juguangdengxia，jiangbeibingleng，quetangdewozhijianfabai。taixia，wodezhangfushenye，miansejiangying，
yutashenpangleiyanmenglongdeqiaoxue，gongtonggouzhuleyifuxuweizhijidehuamian。sanxiaoshiqian，woguman，
haishishirenyanzhongwuxiekejiderenshengyingjia，mjituanyataiqufuzongcai，wanzhongzhumude“gongguannvwang”。raner，
yifengnimingcaixin，rutongyibingcuidudebishou，jingzhunsilielewojingxinbianzhideyiqiehuanxiang。
wocengyinyiweiaodeaiqingyushiyediguo，yuanlaibuguoshitamenweiwojingxindajiandejitan。henhao，
jirannimenyaowanzheichangquanliyubeipandeyouxi，wogumanzidangfengpeidaodi。jinwan，
jiurangquanshijiezhengdayanjingkankan，zhenzhengde“gongguannvwang”，shiruhejiangzheixuweidewangguan，daihuizijitouding，
bingjiangsuoyoujiyuzhe，caizaijiaoxia。diyizhangposuidewangguan“...zhengjuxianshi，
shenyexianshengyuqiaoxuenvshihemouxielumjituanhexinjishu‘tianmujihua’，bingxuyizhuanyifuqigongtongcaichan，
feifasuodegongjisanyiqiqianwan。”wodeshengyintongguomaikefeng，zaizhenggebanjiangdianlixianchanghuidang。
meigezidouxiangyigenbingzhui，qiaojizaisuoyourendexinxianshang。woshenzhinengganshoudao，
neixieyuanbenjujiaozaiworongyaoshangdechiremuguang，cikezhengdaizheshenshi、zhenjingyuyisinanyizhixin，
saoxiangtaixianeiliangweimianrusihuidenannv。zheibengaishiwodejiamianzhiye。mjituannianduzuijiaguanlizhejiangbei，
xiangzhengzhewoduizheijiakuaguojutouzaiyataidiqushangyebantukuozhangdezhuoyuegongxian。shenye，wodezhangfu，
neigecengjingzaiwushugeyewan，fuzaiwoerbiandiyu“nishiwodenvwang”denanren，cikezuozaitaixiadezuiqianpai，
tadexiaorong，xiangbeichouqulegujiadewanou，jiangyingerniuqu。tashenpangdeqiaoxue，yixixiangyabaiwanlifu，
pingrilineishuangzongshiyingmanwugushuiguangdeluyan，cikequexiemanlebeisikaiweizhuangdejingkong。zhenggehuichang，
congzuichudeqieqiesiyu，daocikedeyaquewusheng，zaidaojijiangbaofadejulang。wokanzhetaixia。
mjituanyataiquzongcaichenqiming，neiweijingmingerlengkudeshangren，mengdicongzuoweishangdanqi，
tashenhoudejiminggaozhuangbaobiaotiaojianfanshebandixiangqianmaichuyibu，xingchengyidaowuxingdepingzhang。
shenyedeyanshenzhongshanguoyisifengkuang，tashituchongshangtai，
quebeiliangmingzaoyizaiceyidaiming、shenxingtongyangbiaohandebaoansisilanzhu。qiaoxuezewuzhulian，
jianbangzhibuzhudizhandou，leishuiyanzhezhifengxiexia，kanqilaichuchukelian——yanjiyirujiwangdi“jingzhan”，
woxinlilengxiao。wodeshengyinzaikuoyinqilizaicixiangqi，pingjingdejihumeiyouyisiqingxubodong，
fangfowojieludebushizhangfudejingtianbeipan，ershiyifenzaixunchangbuguodejiducaiwubaogao：“zheixiezhengju，
deduihuajilu、jingwaiyinxingzhanghudezijinliuxiang、yijiqiaoxuenvshizaimjituanneibuxitongzhongdeyichangcaozuorizhi，
douyitongbufasongzhigeweidongshidesirenzhongduan，bingyitijiaozhixiangguanzhifajigou。”“guman！niweizaozhengju！
nifengle！”shenyedeshengyinyiyinfennuyukongjuersiya，tabeibaoanqianzhizhe，xiangyitoukunshou，tulaodizhengzha，
“nijiushiyinweiqiaoxuehuailewodehaizi，suoyicaiyaozheiyangbaofuta、baofuwomenma？！nizheigeedudenvren！
”zheijuhuaxiangyijizhongchui，bujinzazaiquanchangbinkedexintou，lianwoyebuyouzizhudizhengleyixia。qiaoxuehuaiyunle？
zheigexiaoxi，bishenyedebeipanbenshen，gengrangwogandaojibeifaliang。
