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《tadezibaishu》shiyouzuozhe“yuyaoluoxue”chuangzuobianxie，xiaoshuonannvzhurengongshiwangningtiecilitao，qizhongzhuyaoqingjieshi：weiweizhangkou，quemeiyoushuochushenme，“xianbaneitianduiwoshuodehuajiangjinibatingyici，tatingdaohuihenkaixinde，……

精彩章节

“sisu，woxianxialoukaiche，nikuaiyidian。”tangxiaqiubianwangmenwaizoubianshuo，woshichuanlaiyizhiqishengyinhuida，

“ma，womashangjiuhao。”tangxiaqiumoranxialou，dakaicheku，kaichedaochucheku，zaizuoweishangjingjingfadai。

buduoshi，gangmanshiqisuidetangsisupaoxialai，feikuaizuanjincheli，tangxiaqiuyebushuohua，

zaizhetangsisushixiangjiaoqudemudi。xiaosisuyeshiyinglemuqindezheizhongfanchangdichenmo，bingweijuedeyayi，

yinianliangcidemudizhixing，zheimeduoniandangzhenzaojiushiyingle。xiaosisugenzaimuqinshenhou，

kanzhetameinianjihuyimoyiyangdedongzuo，bujueyouxieyanjuan，taxiaoxindipieleyanyisibugoudemuqin，

shengpabeitafajuedaozijidemanbujingxin。zicongduonianqiantazaimuqiandalegehaqianhaidemuqindafaleiting，

tabianxiaoxinleqilai。‘haozaimeinianyejiuliangci，buduobuduo。’xiaosisuzaixinliziwoanweishuozhe。

tangxiaqiujingzizouxiangmuyuandejiaoluo，neilikaojinbianyuan，weiqiangwaidelaoshutouxiadapiandeyinying。

yexuyufengshuiyouguan，zhouweishenshikongdang，zhiyougulinglingdeyizuomu，shijinianlai，yijiuruci，bujianxinfen。

tangxiaqiufangxiazaozaomaihaodehua，yipinghaisuanbucuodehongjiu，daozhibeizibafen，jierdaozaidishang。

xiaosisukanguanlemuqinyinianliangcideshenjingzhi，zishibuyiweiran，naizhexingzidunzaimuqinshenpang。

mubeishangdeheibaizhaopianshang，shiyigemianqiangsuandeshangbusuannankandenanren，niansuibingbuda，mingzijiaoxiaosu。

‘zenmegenwokanguodeneixieshudezuojiajiaoyigemingzi？gaisidezhongmingguai。’xiaosisuzaixinlidigu，

zheixiehuatakebuganrangmuqintingjian。“zuijinhaihaoma？”tangxiaqiushenshoufumozhaopianshangdenanrendelian，

shengyinqingdekeyibeifengchuiqilai。“meixiangdaonihaizhenshuoduile，zheidifangdangzhenbuzhaorendaijianni。shijinianle，

haishizhiyounizai，liangelinjudoumeiyou。buguoyehao，nineipiqi，genbierenyexiangchubulai，

yigerenyeqingjingdehen。”tangxiaqiuziyanziyu，minleyikoujiu，“nikan，xiaosisudouzheimedale，mingnian，

tayeyaoshangdaxuele，nicaitaduiwoshuoleshenme？tayaoxuezhongwen，yihouyaozuozuojia，henkaixinduibudui？

”tangxiaqiuzhuantouduixiaosisushuo，“guolai，banineitianduiwoshuodehuajiangjitating，rangtayekaixinyixia。

