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nvexinshizudexiandaiyanqingxiaoshuo《wobaxindiandangjilechiqingxudeta 》，jiangshuzhujiaofusiyandiandangsuchendeaihenjiuge，zuozhe“moyuzhe”qinglichuangzuoercheng，chunjingwudanchuangbanyuedutiyanjijia，juqingjianjieruxia：yikedaibiao“kuijiu”he“xintong”delanseguangqiu，zhengjuliedishanshuo。neishishuyuwodeqingxu，beitaqiangxingboduo，cike，queyilingyizhongfangshi，zaitashenshangzhongxian。……

精彩章节

weilejididicouqiyiqianwanshoushufei，wozoujinyijiamingwei“qingxudiandangxing”deguguaidianpu，

jiangzijiduididide“aiyi”diandangjileneigejiaofusiyandenanren。woyiweizheizhishiyichangyinhuoliangqidejiaoyi，

zhidaowoshoudaotafalaideduanxin。tupianshang，yituanwennuandejinseguangqiuzaitazhangxinfudong，peiwenshi：“henmeiwei，

su**deaiyi，pinzhijigao。”neiyikewocaimingbai，wodiandangdiaode，shineigenanrenlaiyiweishengdeshiwu，

erwo，zeshitaquanyangde，zuixinxiandeshicai。

1dangwozaineifentangjinfengpideqiyueshangqianxia“sunian”lianggezishi，zhijianchuanlaiyizhenzhuotong。bushicuojue。

wotaiqishou，shizhizhifushang，yigeweixiaode，leisidianzixinpiandeyinjiyishanerguo，suijiyinrupirou，

zaiyekanbujian。zuozaiwoduimiandenanren，fusiyan，tuiguolaiyizhangheika。tadesangyinxiangshanghaodedatiqin，

lengjingeryouya：“su**，jiaoyichengli。congxianzaiqi，niduinididisuchendesuoyou‘aiyi’，

douguiwosuoyou。zheizhangkaliyouyiqianwan，zugouzhifutadediyiqishoushufei。”wonaqineizhangqingpiaopiaodeka，

xinquechendexiangzhuileqian。“aiyi”yenengdiandang。zheishiwozoujinzheijiamingwei“qingxudiandangxing”deguguaidianpuqian，

xiangdoubuganxiangdeshiqing。keweilejiuwoweiyideqinren，wobiewuxuanze。didisuchenhuanshanghanjiandejiyinbing，

xuyaotianjiadebaxiangyaohehuanxueshoushuweichishengming。fumuzaoshi，woyigegangbiyedeshixisheng，

zaguomaitieyecoubuqineitianwenshuzi。shifusiyanzhaodaolewo。tashuo，takeyijiwoqian，woxuyaofuchude，

bushishenti，bushiziyou，ershiqingxu。xiyue、gandong、qidai……suoyouzhengmiandeqingxu，

doushikeyimingmabiaojiadeshangpin。erjintian，wodiandanglezuizhenguideyifen——woduididideai。“qingjizhu，

”fusiyanneishuangshenbujiandideheimouzhushizhewo，fangfonengkanchuanwodelinghun，“qiyueqijian，

niwufazhudongganzhihuobiaodazheifenqingxu。tacunzai，danniwufadongyong。zhidao……nijiangtashuhui。

”wozuanjinleyinxingka，dianlediantou，houlonggansedeshuobuchuyigezi。

zouchuneijianzhuanghuanggudiandebusirenjiandediandangxing，waimiandeyangguangcidewoyanjingshengteng。wolikeganwangyiyuan，

jiangyinxingkapaizaijiaofeichuangkou，shuochuneijuwoyanlianlewushubiandehua：“jiwodidisuchen，jiaoyiqianwanzhuyuanfei，

yongzuihaodeyao。”hushizhenjingdikanzhewo，ranhoushishoumangjiaoluandicaozuo。wozhanzaineili，

kanzheneichuanlingcongkalihuazou，xinzhongqueyipiansiji。meiyourushizhongfu，meiyoujiuledididexinxi。