nanguaitamenrucijinpodixiangyaojiangwosaodichumen，jingshiyongrucizhuolieqiecanrendefangshi。yigequanxindeshengming，
yigeyoushenyeyuqiaoxuegouzhude“jiating”，jiangchediqudaiwodeweizhi，
lianzuihouneidianweibuzudaode、guanyuwomenguowangqingfendecanxiang，yeyaobeichedimoqu。
wohoulonglifachuyishengqingchao，neishengyinqingmieerhanleng，zaijijingdehuichangzhonggewaiqingxi。
womeiyouzhijiehuiyingshenyedezhikong，ershihuanmanditaiqilingyizhishou，
zaishouzhongdeweixingzhongduanshangqingqingqiaodonglejixia。dapingmushang，yuanbenxianshizhewodezhaopianhejiangxiangjieshao，
ciketuranqiehuanchengyifendianzitijianbaogao。“shenyexiansheng，ninkenengduizijide‘gurou’，
quefayixiejibendelejie。”woqingmiaodanxiedishuo，yanshensaoguoqiaoxue，tayuanbencanbaidelian，
cikeyibiandeqingzijiaojia，tongkongyinjidudekongjuersuoxiaochengzhenjianbandaxiao。“zhenqiao，
zheiliqiahaoyouyifenqiaoxuenvshishangzhouzaisirenyiyuandetijianbaogao，xianshitahuanyouyanzhongdeduonangluanchaozonghezheng，
pailuanzhangai，shouyunjilvjidi。”wotingdunleyixia，jisuoyourenxiaohuazheifenxinxideshijian，ranhou，
zuijiaogouqiyigehudu，neihududaizheyisicankudewanwei：“shenxiansheng，
ninquedingxiangrangwobatatoudaogengdadepingmushang，bingzhuzizhujujizaichangdegeweimeitipengyouhedongshimenjieduma？
woxiangxinnindeweichushenghaizi，yinggaibuxiangzheiyang‘gaodiao’dichuxianzaishirenmianqian。”qiaoxuedeshentimengdiyizhan，
tashitufachushengyin，quehoulongganse，yigeziyetubuchu。tajinjinwuzhezui，
kanxiangshenyedeyanshenchongmanleyuanduhejuewang。shenyezexiangshibeidoutoupoleyipenbingshui，
suoyoudefennuhekuangwangdoubeishunjianximie，querdaizhideshijizhidehuangluan。tadehuangyan，
zaiyigetagenbenwufayuliaodejiaodu，beiwosikailezuichouloudemianmu。jiuzaizheiqianjunyifazhiji，
wodesirenzhongduanfachuqingweidezhendong，yitiaomoshenghaomafasongdejishixinxidanlechulai，zhiyoujianduanjigezi，
querangwoxintiaomengdilouleyipai：“xiaoxinshenyedebaobiao，tamenjiedaozhilingyaoqiangnidezhongduan。
”wojihushibennengdi，shentiweibukechadixiangcehoufangqingxieleyidian，muguangxunsusuodinglebanjiangtaizuoyouliangce。
guoran，liangmingchuanzheshensexizhuangdenanren，bingfeihuichangbaoan，tamendeshenxingbiputongbaoangengweijingzhuang，
yanshengengdaizheyiguhenli，zhengyibuheshiyidejicubudiao，chaozhewosuozaidebanjiangtaijibuzoulai。
tamenhunzaihunluanderenqunzhong，shituyizuikuaidesudujiejinwo。qianjunyifazhiji，danaogaosuyunzhuan，
woqingchuzhidao，yidanzhongduanluorutamenshouzhong，wojinwansuozuodeyiqienulidoujiangfuzhudongliu。suoyouzhengju，
zhiyouwoshouzhongdezhongduanzuiwanzheng，yunduantongbuxuyaoshijian，wuligejueshitamenweiyidetupokou。
womeiyousihaoyouyu，zuoshouxunsuerjingzhundianxiazhongduancebianyigeyinbidejinjianniu。yucitongshi，
wodeshengyinzaicitongguomaikefengchuanchu，zheiyici，
daizheqiansuoweiyoudelingliyujuejue：“suoyouzhengjuyiwanchengyunduantongbu，
bingjiamichuanshuzhimjituanzhuanshufuwuqi、jingfangwangluoanquanbumenjilinweilvshishiwusuodedulifuwuqi。
”“zhongduanzihuichengxuqidong，daojishi30miao。”suizhewohuayinluoxia，dapingmushangshuzikaishijisutiaodong。
neiliangmingheiyirenkandaozheiyimu，liansezhoubian，suduzaidujiakuai，jijinkuangben。danweishiyiwan，