”xiaosisushenzhimuqinyinianliangcidegengnianqi，buganwuni，guaiqiaodiwangqiannuolenuo，xiaoshengshuodao：“ma，

wojiaotashenme？”tangxiaqiumianseandan，kuxiaohuidashuo：“nibushiyizhiwenwonibabashisheima？

tashinibaba。”xiaosisuyiwangbuganwenqiyouguanzijifuqindeshi，

xiaoshihoumuqinweiyiyicizhennuzheshirangtaduimudihezheigerenxinyouyuji，ermeiyiciwenqifuqin，

muqinyezongshikuxiaoyaotou，“tashiwoba？！”xiaosisu‘teng’dizhanqilai，tangxiaqiuyijiupingjingdikanzheta，

xiaosisubanshibukezhixinbanshichayideyouheiyanzhuzhongjiuhaishidibuguomuqinpingjingdebuqibolandemuguang，

weiweizhangkou，quemeiyoushuochushenme，“xianbaneitianduiwoshuodehuajiangjinibatingyici，tatingdaohuihenkaixinde，

huijiawogaosuniguanyutadeshiqing。”xiaosisuzhihaozhongxindunxia，“ba。

”biandaliangzhaopianzhongdexiaosubianshuozhejigeyueqiancengyumuqinshuoqiguodemengxiang，“woxiangyihoudangyimingzuojia，

napayibeiziqiongkunyewusuowei，zhiyaoyouyibenshunengzaiwosihouhaiyourenyuanyikan，nengjidewojiuxing。

wobuxiangxiejigeyuehuozhejinianjiuwurenwenjindeshu，woxiangxienengrangrenyibeizidouyuanyikandeshu，bufenlaoyou，

dounengkandeshu。”xiaosisudeyanshenjianding，yuqitongyangshaoyoudezhandingjietie。“nikan，

xiaosisushibushiheniyiyang？”tangxiaqiuchongnidirouzhexiaosisudetoufa，“gennineishiyuwoshuodeshihou，

douzheimejianding，henkaixinba？nideyiboyourenjichengle。”tangxiaqiuyanjingmengshangyicengshuiqi，

“neishinizheibanduiwoshuo，yeshixiaosisuzheimeda，xianzaixiaosisu，yezheimedale。”“ma！”duonianlai，

xiaosisucongweijianguomuqinzaizheizhongshihouku，turanyouxiebuzhisuocuo。“xiaosu，womenzoule，gaitianzailaikanni。

”tangxiaqiuzuihoudaoshangyibeijiu，lazhexiaosisuzouxiangyuanchu，jiaoluoxiaosudefenmugujidekelian。yiluwuhua，

errenhuidaojia，tangxiaqiuzuodaozhuobian，daoxiayibeishui，zhaohuxiaosisushuo：“guolaiba，

jintianjiubashiqingdougaosuni。”xiaosisuzongsuandenglaizheijuhua，xunsupaoguolai，laoshizuozaimamamianqian，

yifuzhuanxinzhizhidebiaoqing。“nizheiyatou。”tangxiaqiupailepaixiaosisudejianbang，kaishilemanzhangdexushu。

wogenniba，shizhongxuetongxue。shangzhongxuedeshihou，woyebuguoshigangcongxiaoxuebiyedexiaoguniang，budongneimeduo，

zhishiduitahenshangxin，yinweizaineigenianji，tashiyigechuanqi。zheiyaocongdiaozuoweichengweiwodetongzhuokaishi，

houlaitashuo，woshidiyigegentatongzhuodenvhaizi。tazongshilanyangyangde，shangkeyizhidouzaitoutoumomodishuijue，

wulunshenmeke，bushizaishuijuejiushizaibenzishang，shushangdekongbaixiedongxi，qichuwobingbuzhidaotazaixieshenme，

haiyiweishitazaizuobiji。jieguoyidiandoubuhuichuhuyiliao，diyiciyuekao，tadechengjihencha，

lianyuwendouzhishijiangjiangjige，chengweilefenshuzuidideneimeyixiaocuoren。woneishihouyeshixiaohaizi，

kantazongshimanbujingxinde，haichangchangshuijue，jiubuzenmelihuitale，haizaizhuozishanghualeyidao‘sanbaxian’，

