偷窥日记的野兽他植入的记忆谎言胖胖阿旻-著

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《toukuirijideyeshoutazhirudejiyihuangyan》shiyibulingrenxindongdexiandaiyanqingxiaoshuo，youpangpangaminqiaomiaogousi。gushijiangshuleshenzhiqinruofeizaiyiciourandeshijianzhongtashangleyiduanwujindemaoxianzhilv。shenzhiqinruofeijiangmianduigezhongweixianhemiti，bingjieshileyiqundaoyiheyouyidehuoban。tongguozhihui、yongqiheyili，shenzhiqinruofeizhujianfaxianlezijidezhenzhengshiming，bingweizhifendoudaodi。wonengtingjianzijidexintiaosheng，xiangyimianbeifengkuangleidongdezhangu，yishengbiyishengxiang，zhendewoermowengwengzuoxiang。……jiangdailingduzhetansuoyigechongmanjingxihegandongdeshijie。

精彩章节

woanlianlesanniandehezunanshen，zhengzhanzaiwofangjianzhongyangfankanwoderiji。

tazhijiantingzaineixingzuixiuchidewenzishang，taitoushiyanshenbingleng："linxi，nidaodishibushi'ni'？

"dangwofaxianrijilipingkongduochucongweijingliguode"jiyi"，

letajingxinshejideshiyanpin…diyizhang：wozhuazhuleyizhizhengzaitoukuiwolinghundeyeshou（1）tuikaimendeshunjian，

wodeshijiefenliechengleliangban。yibanshibangwanwenroudejuseguangxian，nuanrongrongdisazaigongyudibanshang，

kongqilifuzhewoxindiaode“lvyexianzong”xiangfen，shiqingcao、chenluheyidiandianbaihuadeweidao。lingyiban，

shidiyu。shenzhijiuzhanzaiwodefangjianzhongyang，neigewoanlianlezhengzhengsannian，lianzaimenglidoubuganxiedudenanren。

tachuanzhejiandandebaisetxuhehuisejiajuku，xiyangweitadushangleyicengjinbian，

meihaodexiangyizunjianglinfanjiandeshenzhi。ketashouli，quenazhewoderiji。

neibenwoyongzuixihuandeyuanweihuaqiangzhibaozheshupi，shanglesuode，

zangzhewosuoyoubeiwei、kuangxihejuewangxinshideriji。shijianfangfobeianxialezantingjian。

wonengtingjianzijidexintiaosheng，xiangyimianbeifengkuangleidongdezhangu，yishengbiyishengxiang，zhendewoermowengwengzuoxiang。

woshenzhinengwendaokongqizhongwomenliangrenshenshangbutongdeqiwei——tashenshangshiqingliedexuesongheyancaohunhedelengxiang，

erwo，dagaizhiyoujinghuangshicuode、hanshidelangbei。tatingdaolekaimensheng，huanhuandi，huanhuandihuiguotou。

neizhangwocengzaihuazhishangmiaomoguowushubiandelian，cikemeiyousihaohuangluan。tadeyanshenshensuirugujing，

jiuneimepingjingdikanzhewo，fangfotabushiyigechuangruwosimilingdideqiezei，

ershiyigezhengzaijinxingshenshengyishidejisi。tashenzhimeiyoulikeheshangrijiben。tadezhijian，

haitingliuzaiwozuotianganggangxiexiadeneiyixingzishang。“wojintian，youyicimengjianshenzhile。zaimengli，tawenlewo。

”xiuchiganxiangshaohongdeluotie，henhentangzaiwodelianshang。xueye“hong”deyishengchongshangtouding，

wojihuyaodangchangyunjue。wowufaxiangxiang，takandaoleduoshao。shikandaowoxietadalanqiushi，

hanshuihuaguohoujiedexinggan；haishikandaowomiaoshutashenyezaishufanggongzuoshi，celiandezhuanzhuyuqingleng；youhuozhe，

kandaolewoneixiezuibukande、guanyuweilaidehuanxiang——zaiyisuodaiyuanzidefangzili，heta，heyizhijinmaoquan，

gongduyusheng。meiyigezi，doushiwopoukaixiongtang，xianjichudeguntangzhenxin。erxianzai，

zheixiezhenxinbeitaxianglubiandechuandanyiyangsuiyifanyue，lianjiayoukexiao。

“ni……”wodehoulonggandexiangsahalashamo，fachudeshengyinsiyadebuxiangziji，“nizaiganshenme？

”shenzhidemuguangcongrijibenshangyikai，luozaiwoshabaidelianshang。tameiyoudaoqian，meiyoujieshi，

shenzhimeiyouyisiyihaodekuijiu。tazhishiqingqingheshanglerijiben，fachu“pa”deyishengqingxiang，

neishengyinxiangyigeerguang，shanzaiwozaoyidangranwucundezizunshang。“linxi，”takaikou，

shengyinyirujiwangdedichenyueer，quedaizheyizhongwocongweitingguode、binglengdechuantouli，“nidesuo，gaihuanle。

