第6章 化疗之苦与游戏之喜

wangzuotuozhepibeideshenquhuidaochuzuwu,yigupaomianweihunzhedandandemeiweipubierlai。tawuliditidiaoxiezi,chenshanxiabaizhanranlebuzhiheshicengshangdewuzi。chuzuwubizedekongjianli,hunhuangdedengguangzhaodeyiqiegengjiatuibai。taweiliyizhenfanjiangdaohai,fuzheqiangganoulejixia,queshenmeyemeituchulai。hualiaodefuzuoyongrangtaweijuesangshi,chishenmedourutongjiaola,gengbietixiangshoushiwudemeiweile。

tajixiedidakaishouji,diankai“menghuanlingyuan”detubiao。dengluyouxihou,xiguanxingdixianqukanxiangyouyoudezhuangtai。pingmushang,xiangyouyoudejiaosezhengzhanzaimaowuqiandeyipiankongdishang,shenzitingba,yixisuyizaiweifengzhongqingqingpiaodong。wangzuozhuyidaotazhoushenhuanraozheyiquandandandebaiseguangyun,biyiwanggengjiamingliang,xinzhongyinyinshengqiyisiqidai。

jihujiuzaizheishi,xiangyouyouqingcuideshengyincongshoujilichuanlai:“qianbei,wotupole!anzhaoninshuodefangfayunzhuanlingli,shunchangwubi,wonengganjuedaoshilidazeng。”yuqizhongnanyanxingfenhequeyue。

wangzuoyuanbenpibeibukandeshenxinfangfobeizhuruleyiguhuoli,yanzhongmanshixinwei:“taihaole,youyou,nidenulimeiyoubaifei,jixujiayou,houmianhaiyougenggaodejingjiedengzheni。”tazhidao,zaicangyunjie,xiulianshiyijianjiqijiannandeshiqing,xiangyouyounengquderucijinbu,beihoufuchuleduoshaonulikexiangerzhi。

“duokuileqianbeidezhidaohezengyude‘qingfengjue’,youyoucainengrucishunliditupo。”xiangyouyoudeshengyinlichongmanleganji,“zhiqianxiulianzongshibudeyaoling,lingliyunzhuanbuchang,rujinganjuetineilinglichongying,rutongshanjianqingquanbanyuanyuanbuduan。”

wangzuofangfonengkandaoxiangyouyoucikexinxidebiaoqing,tazuijiaoweiweishangyang,qingshengshuodao:“zheiben‘qingfengjue’suiranzhishijichugongfa,danguizaixunxujianjin,dahaojichucainengzairihoudexiulianzhilushangzoudegengyuan。nirujintupozhizhongqi,keyichangshixiulianyixiegenggaojidezhaoshile。”

“ng,youyoumingbai。”xiangyouyoudeshengyinlidaizheyisijianding,“wohuijixunulixiulian,bugufuqianbeideqiwang。”

wangzuokanzhepingmushangxiangyouyoudejiaose,tazhengtaitouwangxiangyuanfangyunwuliaoraodeshanluan,yanshenzhongchongmanleduiweilaidechongjinghexiwang。wangzuozhidao,xiangyouyouzaicangyunjieshenshikanke,cengjingdetiancaijianxiurujinlunluozhici,dantacongweifangqixiwang,shizhongjianrenbubadinulizhe。

wangzuoxinzhongyongqiyigunuanliu,tafangfokandaolecengjingdeziji,neigeduiweilaichongmanxiwang,jishishenchunijingyecongweifangqideziji。tagulidao:“youyou,woxiangxinniyidingkeyizhonghuidianfeng,zaicangyunjiechuangchuyipiantiandi。”