tayebuzaihu，xialekejiupaochuqugennantongxuefeng，shangkelejiuhuilaixiexiehuahuahuoshishuijue。neigeshihou，

womenbanjideyuwenlaoshi，buzhidaoweishenmehenshichongta，jiusuantashangkeshuijuetayeconglaibuguan，

youshihoumeirenhuidawentiyechangchangjiaotahuida。wojuedetebieshenqidejiushinapatazhengzaishuijue，

laoshijiaotahuidashenme，tayenenghuidachulaidaan。neigeshihou，shundaide，laoshiyehuichangchangtiwenwo，

dangzuotiwentadezengpin。weilezuowenshuipingtigao，yuwenlaoshiyaowomeitiandoubeiyiduanhaojuhaoduan，

yibianzhengmingyouzaikanshuxuexi，tajiushiwulunlaiwanlehaishilaizaoledouhuibeide，erwoyechangchangbeilianlei。

neishihoumeitianwanshangdouhuimata，matalianleiwoxiewanzuoyehaidebeiyiduanshu。neitianzaoshang，womeibeishu，

qianyitianzuoyexiedetaiwanle，zaoshangdouhunhunchenchende。gangqiaodiyijiekeshiyuwenke，zaozixiwojiukaishizhaoshu，

zhaoshenmehaojuhaoduan。tabanmizheyanjingjiamei，beiwozhuozishangluoqilaideshupengdaogebo，zheicaizhengyan，

henshibunaifandidishengwenwo：“yidazaonijiuzheteng？jinermeichiyao？”“biefanwo，womeizhaozhaichao。

”wotouyebutaijixuzhaohaojuhaoduan，tameihuida，quediguolaiyigebenzi，dangzhulewodeshu，“niganma？

”“nisuibianzhaoyiduanbeiba。”tasongkaishou，benzidiaozaiwodeshushang，womanfuhuaiyidakai，

limianquanshiyiduanduandagaijishizidaobailaizideduanluo，errangwojingyadebingbushizheige，

ershijihuxiemanlezhengfanliangmiandebenzi，limianjingranmeiyounageshiwotingtabeiguode。

“xiaosu……”woyongkebendangzhulianhuitouwenta，shengpajiangtaideyuwenlaoshikanjian，“beiba，jiejini，

beiwanlehaijiwo。”tarengjiujiamei，duiwoshenshifuyan。woyexiguantazheizhongsirenkouqi，

zhaodaoyiduantebielanglangshangkoudekaishibei。shuolaiyeqiguai，yiwangwobeiguoyonglaiyingfulaoshide，

daduozaojiuwangjile，neicibeixialaide，xianzaihaijidezheimeyiju：changyishaonianlang，qinyingzongquan，wanrenduwang，

jinrituitang，hujianbawangbuguojiang。wokandaodediyiyan，jiushineijubawangbuguojiang。guobuchusuoliao，

diyijiekelaoshidiyigetiwentabeizhaichao，diergejiushiwo，wobeitabenzishangdeduanluo，xinlitante，

taqueshilaoshenzaizai。dengdaoxiake，tazhengyaochuqu，beiwoyibalazhu，tadekouqiyidiandoubukeqi：“youshi？

”woneishihoubenjiushiruanruoxingzi，beitayixiong，jiushuobuchuhualai，“nishixiangwenwodezhaichaonalilaide？

shiwomeishishihouluanxiede，haiyoubiedeyaowendemei？”tadeyanjingshangxiadaliangwo，youdianweibuxianzhideweidao，

wenchulai，woyezhishiyaotou，songkaishou，tajiuzouchujiaoshichuquwan。zijixiedema？wobingbuxiangxintadehua，

zaiwoyanli，tayigeyuwenzhibuguogangjigederenshibukenenghuixieshenmeshicidedongxide。shangkelingdaxiang，