”wodedanaoyipiankongbai。tazaishuoshenme？tazaizhizewodesuobugouhao，cairangtaruciqingyidideshouma？

zheishihedengdeaomanyucanren！fennuheweiquxianghaixiaoyiyangjiangwoyanmei，wochongguoqu，

yibacongtashouliduoguowoderijiben，jinjindibaozaihuaili，fangfoneishiwozuihouyikuaizhexiubu。“gunchuqu！

”woyongjinquanshenliqisihou，yanleizhongyujuedi。wobuxiangrangtakandaowodeyanlei，zheihuirangwoxiandegengjiakebei，

danwokongzhibuzhu。woyiweitahuixiangsuoyoubeizhuabaodexiaotouyiyang，canghuangtaocuan，

huozhezhishaohuishuoyiju“duibuqi”。dantameiyou。shenzhizhanzaiyuandi，gaodadeshenyingzaixiyangxialadehenzhang，

jiangwowanquanlongzhaozaitadeyingzili。tajugaolinxiadikanzhewo，yanshenfuzadexiangyipianxingyun，

youwokanbudongdetanjiu，lianmin，shenzhi……shishiwang？shiwang？tayoushenmezigeshiwang？

“wozhishixiangquerenyijianshi。”tazhongyuzaicikaikou，yuqipingdandexiangzaitaolunjintiandetianqi，“xianzaikanlai，

wodejiashe，yexushicuode。”“shenmejiashe？nitoukanworijidejiashema？”woxiesidilidifanwen，

ganjuezijixiangyigebeibidaoxuanyabiandefengzi。tachenmolepianke，ranhou，

tashuochuleyijurangworuzhuibingkudehua。“bu，”takanzhewodeyanjing，yiziyidundishuo，“guanyuni，

daodishibushi‘ni’dejiashe。”shuowan，tazhuanshen，maizhechenwendebuzi，likailewodefangjian。

meiyouliuxiayijuduoyudejieshi，zhiliuxiamanshidejijing，heyigebeichedijisuidewo。

wobaozheneibensihuhaicanliuzhetazhijianwenduderiji，hunshenfadou。“guanyuni，

daodishibushi‘ni’dejiashe。”zheijuhuaxiangyidaomozhou，zaiwonaohailifanfuhuixiang。shenmeyisi？

tadaodizaishuoshenme？wozhandouzheshou，fankaineibenriji。suo，yijingbeitaqingyidiqiaokaile。

woyiyeyiyedifanguoqu，neixieshuxideziji，neixiewoouxinlixuexiexiadeailian，douhaizai。zhidao，

wofandaolesangeyueqiandeyiye。neitianderiji，jilulewobanjinzheijiangongyu，

diyicijiandaohezushiyoushenzhideqingjing。woxiedao：“tazhenhaokan，xiangwoxiaoshihouzaigueryuanli，

weiyiyuanyifenwotangguochideneigexiaogege。”wodetongkongzhouranjinsuo。

xinzangxiangshibeiyizhiwuxingdeshousisizuanzhu，jihuyaotingzhitiaodong。yinwei，wocongxiaofumushuangquan，jiatingxingfu。

wo，genbenmeiyouzaigueryuandaiguoyitian。neizheijuwoqinshouxiexiade，baizhiheizideriji，daodishizenmehuishi？

dierzhang：wodejiyishiyizuobeicuangaidemigong（2）kongjuxiangbinglengdetengman，congwodejiaodixunsupanpa，

chanraozhuwodexinzang，rangwowufahuxi。wotanzuozaidishang，yibianyouyibiandikanzheneixingzi。

“……xiangwoxiaoshihouzaigu-er-yuan-li，weiyiyuanyifenwotangguochideneigexiaogege。”zijishiwode，

neizhonglvedaiyuanrunde、xiguanxingxiangyouqingxiedebifeng，wohuachenghuidourende。keshineirong，

quexiangyigeedudewanxiao。wolikejijialidalegedianhua，

dianhuaneitouchuanlaiwomazhongqishizudebaoyuansheng：“linxia，niyouluanhuaqianmaishenmexiangliaole？

shangcijihuijiadeneigeshenme‘xiayeweifeng’，chadianmeibanibadebiyanxunfanle！”shuxideshengyin，

shuxidebaoyuan，shiwoshenghuoleershiduoniande、zaizhenshibuguoderichang。wozhandouzhewen：“ma，

wo……woxiaoshihou，youmeiyoukeneng……zaigueryuandaiguo？”dianhuaneitouchenmolesanmiao，

ranhoubaofachuyizhenjingtiandongdidepaoxiao：“nizheisiyatouhushuobadaoshenmeni！

shibushiyoukanshenmeluanqibazaodedianshijule？nikeshiwoshiyuehuaitaixinxinkukushengxialaide，

congmeilikaiguowoshenbianyitian！”guadiaodianhua，wohunshendeliqidoubeichouganle。bushiwojicuole。neime，

jiushizheibenrijiyouwenti。woqiangpozijilengjingxialai，xiangyigezhentanyiyang，kaishizhuyeshenchawoderiji。

zheibenrijishiwoshangdaxuehoukaishixiede，jilulesinian。wocongtoukanqi，yiye，liangye，shiye……yuekan，

woyueshixinjing。rijilideneirong，baifenzhijiushi，doushizhenshidewo。wodexueye，wodepengyou，

woduiweilaideguihua，woduixiangshuidereai，yiji……woduishenzhineiputiangaidide、wufayanshuodeanlian。