“xiexieqianbei,youyouyidinghuinulide!”xiangyouyoudeshengyinlichongmanleliliang。

wangzuofangxiashouji,zoudaochuangbian,kanzhechuangwaishanshuodenihongdeng,sixuwanqian。xianshidecankurangtagandaowulihejuewang,danzaixunideshijieli,tazhaodaoleyigekeyijituoxiwangdedifang,yigekeyirangtaganshoudaowennuanheliliangdedifang。takanzheyekongzhongshanshuodexingxing,xinzhongmomoqidao,xiwangxiangyouyounenggouzaicangyunjiezhaodaoshuyuzijidexingfu,yexiwangzijinenggouzhanshengbingmo,zhongxinranqiduishenghuodexiwang。

shoujipingmudeguangyingzhaozaiwangzuocangbaidelianshang,tawulidikaozaichuangtou,yanshenkongdongdidingzhetianhuaban。xiangyouyoutupodexiyuerutongtanhuayixian,henkuaijiubeixianshidecankuchongshuadeganganjingjing。

shangsidezuihoutongdiexiangyibalijianxuanzaitadetouding。wangzuozhengzhazhepaqilai,zoudaoduimanwenjiandebangongzhuoqian。mimimamadewenzirangtatouyunmuxuan,weiliyizhenfanjiangdaohai。taqiangrenzhebushi,naqiyifenwenjian,queyigeziyekanbujinqu。qianbizaitashouzhongwulidizhuandong,zaiwenjianshangliuxialingluandehenji。

“wangzuo,nizheizhoudebaobiaoni?”shangsiyanlideshengyinzaitaerbianxiangqi。

wangzuohunshenyizhan,shouzhongdeqianbidiaoluozaidishang,fachuqingcuidexiangsheng。tanieruzhe:“wo……wohaimeizuowan。”

“haimeizuowan?nizhibuzhidaozheigexiangmuyouduozhongyao?gongsijileniyizhoudeshijian,nijiushizheiyanghuibaogongside?”shangsideyuqilichongmanlebumanheshiwang。

wangzuodizhetou,buganzhishishangsideyanjing。tazuichunweiweizhandou,xiangyaojieshi,queshenmeyeshuobuchulai。hualiaodefuzuoyongrangtafanyingchidun,siweihunluan,cengjingyinyiweihaodegongzuonenglirujindangranwucun。

“wozaijinizuihouyicijihui,ruguoxiazhouyinihaibunengjiaochuhegedebaobiao,jiubuyonglaile。”shangsidiuxiazheijuhua,zhuanshenlikailebangongshi。

wangzuowuliditanzuozaiyizishang,ganjuehunshendeliqidoubeichoukongle。tawangzhezhuoshangduijirushandewenjian,xinzhongchongmanlejuewang。tazhidao,yizijixianzaidezhuangtai,genbenbukenengwanchengzheigexiangmu。

xueshangjiashuangdeshi,yiyuandecuikuantongzhizaicidalai。hushibinglengdeshengyinxiangyigenzhencirutadexinzang:“wangxiansheng,nindezhuyuanfeiyongyijingtuoqianhenjiule,qingninjinkuaijiaona,fouzewomenjiangtingzhibufenzhiliao。”

wangzuowozheshoujideshouweiweizhandou,tajiannandikaikou:“wo……wohuijinkuaixiangbanfa。”

guaduandianhuahou,wangzuowulidibishangyanjing。tazhidao,zijiyijingzoutouwulule。tacengjingshizhexiangqinqipengyoujieqian,dandedaodeyaomeshituituo,yaomeshilengyanlengyu。

“douzheigeshihoule,nihaiwanyouxi?”biaogebunaifandeshengyinzaitaerbianhuixiang,“ganjinzhaogedifanghaohaoyangbingba,biezailangfeiqianle。”

“womenjiayeburongyi,bangbuleni。”gumalengmodiguaduanledianhua。

yicicidejujue,xiangyibabajiandaocitongzhetadezizunxin。tazouzaixuanxiaodejietou,kanzhelailaiwangwangderenqun,ganjuezijixiangyigebeishijieyiqideguer。

yewan,tatuozhepibeideshenquhuidaochuzuwu。hunhuangdedengguangzhaozhebizedekongjian,kongqizhongmimanzhepaomianhemeiwei。tawuliditidiaoxiezi,chenshanxiabaizhanranlebuzhiheshicengshangdewuzi。tafuzheqiangganoulejixia,queshenmeyemeituchulai。hualiaodefuzuoyongrangtaweijuesangshi,chishenmedourutongjiaola。

tazoudaochuangbian,kanzhechuangwaishanshuodenihongdeng,sixuwanqian。tabuzhidaozijihainengchengduojiu,yebuzhidaoweilaizainali。tagandaoqiansuoweiyoudeguduhewuzhu,fangfobeikunzaiyigewuxingdelaolongli,wufahuxi,wufataotuo。