tamenliwoshangyoushijimidejuli。wokanzhetamentulaodenuli，yanshenxiangdaofengbanlenglie。
dangdaojishizai“05、04、03...”dehongseshuzishangtiaozhuanshi，
woduizheliwozuijindeyigegaoqingshexiangtou，yiziyidun，qingxiyoulidishuodao：“baojing。
zheilifashengshangyejiandie、xuyizhapian、weizaozhengju。”wotingdunleyixia，
muguangzhicineiliangmingzhengbeibaoanhechenqimingbaobiaolianshouzhifudeheiyiren：“yiji，renshenweixie。”huayingangluo，
“peng”deyishengqingxiang，wodeweixingzhongduanzaiwoshouzhongzhaliechengwushuxixiaodesuipian，maochulvlvqingyan，
chedihuaweiyiduifeiqiwu。huichangchedizhakaileguo。jizhemenfengyongershang，shanguangdengliangchengyipianbaizhou，
kuaimenshengciqibifu，rujiguanqiangsaoshe。shenyebeiyiqunjizheweidu，liantuidaisang，tashitujieshi，
danshengyinwanquanbeicaozayanmei。qiaoxuezechenluanshitucongcemenliuzou，
quebeizaoyijiedaowoyanshenzhilingdehuichangbaoanjingzhunlanxia，cunbunanxing。wozhanzaihunluanhefengbaodezhongxin，
gaojuzheneizuocikeyixiandewubichenzhongdejiangbei，queganjuebudaosihaoderongyao。fengbaodeyan，
wangwangshizuipingjingde。wodexin，rutongbeibingfengdehumian，suoyoudeai、hen、tong，douzaizheiyikeningjiechengbing。
posuidewangguan，zuizhonghaishihuidaoledaizhetaderenshouzhong，zhishitabuzaishirongyaodexiangzheng，ershijingxingdeluoyin。
erwo，guman，jiangyongzheichanghunluan，weiziji，weiwodegongsi，yeweineixiecengjingbeimengbidezhenxiang，
taohuiyigegongdao。jinye，buguoshixuzhangdejieshu，zhenzhengdeshoulie，caiganggangkaishi。
dierzhanganyetongmengshigonganjuxingzhenzhiduideshenxunshi，lingchenliangdian，
riguangdengcanbaideguangxianjiangfangjianqiegechuyinglangdexiantiao。kongqizhongmimanzhedandandekafeiheyancaowei，
haiyouyizhongdushuyushenxunshi，lingrengandaoyayidexiaodushuiqiwei。wozuozaishenxunzhuopang，duimianshizhouzhengduizhang。
tasishisuishangxia，lizhebancun，wuguanlitiyinglang，yanshenruiliruying，fangfonengchuantouyiqieweizhuang，
buzhuodaozuixiweidehuangyan。tafangxiagangbi，jiangyifenwenjiantuidaowomianqian，
wenjianshangyinzhe“mjituanshangyexiemiyucaichanqizhaan”debiaoti。“gunvshi，
nitijiaodezhengjuwomenyijingchubuheshi，dabufenneirongyumjituanwangluoanquanbumentigongderizhiwenhe，
yededaoletamenzongbudequeren。”zhouzhengdeshengyindicheneryouli，daizhexingjingteyoudelengjingyushenshen，
“danshenyezheibian，yetichulefanxiangzhikong。”wotiaoletiaomei，shiyitajixu。yuliaozhizhongdefanpu，
zhishihaoqihuishihezhongzitai。“shenyedelvshituanyijingjieru，tamenshengchengnizhangqibaoshoujingshenjibingkunrao，
fuyonggeleijingshenleiyaowu，jinqidexingweishiyinyaowufuzuoyongdaozhidejingshenshichang，
bingyinciduishenyexianshengheqiaoxuenvshichanshengleyanzhongdebeihaiwangxiang。”zhouzhengdemuguangjindingzhewo，
shitucongwolianshangbuzhuodaoyisipozhan。woqingxiaoyisheng，yuqilidaizheyisimanbujingxin，
queyoujingzhundifanji：“tashibushihaiweicitigonglewode‘bingli’，
bingqiefudaileyifenyoumouwei‘zhuming’yishengchujude‘zhenduanbaogao’？”wotingdunleyixia，
kanzhetayufashenchendeyanshen，jixubudao，“neiweiyisheng，buhuiqiahaojiaozhangming，
erqierenzhiyujinghuasirenyiyuanba？”zhouzhengmeishaoweibukechaditiaoleyixia，xianranwodeyupanrangtayouxiejingya。
