qinranchuangzuode《wozaishiguangjintouaini，suiyuebukemie》shiyibudiedangqifudeduanpianyanqingxiaoshuo。gushizhongdezhujiaoqinranfuyanxizaizhuixunzijidemengxianghejiejueneixinmaodundeguochengzhongjinglilexuduotiaozhanhechengzhang。zheibenxiaoshuoyiqixianmingderenwuxingxianghekourenxinxiandeqingjieerbeishouzanyu。wodianlediantouzuozaitapangbian，xiaxiaodekongjianlikerangqifenbiandeweimiaoqilai，tayijiuzhuanzhuzheshoulidegongzuo，meiyouhanxuan，meiyouxiangguwuyan。wodechuxian……。
jiehunjinianri，laogongpiexiawopeitadechulianguangshangchang，
yinuzhixiawomailehuochepiaolianyeganhuilaojia，
quebuxiangchejinleshiguangsuidao，
wozhishizaihuocheshangshuile8gexiaoshi，
kewaijiequeguolezhengzheng15nian。
“nifumuzaishinianqianyijingsile，qingwenhaiyouqitakeyilianxidejiarenma？”
警察问道。
死了？
mingmingyitianqianwohaihetamentongguodianhua，mamahaishuoyaozuowozuiaidetangcupaigu，zenmejiusileni。
woqiangrenleishui，haishibaochulelaogongdehaoma，
“duibuqi，ninbodedianhuashikonghao......”
警察为难的看着我，
ranerxiayimiaowojiuzhizhewaimiangaoloushangdedapingmushuodao：
“tanenglaijiewo！tashiwolaogong！”
suoyouzuobiludejingchadoutingxiadongzuo，zhenjingdekanzhewo。
zheijianshiqueshihenfeiyisuosi，kekanzherenaodejingchajuhewaimiangaoloulinlidejiedao，
wobudebuchengren，wohezheiyihuochederendouchuanyuele。
“qingwenxianzaizhendeshi2025nianma？”
“shidenvshi，xianzaishi2025nian10yue1hao。”
jiedaiwodenvjingyuanyanshenlimanshitongqing。
womimangdikanxiangzhouwei，zheitangcheyigongyou300duoren，doubeidaidaozheilizuobilu，
qichubuguangshijingchabuxiangxinwomen，womenyejuedeshiyudaolepianzi，bijingdajiadouhaishishangchedemoyang，zenmekenengyiyezhijianjiuguoleshiwunian。
dankanzhezhenshideshenfenzhenghexunsufazhandekejichanwu，womenzhinengjieshouxianshi。
“suoyichukaininfumuwai，haiyoukeyilianxiderenlaijieninma？”
zaikuaiyaobengkuidebianyuan，woxiayishidebaochulefuyanxidehaoma，
kegangshuowanwojiuhouhuile，neigechengnuohuishouhuwoyibeizidenanren，zaojiubeipanlewomendehunyin。
“duibuqi，ninbodadedianhuashikonghao...”
shikonghao，suoyitazhuxiaoleshoujihao，heshenzhiyizaiyiqileba。
xinzangmeilaiyoudechoutong，zhishiwohuxidoubiandejicuqilai。
shizongsannianjiunengshenbaosiwangzidongsangou，genghekuangwodoushizongleshiwunian，
“nvshi，ruguozheibianshizaimeirennenglaijienidehua，womenjiuzhineng...”
“ta！tanenglaijiewo！”
wozhizhewaimiandebaicundapingmushuodao。
chuanzheyishenheisexizhuangdefuyanxijiuzaishangmian，etoudebahaishigaosanneinian，tasheminghuwo，beihunhunyongpijiupingzalenaodailiuxiade。
neishidetameifengyongyuanqueshangyijiao，zhoushensanfachu“laozibuhaore”deqichang，piqidehen，chulewomeiyounvshengnengkaojin，hedapingmushangshenshineiliandetapanruoliangren。
buguoxianzaidetadaoshiheshenzhiyihenbanpei，hunshidamowangzhongyuyushanglenengzhifutadeqinglengbaiyueguang，
kepingshenmewozheigeyuanpeizuihouchenglexiaosan！
suoyiwojujuelianxiqitaren，jiuxiangrangfuyanxilaijiewo，woyaozaitamenzuienaideshihouchashangyijiao，exintamen。
jiurutamenduiwoneiban，mingmingshangyimiaohairangwochenjinzaihunyinmeimandexiyuezhong，xiayimiaojiuyaowoqinshousisuizheigemeimeng。
“nin...quedingma？”
nvjingyuanyouxiedanyoudekanzhewo，yucitongshi，jingchajulisuoyoudejingcha，doufenfentingxialeshoulidehuo，daizhebukezhixindeyanshenwangxiangwo。
有嘲讽也有羡慕。
zheiyimuqiahaozhengshilewoxinmuzhongdecaice，fuyanxixianzaihundebucuo，huozheshuoyijingshimeilaobanle，suoyicainengchuxianzaidapingmushang。
“queding，zaiwoshanghuocheqian，tahaishiwodehefalaogong。”
jianworuciduding，nvjingyuanzhinenglimapeihe。
xianzaidefuyanxibingbuhaolianxi，nvjingyuanyoushidadianhuayoushizhaolingdaode，yigexiaoshihoudianhuacaizhongyujietong，keduimiandeshengyinquebushita。