tacaihuilai，ranhouwozhengjieke，doumeixinsitingke，douzaigentaxiaoshengshuohuahuoshichuanzhitiao。jutasuoshuo，

tashicengjingbagujinzhongwaimingzhukandedoukuaibeixialaide，tangshisongcigengshishoudaoqinlai，wozhisuoyixiangxintadehua，

haishinazhetazijizhuoliedeyiduanyingyuzhaodaoleyingyulaoshi，

laoshigaosuwozheishidigengsi《shuangchengji》deyiduanhua，laoshidefanyiyutagaosujiwodeyisidatongxiaoyi，

zheishihouwocaizhidao，tasuibianxiexialaide，suoweiderangwokeyixiangxinde‘zhengju’juranzheimewuxiekeji。

erneizhangzhitiao，xianzaihaijiazaishujiashangde《shuangchengji》limian。dierciyuekao，buchuwosuoliao，

tachengjirengjiudiandi，buguowogandaojingyadeshi，tadeyingyutinglimanfen，

qitatiduobanshitaweilejieyueshijianshuijuehuluanxuande，yinweimeisidaotidexuanxiangdoushiabcddexunhuanmoshi，

yingyuzuowenyoutaiduociwojiandoumeijianguo。tadeyuwenshijuansuiranfenshubugao，keshitabingmeiyouxiezuowen，

zhidaqianmiandetidounengliushiduofenjiejinmanfen，napatazuowenjiuzhiyousanshifendounengjiushifenyishang，yejiushishuo，

tazheiliangkezhishizaihunao。buguowoxinweideshi，qitakemutashizhendeyitahutu，

tadeqitakemudequeshiyigedidaodechadengsheng。“nimingmingkeyikaogaofende，weishenmebuhaohaokaoshi？

”congxiaodaoda，bamadouwubizaiyiwodechengji，jinguanwonuli，kechengjiyizhiwendingzaizhongyoupianshang，

erwobingbunenglijietabakaoshidangzuoerxidejudong。“tuzi，wogaosuni，zheigeshijieshang，

buhuiyounirenweideneiyangde。”tadiyiciduiwoshuodaduandehua，“wobuhuiqitakemu，yidiandoubuhui，

yinweiwoduineixiebuganxingqu，erqiedoumeiyouyidianyongchu。wohuichengweiyigezuojia，

xiechuwosilezhihoudouhuiyourentuichongdeshu。duiwolaishuo，woyizhizainuli，erkaoshi，

xuexizheixieduiwomeishenmeyongchu。woyingyuhao，shiyinweiwoxihuankanwaiguodexiaoshuo，

woyebuxuyaokaozheixiechengjirangbierenkandeqiwo。”tashuozheixiehuadeshihou，yanjingzaifaguang，shizhende，

bushiwodecuojue，tadeyanjingdoushixiwang，doushimengxiang。“tuzi，nidemengxiangni？”“wo？

”wobeitaturandewentiwenmengle，“woxiangshanghaodaxue，xiangshibeida……”tahaobuliuqingdidaduanwo，

“wobushiwennishangshenmedaxue，woshiwennidemengxiang，birunixiangchengweishenmeyangderen，zuoshenmeyangdegongzuo，

xiangqushenmedifanglvxing，xiangdadaoshenmemubiaozheiyangde。”tayanjingbuda，kequejiongjiongyoushen。“wobuzhidao。

”wobugankantadeyanjing，wobeitazhuiwendeyakouwuyan，congxiaodoushibamashuoyaowozuoshenmewojiuquzuoshenme，

tamenshuoyaowozuozheige，yinweiduiwohao，suoyiwojiuzuole，houlaizhangdacaizhidaozheijiaonilaishunshou。“tu。

