第2章 死就死吧

dunzaixishoujiandeyigejiaoluoli,wobaozheneigehezi,zhandoudexiangfengzhongdeye……

“wozenmeban?zenmeban?zenmeban?”

我无助地对自己说。

suhuashuoshizhilianxin,laobabeirenshengshengdikanduanshouzhi,dangshigaishiduomeditong?

yebuzhidao,tamenjilaobazhixuelema?

wanyimeiyoujinxingchuli,laobayizhiliuxuebuzhizenmeban?

zhendemeixiangdaolaobajuranqianlejiubailiushiwan……

jiubailiushiwanya,wodaonaliquchoujizheibijukuanni?

zheishihoutingdaojiaobusheng,shililuwanxideshengyin。

“zhangjie,woxiangqizuotiandeshiqing,jiujuedekexi。ruguowoshi**jiuhaole,yiqianwanya。”

“shiya,zhengzhengyiqianwanni。”

“yiqianwan,jiubailiushiwan,yiqianwan,jiubailiushiwan。”

wodexindunshidianguanghuoshidiyishan。

qishizheiyangzhendeshikeyijiulaobade,danshiwozheibeizijiuwanle。

xiangqilaobaciaidelian,wenroudeshou,wozhongyuyizheqiangzhanleqilai。

xianzaineixieren,yijingwanquanshiqulenaixin。

ruguobubanglaobahaiqingzheixiezhai,tamenzhendehuishaletade。

laobashiwozaizheigeshijieshang,weiyideqinren。

weileta,wozuorenheshiqingdouyuanyi。

zhanzaizongcaibangongshimenkou,woxiangyaoanmenlingdeshou,shenlechuquyousuolehuilai。

wohuaizhonglaobadezhitou,fangfozaimanmanbianleng。

bunengzaituole,laobadezhitouruguobukuaidianjieshang,jiuchedifeile。

tashineimezhuiqiuwanmeidepiaoliangxiaolaotou,zenmenengyouzheiyangdecanque。

“baiqianqian,jiranniyijingjuedingle,sijiusiba。neixieshenmemianzi,zizundoujianguiquba!”

wozaixinlihenhendiduizijishuo。

ranhouguzuyongqi,anxianglemenling。

zheishihoulilupengzhewenjianzouleguolai,qiguaidishuo:

“baiqianqian,nilaizheilizuoshenme?”

wobuzhidaogaizenmehuidacaihao,zhizhiwuwudishuo:

“我……我……

zheishihoumendakaile,lilugangxiangzoujinqu。

woyijingshanshenjinqu,duitabaoqiandishuo:

“woyoushizhaozongcai,duibuqi。”

ranhoubaliluguanzaiwaimian,wanquanbugutayiliandecuoe。

wozhanzaizongcaimianqian,kanzhetajunyiderutongdiaosubandelian,wuguanzhangdejinhuwanmei,danshinafangfojiuyaojiebingdeqiheishuangmouli,kanbuchurenheganqing,bobodezuichungoulechulengkudehuxian……

cishicike,wodexinbuyoukuangtiaoqilai。

zheimenanyiqichidehua,wogaizenmekaikou。

nandaoshuowoyaojitashenghaizima?

zheishihougonghanyangcongwenjianshangyikaishixian,fangfoganggangfaxianlewodecunzai:

“什么事?”

“我……”

“没事就出去。”

gonghanyangmeitouweiweiyizhou。

cikeyijingshipofuchenzhoudewo,zhideguzuyongqi,duitajiejiebabadishuo:

“zongcai,nizuotianzaoshangzaibangongshishuodehua,haisuanshuma?woxiangyaohenijiehun,xianzailikemashang。nifangxin,wozaidaxueliannanpengyoudoumeiyoutanguo,wo……”

duizheyigenanren,shuozijishige**,woshizaishiyoudianshuobuchukou。

shuodaozheili,wodehuayujiaranerzhi。

gonghanyanglenglengdikanzhewo,tadeyanshentouchurangrenbuhanerlidebingleng,rangwodunshiyouxiesesuo。

“你是**吗?”

zheimegangadewenti,rangwolenglepianke,zhideyingzhetoupishuo:

“是。”