……丢人丢大发了。
haihaotameiyouweinanwo，zhishirangxiarenjiwozhunbeilehaoxiedongxi，rangwoanxinzaizheilidaijitian。
shenjingzhangzheyishuangtaohuayanwenrunruyu，huangruochunfengfuguo，woshunjianfangsongxialai。
“shuanger，xinkunile。”shenjingtanlekouqi，wobitouyisuannuliburangzijikuchulai。
zhiqianyiqiwandeshihou，tameitianwanshangdouhuixieshuxinjiwo，liaolujia，liaochaozheng，liaonajiabingtanghuluhaochi，liaonajiacibadaderuantian……duiwoeryan，tajiuxiangdagegeyiyang。
kexitaizidianxiayuanyijiuwo，tadetaizifeikebuyuanyi。
yunshangzhigaoqiyangrangrenxianlepianfangdeshihou，wozhengzuozaizhuoshangmeimeidichitianshuiya。
zhuozibeidafanzaidi，tianshuiyazhanlechentu。
……nvrenhekuweinannvren。
tabawozhuaichuqu，biyidichaodixiarengleyibasuiyinzi，rangwoguizhefansi。
“qinglouchulaidenvren，yehaoyisigouyintaizidianxia！”
wobeishinvtuizheguizaidishang，xigaichuanlaiyizhentengtong，woyaozhezuichunburangzijihanchuyisheng。
“guoran，lujianeigepodifangzhinengjiaochuzheiyangderen。”
wowojinshuangquan，sheizhizheigenvrenbianbenjiali，bujinmalujiahaimawodiewoniangquandoushi**peizi，huogaibeiliufangchongjun。
“lujiadejiajiao，zhinengjiaochu**。”
woturanzhanqilaizhijiejiletayiquan。yunshanghuarongshise，wuzheliandama，pangbiandeshinvzhunbeidawoshi，quebeiyishuangyoulideshouhenhenshuaizaiyipang。
“yunshang！”taizidianxiahenhendengletayilian，houzhekudelihuadaiyu，jimangtieshangqusajiao。
wosonglekouqi，sheizhishenhouqueturanchuanlaishuxideshengyin：“nixiehuangxiongweihebuxiewo？”
wojiangyingdizhuanguotou，rumudeshishenyuneizhangjunxiudelian。
taqingqingbashoudazaiwodejianbangshang，yizhenhanyicongjizhuizhijiecuandaojiaodi。tahaishixiaoyingyingde：“meixiangdaohuangxiongyehuijinwuzangjiao。”
taizipinchulebuduijing，xiangyaobikaihuati。shenyuturanchekaiwodeyidai，qingshapiaozheluozaidishang。
tongshidiaozaidishangde，haiyouwodelianmian。
wodelianjiashashijianbiandetonghong，zheimeduorenkanzhe，zheigefengzizenmegan？！
shenyuyibajiangwobaozaihuaili：“huangxiongjianxiaole，yemaobuhaoguan。”womendexiongtangjinjintiezaiyiqi，wopieguotoukanjiantaizishenjingliuluchuyisiyane。
……厌恶我吗？
jiuzaizheishi，taijianchezhejianxidesangzi，liangqiangpaoguolai。
“huangshang，huangshangjiabengle！”
04
众人皆是一愣。
taizidianxiajiujimangwangyushufanggan，tasuiranbiaoxiandehenbeitong，woquebuzhuodaotayandiliuguodeyisixinxi。dangchaohuangshanghunyongwudaowokanzaiyanli，buranzenhuiyinweixiaorengouxianjiujiangmanmenzhongliedelujiachaojialiufang。
danshitaizidefanyingquerangwoxinzhongyihan。
“……dianxiabuquma？”
wokanzheshenhoudeshenyu，tazhengdingzhetaizizouyuandebeiying。weifengchuilai，wodefasijinjintiezaitalianshang。
