenjiuyinggaixiaoyaozizaidezaimouchuhezhexiaojiu，pinzhefengyue，

shuobudingmouyiketuransinianqiguren，luogejidilei，dazuiyichang。”woyouxiewunaidexiaolexiao，

molemotadetou，taweiweiyijiang，daoshimeiyouduokai，

youduiwoshuodao：“qianxierizijiazhongmuqinlaixinwenwomenkehaihao，wodoutiaohaohuahuileta，muqinhaishuo，

wenshenmeshihoubaowaisun...”tayouxiexiuhe，shengyinyuelaiyuedi，zhongshishuobuxiaqule，

zheihuierfandaoshiwoyouxiebuzhisuocuole，kanzheta，cishimianjuxiadeneizhangliandingranshihongjilede，

hongdaoleerduogen，tamuguangkanzhedimian，toutoutaiyanzhenghaokanjianwozaikanzheta，simuxiangdui，

liangrendeyanjingbuyueertongdeyoudoucuokaile。cishiwozuoleyijianzhijindouhouhuiwubideshiqing，

woqingqingtaiqitadetou，fuzhetadexiaoshoumianju，qingqingde，huanhuandepengleshangqu，wodangshidingshihunletou，

sihugezhemianjuganshoudaobicishuangchundeguntang，wotingdaomianjuxiadetadehuxisheng，jicude，jinghuangde，

shirande，manmandetabaozhuwo，sishiyongjinlequanbuyongqi，yaojiangworongjinqu。yiyexile，hongshazhangnuan，

qingsijiuchanzaiyiqi，wohetazhongjiuheyiqianbutongle。shiyuehenkuaijiuguoqule，bansuizhexiaoshaoyedekusheng，

fuqinfangxindejiangzhangjiaquanjiaojilewo，xianlaiwushi，woxihuanshangquchunxiloutingqu，neijiadexiziyangmaoqingshou，

tongwozongshiliaodelai，woyutatantianshuodi，rutonghuidaonianshaoshidesuiyue。jinhezongshiyincichenguaiwo，

danjiazhongyinqianfuyu，tazongyewufaduoshuowoshenme。wocengyiweizheibanfujiawengderizijiushiyibeizi，

kezongyouxieshiqing，taobuguoyeduobule，danfanzuoguo，jiuhuiliuxiahenji。zhoulihuilaineiri，

wozhengtingzheneixizichangqu，erpangdashangdejinejurangaiguolewode，huitouyipie，neirenyixiqingyixiaozhekanwo，

tashuo：“baisheng，bielaiwuyang。”tahaishicongqiandemoyang，tashuozijizheixienianzuolehenduoshengyi，

daotenglexiejixu，tashuozheicizuoshengyitujingcichu，xiangzhelaikankanguren。tachengshulehenduo，

tantujianshijinglizaitashenshangliuxiadechendian，zaipangrencuoedemuguangzhong，wozhongjiuhaishirenbuzhujinjinyongbaozhuta，

kouzhongnannanniantaozhe：“nizhidaozheixienianwoyouduodanxinnima？nirangwozhaodehaoku！

”zhoulimeixiangdaowohuizheiyang，xianshiyileng，suijiqingqingpaizhewodebeianweizhe：“dangniandeshiqinggeyounanchu，

rujinniwodouhaianhao，tingwennidoushidangdiederenle。”woweiweiyizhi，tazhidaole，

danhaishichoushenlazhetadeshou，rutongnianshaoshineiban，xiaozhedaquta：“nikeyoujixiaozhierdaijianmianli？

jiupingzanliangdejiaoqing，yihuierwodingyaojiaoneihaizibainizuoyifu...”shuoshuoxiaoxiaojian，rulebaifu，

jinhezaihouyuan，laikezaiqianting，zhongjiangelehaojidaomen，zibuhuiyouduozuidexiarenshuolaoyedeshiqing。zheiri，

zhouliziranshiliusubaifule。yueguangjiaojie，woqueshishizaishuibuzhe，yinzhehaiziyuangu，wohejinhefenfangerju，

pingchangdoushuizaishufangpangdexiaowoshinei。tingdaoshiweihuanbandejiaobushengshi，zhengshichoushi，wozuoqishen，

zhengxiangduiwaimiandingzhujiju，pingfengwai，fangmenkaile。menfengneilitouguoyilvguang，yigeyingzizuanlejinlai。“！

”wolianmangzaichuangshangtanghao，yidongbugandong，yadihuxi，yanjingquebuzijuededingxiangwaijian。huozhezideguangliangqi，

neirenzainuodongwodedongxi，wobuganfachushengyin，zhixiwangzheizeirenganjinzouchuzheiwuzi，daitachulezheiwuzi，

wohaohanzhuazei。turan，weimanbeiyizhishouliaokai，wotongneizeirensimuxiangdui。“hongyi！”taiguoturan，

wozhijiejiujiaochuleshengyin，waimiandeshiweidengshitingjian，kaishiqiaomen。lihongyiyanshenyining，

shouzhongyiwuzhijiedizaiwodehoujian，liangliangde。“meishi，xiaquba。”zaitazhunbeijinyibudongzuoqian，

wozhijiechukouhuifulewaimian。lihongyideyanzhongshanguoyisibujie，danneibishourengransisidizhe，dailexieteng。

wohuanhuantuchuyikouqi，shouzhijiazhudaoren，xiangyaojiangbishounuokai，danhongyiliqihenda，womenerrenjiangchibantian，

sheiyemeiyourangbu。“nibujieshiyixiama？”wokanzheta，xinlimianqishiyinyinyouxiecaice，danwobuxiangshuo。

hongyideyanjingsisidengzhewo，wonengkanjiantayinweiyonglishouzhangshangbaoqideqingjin，tayadishengyin，

sihuyaobayachiyaosui：“weishenmehuanlazhu？”wodexinligedengyixia，

danhaishiluchumimangdebiaoqing：“nizaishuoshenme？”“sannianqian，longtaitou，huangdidianrandelazhu！

shinizuoleshoujiao！”tashouzhongdebishouyouwangxiayaleya，sishiyaobawoshengtunjindu。“he，

nandaobushiwojiulenixingmingma？nijiushizheiyangbaodaenrende？”tayeshixiangdaoleshenme，bishouweiweiyisong，

woyigefanshen，zhijieyazailetadeshenshang，errenweizhidiandao，bishouluorulewodeshouzhong。