第一章
nanyouzaishanshangzhunbeileqiuhunyishi，woxinranqianwang，quefaxiantadanxiguidixiangbaiyueguangqiuhun。
wochenglequanchangxiaohua，taquelizhiqizhuangdao。
“susudehaizixuyaoyigebaba。”
baiyueguangruanruanchouqi，fangfotacaishishouhaizhe。
wonubukee，zhizetazhisandangsan。
quebeigaozhitamenyijinglingzhengjiehunle，wocaishineigesan。
dangwanwojiangfangziguapaixiaoshou，shoushixinglizhutamenbainianhaohe。
男友却愤怒质问我。
“wobujiuhetajiegehun，nizhiyufenshouma？”
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guimibawoladaozhongjianyilianshenmidishuo：“wodoutingshuole，tajintianyaoxiangniqiuhun。”
kanzheguimicuxiademuguang，wolianjiaweihong。
hegaoyanglianaidebanianli，zhiyouguimizuilejiewoweilezheigenanrenfuchuleduoshao，wodeqingchun，woderensheng，quandoutouzailezheigenanrenshenshang。
zuijingaoyangzongshizaidiannaoshanghuazheshenme，meiciwokaojintadouyaodangzhuhuozhebawoganzou。
yici，wotoutingdaotazaidadianhua，shenmemeigui，shenmejiezhi。
nayounvrenduizheilianggeziyanbumingandeni？
banianle，wolianmengzhongdouhuishenchushouzhidengdaizhetajiangjiezhitaojinwodezhongzhi，wobusheqiuduomezhangyangdeqiuhunyishi，wozhiqipantanengjiwoyigejieguo。
banianzhangpaozhongyuyaoyoulezhengguo，wonanyanxinxi。
kanzhejiaoxiayongshuqianduomeiguibaichenglexinxingtuan，chunjiaobuyoudeshangyang，wobishangyan，dengzhewoaiderenkaojin。
meixiangdaoqueshigeboyiliang，beirenlalechuqu。
“nvshi，zheilibushipaizhaodedifang，yijingyourenbaoxialaizhunbeiqiuhunle。”gongzuorenyuanbuyoufenshuojiangwoladaoyuanchu。
woxiaozhexiangtajieshi：“shia，shiwonanpengyoubaoxialaide，tajintianyaoxiangwoqiuhun。”
“keshi，yudingderenyijingzaihoumianzhunbeileya。”
tayijuhua，rangwomihuobujie，nandaoshigaoyanghaiyoushenmejingxiyaojiwo。
wotaochushouji，shizaishiannabuzhuhaoqi，zhengyaoanxiangtadehaoma。
yuanchu，yibangrenrerenaonaozouguolai。
daikandaolairen，wonaozhonghongdeyisheng，renjiuzhengzaiyuandi。
beirenzucuyongdeliangrenworenshi，yigeshiwonanyou，yigeshitadexiaoqingmeilinsusu。
linsusuchuanleyixibaiqun，gaoyangzexizhuangjiashen，liangrenxingfudiqianzheshouzoudaoleneigexinxinghuahuanzhongyang。
“wokao，shenmewanyi？！”
guimimimifennudeshengyinbeiyinleshenggaizhule。
dengwomenpaoguoqu，zhikandaogaoyangdanxiguidi，juzhejiezhixianglinsusuqiuhun。
“素素，嫁给我！”
zhouweirenyiqiguzhangqihong：“jiajitajiajita！”
zheiduipengyouli，liuchengdeshengyinzuida：“susu，shoulewogemen，nimencaishizuibanpeide！”
linsusuwuzuitouxiao，shenshoujieguojiezhi。
“我愿意！”
zaizhongrendeqihongshengzhong，liangrenbaozaiyiqiqinleqilai。
woweiliyizhenzuoou，jianzhiyaodangchangtuchulai，yanqianzhenzhenfabai，jianzhiyiweizijizaizuoemeng。
guimixiaomigengshiqideyaozhale，zhijiejianleyigeshitouzasuileyipangdegaojiaobeita。
zhongrenzhongyuyishidaowozheigezhenggongyezai。
短暂的平静。
gaoyangmiansetieqing，zoudaowomianqian。
queshizhiwenwo：“nilaiganshenme？”
tahaiwenwolaiganshenme？wolaijinitiaowuzhuxingxingbuxing？
wozhiqishen，yanlihanlei，payishengshuaiguoquyigebazhang。
qingcuideshengxiangzhenzhulesuoyouren。
gaoyangmengdizuanzhuwodeshouwan。
“jiangruoli，nijianzhishifengle，yebukankanzheishishenmechanghe？nishichengxinrangwoxiabulaitai？！”
wohuikaitadeshou，yanleizaizheiyishunjiangunluo，wozixidaliangmianqiandenanren，xiangcongtayandizhaochuxiexudekuijiulai。
