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zaijizhenshibangtongshidingyeban，jiuhucheturansonglaiyiweichehuoshanghuan。
chehuofashengshi，cheliderenzhengtingzailubianjinxingjulieyundong，chebolisuipianzhijiezhajinnvren**dexiaofu，daozhizigongpolie。
jinshoushuqianyigeshuxideshengyincongshenhouchuanlai：
“yisheng！zigongbaodezhujiubao！baobuzhujiumeiguanxi，tademinggengzhongyao！”
gubudenanrenshishei，wolianmangtajinshoushushikaishishoushu。
shoushushunliwanchenghou，neigenanrenchongjinlaipazaichuangbiantongku：
“yunyun，shiwoduibuzhuni！biehaipa，jiusuanshengbulehaiziwoyeainiyibeizi！womashangjiuqunihuijia！”
kanqingnanrendelian，wolengzaiyuandi，ruzaoleipi。
neishiwojiehunsanniandelaogong，chenyichuan。
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shunzhelianpangwangxiakan，chenyichuanyeshouleyixiewaishang，shangkouhaizaimaoxue。
wojilikezhi，zhandouzheshengyinkaikou：“huanzhezigongbaozhule，buhuiyingxianghuaiyun。”
chenyichuanwanquanmeizhuyidaowo，zhishixintengdibokailinyunejianbeihanshuidashidetoufa。
“laopo，nimeishijiuhao。shengyutongku，nixiangshengjiusheng，buxiangshengzanjiubusheng，shenmedoubibushangnizhongyao！woaini！”
tadeyanshenzhenzhi，yuqijianding。
hedangchuhunlishang，weiwodaishangjiezhishichengnuodeyangziyimoyiyang。
zhenshideqitabingrenmanlianzhufu，renbuzhugantan：
“zheishishenmejueshihaonanren？xianzaibubinvrenshenghaizidenanrennazhedenglongdouzhaobudao！”
“shia，haogandong！tajingrannenggoulijienvrenshenghaizidebuyi！tainandele！”
kouzhaoxiadewosisiyaozhuzuichun。
zhizhishejianchuanlaiyiguxuexingwei，yachisongkaideshunjian，xiongqiangyesixinliefeidetongqilai。
baitiandeshihou，tahaishouzaichufanglijiwojianzhongyao，shuangyanxundetonghong，shouyebeitangqiyigedapao。
tayesihaobuzaiyi，naixindichuiliangweijinwozuili。
pakudaowo，youlimasaijinyimeimijian。
那时有多甜蜜。
现在就有多苦涩。
linyunbeizhuanquzhuyuanbu，woruyijujiangyingdemuounuohuixiuxishi。
zhidaojiaobandetongshiningtingting“pa”didakaideng，beimiansecanbaidewoheleyitiao。
“anqi！zheishizenmele？fashengshenmeshile？”
wodixiatouqu，yankuangfasuan。
naohailituranshanguowogangbeijianchachuzigongfayubuliang，jinanshouyunshi，chenyichuanshiwangdebiaoqing。
wozijueduibuqita，shenshouzhuailezhuaitadexiuzi。
tacaifanyingguolai，wenroudibawolanjinhuaili，qingpaihoubei。
“meishideanan，xianzaiyiliaozheimefada，zanmenhaohaozhiliao，kendingnenghuaishang。”
womangyugongzuo，meiganshangtalianyepaidaodezhuanjiahao。
chenyichuandezhihou，liansenankan，yuqiyehenlengmo。
“niweishenmebuqu？ninandaobuzhidaowoyouduoxiangyaoyigehaizima？gongzuonengjiwomenyigewanzhengdejiama？nengguoguo，bunengguojiuli！”
shihoutaxiangwodaoqian，zhishitaixiangyaoyigeshuyuwomendehaizile，qiuwoyuanliang。
tashuo：“woaini，suoyixianggenniyunyuyigeaiqingjiejing，rangzheifenai，nenggouyanxuxiaqu。”
我信了。
suoyiheleyiwanyouyiwanzhongyao，shileyigeyouyigepianfang。
仍旧未能有孕。
yishengbiaoshijiusuanwohuaishangle，shengchanyehuibichangrenjiannan。
keshixianzaiwofaxian，tabushibuzhidao。
zhishitaailinyun，suoyishebudetashouku。
erwojiushigeshengyugongju，nanshengyedesheng。
worenxiahoulongjianyongqidekuse，duiningtingtingyaoyaotou，biaoshijiushiyoudianlei。
zaitayihuodezhushixia，wohuanxiabaidagua。
jiaoxiayouxiefaruan，yigeliangqiangxianxieshuaidao。
tayanjishoukuaidefuzhu，woxiangqishenme，kaikoushuodao：
“tingting，zanmenyuanxiaxiangdaojicengdeyishengmingedinglema？”
“还没呢。”
“neimafannibangwobamingzibaojizhuren，woxiangqu。”