shenmedoumeiyou。wozoudaosuchendebingfangwai，gezhebolichuangkanta。tatangzaichuangshang，liansecangbai，huxiweiruo，

shenshangchamanleguanzi。tashiwozaizheishishangweiyideqiangua，shiwopinjinyiqieyeyaoshouhuderen。guoqu，

meicikandaotazheiyang，wodexindouhuixiangbeidaogeyiyangteng，yanleihuibushoukongzhidiyongchulai。kexianzai，

wozhishikanzhe，pingjingdikanzhe。xinzangdeweizhi，kongkongdangdang。yuanlai，zheijiushishiqule“aiyi”deganjue。

lizhigaosuwo，limiantangzhedeshiwozuizhongyaoderen，danqingganshang，woqueshengbuchuyisibolan。

tajiuhaoxiang……yigeyuwowuguandemoshengren。woshenzhimeiyoutuimenjinqu。

yinweiwobuzhidaogaiyongshenmebiaoqingmianduita。wopawokongdongdeyanshenhuirangtabenjiucuiruodebingqingxueshangjiashuang。

zhuanshenlikaiyiyuanshi，shoujizhendongleyixia。shifusiyanfalaideduanxin，zhiyouyizhangtupian。tupianshang，

shiyigehualideboliqimin，limianshengfangzheyituanwennuancuicandejinseguangqiu。neiguangqiusanfazherouhedeguangyun，

wonengganjuedao，neishimouzhongwubizhengui、wubichuncuidedongxi。jinjiezhe，diertiaoduanxinjinlai：“henmeiwei。

su**de‘aiyi’，pinzhijigao。”wodeweiliyizhenfanjiangdaohai。ta……tabawodeqinggan，

dangchengleshiwu？neigenanren，neigejilewojiumingqiandenanren，tabushiren，tashigeyiqingxuweishideguaiwu。

**zaiyiyuanbinglengdeqiangbishang，diyicigandaoyizhongshenrugusuidehanlenghekongju。woshiqude，

yuanbiwoxiangxiangdeyaoduo。2didideshoushuhenchenggong。qiandezuoyongliganjianying，

zuihaodeyisheng、zuihaodeyaowu、zuihaodehuli，rangtadeshentiyitiantianhaoleqilai。tashenzhikeyixiachuangzoudong，

jiwodadianhua，shengyinlichongmanlejiehouyushengdexiyue。“jie，xiexieni。woaini。”dianhuaneitou，

suchendeshengyindaizhekuqiang。wowozheshouji，zuichundongledong，quefabuchurenheshengyin。neisangezi，

xiangbeiyidaowuxingdeqiangdangzhu，wowufalijie，yewufahuiying。wozhinengyongzuipingdandeyuqishuo：“haohaoyangbing。

”ranhoucongcongguaduandianhua。yinweiwobuzhidao，zaiduoshuoyiju，wohuibaoluchuzenyangyigelengmodeziji。

erfusiyan，kaishipinfandichuxianzaiwodeshenghuozhong。tasihuduiwochanshenglejidade“xingqu”。

zaiwohaiqingsuoyouwaizhai，yiweikeyichuankouqishi，tapairensonglailelingyifenqiyue。“su**，

nidididehouxuzhiliaohekangfu，haixuyaohendayibiqian。”tadetezhuzhanzaiwoxiazhaidechuzuwuli，

gongshihuadikaikou，“fuxianshengyuanyiquanbuchengdan。zuoweijiaohuan，

taxiangyudingniweilaiyinianneichanshengdesuoyou‘xiyue’。”wokanzheneifenqiyue，

shangmiandejinezuyirangsuchenhouguwuyou。womeiyouxuanze。qianxiamingzideneiyike，

woganjueshijiezaiwoyanqiantunlese。fusiyankaishixiang“siyang”yizhijinsiqueyiyang“siyang”wo。

tarangwocidiaolegongzuo，zhujinletamingxiadeyitaodingcenggongyu。gongyudadejingren，