keshi，meigeshijiye，jiuhuichuxianyixiaoduanzheiyangguiyide、wanquanbushuyuwode“jiyisuipian”。biru，

zaiyipianbaoyuangaoshutainanderijili，moweituwudijialeyiju：“yaoshihaixiangxiaoxueshineiyang，

youshenzhigegebangwobukejiuhaole，tazongnengbazuinandetijiangdeneimejiandan。”kewodexiaoxuetongxueli，

genbenmeiyouyigejiaoshenzhideren。worenshita，shizaisangeyueqian，tazuoweihezushiyoubanjinlaideneiyike。

youbiru，zaiwojiluyicidiaoxiangshibai、xinqingjusangdepianzhangli，

woxiedao：“haoxiangnianxiaoshihouneipianyinghuochongfeiwudehoushan，shenzhigegeshuo，meiyizhiyinghuochong，

doushiyigehuifaguangdeyuanwang。”wodejiaxiangzaifanhuadedoushizhongxin，bieshuohoushan，liangetupodoumeiyou。

zheixiepingkongchuxiande“tongnianhuiyi”，douyouyigegongtongdian——tamendouyushenzhiyouguan。

yigehuangmiujuelundeniantouzaiwonaohaizhongchengxing：yourenzaiwoderijili，zhirulexujiadejiyi。erzheibenriji，

congwobanjinlaidaoxianzai，weiyiyoujihuizhangshijianjiechuta，bingqieyongyouqiaosuozheizhong“jineng”deren，zhiyoushenzhi。

tabujinjinshitoukanlewoderiji。ta，huozheshuotamen，zaigengzaozhiqian，jiuzaiwoderijibenshangdongleshoujiao！

woxiangyizhikunshou，zaifangjianlilaihuiduobu。shenzhineijubinglengdehuazaicifuxian——“guanyuni，

daodishibushi‘ni’dejiashe。”tabushizaiwenwo。tashizaitongguoguanchawodefanying，laiyanzhengyigeshiyan。

erwo，linxi，jiushitashiyanlineizhikebeidexiaobaishu。yayihequruganjihuyaojiangwosilie。

woaimudenanshen，woshiruoshenzhidenanren，jingrancongyikaishijiuzaiyongyizhongjinhucanrendefangshi，baibuwo，

guanchawo，pouxiwo。wodeneixiexintiao，neixielianhong，neixiezhanzhuanfancedeyewan，zaitayanli，

kenengzhishishiyanshujushangdeyichuanbinglengshuzi。buxing，wobunengjiuzheimesuanle。

wobunengxiangyigezhenzhengdeshouhaizheyiyang，kuzhebanzou，ranhourangtahetade“jiashe”yiqi，

congwodeshijielixiaoshi。tayaowan，wojiupeitawandaodi。diertianyizao，wodingzhelianggenongzhongdeheiyanquan，

hualeyigejingzhidezhuang，qiangpozijikanqilaihewangchangyiyang。ketingli，shenzhizhengzaimantiaosilidihezhekafei，

kanzhechenjianxinwen。yangguangtouguobaiyechuang，zaitashenshangqiegechuminganjiaocuodeguangying，

rangtaxiandegengjiashuliheshenmi。takandaowo，yandishanguoyisibuyichajuedebolan，danhenkuaiyouhuifulepingjing。

wozoudaotamianqian，nulirangzijideshengyintingqilaiziran，shenzhidaizheyisi……weiquhesajiaodeyiwei。

“shenzhige，”woqingshengshuo，zheishiwodiyicizheimejiaota，“zuotian……duibuqi，wofanyingtaidale。

wozhishi……wozhishimeixiangdaonihuikanwoderiji。”wokeyijiang“shenzhige”sangeziyaodehenzhong，

tongshiguanchatadefanying。guoran，zaitatingdaozheigechenghudeshunjian，tawozhekafeibeideshou，zhijieweiweishoujinle。

zheishiyigejixiweidedongzuo，ruobushiwocikequanshenguanzhu，genbenwufafaxian。tataiqiyan，

shensuidemouzisuozhuwo：“suoyini？”“suoyi，”wochuixiayanjian，zuochuxuanranyuqideyangzi，

jiangwozuotianxiangleyiyedetaicishuolechulai，“qishi……worijilixiedeneixie，guanyuxiaoshihoudeshi，

wodouzhidaoshijiade。”shenzhidehuxi，sihutingzhileyimiao。wojixujiama，

shengyinlidaizhekuqiang：“wozhishi……wozhishitaixihuannile。wozongjuede，xiangnizheimeyouxiuderen，

yidingbuhuixihuanwozheimeputongdenvhaizi。suoyiwojiuhuanxiangzhe，ruguowomencongxiaojiurenshi，

neigaiyouduohao……wojiubazheixiehuanxiang，xiejinlerijili。wobushiguyiyaopiannide，

wozhishi……taizibeile。”zheishiyigejingxinbianzhidehuangyan。yigejiangsuoyoubuheli，

douguijieyu“anlianzhongdeshaonvyinzibeierchanshenghuanxiang”de、tingqilaiwubi“heli”dejieshi。wozaidu。