tasuiranmeiyouzhengmianhuida，danneiyigexiweidedongzuoyijingzhengmingwodecaicewuwu。“nidouzhidao？”tawendao，
yuqizhongdaizheyisitanjiu。“zhangmingyisheng，shiqiaoxuedebiaoge。”wocongsuishenxiedaidedingzhishoubaoli，
quchulelingyigebibanjianglishangneitailvedayixiedeweixingzhongduan。zheitaizhongduanjingguoteshujiamichuli，
shiwodesirenqingbaoku。woshuliandicaozuolejixia，pingmushanglikexianshichuyilianchuandeshujuliu，
wobatadijizhouzheng。“zheishiguoqusangeyue，shenyeyuzhangmingyishengzhijian，duodasanshiyucidetonghuajilu，
shenzhibaokuojiduanshizhangbuduandejiamiyuyintonghua。yiji，zhangmingyishengdeyinxingliushui，
xianshitacengduocishoudaolaizishenyexianshengdenimingzhuanzhang，hejijine，yichaoguoliangbaiwan。”zhouzhengjieguozhongduan，
shouzhiqingqinghuaguopingmu，kanzheneixiexiangxijiludetonghuashijian、zhuanzhangjiluhejine，yanshenjianjianbiandeshenchen，
fangfozaizheixiebinglengdeshujubeihou，kandaolegengshencengcideyinmou。tademuguangconghuaiyizhuanweiquexin，duiwo，
yijiduiyanqiandeanqing。jiuzaizheishi，tafangzaizhuoshangdejingyongshoujituranxiangqi。takanleyiyanlaidianxianshi，
likejietong，shengyinbiandeyansuqiegongjing：“chenzong...shi，
womenzhengzaishendudiaocha...gunvshifeichangpeihe...ninfangxin，zhengjulianhaizaiwanshanzhong，
zanshiwufabaoshi...”wojingjingditingzhe，xinzhongduichenqimingzheigerenyouduoleyifenrenshi。
tashigedianxingdeshangren，wulibuqizao，danyidanjuedingzhandui，shouwanyeshileilifengxing。
taxuanzezaizheigeshihouzhudongyujingfanggoutong，zuyishuomingtaduiwoshouzhongdezhengjulian，yijiwobenrendenengli，
youzhexiangdanggaodepinggu。zhouzhengguaduandianhua，biaoqingbigangcaigengjianingzhong，danyeduoleyisishiran。
“gangjiedaoxiaoxi，shenyedelvshituanyijingdaole，yaoqiulijibaoshi。shouxuqiquan，anzhaozhengchangchengxu，
womenwufajujue。”tayuqidaizheyisiwanxi，dansuijiyoubuleyiju，yandishanguoyisizanxu，“buguo，
yougehaoxiaoxi。mjituanjuedingzhanzainizheibian。chenqimingzongcaiqinzilaidian，biaoshihuiquanlipeihejingfangdiaocha，
bingweinitigongyiqiebiyaodefalvyujishuzhichi。”womeiyoushuohua，zhishiqingqingdianlediantou。
zheidaoshichuhuyiliao，queyezaiqinglizhizhong。duiwoeryan，zheiwuyishixuezhongsongtan，
shengqulewoweilaixuduobubiyaodezhouxuan。chenqimingshigeshangren，
tabuhuifangrenmjituandeshengyuyinneibuchouwenerchixushousun，
gengbuhuifangren“tianmujihua”zheiyanghexindejishuluorujingzhengduishoushouzhong。taxuanzelitingwo，
wufeishirenweiwobishenyegengyounengliweihumjituandeliyi，yegengzhidexinren。zheifenxinren，wuguansirenqingyi，
zhiguanhubinglengdelibiquanheng。tianmengmengliang，dongfangfanqiyudubai，juhongsedechenxisilieyedeweimu，
weizheigebumianzhiyehuashangjuhao。woconggonganjuchulaishi，shensesuiyouxiepibei，danyanshenyijiuqingming。
yiliangliuxianxingheisejiaocheyijingjingjingditingzailubian，chemendakai，yigechuanzheganliandenianqingnvrenyingleshanglai。
tadayuesanshisuichutou，qijianduanfa，biliangshangjiazheyifuwukuangyanjing，
qingxiudelianshangdaizheyisizhiyexingdelengjingheguojue。“guzong，woshichenzongpailaide，linwei。
”tadeshengyinganjingliluo，daizheyizhongburongzhiyidezhuanyeqixi，tongshidijiwoyizhangmingpian。
mingpianshangyinzheguoneidingjianlvshishiwusuodebiaozhi。“congxianzaiqi，wojiangzuoweinindeshouxilvshi，
