第1章 你本来就什么也不是

“nijintianquyiyuanle?”nanrenbankaozaishafashangmian,shoulijiazheyizhiyan,muguanglenglengdekanzheyeqingge。

muzhanbeijiushiyouzheiyangdebenshi,zhishiyigeyanshenjiunengrangyeqinggedazhan,tasuozaiyixiulideshouyouxiedou,zhishijielidekongzhizhuziji:“shi。”

“ganshenme?”nanrentuchuyigeyanquan,shensuideyanshentouguoyanwuyishunbushundedingzheta。

“wolaidayima,duziteng,jiuquzhaoyishengjianchaleyixia。”yeqinggexintiaodehuang。

tahuaiyunle,quebugangaosumuzhanbei。

yinweitazhidao,gaosumuzhanbeidejieguozhiyouyige,neijiushidadiao。

hemuzhanbeizaiyiqisannian,tayigongliudiaosangehaizi。

yishengshuotaliuchantaiduo,zigongbifeichangdebo,ruguozaizuoliuchanshoushutazheibeizidoukenengbuhuiyouhaizi。

eryeqinggeshiduomedekewangyouyigezijidehaizi,zuomengtadouxiangyaoyigehaizi,yigehemuzhanbeidehaizi。

keshitayezhidao,muzhanbeishibuhuirangtahuaizhutadehaizide。

tashineiyangyaneta,zenmekenenghuirangtashengxiatadehaizini?

yeqinggemeicilaidayimashihouzonghuitengdesiquhuolai,muzhanbeidagaishixiangxinle,meiyouzaiwen,zhishianjingdechouzheyan。

yeqinggesonglekouqi,jichuyigexiaorong:“eleba,xiangchishenmewoqujinizuo?”

muzhanbeimeiyouhuida,jixubaochizheyigezishichouyan,yanweiqiangbidenanshou,yeqinggetuihouyibi,daizheshangliangdeyuqi:“yaobu,wozuonizuixihuanchidefenzhengrou?”

huayinluoxia,nanrenturanchixiaoyisheng,bashoulideyantouwangdishangyireng,henhuanmandetuchuyijuhua:“mingtianquyiyuanzuoletaba!”

yeqinggelengleyixia,jiangyingdekanzhetadelian,zuichundoudongleyixia,xiangshuoshenme,queshishenmedoushuobuchulai。

muzhanbeihuanhuandezhanqilai:“ziningshentibuhao,wobuxiangrangtayinweizheigebingqingehua!”

tazheishisuanshizaijieshime?

yigufennucongyeqinggedexiongqianglimaochulai,tadiyicizhizhebozidengzhemuzhanbei:“nizheiyangyixinweitazhexiang,wosuanshenme?”

houchuzheijuhuayeqinggejiuyouxiehouhui,tawenmuzhanbeizheiyangdehuabushizaizitaokuchime。

guoranxiayimiaotalenglengqingqingdeduihuilai:“nibenlaijiushenmeyebushia?”

yeqinggeyanjingyouxieshirun,shia,taduiyumuzhanbeilaishuoyizhijiushenmedoubushi,weishenmedaoxianzaihaigaobuqingchuni?

tabayanzhongdewuqibihuiqu,“muzhanbei,jiusuanwoshenmedoubushi,danshinibunengfourenta,tashinidehaizi。”

nanrenlianshangbudaisihaobiaoqing,“duiwolaishuo,zheigeshijieshangzhiyouyigenvrencaipeiweiwoshenghaizi。”

suoyitashizhijieshuotabupeiweitashenghaizime?

yeqinggebuxiangkude,keshihaishikongzhibuzhuzijideyanlei,tashayazhesangzi:“muzhanbei,woqiuniliuxiataba,qiunilehaobuhao?”

“不好!”

“yishengshuole,wobunengzailiuchanle,ruguozailiuchan,wozheibeizidoubuhuiyouzijidehaizi。”

“neishinideshiqing,hewoyoushenmeguanxi?”nanrendeshengyinyijiushilenglengqingqingde,fangfozaitanlunyijianhetahaobuxianggandeshiqing,“jiuzheiyang,mingtianzaoshangquyiyuanba!”