wodeshuangjiaoshunjiantengkong，shenyushuliandibawoyibabaoqi。
“xianjiejueni。”tadeyanshenyoushen，zaiwoyaoshangqingqingqialeyiba。
“si——”wochuileyixiatadexiongkou，chuhuyiliaodebaomanjianshi。
“huiquzaijinisuanzhang。”tazaierbianqingqingchuiqi，duiwojiongpodelianseshifenmanyi。
taizifeiyunshangkanzhewoliangqingqingwowo，lianseyizhenqingyizhenbai，queyoubuhaoduishenyufanu。
但是沈玉可以。
“buzhiwohuangxiongshifouzhidaoyunjiazaibeihougaodexiaodongzuo。”shenyuxienizheyunshang，houzhedelianseyixiabiandecangbai。
talenghengyisheng，baozhewoyibubuzouhuiwangfu。
tabawohenhenshuaizaichuangshang，damenwaiyahuanpoziguileyidi——qizhonghaiyoulinqianqian。
zhishicishidelinqianqianchuanzhecubuyifu，lianshangmanshileihen。
“林表妹——”
“zhishiyigexiareneryi。”
woshenqingfuzadiwangzheshenyu，tazheishizaigenwobaochou？
“taxianhailujiadeneixieshiwodouzhidao，”shenyuhenhenguanshangmen，linqianqianshenzidalegezhan。
……那你还娶她。
“fuhuanghaizai，wobunengmingzhedongde……buguoxianzai。”talengxiaoyisheng，rangwogandaoyizhenhanyi。
danshitachengfalinqianqianmingxianzaibixiajiabengzhiqian。nandaohuangdijiabengshiyinwei——
“neigelaotouzihaisilewoniang，youbanisongdaoqinglou，wohentahenjiule。”
zheikeshishijunzhizui。fengziguoranshifengzi。
danshitaizihaizai，jiusuanhuangshangjiabengyoushenmeyong——
taturancoushanglaiduzhuwodechun：“biexiangta。”
zheigewenmanzhangchanmian，woyouxiechuanbuguoqishitacaifangguowo。
tacongguopanlinachuyikelizhi，qinshoubokaisongdaowozuili。lizhideguoroujingyingbaoman，xiannenduozhi。tachuozhewogugunangnangdesaibangzi：“tianma？”
甜你大爷。
shenyuyouwenguolai，lingqiaodeshejianjuanguoguohe，guozhirangtadechunbandumanshuiguang。
tatiantianzuijiao：“wojuedehentian。”
……wobuyaonijuedewoyaowojuede。
“nibushizaixiangshenjingma，”taxiaolexiao，yanlijinshiweixiandeguang。“benlaiwohaidasuanrangtalaicanjiahunli，buguoxianzai……tazhinengqujianyanwangle。”
woyilengjimangyaoqishen，tabawohenhenzaichuangshang，zhiredejifutiezaishenshangrangrenchuanbuguoqi。
“shenyu！”wozaichuangshangputengzhe，yibuxiaoxintidaoletadexiafang。
tatongkongmengdiyisuo，yandiyisiyisijiebing，zhishiyiyanwoquanshendexueyefangfojiuyaodongjie。
“shinizizhaode。”shenyuyaoleyikouwodechunban，xuesichenzhetayufamingyan。
……完了。
wohaoxiangzhidaozijihuimianlinshenme。
05
腰很酸，腿很疼。
woliangqiangzheqishen，chuangshangbishangciwocongqinglouhuilaideshihouhaiyaoluan。
tazheicimeiyouyongtielian，zhishiyongdesidai，huahuaninichanzaishenshang，liuxiaxingxingdiandiandehonghen。
cishipozijinlaijilewojiayi，zheiyicidejiayibishangciqipaiduole。
“linfurenyijingbeiganchugong，xiaojienimashangjiuyaochengweixinfurenla。”pozixixiaoyankaixiangtiwohuanshangyifu，wopaikaitadeshou。