quanchengfuzenindefalvshiwu。”woshenshidikanletayiyan，jieguomingpian。tademuguangtanchengerjianding，
sihaomeiyouxinrendezhinenhuoqianbeideaoman。diandiantou，wozuojinlecheli。linweizeraodaolingyice，
zuojinlejiashiwei。chezipingwendishiligonganju，shixiangchenxizhongdechengshi。linweiconggongwenbaoliquchuyifenwenjian，
dijiwo。“guzong，zheishiwomentuanduilianyeduishenyezijinliuxiangdechubudiaochabaogao。”wofankaiwenjian，
muguangxunsusaoguoneixiemoshengdeyinxingmingchenghegongsizhuti。“shenyezhuanyizichandeshouduanqueshihengaoming，
tongguokaimanqundaoshelicengcengkongqiaogongsijinxingcaozuo，biaomianshangzijinliuxiangfuza，danzaijingwaibianqieduanlexiansuo。
”linweiyibiankaiche，yibianyuqipingwendijieshizhediaochajinzhan，“raner，
womenzaichayuemjituanneibushenjijilushi，yiwaifaxianleyigeyouqudeshiqing——tanuoyongdezijinli，
youbaqianwan，zuizhongliurulejingwaiyigemingwei‘xingyue’desirenzhanghu。”“erzheigezhanghudesuoyouren，
shiqiaoxuenvshideqinshengmuqin。”linweiyadishengyin，yuqizhongdaizheyisibuyichajuedejingya。womengditaitou，
xinzhongxianqijingtaohailang。qiaoxue，zheigezaiwomianqianzongshiyifugukuwuyi、fumushuangwangdemoyang，
shengchengshishenjiazizhutaduwandaxuede“meimei”，jingranhaiyouqinshengmuqin？zheijianzhishitiandadehuangyan！
tadeyiqierenshe，douzaizheiyikechedibengta。“haiyou，”linweideshengyinzaicixiangqi，
daizhegengshenyicengdefaxian，“nimingjininfasongcaixindeneigeipdizhi，
womendejishutuanduijinxinglefanxiangzhuizong，zuizhongdingweidaomjituanzongbudalouneibu。
”wodeyanshenshunjianruiliqilai。mjituanzongbudalou？zheibujinjinyiweizheduifangshenjuyaozhi，gengyiweizhe，
juneiren。yigeshuximjituanneibuyunzuo，shenzhikenengzhangwozhehexinjimideren，zaiguanjianshikexuanzebangwo。
zheiwuyiweiwozheipanqi，youtianshangleyimeizhiguanzhongyaodeqizi。sixufanyong，taiyangyijingwanquanshengqi，
jinsedeguangmangchuantouchechuang，luozaiwodelianshang。zuoyedepibeicikeyibeifennuyujuexinqudai。wokanxiangchuangwai，
chengshidegaolouzaichenguangzhongyiyishenghui。yichanggengshencengcideboyi，caigangganglakaiweimu。
disanzhangnvwangguilaisantianhou，mjituanzongbu，28lou。zheilishiquanlidehexin，juecedediantang。
wozhanzaihuiyishijinbidexiangmumenwai，shenhoudelinweishoulijinwozheyifenhouzhongdea4wenjian，
neishiwomenjitianlaibumianbuxiu，zhenglichudewanzhengzhengjulian。houzhongdemenbangejuezhehuiyishineidexuanxiaoyuchiyi，
danwodeerbian，fangfoyijingtingjianlimianzhengzaijinxingdelinshidongshihuiyidezhengchaoyuzhiyisheng。
zhutiwufeishi：“tianmujihua”xielushijiandechulifangan，yiji——wodequliu。shenhuxi，diaozhenghaobiaoqing，
wotuikaileneishanchenzhongdemen。huiyishili，zhangdaershiduomidegaojihuiyizhuozuomanleren。
mjituandegeweidongshi，yijijigegaoguan。kongqizhongmimanzheyayidekafeiweihejiaozaobuandeqixi。
wohelinweizoujinqudeshihou，suoyouzaichangdemuguang，xiangyibabawuxingdedaofeng，
shuadiyixiaquanbuhuijudaowoshenshang。shenyeheranzuozaizhangzhuodelingyiduan，pangbianzuozhetadelvshi，
lianseyinchenrumo，yanqiubumanxuesi。dantakandaowodeneiyishun，yanshenzhongyijiushanguoyisibujiayanshideyuandu。
taxiangzhanqilai，beishenbiandelvshianzhu。“guman，niyijingbeitingzhile。”shenyedeshengyindichenershaya，