luodichuangwaishizhenggechengshidecuicanyejing。yimaojianliguamanledangjigaoding，

shuzhuangtaishangbaizhewolianmingzidoujiaobuchudeguifuhufupin。tazuozheiyiqie，

zhiyouyigemude——rangwochansheng“xiyue”，gongta“xiangyong”。tahuiturandaiwoqubalikanshizhuangxiu，

zaisuoyourenyanxiandemuguangzhong，jiangxiuchangshangzuiyaoyandeneijianlifupaixia，songdaowomianqian。“xihuanma？”tawen。

wokanzheneijianzhuimanzuanshi、liuguangyicaidequnzi，diantou：“ng。”kewodexinli，meiyouyisibolan。xiyue？

neishishenmeganjue？jiuxiangyigesemang，bierengaosutahongseyouduorelie，taqueyongyuanwufatihui。

tasihuyouxiebuman，meixinweicu。xiayimiao，tadeshoujipingmuliangqi，wopiejian，

neilimianyouyikexiaoxiaode、andandejinseguangdian，yishanjishi。

tajiqulewoganggangneiyidiandianyinweilimaoerweizhuangchude“xiyue”，quefaxiantaweitongjiaola。

yushitahuanlelingyizhongfangshi。tadaiwoquzuozhishengji，fukanzhuanglidexiawan；daiwoqusirendaoyu，

kanhaitunzaibilandehaishuizhongyuechu。taweiwobaoxiazhengzuoyouleyuan，rangxuanlandeyanhuozaiwotoudingyiduoduozhakai。

neiyanhuohenmei，meidexiangyichanghuanmeng。woyangzhetou，nulixiangcongzheijizhidexuanlanzhongzhaohuiyisiyihaodegandong。

kewodeyanjingli，zhidaoyingchuneixieguangyingdewulixingtai，xinzangquelianyisiduoyudetiaodongdoumeiyou。

fusiyanzhanzaiwoshenbian，tameiyoukanyanhuo，zhikanzhewo。tadeyanshen，congzuichudeqidai，manmanbianchengletanjiu，

zuihoushi……yisiwokanbudongdefanzaoheshiwang。“sunian，”taturankaikou，shengyinbiyesehailiang，

“niweishenmebuxiao？”wozhuanguotoukanta，renzhendihuida：“yinwei，wobujuedekaixin。”neiyike，

wokandaotayingjundelianshang，shanguoyisizhenshide，mingwei“cuobai”deqingxu。taweiwoyizhiqianjin，

buxiaquanshijiezuishengdadelangman，buguoshiweile“siyang”chuyifenkekoudeqinggan。

ketaqinshounazoulewoganzhizheiyiqiedenengli。zheizhenshishijieshangzuidadefengci。3fusiyanbiandeyuelaiyuepianzhi。

tasihuhenbumanwozheige“qingxugongjiyuan”dechanchuxiaolv。takaishicunbubulidigenzhewo，

guanchawodeyijuyidong，shituzhaodaonengrangwochanshengqianglieqingxudekaiguan。tabuzaidaiwoqukanneixiefuhuadejingzhi，

ershidaiwohuidaolewodemuxiao。zhengshichuxia，xiaoyuanlimanshichuanzhexueshifudebiyesheng。tamenxiaozhe，naozhe，

lianshangyangyizheduiweilaidechongjing。“nizaizheili，youshenmekaixindehuiyima？”fusiyanwenwo，

yuqilidaizheyi**dao。wokanzheneixieqingchundelianpang，jiyidesuipianzainaohaizhongfuxian。

woxiangqileheshiyoumencheyewotandeyewan，xiangqilenadaojiangxuejinshidejidong，

xiangqilediyicizaishejidasaishanghuojiangshidequeyue。neixiedoushi“xiyue”。raner，

tamenjiuxiangyibuheibaimopian，zaiwonaozhongfangying，qingxi，quehaowusecaihewendu。“meiyou。

