第1章

wojiaohanruiming,shiyigehuoleliangbeizideren。

shangbeizi,wodeyingzhangweihunqichenyunyunhewodebiaogeliangqingzhaojiehunle。

erwolunweilequancunxiaobing,zuihoucanzaochehuoshenwang。

重活一世。

wofangqiweihunqi,xuanzequshangbeiziyizhimomopeizaiwoshenbiandeqingmeizhuangmengyu。

benyiweihuishouhuoxingfu,kemeixiangdao,woyouxuancuole。

……

1985nian11yue15ri,shenbeinvjunjunqu。

wozhanzaituanzhangbangongshimenwai,jiutingdaowoqizizhuangmengyudexiashuwenta。

“tuanzhang,nijiranbuxihuanhanruiming,weishenmeyaohetajiehun?”

zhuangmengyuqinglengdeshengyintouguomumenchuanlechulai。

“chenyunyunzhiqianshihanruimingdeweihunqi,xianzaitaheliangqingzhaojiehunle,wopahanruimingcongzhongzuogeng,suoyizhinenghetajiehun。”

“wozhixiangkandaoliangqingzhaoxingfu。”

tadehuahenhenzazaiwodexinshang。

wojiangzaimenwai,chuizaishencedeshoumoranshoujin,xinzangyichouyichoudeteng。

梁清昭。

又是梁清昭。

shangbeizi,wodebiaogeliangqingzhaoqiangzoulewodeweihunqichenyunyun。

liangrenjiehunhou,hehemeimei。

ercunlirenxiaowoyigedaxuesheng,liangenvrendoushoubuzhu。

zuihou,wojingshenhuanghuzaoyuchehuocansi。

zhongshenghuilaihou,woguoduanhechenyunyuntuilehun,hemomoshouhulewoyibeizidezhuangmengyuzaiyiqi。

kewomeixiangdao,zhuangmengyuxihuanderen,yeshiwodebiaogeliangqingzhao。

weilerangliangqingzhaodedaoxingfu,tabuxihewojiehun。

wobuzhidaoshizenmezouchudenvzijunqu,yingzhelinliedehanfeng,huidaojiashuyuan。

tuikaifangjiandemen,woyiyanjiukandaoleqiangshangwohezhuangmengyudejiehunzhao。

naohaizhongbuyoudexiangqiyinianqianzhuangmengyuhewoqiuhunshishuodehua。

“hanruimingtongzhi,woxihuanni。”

“你可以娶我吗?”

“woxiangheniguoyibeizi。”

dangshi,zhuangmengyukanzhewodeyanzhongdoushiwenrou,genbenbuxiangzuojia。

kejintian,taduizhanyoushuodehua,yebushijiade。

“wozhixiangkandaoliangqingzhaoxingfu……”

wodeyankuangmanmanfanhong,houlongyizhenfajin,nannandao。

“zhuangmengyu,nidaodiaideshishei?”

shangbeizizhidaowosiqian,zhuangmengyuyizhidouzaiwoshenbianmomopeiban。

wozhijinjide,wochuchehuohoulinsizhishi,conglaimeiyoukuguodeta,kuchengleyigehaizi。

“hanruimingtongzhi,nixingxing,nibiesi。”

“woaini,nibuyaolikaiwo。laotianye,woqiuniranghanruiminghuoguolai,wokeyiyongwodeminghuantahuilai。”

benlai,woyiweishitaduilaotianyedeqiqiushengxiaole。

suoyi,wocainengzhongxinhuoguolai。

suoyi,wocaixuanzequdeta。

kexianzaikanlai,shiwonongcuole……

深夜。

woyigerenzuozaichuangbianshuibuzhe。

fangmenbeituikai,zhuangmengyuguozheyishenhanqizoulejinlai。

womeiyouxiangwangchangyiyanglikeyingshangqu,ershijingjingdizuozhekanxiangta。

zhuangmengyuzheishiconghuailitaochuyidaikaohongshu,saidaowodeshouli,nieleniewodelian。

“zenmehaimeishui?shibushizaidengwo?”

“huilaidelushangyudaomaikaohongshude,xiangqiniqiantianshuoxiangchi,jiujinimailaile。”

“woyizhifangzaihuaili,haishirede,nikuaichangchang。”

wozheshouliwenredehongshu,wotaimouduishangzhuangmengyuwenroudeshixian,xinzhongwuweizachen。

mingmingtabaitianganghezhanyoushuobuxihuanwo,weishenmexianzaitaquebiaoxiandehaoxianghenaiwo?

良久。

我缓缓开口。

“mengyu,nizhendeaiwoma?”

zhuangmengyuqiaopiyixiao:“dangran,buainizenmehuihenijiehun?”

tingdaotadehua,wochadianjiuyaorenbuzhugaosuta,baitiantashuodehua,woquandoutingjianle。

yechadianrenbuzhuzhiwenta,liangqingzhaojiuneimehaoma?

haodaokeyirangtaweileliangqingzhaodexingfu,renshouheyigebuaiderenjiehun。

kezheixiedoubeiwoyanlexiaqu,wopingjingdeshuo。

“mengyu,wojintianqujunqujinisongfanle。”

zhuangmengyuwenyan,mouseyizhen,suihouzhuangzuobujingyidewen。

“shenmeshihou?wozenmemeikanjianni?”

“wozoudaobanlubeiyiyuanjiaohuiquchuligongzuo,ranhoujiumeiqu。”

huayingangluo,womingxianganjuedaozhuangmengyufangsongxialai。

“xiaciqujunqutiqiangaosuwo,woqujieni。”

“haole,nixianchi,woquhuanyifu。”

zhuangmengyuditouzaiwolianjialuoxiayiwen,suihouzhuanshenchumenhuanyifu。

fangmenguanshangdeneiyike,wodexinyegenzhezhanlezhan。

凌晨两点。

zhuangmengyutangzaiwoshenbianshushui。

erwoqishenxiachuang,congshoutibaolinachuyizhangfumeishenzaobaomingbiao。

woshiyimingwaikeyisheng,zheizhangbiaoshiyizhouqian,womenkezhurenjiwode。

yidantianxiebaomingbiao,wohuidaibiaoyiyuanqumeiguoshenzaoxuexi,yidantongyi,buzhidaoyaoduoshaoniancainenghuilai。

zhiqianwohaizaiyouyu,xianzaiwojiezhechuangwaideyuese,zaibaomingbiaoshangguoduanqianxialezijidemingzi。

——韩瑞明。