”tadeyanshenbiandeaishang，“nibuhuijuedeleima？weibierenhuozhe。

”wobudongtaturanwenzheijuhuashishenmeyisi，zhishiyaotou，“nihuikanjiande，huikandaowodeshubaizaishujiashang，

huikandaowozaidianshishang，zaidiannaoshang，nihuikandaode。”tadekouqiburuganggangjianjue，fanerpinghe，

haoxiangzaishuojintianfangxueyaohuijiazheimeyijianputongdeshiqing，lisuodangranyouputongpingjingdeganjue。

dangwobamazhidaotadechengji，zhaodaolelaoshibawodiaoqubiedeweizhi，tabeianpaizaiyigerendezuowei，

zhiyoutaziji。taouerhuizaixiakezuozaiwopangbianduiwoshuotadeshiqing，birucanjiashenmebisaila，

xiaoshuozainagezazhifabiaoledengdeng，woxihuantingtaduiwoshuozheixie，wodangchuyiweiwoxihuanshangtale，

xianzaicaixiangmingbai，aitashihoulaideshiqingle，neishihouxihuantingtashuozheixiezhishiyinweitademengxiang。neitian，

tameiyoulai，zhengrutazuotianduiwoshuode，yaoqubeijingcanjiabisai。wodiyicizhongwugenzhetongxuetoutoupaoquwangba，

shangwangquxunzhaotademingzi，keshimeiyouzaibisaimingdanzhongzhaodao‘xiaosu’zheilianggezi。xinhuiyileng，

bushiyinweitapianwo，ershiyinweitafuchukemeiyouhuibao，youzaijianchi。zhengzhengyigexingqi，tadoumeiyouhuilai，

wodoukuaiwangjibisaizheijianshideshihou，tahuilaile。

talaibujiduiwoshuoshenmejiubaozheshubaoqudaobanzhurendebangongshi，dengtahuilai，tajiwokanbisaideshihou，

tayuqitaxuanshoudeheying，haiyoujigechumingzuojiazuoweipingwei，tayupingweideheying，haiyouhuoshengdezhengshu，

yijihetongdefuyinjian。“kandaolema？tu，wochenggongle。”tadeyanshenhuanle，woyezhenxindititagaoxing，

erwoyeshineishihoukaishihuizaiwangshangsousuoyigemingzi——liao。tadebiming，zaiwangbashangdiannaokandaoguode，

tademingzi。neinian，womenchusan。gaozhongwoyijiangjiangdabiaodechengjishangleshizhongdian，ertashanglelingyisuogaozhong。

tadechengjiyirujiwangderenxing，haishichuzhongneiyang，budaderengjiubuda。youshitahuishangwanggenwoliaotian，

wohuoduohuoshaodezhidaotadeshiqing，

lingyigeyouxinggentatongbandechuzhongtongxuezonghuiyichongbaidekouqigenwoshuoqitadegushi，

erzheixiebeirenchongbaideshiqing，tashicongbugenwojiangde，yexuzaitakanlai，

zheixiedoushigentademengxiangwuguanjinyaodedongxi。yeshizaineigeshihou，woxihuanshangtale。meitianwanshang，

tadouhuipeiwoliaotian。zhijinwoyijingjibuqingweishenmetajiaowotuzi，tazongshihuianweiwo，gaosuwotadeshiqing。

duoshushihoudoushitingtazaishuojintianfashengshenmehuozhetayouxiangqishenmeyangdegushi，erwojingting，

oueryehuigentabaoyuan，tayongzhuoliedeshouduananwei。ranhouyouyitian，tagaosuwo，taxiawubushangkele。

tayijingzoudeyuelaiyueyuan，erwoyezhujianrenqingxianshi。wozuiduowufeishishangyisuoputongdedaxue，

biyelezhaoyifenebusiyoubuhuidafudaguidegongzuo，ertazaojiuyiqijuechen，

xiangliangdedashangchuzhongbanzhurenhetongxuejiazhangyijierguang。youshihoutachuqukaihui，qucanjiagongsidehuodong，

huidaijiwoyixiedangdidexiaowanju，huozheshuoshigongyipin，ertadeshu，