“sheiyaodangtafuren。”woliangqiangzhexiachuang，shenyuturantuimenerru。tarangpozixiaqu，zijizenazhejiayilaidaowomianqian。
“guai。”tadeyuqixiangshihongxiaohai。
shenyuchuanzhexiuzheanjinlongwendehongsexifu，zhangfayongbaiyuguanshuqi，yifupianpiangongzimoyang。
……chuqusuogushangdeyayin，yinggaishiwozuotianwanshangyaode。
tashangqianyibu，woxianghouduoqu：“yaojiawoyezhijiataizigege。”
shenyuyileng，xiaozheshouhuishou。tatiantianchunjiaodexuesi，zheixianranyeshiwodejiezuo：
“kerujin，wocaishitaizi。”
wobukezhixindikanxiangta。tacheduansidaibaoqiwowangwaizouqu。muguangsuojizhichudoushiyipianbaise。baisedeqizi、baisedeyishan、baisedegonghua……woxinlijianjianyoulebuxiangdeyugan。
zaidaodalingtangshi，zheizhongyugandadaoledingfeng。
baihuahuadelingtangshang，shihuangshanghetaiziliangrendepaiwei。
“huangxiongsinianchengji，zhuisuifuhuangerqu。”shenyuditouzuowanxizhuang。
zhiyouwozhidao，zheishitazuode。
wopudaolingtangqian，yishenhuohongdejiayigenxuebaidezhiqianxingchengxianmingduibi，cidewoliuchuleilai。taizigegesile，neigetiantianpeiwowaner，jiusuanlujiabeichaojiayetiantiangenwoxiexindetaizigegesile。
yanleiduokuangerchu，yidiyidiluozaijiayishangyunchushuiyun。wofenglesideyitouzhuangxiangguancai，shenyujinjinlazhewo。
“goule。”tacubaodibawolachulelingtang，woguizaidishangzhangkubuyi。
“……nizhenyiweihuangxiongxihuanni？”
我愣愣地看着他。
“niyebuxiangxiang，yizhizhonglidelujiaweihezaiyiyezhijianbengta，zhichitaiziyidangdeyunjiahelinjiaqueyilupingbuqingyun。
neigeyunshang，ganmingmuzhangdanqifuni，nibuxiangxiangtabeihouyoushenmekaoshan？”
shenyuyanlishibujie、tongxihe……xinteng。
wobeitashuodefaleng。buzhishenmeshihoudiemazhengzhanzailingtangwai，manmianfengshuangdetamenxianranzaisaiwaichilehenduoku。
fuqinkuzheshangqianbaozhuwo，tiqilianlian：“shuanger，kulenile，haiyaoduoxiesandianxia。”
wokanzheshenyu，manliancuoe。
06
tatongyirangdieniangzanqiebawodaihuilujia，sanrihousonghuihuanggong。yilushangwocaizhidao，zhidaolujiajimiderenzhiyoutaizigenshenyu。
zaizangderen，zhihuishitaizishenjing。
neigewowubixinrendeshenjing。
muqinkanzhewoshouwanshangdelehen，wobuzhehenjijiangshouxianghouzangqi：“……beigouyaole。”
yiluchenmo，woxinliwuweizachen。shiqinglaidetaiduotaikuai，wojingbuzhiruhefanying。
“sandianxiaduinihenhao，zhiqianwolaokanjiantazaiwanshangdianzhedengxiexin。”
wodedanaoyipianhunluan。neixiexin，neixiezaiheianzhong，rangwojiandaoguangmingdexindoushishenyudeshoubi？
……tashibushijiwodieniangxinaole？
bukeneng，diediehaodaiyeshihuguodajiangjun，zenhuiqingyilingrenbaibu。
muqinconghuaizhongnachuyifengzhouzhoubabadeshuxin：“qishiwomendaonanmanmeiduojiujiubeisandianxiaqiaoqiaojielehuilai。”