”wopingjingdihuida。fusiyandeliansechedichenlexialai。tabawolajincheli，yilujichi。

chechuangwaidejingxiangfeisudaotui，wobuzhidaotayaodaiwoqunali。zuihou，chetingzaileyijiazhuanghuangshehuadecantingqian。

tadinglechang，judadecantinglizhiyouwomenlianggeren。youyangdexiaotiqinshengzaierbianliutang，

canzhuoshangbaizheyaoyedezhuguanghejiaoyandemeigui。“sunian，”tazuodaowodeduimian，

neishuangshensuideyanmoujinjinsuozhuwo，“wodiaochaguonideguoqu。nixihuanyanhuo，xihuansheji，xihuannidedidi。

nicengjing，shiyigeqingganhenfengfuderen。”womeiyoushuohua，zhishianjingdiqiezhepanzilideniupai。“woyiwei，

zhiyaojinizugouhaodewuzhi，jiunengrangnichanshengzuigaopinzhideqingxu。”taziguzidishuozhe，

xiangshizaipouxiyigeshibaideshiyanpin，“danwocuole。nidiandangle‘xiyue’，wojiuwufarangnigandaoxiyue。

nidiandangle‘gandong’，zaishengdadechangmianyewufadadongni。”tadeshouzhizaizhuomianshangqingqingqiaoji，

fachuguilvdeshengxiang。“suoyi，wozaixiang，youmeiyouyizhongqingxu，shinihaimeiyoudiandang，bingqie，

shiwozuixiangchangdaode？”wodexinmengdiyichen，youzhongbuhaodeyugan。tazhanqishen，zoudaowoshenbian，

conghuailinachuyigesironghezi。dakai，limianshiyimeicuicanduomudefensezuanjie。“sunian，woaini。

”tadanxiguidi，jiangjiezhijudaowomianqian，muguangzhuozhuodikanzhewo。“jiajiwo。chengweiwodeqizi，

rangwojiniquanshijie。niyidinghuiyinci，erchanshengmingwei‘aiyi’deqingganba？”tashuozhe“woaini”，

neishuangyanjingliquemeiyouyisiaiyi。zhiyoulierenkandaoliewushi，neizhongzhizaibidedetanlanhekewang。

tazaixiangwoqiuhun。bu，tabushizaiqiuhun。tashizaiyoudaowo，

youdaowochanshengneifenzuidingjide“shechipin”——“aiyi”，ranhou，jiangqilveduo。kexi。taikexile。

wokanzheta，kanzhetayanzhongyingchudeziji，neizhanglianshang，meiyouxiuse，meiyoujingxi，meiyouxindong。

zhiyouyipianhuangwudemamu。wohuanhuankaikou，shengyinqingxierlengmo：“fusiyan，nilaiwanle。

”“zaozaiyinianduoyiqian，weilejiwodidichoujidiyibishoushufei，wojiuyijingbawoduita，

yijiduizheigeshijiekenengchanshengde，suoyoude‘aiyi’，doudiandangjinile。”fusiyanjuzhejiezhidedongzuo，

jiangzaileneili。talianshangdezixinheqidai，yicuncunsuilie，bianchenglebuganzhixindezhenjing。

tajingxincehualeyichangshengdadegaobai，xiangyaoshougezuimeiweideqingganguoshi，quefaxian，neikeguoshu，

zaozaiyikaishi，jiubeitaqinshouliangenbaqile。4fusiyandelianse，zaineiyikebiandecanbai。

bushineizhongshengbingdecangbai，ershiyizhongxinnianbengtahoudeshihunluopo。taweichilexujiudeyouyahecongrong，

diyicichuxianleliehen。“nishuoshenme？”tanannanziyu，fangfomeitingqing。“woshuo，

”woyiziyijudizhongfu，“wozaojiumeiyou‘aiyi’le。maizoutadeneigeren，shini。

”neimeijiazhilianchengdefenzuanjiezhi，congtazhandoudezhijianhualuo，diaozaidishang，fachuyishengqingcuidexiangsheng，

