taturanwenleguolai,juanzoulewodehuxi。
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我可耻地沉沦其中。
wenzhewenzhe,wochangdaoyiguxianwei。
是他的眼泪。
yishizhujianqingxi,wotingdaotashuo:“liangqing,nihuilaile,wohaoxiangni。”
womengdidalegejiling,tuikaileshenzhibuqingdemoshaonan。
“我是付瑶。”
moshaonanyixiazizuoqi,yanhanlinglidedingzhewo,buyoufenshuochaowohuiquan。
jifengsaoguowodelian,wohuangkongdebishangyan。“peng”shengguohou,wodelianshangquemeiyouchuanlairenhedetengtong。
yihuozhengyan,wokanjiantayiquanchuzailewoshenhoudechuangtoujushang,shouzhihailiuzhexianxue。
woturanjuedeweiqu:“shinirencuoleren!woshilaizhaogunide!”
tabushengbuxiangkanwo,yanlifangunzhefenhenyusinian。
hendeshiwo,siniandeshiliangqing。
liangrenduishixujiu,moshaonanshouquan,moranlikai。kanzhetagujidebeiying,woturanchongleguoqu,lanzailetashenqian。
talengmodipiaowoyiyan,bunaifandishuo:“rangkai。”
“moshaonan,ruguowoshuo,wozuozheiyiqie,zhishidanchundexiangyaojiubeibei,nihuixiangxinwoma?”
neiyike,wobuzhidaowoxiongqianglifangundeshishenme。
shixiangqingsu,haishixiangjietuoni?
moshaonanlengheng,turanlaxialianse,shenshouniezhulewodexiae。
“danchun?sheixinni!wozhizhidao,ruobushini,liangqingtajiubuhuisi。zhishao,xianzaitahainengpeizhewo!fuyao,wofengquanni,edudeshiqingbuyaozuodierci!”
taditousaoxiangwodexiaofu,yanlitouzhexiongguang。
“yaobushizheigehaizideqidaixuenengjiubeibei,zhipawohui……”
wotingjianletalingyizhishouquantouniejindeshengyin。
“wohuiqinshoujiejueleta。”
weixiewan,taxianedisongkaishou,zhuangkaiwodejianbang,zouchufangjian。
jiaobushengxiaoshihou,wonanshoudidunzaidishang,jiangtoumaijinshuangxi,xiaoshengchouqiqilai。
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diertianyidazao,womailebeibeizuixihuandebabiwawa,genzhexueyingquyiyuankanbeibei。beibeishiwodenver,wonengbuxintengma?
sheiliao,beibeiqiaojianwozhihou,shenziqidedouleqilai。
“nishihaisiwomamadexiongshou,wotaoyanni,nijiwogun!”
tongzhiquejianlidehuayusihuyaocichuanwodexin。
napashimoshaonandewujie,wodounengchengshou。keshibeibei……
nverdediyi,shiyibafenglidedao,sanliangxiagouchuwodexianxue。
beibeikenengtaijidong,lianseyixiabiandecangbai。
xueyingjianzhuang,jimangtuiwochumen,zuishangmadao:“nizheigebuyaoliandenvren!zenmebuzhidaoxiaoting!”
wotongyangxinjirufen,lazhuhushiqiutahanyishengguolaikanbeibei。
zuozaizoulangwai,wotingdaobingfangneidebeibeizaixueyinghuailikuqi,suihoubutingshuotaoyanwohenwodehua。
“beibei,bukulea,nainaizaizheilipeizheni。bunengkulee,guai。nainaiquganzouzheigehuainvrenhaobuhao?”
“好。”
zuiwanxinde,shinverduiwodehen。
xueyingdakaimenchulai,bawohandaoloutijian。
ganzaitafazuozhiqian,wokaikou:“ayi,wozhidaonintaoyanwo。nindakebubiyongbeibeishanghaiwo。beibeizheiyangjidong,huiyingxiangtadebingqingde。yaoshibeibeihuichengbudaowoshenghaizi……liangqingjiehuisibumingmude。”
xueyingyilianshabai,qihuhudidengwoyiyan。
wochuixiayanmou,shuo:“wozhidaoninzheimezuo,shixiangrangmoshaonangengjiataoyanwo。qishininbuduociyijude,tagenbenbuhuizhengyankanwo。”
shuodaozhei,wodexinbuyouchoulexia。
“ninfangxinhaole,woconglaijiumeiyouduitayouguoxinsi。wozheimezuo,zhiweiliangqingjie,zhiweibeibei。wojiushidangchuneigejuanluanderen。”