daizhebujiayanshideyanehejugaolinxiadeyouyuegan，“dongshihuihaizaishenyi，nichuangjinlaisuanshenmeyisi？
anzhaochengxu，niyinggaizaiwaidenghouchuanhuan。”womeiyoulihuita，jingzhizouxiangzhangzhuojintou，
neiliyouyigekongzhedezhuwei——yuanbenshuyuyataiqufuzongcaidezuowei。wozhanding，muguangsaoguozaichangsuoyouren，
zuihouluozaishenyeshenshang，zuijiaogouqiyimojifengdexiaoyi。“mjituanyuangongshoucedi37tiaoguiding，
duigaocengguanlirenyuandetingzhijueding，xuyaojingyouquantidongshihuisanfenzhieryishangdongshitoupiaotongguo，
bingyishumianxingshigaozhibenren。”wodeshengyinqingxierhongliang，daizheyizhongburongzhiyidequanwei，“erwo，
gangcaitongguoquanxianchaxunlehuiyijilu，zaishifenzhongqian，geweidongshibingmeiyoujinxingzheixiangbiaojue。
”wodemuguangzhuanxianglianseyouxiegangadechenqiming，tazuozaishenyeduice，yanshenzhongshanguoyisizanxu。
chenqimingqingkeyisheng，dapolehuiyishiliduanzandechenmo。“guzongshuodedui。jianyumuqianqingkuangteshu，
yijimjituanmianlindexinrenweiji，wojianyi，xiantingquguzongbenrenzhangwodezuixinzhengju。”tayanxiazhiyi，
shichengrenworengyouquanchuxibingduiwozishenshiwujinxingbianhu。wodezuijiaoyangqiyimoweibukechadehudu，
jieguolinweidilaideyaokongbi，jingzhizoudaohuiyishiqianfangdedapingmuqian。anxiaanniu，touyingyiqidong，
diyizhanghuandengpianlikerangshenyedelianseshunjiankualexialai，yanshenzhongchongmanhairan。
neishiyifenxiangxideshenfenxinxiduibibaogao，fuyouduozhangzhaopian，qingxidixianshizhe——qiaoxue，quanmingqiaoxuewei，
bingfeitayizhixuanchengdegunv，ershishengshijituandongshizhangqiaoyongchangdesishengnv。shengshijituan，
yigeyumjituanzaimouxiejishulingyuyouzhejiliejingzhengdeguoneidingjiankejigongsi，
youqizai“tianmujihua”dehexinjishufangxiangshang，gengshimjituanzuidadejingzhengduishou。
huandengpianshanghaiqingxidiliejuleqiaoxuezaishengshijituandeneiburenzhijilu，yijitayuqiaoyongchangmimihuimiandezhaopian。
huichangzhongdunshixiangqiyipianxiqisheng。suoyoudongshibukezhixindikanxiangshenye，youdefennu，youdezhenjing。
“qiaoxuejiejinshenye，congyikaishi，jiushishengshijituanzhenduimjituan‘tianmujihua’deshangyejiandiejihua。
”wohuanshiquanchang，meiyoufangguorenheyigerenlianshangdebiaoqing。wodeshengyinbinglengerqingche，rutongshenpandezhongsheng，
“ershenyexiansheng——”wojiangmuguangtingliuzaishenyeyinhuangluanerjilifourendelianshang，
“tazaoyizhixiqiaoxuedezhenshishenfenhemude，dantabujinmeiyouxiangshangjihuibao，faneryutahemou，
beipanlemjituan。”wodeyanshenxiangdaoyiyang，guazaishenyedelianshang：“yinweitamenzhijian，
cunzaiyixiangbukegaorendexieyi——gaokuamjituan，huozhezhishaoqiequ‘tianmujihua’deguanjianjishu，ranhou，
shengshijituanhuiquanmianzhichishenyezilimenhu，chengliyijiaquanxindegongsi，binghuodejuezijinhejishuzhichi。
”“nihushuobadao！xuekoupenren！”shenyemengdicongzuoweishangdanqi，tajihushishengsilijiedihandao，
shituyongtaneicangbaidepaoxiaolaiyangaitieyibandeshishi，“woshenye！weimjituanjugongjincuishiyunian！
juewukenengzuochuzheizhongbeipangongsideshiqing！guman，nijiushiyinweigerenganqingsiyuan，suoyicaiwumiewo！
”womeiyoulihuitachuisizhengzhabandefennu，zhishimantiaosilidifankaixiayiyehuandengpian。“neime，shenxiansheng，
