liudianban,erzifangxuehuijiale。
wobazaichufanglimanghuolelianggebanxiaoshi、jingxinzhunbeideliucaiyitangduanshangzhuo,zhaohuyijiazichifan。
“ma,laogong,erzi,laichifanle!”
wuliangyuantanzaishafazheitou,erziwuningtanzaishafalingyitou,lianggerendoupengzheshoujidazheyouxi,duiwodeshengyinchongerbuwen。
popodaoshilaidehenkuai,shanglezhuo,nazhekuaizibajitui、yudu、baodujiadaolezijidewanli,ranhoumaitoukuchi。
wotanlekouqi,youhanleerziyisheng:“wuning,guolaichifanle!”
quemeixiangdaotaturanbaozaodicongshafashangdanqi,bashoujichaozhewodelianyishuai,henhendizazaiwodebilianggushang。
“jiaojiaojiao,jiunishierduo!”
wowuzhebizi,tengtongshiwoyishijianshuobuchuhua,yanleishuadijiuliulexialai。
wuningduiwobunaifanbushiyitianliangtiandeshiqingle,woyizhiyiweitashinianjixiaobudongshi,quemeixiangdao,juranyanbianchengsiwujidandeduiwoshijiabaoli。
woshituxianglaogongwuliangyuanqiuzhu,ketadezhuyiliyijiuzaishoujishang,toudoumeiyoutaiyixia。
yipangdepopodaoshitaiqitoupieleyiyan,youxunsudilexiaqu,fangfoshenmedoumeikanjianside,danzuijiaorennaibuzhudexiaoyibaoluletadezhenshixiangfa。
wozhihaoduzimianduiwuning。
“wuning!”wodeyanleizhibuzhudiliu,yinweishentidetonghaishixintongyijingfenbuqingchule,“woshinimama,nijiushizheimeduimamadema?”
“qi!”tacongbizilihengchuyisheng。
nianjin10suidetayijingyouyimiliuwudeshengao,yibailiushijindetizhong,rengaomada,jugaolinxiadekanxiangwo。
“shenmemama,nichongqiliangjiushigebaomu!”
“你说什么!”
yigujihuohudicongxinkoucuanshanglai,ranshaozhewodelizhi。wogaogaodijuqishou,xiangjitayibazhang。
可……
他是我儿子啊!!!
zheiyibazhang,wozhongjiushixinruan,meiyoudaxiaqu。
quemeixiangdaozheigejudongquegengjiajinulewuning。
tajianwojuqishou,jingzhijiechaowotuleyikoukoushui!
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“nixianzaihaixiangdawo?ninalaidezige!choubaomu!!!”
“你!!!”
woqijigongxin,yijuhuameiyoushuowan,jingyanqianyihei,zhijiehundaole!
buzhiguoleduojiu,zhongyuxinglai。
zhengyanjishiheian,wolengshenlehenjiu,caicongchuangwaideqingliangyueguangquedinglexianzaiyishiheiye。
wojiuzheiyangzaibingliangdedibanshang,tangleliugexiaoshi。
congweiyouguodexinhanxijuanlewo。
yeshenhanliang,xinyehanliang。
womianqiangpaqilai,zuozaidishang,baozheshuangxi,zhenggerenfazhedou。
zheijiushiwoxuanzedejiarenma?
wodezhangfu,wodeerzi,wodepopo,duiwojiushizheiyangwuqingma?
zuodaotianliang,woyijiujuedehunshenbushufu,bianzhengzhaqishenquleyiyuan。
yishengdemeitoujinzhou,yaowojixuzuojiancha,woyinyueyoulebuhaodeyugan。
zuizhongjianchajieguozhongyuchulaile。
乳腺癌,晚期。
yishengyonglianmindeyanshenkanzhewo:“pingshishibushizongshengmenqi?fanshibuyaobiezaixinlia……nitongzhiyixiajiarenba……”
yishenghaishuolehenduo,danwohuanghuanghuhu,zaimeitingjinqu。
wozhiqingxidizhidaoleyijianshi,woshiriwuduole。
zaihoulaiderizi,wohunhuneediduguo。
zaiwoxiangwuliangyuangaozhiworuxianaidediertian,tajingranxiangwotichulelihun。
erziwuningwanzhexiaosandegebo,dangzhewodemian,qinqinreredehantamama。
meixiangdaodeshi,popojingrancimeishanmu,haoshenghaoqididuiwo。
tawenrouquandaowo:“qimeng,mazhidaonizheixienianguodeburongyi,niyizhidouzheimehao,mazhendeshebudeni,nishigekumingren……”
taxiangwoyaoleshengchenbazi,shuoyaozhaorenbangwogaiming,shuodoushiyinweiwuliangyuankewowocaideaizhengde,zhiyaohetalilehunwojiunengbianhao。
wotingtadehua,hetalilehun,jingshenchulehu。
结果没钱治病。
zuihouzailinliedehandongli,yigerengudusizaidujudechuzuwuli。
sihouwodelinghunbingweixiaosan,yizhipiaodangzaikongzhong。
meixiangdaodeshi,laijiwoshoushide,jingranshiwodepopo。
tadaizhesansigerenlaiwojiali,zhizhewodao:“kanhaolea,renzaizheile,shengchenbaziwoyijinggennimenheduiguole,meicuoa,taizouba!”
nanrenlianliandiantou,jiangwotaiqilai。
lingwaiyigekanqilaishizhushierde,duiwopopoxiaozhe:“xiexieninbangwomendamangle,yaobuwoerzizheiminghunzhenbuzhidaoyaozenmeban,zheisanqiankuaininnahao,jininjiaxintiandexiaosunsunmaidianhaochide。”
popoxiaodejianyabujianyan,xinmanyizudizouchulemen。
wopiaozaikongzhong,murandikanzheneiqunrenbawodeshentitaizou,jianjianxiaoshibujian。
yuanlaipopoduiwomianshangrouhe,doushizhuangchulaide。
zhiweilebawopeiminghun,zhiweileququsanqiankuai!
我……我不甘心……
我不甘心!!!
handonglayue,hudileishengpili。
youyidaoshengyinzaiwoerbianzhouranxiangqi:“qimeng,ruojinizhongshengyicidejihui,nidangruhe?”
wojingxing,suijihenyiyongshangxintou,numuqiechi:“woyaobaofutamen!xiabanbeizi,zhiweizijierhuo!”
雷声沉寂下去。
zaicizhengyan,yuhuichuanguobolisazaiwolianshang,fangfoairendeshou,wenroudichumo。
是久违的热意。
我抬头,看向时钟。
六点半。
wuningfangxuele,gaichifanle。
我走向餐桌。