keshimeiyou，tayandizhiyouduiwolaizachangdefennu。
woxinliyouyiwanjuyaoshuo，kelindaozuibian，quebiancheng：“gaoyang，zuotianwanshangworangnixiuyixialoudaodeng，nijinzaoyemeixiuhao，wochumenshiweilejiaodanwohaizaijinizhaoliyou，nizongshuonigongzuoneimemang，quehuaxinsishejilezheimelongzhongdeqiuhunxianchang。”
gandongdequebushiwo，ershibieren。
womeikandaogaoyangdebiaoqing，ershitaijiaoxianglinsusuzouqu，wodaoyaowenwentazhisandangsanhaoshouma？
gaoyangqueshangqian，yibawoladaoyuanchu。
“ruoli，susudehaizimeiyoubaba，zaixuexiaozongshouxiaopengyouqifu，wozhishixiangjitazuogehoudun。”
tahaizimeibaba，jiuyaowodenanyouhetajiehun？
woruguomeiyouqian，nengbunengxiangbier·gaiciyaoyidian？
tayizhijiangwoladaoshanxia：“nibuyaonaole，susushigehenyousuzhideren，laidepengyouyeshiyoutouyouliande。”
huanyanzhi，wojiushigepofu，shangbuletaimiande。
wozhengyaoshuohua，yibangrenyijingxialaile。
linsusuzoudaowomianqian：“ruolijie，gaoyangzhishiweilebangwo，nibuyaowuhuita。”
“kuangqie。”talazhugaoyangdeshou，“womencongxiaojiushizheiyangde，zheizhongganqingnishibudongde。”
“youshenmebudong？lvchabiaozuishanyongdehanzichashouduanbei。”guimixiaomiduoxiaozhezouguolai。
“nizhisandangsanhaiyoulile，yaobumingtiannibahaizijiewoyongyong，woquegerendangsunzi。”
rucizhibaidechaofeng，ranghansusumashangbailelian。
gaoyangfennudikanxiangwo：“jiangruoli，zheijiushinipengyou？susuhaoxinxiangnijieshiyijinghenzunzhongnile，nizheishishenmetaidu？mashangxiangtadaoqian！”
zhouweiquanshikanrenaoderen，wobeijiazaizheili，xiangyigezhunbeidengtaidexiaochou。
bu，woyijingjiushigexiaochoule。
xiaomizhengyaohaikou，yuanchuhonglonglongyizhenleisheng，doudadeyudianzaxialai。
dajialijisisantaoquzijidecheli。
wohexiaomishidachelaide，xianzaigenbenmeiyoudifangduoyu。
yicuoshen，woquekandaolinsusudeerzi，lakaigaoyangdechejiuzuolejinqu，fangxiachechuang，hegaoyangqinrekaikou：“baba，wohaiyaoqufudaoban，mashangjiuyaochidaole！”
gaoyangkanxiangwodemuguanglijizhuankai。
“hao，anannizuohao。susu，niyeyaoyiqiquma？”
linsusuyijingzirandilakaichemenzuojinfujia，taiduqinniziran：“shagua，wobuquananzenmexuexi？”
xiaomimudengkoudai：“haoyigexinxiandezhananjiannvwuzhong。”
高洋转向我。
“......ruoli，wohuilaimashangjieni，nixianzhaogedifangbiyixiayu。”
jintianshitedabaoyu，bawoliuzaishanshangyouduoweixianwoxiangtayidingzhidao，ketaquelianghaiquqiqing，guoduanfangqilewo。
wozaitaqijidemuguanglizouxiangchezi，shenshoulakaichemen，jiangzhengzaibuzhuangdelinsusucongchelichexialai。
tayigemeizhanwen，zhongzhongdiejinyipangdeshuigou，shenshangdebaiqunzishunjianbeiranhei。
“jiangruoli！”gaoyangjibukenaidifeibenguoqubalinsusufuqihuzaihuaili。
“你太过分了！”
houzuodeananyezaibutingdiyongxiaoquantouchuiwodetou：“wodasinihuainvren，dasini！”
woyibazuanzhutadeshouwan，lengshengdao：“nizaidayigeshishi，worangnizhijiexiaquhenishui！”
ananlijibeihezhule，suohuileshenzi，wadeyishengdakuqilai。
gaoyangdelianheidexiangguodi：“tajiushigehaizidongshenme？！”
shia，keshitanijiaobaba，haizibudong，nandaozheixiehuabushidarenjiaodema？
liuchengkandaozheibiandeqingkuangdabupaoguolai，jianwozuozaifujia，chaofengdao：“nizheimesipilailiandebudiurenma？niyebukankanninalipeideshanggaoyang？haibujisusurangzuo？！”