niyouruhejieshi，zai‘tianmujihua’xieluqianxi，nimuqinmingxia，
turanduochulejiazhiwuqianwanrenminbideshengshijituangupiao？”wodemuguangruilirujian，
zhicishenyeyinnuhuoerzhanghongdelian，“yiji，niyuefu，yejiushiqiaoyongchang，
qunianxiangjingwaiyijiafengxiantouzijijinzhurudeyibisanqianwanmeiyuandezijin，qiahaotongguoduocengfuzadejinrongcaozuo，
zuizhongliuruleniweinimuqinzailiezhidunshidengkaishedenimingzhanghu？”dapingmushang，
qingxidixianshizheshenyemuqindegupiaogoumaijilu、qiaoyongchangdejingwaizijinliuxiangzhengming，
yijizheiliangbizijinzuizhonghuihedepingzheng。meiyigezhengjudouliantiaowanzheng，
jingquedaojiaoyishijian、jinehejutizhanghu。huiyishiliyipiansiji。shenyedeejiaoshenchulenghan，
lianseyouhongzhuanbai，youyoubaizhuanqing，yanshenzhongdefennuhejiaobian，chedibeiyizhongjuewangdekongjusuoqudai。
taxiangbeichouzoulesuoyouliqi，tuirandidiezuohuiyizishang，zuichunzhandouzhexiangshuoxieshenme，
quezuizhongyigeziyefabuchu。wokanzheshenyedebengkui，xinlimeiyousihaobolan，
shenzhigandaoyisijietuobandepingjing。zheichangwocengyiweihuirangwoshenbaimingliedexianjing，cike，
zhengchengweiwofanjideliqi。zheiyijuqi，woguman，yingle。erqie，yingdeganjingliluo，buliuyudi。
disizhangzhusimajicongmjituandongshihuizhigaoqiyangdizouchulai，wobingweihuidaowoneicengjingwenxinde“jia”。
neilidekongqili，mimanzheshenyeheqiaoxuekeyizhizaodejiaxianghehuangyan，rangwoyikeyewufarenshou。
woxuanzebanjinlegongsifujindeyijiagaoduanjiudiantaofang。luodichuangwaishizheizuobuyechengdecuicandenghuo，erwodexin，
queshiyipianqinglengguji。linweidailailezuixinxiaoxi。dongshihuijueyi，chexiaoshenyesuoyouzhiwu，
bingjiechutamjituandeyiqiehezuoguanxi。tongshi，youyuhexinzhengjuliandezhicheng，
jingfangyiduishenyeheqiaoxuecaiquleqiangzhicuoshi，liangrenyibeixianzhichujing。raner，zhenzhengdefalvdingzui，
rengmianlintiaozhan。“tamenzuodetaiganjingle，guzong。”linweideyuqilidaizheyisipibei，
“shenyedejingwaizijinliuxiang，zaijijialianjijingongsichuduanlexian，zaiwangshenchuzhuisu，
jiuchujidaoyixieguojijinrongjigoudeyinsitiaokuan，xuyaogenggaojibiedeshouquanhemanzhangdesifachengxu。
erqiaoxuefangmian，suirantadeshenfenbaolu，dantongxunjiluhexitongrizhidoushijingguojiamihecuangaide，
wufazhijiexingchengtazhudongcanyushangyejiandiehuodongdetiezheng。”woduanzheyibeihongjiu，zhanzailuodichuangqian，
fukanzhejiaoxiachuanliubuxidechengshi。shenyeheqiaoxue，zheilianggerencengjingrucitiejinwo，
shenzhiyidushiwoshengmingzhongzuiqinmidecunzai。tamendeweizhuang，heqizhenmi，meiyigexijiedoudishuibulou。
danzhengyinruci，neixiekansibujingyidexiaoxijie，caigengrongyilumajiao。shenye，jiudiantaofanglizhishengxiawoyiren。
wozhongxinshuliqisuoyouxiansuo，danaoxiangyitaijingmidefenxiyiqi，huifangzhemeiyigehuamian，meiyigeduihua，
每一个不和谐音。
wodemuguangzuizhongtingliuzaineigenimingfasongcaixinderenshenshang——neigemjituanzongbude“neixian”。
jiranipdizhilaizimjituanzongbu，shuomingzheigerenbujinshuxineibuyunzuo，
gengyongyoujiechu“tianmujihua”hexinshujudequanxian。shishei，zaineiyangguanjiandeshike，xuanzexiangwojieluzhenxiang？
tamaozhejudadefengxian，mudeyoushishenme？wodakaidiannao，
diaochumjituansuoyouyongyou“tianmujihua”fangwenquanxiandeyuangongmingdan。zhangzhangdeliebiao，baohanleshubaigemingzi。