dutawufabaifenzhibaiqueding，neixie“zhiru”dejiyishifouchenggong。woyaorangtayiwei，tadeshiyanshibaile。

shiwoziji，pingkongniezaoleneixieguowang。ketingliyipiansiji。

wonengtingdaoqiangshangguazhongmiaozhenzoudongde“da、da”sheng，meiyixia，douqiaozaiwodexinshang。xujiu，

shenzhifangxialekafeibei。tazhanqishen，yibuyibuxiangwozoulai。wojinzhangdeshouxinmaohan，qiangpozijibuhoutui。

tazoudaowomianqian，tingxia。womenzhijiandejulijindewonengwendaotashenshangneiguhaowendexuesongwei，

hunhezhekafeidechunxiang。tataiqishou，woxiayishidibishangleyanjing。woyiweitahuituikaiwo，

huozhezuochushenmegengbinglengdejudong。danmeiyou。tadezhijian，daizheyisiweiliangdewendu，qingqingdi，

fuguowodelianjia，cadiaolewoyanjiaoneidi“qiadaohaochu”deyanlei。tadedongzuohenqing，quexiangyidaodianliu，

rangwohunshenyizhan。“shima？”tadeshengyinyadehendi，daizheyizhongguhuorenxindecixing，“zhishi……huanxiang？

”wojiangyingdidiandiantou。taturanxiaole。neishiyizhonghenqiandexiao，zuijiaoweiweigouqi，quebudayandi。“linxi，

”tashuo，“nideyanji，biwoxiangxiangzhong，yaohaohenduo。”wodexin，mengdichenlexiaqu。

disanzhang：daizhemianjudegongwu，sheixianluchupozhan（3）tadehuaxiangyibacuilebingdebishou，

jingzhundiciruwoweizhuangdexinzang。“yanji？”wotaiqitou，nuliweichizhelianshangdewuguhemangran，

xinzangquezaifengkuangdijiaoxiaozheweixian，“shenmeyanji？wotingbudongnizaishuoshenme。

”shenzhideshouzhihaitingliuzaiwodelianjiashang，neiweiliangdechuganxiangyitiaotuzhexinzideshe，rangwohanmaodaoshu。

tameiyouchuochuanwo，zhishiyongneishuangfangfonengdongxiyiqiedeyanjingshenshendikanzhewo，

kandewojihuyaozaizheichangwushengdeduizhizhongkuibuchengjun。“meishenme。”tazhongyushouhuileshou，

yuqihuifulewangchangdeshuli，“jiranshinide‘huanxiang’，neiyihoujiubuyaozaixiele。beirenkandao，

rongyiyinqiwuhui。”taqingpiaopiaodijiangzheiyiyefanleguoqu，fangfozhiqiandeyiqiedouzhishiwodecuojue。

wokanzhetazhuanshenzouhuicanzhuodebeiying，houbeizaoyibeilenghanjinshi。tazhidaole。tayidingzhidaowozaisahuang。

taneiju“nideyanjibiwoxiangxiangzhongyaohao”，jiushiyiju**luodejinggao。zheichangyouxi，

congwojuedingfanjideneiyikeqi，nandujiushengjile。womenchengledaizhemianjudegongwuzhe，zaitongyigewuyanxia，

tiaozheyiqumingwei“shitan”dehuaerzi，sheixianluchupozhan，sheijiushudeyibaitudi。

yayiganxiangyizhangmibutoufengdewang，jiangwolaolaokunzhu。wobixugengjiaxiaoxin，bunengzaichurenhechacuo。

wokaishileyizhongfenlieshideshenghuo。baitian，

woshineigeyijiuanlianzheshenzhide、youdiantianzhenshizaidehezushiyoulinxi。wohuixiangwangchangyiyang，

zaitaqichuangqianzhunbeihaozaocan；huizaitawanguishi，jitaliuyizhanwennuandeyedeng；huibujingyidi，

yongwoxindiaozhide、takenenghuixihuandemuzhidiaoxiangfen，pensazaiketingdejiaoluo。wobawoduitadesuoyouaimu，

doubaizailemingmianshang，shenzhibiyiqiangengjia“zhibai”。woyaorangtaxiangxin，

wojiushiyigebeiaiqingchonghuntounaodeputongnvhai，zhiqiandeyiqie，douzhishiwoyuchunde“huanxiang”。

erdaoleyewan，danggongyulizhishengxiahuxishengshi，wojiuhuibianchenglingyigeren。yigelengjing、pianzhi，

shenzhiyouxiefengkuangde“zhentan”。wobuganzaidongtadeshufang。danwokaishiliyongwodezhuanye——xiujue，

laisoujixinxi。rendeshenshang，huizhanrantaquguodedifang、jiechuguoderenliuxiadeqiwei。

shenzhishiyigeshenghuojiqiguilvderen，dantadeqiweiquezaiqiaoqiaofashengbianhua。youshi，tashenyehuilai，

shenshanghuidaizheyiguyiyuanteyoude、xiaodushuideweidao，hendan，danmanbuguowodebizi。youshi，

wohuicongtahuanxiadeyifushang，

wendaoyizhongfeichangteshude、hunhezhejiuzhizhanghechenaide、shuyudanganguanhuotushuguanjinbishukudeqiwei。