ranhougundaolejiaoluoli。taxiangshibeichouzoulesuoyouliqi，diezuozaipangbiandeyizishang。takanzhewo，

neiyanshenfuzaderangwowufafenbian。youzhenjing，youmimang，youaonao，

haiyouyisi……liantazijidouweicengchajuede……konghuang。tadiyicifaxian，tayonglaitiyanshijiede“gongju”，

shixiaole。taxiangpinchangzuidingjidemeiwei，quefaxianzijizaoyibashicaixiaohui。erwo，kanzhetashitaidemoyang，

xinzhongjingyongqiyiguqiyide**。bushixiyue，bushijiehen。shiyizhonggengyinan、gengniuqudeqingxu。

xiangshizaiwujindeheianzhong，kandaowode“zaowuzhu”yedielexialai，peiwoyiqichenlun。yuanlai，

wobingfeishenmedouganjuebudao。zaidiandanglesuoyouzhengmianqingxuhou，neixiefumiande、pohuaixingdeqinggan，

kaishizaiwozheijukongdongdequqiaoli，fengkuangzisheng。zenghen、eyi、baofudeyuwang……tamenxiangtengmanyiyang，

chanraozhu**hedexinzang，rangwodiyiciyoule“huozhe”deshigan。congneitianqi，

wobuzaishibeidongdijieshoutade“siyang”。wokaishizhudongchuji。tabushixiangtiyanqingxuma？hao，wojita。

taweisuchenanpailequanqiudingjiandekangfuyisheng，wojiudangzhetademian，jisuchendadianhua，

yongzuilengmo、zuibunaifandeyuqi，daduansuchenduiwodeganjiheguanxin。“wohenmang，meishibuyaozaidajiwole。

”guadiaodianhuahou，wonengqingxidiganjuedao，fusiyandehuxidoutingzhile。tashoujidepingmushang，

yikedaibiao“kuijiu”he“xintong”delanseguangqiu，zhengjuliedishanshuo。neishishuyuwodeqingxu，

beitaqiangxingboduo，cike，queyilingyizhongfangshi，zaitashenshangzhongxian。tamaizoulewoduididideai，

suoyitatiwoganshoudaoleneifenlengmobeihoudecitong。tadaiwocanjiashangyewanyan，

neixiemingyuanguifuduiwotoulaijidudemuguang，sixialiyilunwobuguoshifusiyanyangdeyouyigeqingren。wotingjianle。

woduanzhejiubei，zoudaoneigeyilundezuidashengdenvrenmianqian，

jiangbeizhonghongjiujinshupozailetaneizhangjingxinxiushidelianshang。zaisuoyourenjingedemuguangzhong，

wowanzhufusiyandeshoubei，yongzuiwugu、zuimangrandeyuqiwenta：“fuxiansheng，woshibushizuocuole？

wozhishibuxihuantakanwodeyanshen。”woganjuebudao“fennu”，yeganjuebudao“xiuru”。danwozhidao，

fusiyanganjuedaole。neiyike，tazhoushendeqiyadideheren。takanzhewo，yanshenlifanyongzhetaotiandenuyi，

keneinuyi，quebushiduizhewo，ershiduizheneixieshanghailewoderen。tamaizoulewosuoyoudezhengmianqingxu，

queyechenglewosuoyoufumianqingxudejieshouqi。woshoudaodesuoyoueyi，douhuizaitaneili，beifangdabaibeiditiyan。

wochengleyigewanmeide“kongxinren”。erta，chenglewoqingxudelajitong。wokaishixiangshouzheizhongbingtaideyouxi。

woguyirangzijixianrugezhongnankandejingdi，guyijinusuoyoukanbuguanwoderen，ranhouxianggemeishirenyiyang，

zhanzaiyibian，lengyanpangguanfusiyanruhetiwo“gantongshenshou”，

tiwochengshouneixiebengaiyouwolaichengshoudetongku、fennuhenankan。tabiandeyuelaiyuebaozao，yuelaiyueyinyu。

tabawoguanzaidingcenggongyuli，burangwochumen。“sunian，goule。”taniezhuwodeshouwan，

lidaodadejihuyaojiangwodegutouniesui。tadeyanjinglibumanlehongxuesi，shengyinshaya，