woyigeyigedikanguoqu，danaofeisudijinxingshaixuanhepipei。turan，yigemingzizaiwodenaohaizhongshanleyixia，
yinqilewodezhuyi：jishubufuzong，chenglei。chengleishishenyeyishoutibaqilaide“xinfu”，nenglichuzhong，
duijishuyoujinhupianzhidekuangre。danwojide，dayuesangeyueqian，
taturanbeidiaolile“tianmujihua”xiangmudehexinyanfatuandui，zhuanerfuzeyixiebianyuanhuadejishuzhichigongzuo。
dangshiwaijiechuanyan，shiyinweitajishulinianguoyuchaoqian，yushenyedebaoshouzuofenggegeburu，
zaiyicineibuhuiyishangjiliefanduileshenyedemougejuece，yincishichong。zhijuegaosuwo，
tahuoxushineigenimingzhe。yigebeipaijideneibuhexinchengyuan，jiyouquanxian，yeyoudongji。
wojiangzheigemingzigaosulelinwei，rangtaanzhongdiaochachengleidebeijinghejinqidongxiang。liangtianhou，
linweidehuifulingrenjingya，yerangwoxindishengqiyigubuxiangdeyugan：chengleiyouyigemeimei，mingjiaochenglin。
cengjingshishenyedesirenmishu，gongzuonenglituchu，renyezhangdeqinglikeren。danzaiyinianqian，chenglinturanshizong，
suihoubeijingfangxuanbuyin“yiyuzheng”tiaolouzisha，chengweiyizhuangxuanan。raner，
linweituanduitongguoyixiebuweirenzhidequdao，zhaodaolechenglindesirenrijiben。rijibenli，
chenglinjizailetahuanshangyiyuzhenghoudeqingxudigu，yijiduishenghuoshiqulesuoyouxiwang。
danzaitazuihoudejipianrijizhong，quechuxianleyujingshenzhuangtaiwanquanbufudeqingxingjilu。tebieshiqizhongyipian，
zijiliaocao，daizheyizhongjidudejuewanghefennu——taxiedao，tafaxianzijihuaiyunle，
er“neigeren”quebuyuanchengdanzeren，shenzhiweixieta。rijilimeiyouzhimingdaoxing，danjieheshijianxian，
yijitacengduocizairijizhongtiji“shenzong”duizijideguanzhao，
chenglinxianranshizaiheshenyefashengguojiliezhengchaozhihou，caizouxiangleshengmingdezhongdian。shenzhiyouanshi，
tade“zisha”bingfeiwanquanchuyubenyi。wodexinmengdiyichen。shenye……zheigeweijunzidemianjuzhixia，
daodihaiyinzangzheduoshaoheian？diertianshangwu，woyuechengleizaigongsilouxianeijiayuanlixuanxiaodekafeitingjianmian。
neijiakafeitingdeweizhihenpianpi，pingshihenshaoyourenguanggu，qiahaoshihezheizhongyinmidehuimian。tazhunshichuxian，
chuanzheyijianputongdehuisechenshan，dapeiheikuangyanjing，
zhenggerentouzhejishurenyuanteyoudejujinhelvexiancangbaidepibei。caisanshiwuliusui，
dankanqilaibishijinianlingcanglaoxuduo。tadianleyibeiheikafei，wozexuanzelebujiatangdemoka。
fuwushenglikaihou，womeiyouhanxuan，kaimenjianshandishuo：“wozhidaoshinifadecaixin。”chengleijiaobankafeideshou，
zaiwodehuayinluoxiashi，weiweidunledun。tameiyoufouren，zhishitaiqitou，
neishuangyinzangzaijingpianhoumian、yinzhangqimianduidaimaerlvexianpibeideyanjing，
cikequedaizheyisiyayidezhengzhaheshenshi。“suoyini？”tashengyindichen，daizheyisiguzuodepingjing。
“woyaochedibandaoshenye。”wozhishitadeyanjing，yuqijianding，burongzhiyi，“xuyaonidebangzhu。
”tahuanmandifangxiashaozi，shuangshoujiaodiefangzaizhuoshang，muguangchenjingdikanzhewo。“guzong，woweishenmeyaobangni？
”tafanwenwo，yudiaolitingbuchuqingxu。“yinwei**mei。”woqingshengshuochuzheigemingzi，
yuqikeyifangdehenqing，danmeiyigezidouxiangtouxianghumiandeshizi，shunjianjiqitaneixindebolan，“chenglin，
tadezisha，henxiqiao。buzhishiyinweishenyegufuleta，haiyinweitadesiyincunyi，duima？