wonaguoshuxinyikan，shangmiandezijishuxiwubi，luokuanqueshishenyu。shangmianxiedaotahuizaijingchengzhaoguwo，burangwoshouqingloulideneixierenqifu。
yeshi，woshuozijimaiyibumaishen，wozhishigefanjiazhinv，quemeiyouyigerenbiwo。
shuodaodi，haishiyinweishenyuzaihuzhe。
“sandianxiacongxiaozaigongzhongshoujinbaiyan，ei——”
zheidaoshishishi。tadeshengmushigongnv，zaihougongzhengdoushibuzhibeisheiqialebozirengjinshuijing，shitizhaodaodeshihoudoupaofale。ertademeimeixianruduodifengbo，zhijinxialuobuming。
他不疯才怪。
sanrihouwobingmeiyouhuigong，fanerquleqinglou。woyaochayixiashishishifouzhenderutasuoshuo。
kandaoxirijiuren，laomamayanlishanguoyisijingya，zaiwoweibiliyouzhixia，tazhongyushuochulezhenxiang。
tingwoqianyinhouguo，wokuxiaoyisheng。
xianglaomamazheizhongdiaojinqianyanerlideren，zenmekenengbuxiangcongwoshenshangzhaganzuihouyisijiazhi？
tazhikenengshoudaoleweixie。shenyudeweixie。
qingloudementuranbeichuaikai，renqunyizhenhunluan。zuixunxundeshenyutizhejianchuanglejinlai。taxuanfuhuazhuang，weiranruoyushanjiangbeng。
laomamajianzhuangjimangbawotuikaitieshangqu，shenyujiangjiandazailetaboshang，liuchuyidaoxuehen。
“滚。”
zhongrenfangfodeledashe，liangundaipalikaizheili。shashijianzhengdongloujiuzhishengxiawoheta。
针落可闻。
“……niqunaerle？”
“你管不着。”
“……tamenmeiqifuniba。”shenyuliangqiangzheshangqian，xiangyaojianchawodeshangquebeiwoyibatuikai。
“duoxiesandianxiaxiangjiu——”woshenxiyikouqi，nuliburangzijideshengyinfazhan“enqingxiaonvjinji。danshi——”
shashiyizhentianhundizhuan，zaicizhengyan，rumudeshitaneiyangzhechunshuidedanfengyan，wofangfoyaonisiqizhong。
“biexianggenwohuaqingjiexian。”daizhejiuqidewenluoxia，wobuzhizendeyeyouxiemizui。tadeyifuyeyouxieluan，jingzhidesuogubaoluzaikongqizhong，xiongjiruoyinruoxian。
kuandadeyipaoxia，tazhiredexiangyituanhuo。
“baoen……”tayaozhewodeerduo“haimeiyoubaowanni。”
takanxiangwutai，wosuizhetademuguangkandaolepiaoyangdejinsesidai。
……完了。
07
sidaihenrouruan，suibubishuzhongjingongdechouduan，queyeshiwennuanhuani。
tayaowojitatiaowu，xiangxiaoshihouyiyang。
wohentaoyantiaowu，xianzaiyeyiyang，dangchudoushiliyimamabide。kanzheyanshenyouxiemilideshenyu，woyaoyaoya，nulihuiyizhewubu。
tajiwohuanleyishenxindeyifu，doushibobodesha，fengchuilaideshihoufangfoxiayimiaojiuyaotuoluo。wogandaozijidezhitihenjiangying，lineixiehuakuimenchayuanle，yebuzhidaoshenyuzenmexiangde。
sidaizhujianraochengjie，suizhewodewubuyuelaiyuejin，dajiededifangchuxianlesisizhezhou，yingzhedenghuoxiangshifantengdejinlang。zhidaodachengsijie，wogangadizuozaidishang。
banshang，shenyuguqizhanglai。
qingliangdezhangshengzailoulichanshenghuiyin，yipiankongling。