haiyouyici，wowendaoleyigujiqiweiruode……fuermalindeweidao。zheixieqiwei，

yuta“jinrongxiyanjiusheng”deshenfengegeburu。tazaizuoshenme？tazaidiaochashenme？haishishuo，

tade“shiyan”，biwoxiangxiangdeyaofuzadeduo？wojiangzheixiexiansuomomojizaixinli，quebuganyousihaobiaolu。

woyutadexiangchu，chengleyichanggaokongzougangsibandebiaoyan。wonengganjuedao，tayezaiguanchawo。

youshiwozhengzaiketinglishinongwodeneixiexiangliaoping，yihuitou，

jiuhuizhuangshangtacongshufangmenfenglitoulaide、tanjiudemuguang。neimuguangxiangshoushudao，jingzhun、ruili，

fangfoyaojiangwodelinghunyicuncunbokai。zheizhonggaoyade、diwonanbiandetongjushenghuo，kuaiyaobawobifengle。

wobixuzhaodaoyigetupokou。jihui，zaiyigeyuyejianglin。neiwan，dianshanleiming，

zhenggechengshifangfoyaobeibaoyutunshi。shenzhijielegedianhua，lianseningzhongdichulemen。wozhuyidao，tachumenqian，

potianhuangdipenlexiangshui，shiyigunongyudeganjudiao，sihuxiangyaoyangaishenme。tazouhou，

woguishishenchadizoujinletadeshufang。zheiciwomeiyouqufantadewenjian，wozhidaotakendingyousuofangbei。

wozhishizhanzaishufangzhongyang，bishangyanjing，xiangyizhijingquanyiyang，tanlandixiuzhekongqizhongcanliudeqiwei。xuesong，

yancao，kafei……zheishitaguanchangdeweidao。

haiyou……wowendaoleyisibushuyuzheilide、moshengdenvxingxiangshuiwei。feichanggaoji，

shineizhongyongangguixiangliaoduiqiqilaide、jijuqinlvexingdehuaxiangdiao，

daizheyigugaogaozaishangde、burongzhihuideqiangshi。zheiguweidao，wozainaliwendaoguo？

wonulizaijiyidexiangqiziliaokulisousuozhe。huran，yigemingzitiaolechulai。qinruofei。

womenxuexiaoxinlixuexidetepinjiaoshou，yigexueshujiedenvwangjirenwu。shangxueqi，

talaiwomenxueyuanzuoguoyiciguanyu“xiujueyuqingxujiyi”dejiangzuo，dangshitashenshang，jiushizheigeweidao。

yigejinrongxideyanjiusheng，weishenmehuiheyiweixinlixuejiedequanweijiaoshouyoujiaoji？erqie，

qinruofeideyanjiufangxiang，zhengshi“chuangshanghouyingjizhangai”yu“jiyiganyu”。

“jiyiganyu”……“xujiajiyi”……suoyoudexiansuo，zaizheiyike，douchuanlianleqilai。

wodexinzangkuangtiaoqilai，yigekepadezhenxianghuzhiyuchu。shenzhidebeihou，zhanzheqinruofei。

zheibushitayigerende“shiyan”，zheishiyigeyouxinlixuequanweizhudaode、zhenzhengde、zhuanyedexinlixueshiyan！

wodaodibeijuanruleshenmeyangdeshiqingli？jiuzaiwoxinluanrumadeshihou，shuzhuoshangshenzhidebijibendiannao，

pingmuturanliangleyixia。tawangleguandiannao。pingmushang，shiyigewohaiweiguanbideyoujianjieshouyemian。

zuixindeyifengyoujian，fajianrenzhengshi“qinruofei”。

youjianbiaotixiezhe：《guanyu“shiyantib”chuxianchaoyuqiyingjifanyingdejinjiyuan》。

wozhandouzhediankaileyoujian。youjianneironghenduan，zhiyoujixingzi，querangworuzaoleiji。“shenzhi，

b-7hao（linxi）defanchangxingwei（zhudongshihao、bianzao‘huanxiangshuo’）yichaochukongzhibianliang。

tadexinlifangyujizhibiwomenyugudeyaoqiang。niyutadeguodujiechu，kenengyijingzaochengle‘shiyanwuran’。

”“weibaozhengshiyanshujudechuncuixing，wojianyi，lijiqidong‘yalijieru’fangan。

bixudapotaxianyoudexinlipingheng，guanchaqizaibengkuizhuangtaixiadezhenshijiyifankui。

”“jutifanganruxia：qieduanqisuoyoushehuizhichixitong。woyijinganpairen，mingtianhuiyi‘weizaoxueli’weiyou，

lianxitadeshixigongsi，rangtabeikaichu。tongshi，wohuiyi‘xueshubuduan’demingyi，

xiangnimenxilijubaotabiyelunwencunzaichaoxiwenti。”“shenzhi，wozhidaozheihencanku。danniyaojizhu，

weilezhaochu‘neijianshi’dezhenxiang，renhexisheng，doushibiyaode。”youjiandezuihou，shiyijubinglengcigudehua。