“buyaozaizheiyangzhemoniziji，yezhemowo。”wokanzhetatongkudeyangzi，diyicixiaochulesheng。

neixiaoshengganse、kongdong，budaiyisiwendu。“zhemo？”wowaizhetoukanta，“fuxiansheng，nizaishuoshenme？

woshenmeganjuedoumeiyoua。”“shini，shiniqinshoubawobianchengxianzaizheigeyangzide。

”“nizuoyongwosuoyoudemeihao，xiangshouwosuoyoudekuaileheaiyi。neime，pinchangyixiawosuoyoudetongkuheeyi，

buyeshilisuoyingdangdema？”“zhei，caijiaogongpingjiaoyi，bushima？”tabeiwodehuadudeyakouwuyan，

lianshangxuesejintun。tafengkuangdiaishangleneigecengjingchuncuizhiredesunian，

quezhinengyongbaozhezheigebeitaqinshoutaokonglinghun、zhishengxiahenyidekongqiao。tazuoyongshanzhenhaiwei，

quefaxianzijizaoyimeiyouleweijue。zhei，jiushiduitazuidadebaoying。5fusiyankaishiduozhewo。

tabuzaidaiwochuxirenhechanghe，shenzhihenshaohuidaoneijiangongyu。tadagaishipale，

pacongwozheili“jiqu”daogengduorangtawufachengshoudefumianqingxu。tayiweizheiyang，jiunengtaobi。ketacuole。

tanazoulewodeqinggan，womendelinghunjiuyijingtongguoneifenqiyuejinjinkunbangzaileyiqi。wulunxianggeduoyuan，

wosuojinglideyiqie，tadounenggantongshenshou。wokaishibianbenjiali。wobuzaimanzuyujinuwairen，

wobamubiaoduizhunlefusiyanzuizaiyidedongxi——tade“qingxudiandangxing”。wochadaolediandangxingdeweizhi，

yechadaoletadeyixiedakehu。neixieren，hewoyiyang，doushizoutouwulu，

yongzijizuizhenguideqingganhuanquliyidekelianren。wolianxishangleyiweidiandangle“yongqi”detuiyiquanwang。

taweilejinverzhibing，shiqulezhanshangquantaideyongqi，zhongrixujiu，liaodaobukan。wozhaodaota，

duitashuo：“wokeyibangnishuhuinide‘yongqi’，danniyeyaobangwozuoyijianshi。

”woyongfusiyanjiwodeneizhangheika，quchulejuexianjin。ranhou，wocehualeyichang“qiangjie”。

worangquanwangdaizheren，zaiwocongyinxingquqianchulaideshihou，“qiang”zouwosuoyoudeqian，bingqie，“dashang”wo。

jihuajinxingdehenshunli。dangquanwangbumanlaojiandequantou，daizhefengshengchaowolianshanghuilaishi，

woshenzhilianyanjingdoumeiyouzhayixia。yuxiangzhongdetengtongmeiyouwanquandaolai。

quantouzailiwozhiyoujilimidedifangtingzhule。quanwangkanzhewohaowujusedelian，zhenjingdihoutuileyibu。

danwohaishishunshidaozailedishang，guyirangzijideetoukezailubiandeshijieshang。wenredeyeti，

shunzhewodeejiaoliulexialai。wotangzaibinglengdedishang，kanzhehuimengmengdetiankong。woganjuebudao“kongju”，

yeganjuebudao“tengtong”。danwozhidao，zaichengshidelingyiduan，fusiyanyidingganjuedaole。neiyishunjian，

wuzhu；tahuiganshoudaoquantouhuilaishidejinghai；tahuiganshoudaoetoubeikeposhineijianruide、siliepiroudejutong。

zheixie，doushitaqianwode。jiuhuchedeshengyinyouyuanjijin。wobeisongjinleyiyuan。dangwotangzaibingchuangshang，