zheigeliucheng，bu，shigaoyangdedabufenpengyoudouhenbuxihuanwo。
womenlianaibanian，tahenshaodaiwoqucanjiapengyoujuhui，meiqimingyuenanrendedifangbufangbianyounvren。
ketabuzhidaowochentashuijueshiyongtadeweixinjialewoyigexiaohao，youwodizaitapengyouqun，zheicaizhidaomingmingmeicijuhuidajiadouhuidainvpengyou，kegaoyangshenbiandeweizhiyongyuanshilinsusude。
liuchengzaiqunlidayanbucan：“yangzi，jiangruolineinvrensibandexianggemutou，nixinbuxinniqulesusu，tadoubuganshuoshenme？”
yiqunrenfenfenfuhe：“jiuneizhongnvren，xinfengdejiushixiangfujiaozi，jiaosheidezibushizia，hahahaha。”
“gaoyang，zhenbumingbainixihuantashenme，yoususuzheiyangdeyouwunijingranhainengkanshangta？”
wopingshixianlejiuhuifankanqunlideliaotianjilu，yishijiemen，ershikankanwoweizhuangdegoubugouhao。
liuchengcuole，gaoyangxihuandejiushiwozheizhongdaizheheibianyanjing，tutude，ruanruande，meishenmepiqide，haonaniede。
daxueneihui，gaoyanghaishigemeidunzhinengchimantoujiuxiancaidepinkunsheng，tagaogaoshoushou，pifuxuebai，zongchuanzheyijianxidefabaidechenshanheheikuzi，yigerendulaiduwang，youxieyinchenyouyouxieshenmi。
wohemimishuowoyaozhuita，woyaokankanzheizhongrendongleqinghoushishenmeyangzi。
yushiwocongyigejingzhixiaogongzhu，bianchengleyijianchenshanchuanbangeyue，liuhaixiashiheikuangyanjingdelaizishancundelizhixuemei。
womenyiqiqudafan，yigemantouliangrenfen，yiqiquqingongjianxue，yiqiweilecaipiaozhongwuyuanerkaixindajiao......houlaiwocaizhidaotabingbushitianshengdepinkunsheng，tashijiadaozhongluo，cengjingdetayeshigeyouqiandeshaoye，haiyougeturanjiuchuguoxiaoshidexiaoqingmei。
tatiqineigejiaolinsusudenvrenshi，yanlisanfenbugan，sanfenfenkai，sanfenbuxie，yifendechouchang：“wozhidaotashipabeiwolianlei，zheiyangyehao，buranwozenmenengyudaoni？”
yinweizaoyubiangushijianbianlerenqinglengnuan，tajuedehewozaiyiqishitebieyouanquangan，tazongshishuowonengrangtaganjuedaojiadewennuan。
tashuoxianzaitacaimingbainvrenzuibaoguideshipinzhi，erbushiwaizai，weiletazheijuhua，wosesefadoudibasuoyouyangzhuangquanbudabaosongjixiaomi，quanshenshangxiajiayiqidouganchaoguoyibaiyuan。
suizheshijianliushi，woyecongqichudeheguimidadudaozuihoufuchulezhenxin。
这一恍，就是八年。
woweiletahefumunaopiqi，weiletadedananzizhuyi，zhinengjixuzhuangqiong，lianwomajiwodefangzidouyaoshuoshizude，weiletasuoweidenvrenbuxuyaowaibiao，womeicidouyaozhaojiebianxiaodianjiangeshiyuandetou，zaihuanshangdadadeheikuangyanjing。
kezheiyimiao，woturankaishihuaiyi，wozheixienianfuchudaodizhibuzhide？
wohuishen，duizheliuchengxiaodao：“buhaoyisile，wohaishiyuanpei，woyaozuochedingniyeguanbuzhe。”
zhiyaowobutifenshou，nilinsusujiuhaishisan！
“ya，womenlingzhengshinihaimeigaosutama？”
linsusumashangwuzhuzui，haosishibuxiaoxinshuoloudeyiyang。
hong，naozhongfangfoshanhongguojing，yousijingleizhaxian，womanmanditaiqitou。
“lingzheng？”wotingdaozijideshengyinweiweizhandou。
gaoyangyishundehuangluan，duishangwozhiwendeyanmou，zhinengbiekaiyan，tasihuxiangjieshi，dankandaowofabaidelianseyouyanlexiaqu。
yudianlenglengdipaidazhechechuang，woqueganjuezhixi，fangfohaishuiyicengcengmanshanglaigaizhulewodekoubi。
pianshi，woheleyisheng，lakaimenbaanantuixiaqu，rangmimishangche，ranhouwoyijiaoyoumen，shililezheigerangwoexindedifang。