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我终于死心了。
zheiyishiwodexiachangzuiweiqican,bujinbeihuohuotaoleshen,sihouhaibeifenshi,shitihainaquweiyu。
zhiweidexiekeyinyiju,“zheimeduoyu,haopiaoliangya。”
wodehunpobeizhaohuideshihou,wohaitengdezhibuqiyao。
suiranzuorenwushihuibatongganjianruo,danyebushimeiyoutonggan,danzheidoubibushangwodexintong。
xinsineiyishunfangruotianbengdilie,wobazijiguanzaijialikulesantiansanye。
woailejiangwangneimeduoshi,zheifenaizaojiukegumingxin。
napazheimeduoshiwodoumeiyoushanzhong。
napawobeijiangwangzaohuangyao,beirenchuozhejiliangguma。
napawoyinlangrushizuihoujiaporenwang。
napamianlinerxuanyishiwoyongyuanshibeitafangqideneiyige。
wodoukeyigaosuziji,neizhishijuqing,bushitadebenyi。
但我不想骗自己了。
zuowanzheicirenwuwojiutuixiule,zheishijuzhangjiwozhengqudefuli,wancheng100cirenwujiukeyituixiule。
wodaokuaichuanzongjubanlituixiushouxu。
juzhangtaitoukanlewohaojiyan,yuyanyouzhi。
“juzhang,niyaoshuoshenmejiushuoba。”
“neiwojiuzhishuole,nizheimeduonianburongyi,dangchuzaijulizuijiannandeshihouniyuanyizhuanxingweinvpei,juliyizhinianzhenideqing,suoyiwomenjuedingsongniyicikuaichuan,qudangnvzhuxiangshouxiangshou。”
wodesixuyixiahuidaoqinianqian,woshikuaichuanxuexiaozuiyouxiudebiyesheng,fenpeidegongzuoziranshizuiqingsongdekuaichuannvzhu,hegezhongnanrentanlianai。
danzaiwodiyicirenwuzhongwoaishanglejiangwang,taneishizhishigenanpei。
youyinweidangshikuaichuannvpeideyuangongxishao,wobianzhudongshenqingzhuangang。
kemeixiangjiangwangmeiduojiujiushenglenanzhu,woqueyizhitingliuzailenvpei。
turanshoujiyizhen,danchuyitiaoxinxi。
“nizaina?woweitengguolaijiwozhuzhou。”
wozichaodixiaolexiao,zaitayanliwoshenmeyebushi,youyongjiuyong,wuyongjiureng。
wobatalaheihou,yingxialejuzhangdetiyi。
zheibenshudenvzhushijiwanqianchongaiyuyishendejiaojiaoda**,shenbianweiraodenanrenmeiyouchengqianyeyoushangbai。
nanzhushenfangyegengshishuaidebuxing。
wokanzhewulunshishengaohaishiwuguandouzhenghaozhangzaiwodeshenmeidianshangdenanren,xinlizhifandigu,mobushijuzhangweiwoliangshendazaodezhipianren。
是的,纸片人。
yinweikuaichuanjuyuangongxishao,woburenweijuzhanghuiweilewozaipairenguolai。
fanzhengyeshizhipianren,wobianmeifudandetanqilelianai。
只是偶尔想起江望。
woheshenfangyezaiwoshengdadechengrenlishangdingqing。
tasonglewohaodayikefenzuan,shaoshuoyeyouqikela。
wojingyabuyi,“nizenmesongwozheimeguizhongdedongxi?nikuainahuiqu,wobunengshou。”
“nishiwonvpengyou,zenmebunengshou?”
shenfangyeburongzhiyidijiangfenzuanjiwodaishang,taitourenzhenshuodao,“yuhuanhuan,nizhide,buyaozhiyiziji。”
wowangzhetaruxinghebancuicanshanyaodeyanmou,meiyoulaidehonglelian。
“haola,woshouxiajiushile。”
wokanxiangzhouweirenchongmanshanyidezhufu,xinliqueturanfanqinanguo。
woyijingjibuqingwoyouduojiumeiyouchuxianzaijuguangdengxiaxiangshoubierendezhumule。
congqiangenzaijiangwangshenbian,wojiuxiangtiaoluoshuigou,renrenhanda,queyibiantuoqiwo,youyibianxiangzhaganwozuihouyidianliyongjiazhi。
qishijiangwangshihewobiaoguobaide。
zaidisanshizhong,wozuoweitadebaiyueguanghuiguo,tapaoqinvzhuhewojiuqingfuran。
neishiyidudaoletanhunlunjiadedibu。
tahuiqianzhewodeshouzaigongyuanmanbu,yehuiyuwoerbinsimo,disichanmian。
neiduanshijiantaiguomeihao,meihaodaowodanglezhen。
danhoulaitaquecankudigaosuwo,“neizhishizoujuqing,gongzuoeryidangbudezhen。”
xianshiyushuzhongdezouxiangruchuyizhe。
taliyongwanwohou,bianhaobuliuqingdipaoqilewo。