“buyaoduishiyanti，chanshengbubiyaodeganqing。”kanwanyoujian，wozhijuedeyiguhanqicongweizhuiguzhichongtianlinggai。

kaichu？jubao？tamenyaobawobishangjuelu。tamenyaohuilewo！

quru、fennu、kongju……suoyoudeqingxushunjianbaofa，wozaiyewufayayi。wozhuaqizhuoshangdeyigeshuijingbaijian，

henhendizaxiangleneitaixianshizheeduyoujiandediannao！“peng——！”pingmuyingshengsuilie，

fachuyishengcierdejianxiao。erjiuzaizheishi，gongyudemen，kaile。shenzhichengzhesan，zhanzaimenkou，

yushuishunzhetadefashaodiluo，lianseyinchendenengdichushuilai。takandaolewo，kandaolewoshoulideshuijingbaijian，

heneitaibeizalandediannao。womensimuxiangdui，kongqizhongchongmanlehuoyaowei。suoyoudeweizhuang，zaizheiyike，

beisidefensui。disizhang：yishenzuoer，yinshechudong（4）“nizaizuoshenme？

”shenzhideshengyinbiwaimiandebaoyuhaiyaoleng。tayibubuzoujinlai，meiyibudouxiangshicaizaiwodexinzangshang。

wochuanzhecuqi，wozheshuijingbaijiandeshouyinweiyonglierzhijiefanbai。womeiyouhuida，

zhishiyongyizhonghunhezhehenyiyujuewangdeyanshensisididengzheta。

takandaolediannaopingmushangneifenglaiziqinruofeideyoujian，tongkongmengdiyisuo。neiyishunjian，

wocongtalianshangkandaolehuangluan，danzhuanshunjishi，youbeineizhongshuxide、binglengdelizhisuoqudai。tazhidaole，

woshenmedouzhidaole。“linxi，nitingwojieshi。”tashitukaojinwo。“jieshi？”woxiaole，

xiaoshengqilidexiangyexiao，“jieshinibawodangchengxiaobaishu，jieshinihenidedaoshiyaoruhehuidiaowoderenshengma？

shenzhi，nizhenrangwoexin！”wojiangshoulideshuijingbaijianchaotarengleguoqu。tameiyouduo，

renyouneichenzhongdebaijianzazaitadejianbangshang，fachuyishengmenxiang。tazhishizhoulezhoumei，fangfoganjuebudaotengtong。

“zheibushinixiangdeneiyang。”tadeshengyinli，diyicidaishangleyisijiaozhuo，“zheishiyigehenfuzadeyanjiu，

wo……”“wobuxiangting！”wojianjiaozhedaduanta，“wobuxiangtingnineixieguanmiantanghuangdeliyou！wozhizhidao，

niqipianwo，liyongwo，xianzaihaiyaohuilewo！woderenshengbushinishiyanbaogaoshangdeyizushuju！

”yayiletaijiudeweiquhefennu，zaizheiyikechedibaofa。woxiangyitoufalefengdemushi，

jiangshuzhuoshangdewenjian、shuji、bitong，suoyouwonengnadaoshoudedongxi，quandousaoluozaidi。shufangliyipianlangjie。

shenzhijiuzhanzaineipianlangjiezhizhong，chenmodikanzhewofaxie。tadeyanshenhenshen，

limianfanyongzhewokanbudongdetongku、zhengzha，yijiyisi……nongdehuabukaidehuiyi。dengwozhongyujinpilijin，

kaozheqiangbihuazuozaidishang，tacaihuanhuankaikou。“duibuqi。”zheishiwodiyici，congtakouzhongtingdaozheisangezi。

keshi，taiwanle。“wobuyaonideduibuqi。”wotaiqitonghongdeyanjing，kanzheta，“woyaonitingzhizheiyiqie。

like，mashang！”“wobuneng。”tabishangyan，shengyinlichongmanlewuligan，

“zheigeshiyan……duiwolaishuohenzhongyao。taguanxidao……yigezhenxiang。”“zhenxiang？shenmezhenxiang？

xuyaoyonghuidiaoyigewuguderenderenshenglaihuanqudezhenxiangma？”wolengxiaozhefanwen。tameiyouhuida，

zhishitongkudinieleniemeixin。wozhidao，hetayingpengying，woyingbule。tabeihouyouqinruofei，

youzhenggeyanjiutuandui。erwo，zhishiyigeshidanlibodexuesheng。tamenkeyiqingyidirangwoshiqugongzuo，

shiquxuewei，shiquzaizheigechengshilizudeyiqie。kongju，zaiyicijuezhulewo。danwobunengrenshu。

ruguowoxianzaitaozou，jiuzhengzhongletamendexiahuai。tamenjiushiyaokanwozaibengkuizhuangtaixiadefanying。wobunengbengkui。

woyaobitamengenghen。yigefengkuangdeniantou，zaiwonaohaizhongdianguangshihuobandishanguo。“hao。