tazoushangqian，guixiatiwojiekaijiaoshangdesidai。wokanzhetatingbarusongdehoubei，yaoleyaochun。
“不准备下手？”
woyileng，taxiaozhecongwoshouzhongduoguofazan，neishiwozaitiaowubeiguoshenshichouxiade。
“……xiashenmeshou。”wozhuangsha。
shenyudingzhewo，wozaitadeyanjingzhongqingxidikandaozijidedaoying，mingmouhaochi，danbailihuamian，meijiandianhuadian。zhishitaiguoruoxiaowuzhu，meilewangrideweifeng，xiangzhibeibaleyadelaohu。
“shuanger，”taturankaikou“woaini。”
wohunshenruchudianban，xiayishijiuxiangtao，taquebawoenzaiwutaishangzenmeyezhengtuobukai。
wokandaowudingshangdedenghuozhaozheqingseboshafanchuaimeideguang，biqianglishizhifenhejiujingdehunheqi。
“congxiaoshihoujiuxihuanni，xihuannitiantianfanqiang，xihuannishuahongyingqiang，xihuannibuqingbuyuantiaomamajiaodewudao，xihuannideziqiniubawai。”
tadexiongtanggenwodejinjintiezhe，qiangeryoulidexintiaoyidiandianchuandaowoxinzhong。
“woxiaoshihouhendanxiao。dangshihuangxiongshuotaxihuanni，tashitaizi，womeimeideminghaizhangwozaitashouli——woyiweirenguoqujiuhuihao。”
shenyuyanshenjianjianbiandehenli：“houlaifaxian，renrangzhihuirangbierenjuedewohaoqifu。nishi，womuqinyeshi，womeimeigengshi。”
tadezhifuconglianjiayizhihuadaowodesuogu，tadeyankuangjianjianbianhong：“congnibeimaidaoqingloudeneiyikeqi，wojiuyishidao，zheigeshijieshangmeiyouputongdehuolu。”
“xianghuoxiaqu，xiangzhuidaozijiaideren，zhinengchengwei‘fengzi’。”
wojingjingtingzhetashuowan，tanleyikouqi：
“danshiniyoumeiyouxiangguo，nidedaodewoyijingbushizhiqiandewole。”
shenyuyileng，zhiqishenkanwo。tademuguangshineiyangshensui，fangfoyaobawoshenshenluoyinzaitadelinghunzhong。
“woshijiangmendexiaojie，nikankanxianzaiwochengleshenmeyangzi。”wokuxiaoyisheng，niuniusuantongdeshouwan，jinsesidaihuadaodishang。
tabanzhangzhezuiqueyijuhuayeshuobuchu。tayanlidehanbingyikuaikuaisuikai，xiangruchundebingheyiyangmangranwucuo。
“……你恨我吗？”
“wozenmekeneng。”wowunaidipianguotou。tajiangchengweixindehuangdi，yiwodeshilizhibuguoshitajiaoxiayizhilouyibale。
“……zhishimeileliexinghexuexing，laohuhaishilaohuma？”
shenyutiwochuiluolianjiashangdejinsisuixie，woganjuedaotazaizhandou。
tabafazanfangdaowoshoushang，wozhewodeshoudizhutadebozi，julishineiyangjin，wofangfoyiyonglijiunengyaoletademing。
tayanlimanshichikuang：“nideliexinghexuexing，huirangnishalewoma？”
08
我的手臂微微发抖。
woxianzaijiukeyishaleta，danshiwozhidaoshiqulianggehuangzideguojiajianghuizaifengyuzhongdongdangpiaoyao。
……kuangqielikaijiangmenzheimeduonian，wozaowanglesharendeganjue。
yuanlaimosuiwolengjiaodebushishenyu，ershizheihuangdanwuyin、heibaidiandaodeshidao。
tahuranzhuazhewodeshouduoxiafazan，chaowowenleguolai。yixiudaidaoleyipangdejiuhu，jingyingdeyezhushentouyishan，qingshaxiaruoyinruoxiandeshishenyubaomandejirouxiantiao。
tatiantiandizaiwosuogushangdejiu，wotingjianle，wodexintiaozaiyidiandianjiakuai。
“danshiwozhendehenaini。”tabatoumaizaiwodejingjian“jiusuanbalenideya，molenidezhua，niyeyiranshiwoxinzhongneigexiaolaohu。”
wobishangyanbuyuanzaizhengbian。
benjiushilongzhongniao，wonengtaodaonaliqu？
“shuanger，mingrishiwodengjideshihou。”
wozhengkaiyan：“neinihaizaizheiguihun。”
tadidixiaoleyisheng，qingshadeshuihongfangforanshangletadebanbianlianjia：“huangweibenlaijiushiweinizhengde，pashenme。”
wodiyiciganshoudaotadeaishineiyangzhenzhirelie，yizhonglingrenzhixidewennuan。
tajiangwobaoqi，wodetoukaozaitadexiongtangshang，yirudangchutabawobaohuigongdeneigeshihou。
zhishizheiyici，tajiangfengwoweihuanghou。
fenghoudadianshangwochuanzheyiximinghuang，jinfengbuyaojiweizhangyang。shenyuzhanzaitaishangzuijiaozhibuzhudishangyang。
wobaixiefumuhouyibuyibuzoushangtai，tafuzhuwodeshoubeiyiqibailetiandi。
jinruneishi，dongfanglishiputiangaididehaitanghong。chouduanbeifengtuizhechanraozaiyiqi，huangruofanzhehonglang。
wozaizheipianhonglikandaolehenduohenduohong。taizigegedexue、lujiabeichaojiashidexue，haiyou——shenyudechupeng。
如火一样炽烈。
shenyudilaijiaobeijiu，jiuzhongdandanfuzhezhuhuodeyingzi。woqingqingminleyikou，jieguobeiqiangleyixia。
taweiwoshunbei，zhishishunzheshoujiudaoleqiguaidedifang。
“bixiazizhong。”wolianlianyanjie，shenyufangfotingdaoleshenmexiaohua。
tatunxiajiuzhanzhongshengyudejiaobeijiucouleshanglai。meijiugantianqinglie，chunrouruanwennuan。
zheiyicidetachuhuyiliaodeqingrou。
diertianwomumudikanzhetianhuaban。zaiwaipiaobozheimeduonian，shenpangdewennuanrangwoyouxiebushiying。
“neibangdachenmenshangzhezirangwonafei。”shenyulanyangyangtuozhesai，naqibiaopichuidankepodeyingtaofangdaozuili。
wohuanhuanqishen：“nizenmexiang。”
tatuchuguohe，huanhuandao：“waletamendeyanjing。”
shenyuzheicideyuqidailejifenxixue，worenbuzhuxiaochusheng。tajianwoxiaodecanlan，couguolai：“huanghouzenmexiang。”
“我想有用吗？”
shenyurenzhensikaopianke：“meiyou。”
……我就不该多嘴。
danglehuangdideshenyumeiyouzhiqianneime“feng”，danwozhidaotazhishibazheiyifen“feng”zangzailexindi。
yinweizheigeshaqiandaodejingrangenwowanlazhu。
wenruandelazhigenqitadongxichugandoubutong，shiyizhongwennuandebaoguogan。tayuhuoxiangshengxiangban，ziranruhuoyiyangzhangyang。
neiwanwoyanzhongfangfozhinengkandaohuo，chujigusui，yipengbianhuixiongxiongranshao。taranhualeshenyuyanlidebingchuan，yeshaodiaolewosuoyoudejiaojin。
tajiuzaixinkoucuanzhe，suizhexinzangyiqitiaodong、chenlun，ranjinlerenjiansuoyouyanse。
毁灭般的美。
共此沉沦。