”wocongdishangzhanqilai，caganyanlei，yongyizhongqiansuoweiyoudepingjingkanzheta，“jirannibunengtingzhi，

neiwomenjiujixuwanxiaqu。”shenzhibujiedikanzhewo。wozoudaotamianqian，zhishizhetadeyanjing，

yiziyidundishuo：“nimenbushixiangkanwozaiyalixiadefanyingma？xiangzhidaowozaishiquyiqiehou，

huizenmehuiyineixiebeinimenzhirude‘guoqu’ma？”“wogaosunimen。”“wohuirunimensuoyuan。

wohuishiye，wohuimianlinbeituixuedefengxian。wohuibiandeyiwusuoyou，langbeibukan。

”wokandaoshenzhideliansebiandeyufanankan，tasihuxiangshuoshenme，danwomeiyoujitajihui。wodianqijiaojian，

coudaotaerbian，yongzhiyouwomenlianggerennengtingdaodeshengyin，shuochulewoneigefengkuangdejihua。“danshi，shenzhi，

wohuirangnichengweiwoweiyide‘jiumingdaocao’。”“wohuilaishangni，jiuchanni，rangnifuze。

wohuirangsuoyourendouzhidao，woweinifuchuleduoshao。wohuirangni，haiyounineigegaogaozaishangdedaoshi，

qinyankanzhenimende‘shiyanti’，shiruhefanguolai，jiangnimende‘zhushi’，tuoruzheitannitan。

”“nibushixiangyanjiuwoma？neiwojiurangni，lingjulidi，tieshendi，haohaoyanjiu。”“woyaoyishenzuoer，

banizheitiaoshe，yinchudong。”shuowan，wotuihouyibu，xinshangzhetalianshangneifuzhenjingdaowuyifujiadebiaoqing。

zheishiwodiyici，zaitalianshangkandaorucishikongde、shuyu“ren”deqingxu。tadagaicongweixiangguo，

taneizhiwenshundexiaobaishu，huituranzhangchuliaoya，fanyaoyikou。“nifengle。”tashayadishuo。

“shinimenbifengwode。”wolenglengdihuida，“youxixianzaicaizhenzhengkaishi，shenzhi。xiwangni……wandeqi。

”shuowan，womeiyouzaikantayiyan，zhuanshenzouchuleshufang。huidaozijidefangjian，wofansuoshangmen，beikaozhemenban，

shuangtuiyiruan，huadaozaidi。zhidaozheishi，wocaiganjuedaohoupahezhandou。wobuzhidaowozheigefengkuangdejueding，

huijiangwodaixianghefang。woxiangyigedutu，jiangzijijinshengdezunyanheweilai，quanbuyaleshangqu。womeiyoutuilule。

diertian，qinruofeide“yalijieru”fangan，ruqierzhi。wojiedaoleshixigongsihrdedianhua，

tayongyizhonggongshigongbande、binglengdeyuqitongzhiwo，yinwei“jianlizhongxuelixinxishexianzaojia”，wobeijiegule。

jinjiezhe，wodedaoshiyedalailedianhua，tatongxinjishoudigaosuwo，

yourenshimingjubaowobiyelunwencunzaidaduanchaoxi，xueyuanyijingchenglidiaochaxiaozu，zaidiaochajieguochulaizhiqian，

wodedabianzigebeizantingle。yishunjian，wofangfocongyunduanzhuirulegudi。wozhanzaigongsidelouxia，

kanzhebolimenshangdaoyingchudeziji，liansecangbai，yanshenkongdong。zhouweirenlairenwang，meigerendouxingsecongcong，

meiyourenhuiweiyigeshixishengdebuxing，tingliuyimiao。wozhidao，zaimougekanbujiandejiaoluo，yidingyouyishuangyanjing，

zaijianshizhewo。qinruofeihetadetuandui，zhengzaidengzhekanwobengkui，kanwotongkuliuti，

kanwojuewangdixiangtamende“xujiajiyi”xunqiuweijie。woshenxiyikouqi，yaxiasuoyoudeqingxu。ranhou，

wonachushouji，botongleshenzhidedianhua。dianhuajietongdeneiyike，wohuanshangleyifuxuanranyuqidekuqiang，

jiangzuowanneigefengkuangdejihua，fuzhulexingdong。“shenzhi……”wokuzheshuo，

beigongsikaichule……xuexiaoyeyaochufenwo……wobuzhidaogaizenmebanle……wozhiyounile……”wodebiaoyan，

zhengshikaichangle。diwuzhang：jisheng，wodefuchoushiyichangshengdadebiaoyan（5）dianhuaneitou，shizhangjiudechenmo。

wonengxiangxiangdaoshenzhicikedebiaoqing，yidingshiaohui、zhengzha，queyouwunengweili。zheizhengshiwoxiangyaodexiaoguo。

woyaorangtabeikuijiuganyanmei，rangtachengweiwojihuazhongzuizhongyaodeyikeqizi。“nizaina？”xujiu，

tashayadeshengyincaicongtingtonglichuanlai。

“wojiuzaigongsilouxia……tamenburangwoshangqunadongxi……”wojixuyongkuqiangbiaoyan，

jiangyigebeixianshijikua、wuzhuyoukeliandexingxiangkehuaderumusanfen。“zhanzaiyuandi，biedong，womashangguoqu。

”tashuowan，bianguaduanledianhua。banxiaoshihou，yiliangheisedejiaochewenwenditingzaiwomianqian。chechuangjiangxia，

luchushenzhineizhanglunkuofenmingdecelian。tameiyoukanwo，zhishiyanjianyigaidishuo：“shangche。

”wolakaichemenzuolejinqu。cheneidekongjianhenxiao，chongchizhetashenshangneigushuxidexuesongwei，dancike，

zheiguweidaolijiazazheyisixianeryijiandefanzao。tadagaishizhijiecongxuexiaoguolaide，lianyifudoumeihuan。

yilushang，womensheidoumeiyoushuohua。chexianglideqifenyayidefangfoyaoninggu。**zhechechuang，

kanzhewaimianfeisudaotuidejiejing，yanleiwushengdiliutang。zheiyici，yanleishizhende。

yibanshiyanjianchude“guanzhong”kan，yiban，shiweizijibeiaidechujingerliu。huidaogongyu，

wozuodediyijianshi，jiushichongjinweishengjian，jiangzijifansuoqilai。ranhou，wodakaishuilongtou，

yongjudadeshuishengyangaizhuwodeshengyin，kaishijiwozuihaodeguimi，yeshiwoweiyikeyixinrenderen——chenmiao，

dadianhua。chenmiaoshigeleilifengxingdelvzhengqiaojiaren，tingwanwodexushu，dianhuaneitoudetachenmolezuzuyifenzhong，

ranhoubaoleyijucukou。“**！zheitamashi2bqianbi……ebu，shixueshufengziba！xixi，nibiepa，

zheishijiaojiwo。weizaoxuelihexueshubuduan，doushikeyichazhengde。tamenxiangyongzheizhongxiasanlandeshouduangaoni，

meineimerongyi！”“miaomiao，wobushipazheige。”wodaduanta，shengyinyinweiyayierzhandou，“wopadeshi，

wochaqingchule，ranhouni？tamenzhihuiyonggengyinbi、gengedudefangshilaiduifuwo。

tamendemubiaoshibawobidaojuejing，chachuzhenxiangbingbunengrangtamenshoushou。”“neinidasuanzenmeban？

zhenxiangnishuode，laishangneigexingshende？zheitaimaoxianle！”chenmiaodeyuqichongmanledanyou。

“zheishiwoweiyidebanfa。”wokanzhejingzilineizhangcangbaiyoujueqiangdelian，“tamenxiangkanxi，

wojiuyanjitamenkan。woyaorangtamenyiwei，tamendeshiyanchenggongle。woyaorangtamenyiwei，zaijudadeyalixia，

wochediyilaishangleshenzhi，bingqiekaishihunxiaoxianshiheneixiebeizhirude‘jiyi’。

”“nideyisishi……niyaoshunzhetamendejubenyan？”“bu，woyaogaixietamendejuben。

”wodeyanshenbiandejiandingqilai，“woyaochengweineigezuitourude‘yanyuan’，yongwode‘biaoyan’，

quyingxiangtamende‘shiyanshuju’，rangtamendechucuowudejielun。woyaorangtamenweizijideaomanhecanren，

fuchudaijia。”hechenmiaotongguoqihou，woxinliyouledi。wozhidao，wobushiyigerenzaizhandou。

congweishengjianchulai，wokandaoshenzhizhengzhanzaiketingli，tayijinghuanshangleyishenjiajufu，shoulinazheyibeishui。

kandaowohongzhongdeyanjing，tadeyanshenshanshuoleyixia。“xianhedianshui。”tabashuibeidijiwo。womeiyoujie。

wozhishitaiqitou，yongyizhongjiduyilaihecuiruodeyanshenkanzheta，qingshengshuo：“shenzhige，

woshibushi……henmeiyong？”neigechenghu，xiangyigenzhen，youyicicizhongleta。tadehoujiegundongleyixia，

meiyoushuohua。“tamendoubuyaowole……gongsi，xuexiao……woshibushishenmedouzuobuhao？”woyibianshuo，

yibiankaojinta，yanleixiangduanlexiandezhuziyiyangwangxiadiao，“woshibushizhiyounile？”wodebiaoyan，

yijingkaishile。congneitianqi，wochengleyigewanmeide“jishengzhe”。wobuzaiqushangke，buzaizhaogongzuo，

zhengtianjiudaizaigongyuli。woxiangyizhushiquleyangguangheturangdetusihua，jiangshenzhidangchenglewoweiyidesuzhu。

taqushangke，wojiuzuozaiketingdeshafashangdengtahuilai。tayijinmen，wojiuhuilikeyingshangqu，bangtanabao，

dishangtuoxie，yongyizhongjinhubeiweidezitai，sihouzheta。tachifan，wojiuzuozaitaduimian，

yiyanbufadikanzheta，fangfotashiwodequanshijie。tajinshufanggongzuo，wojiubaozheyigezhentou，

quansuozaitashufangmenkoudeditanshang，xiangyizhibeizhurenpaoqidexiaogou。

wobazijibianchengleyigemeiyoulinghunde、wanquanyifuyutadeyingzi。wodexingwei，

yidingbeineixieyinzangdeshexiangtou，yiwuyishidijilulexialai，chuansongdaoleqinruofeidediannaoshang。

tayidingduizijide“yalijieru”fangandexiaoguo，gandaofeichangmanyi。ershenzhi，zechenglezuitongkudeneigeren。

tachenglewode“yuzu”。tayaoqinyankanzhewo，zaitade“zongrong”xia，yidiandian“kuwei”，