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woyigeyongli，kafeibeidesuipiangepolezhangxin，xianxuezhiliu。
zheishijianqingyuesongwodebeizi，gentadeneigeshiqinglvkuan。
“nizaizuoshenme？”jianqingyuezhoumei，“ganjinshoushiyixia，yaoqujiesongzongle。”
宋总。
wolianseyibai，suibianzhilexue，genzhejianqingyuexialou。
songyuhuaitajingongsidamendeneiyike，jianqingyuexiaodexianggexiaonvhai。
“阿淮，你来了。”
songyuhuaijilejianqingyueyigeyongbao，yuwoduishangshixiandeshihou，tazhenglengleyixia。
“guaibude，haizhenshitingxiangde。”songyuhuaimianlufengcidimolemotayanjiaochudeyikezhi。
那是真的痣。
erwozheike，shiwenshangqude。
dangnian，jianqingyuedaiwohuijiadediertianjiurangwoquzuolegekaiyanjiaodexiaoshoushu，shunbianwenleyikezhi。
meidangtadongqingdeshihou，yezuiaifumozheikezhi。
原来如此。
dahuishang，jianqingyuejieshaolesongyuhuai，shuotajianghuichengweigongsijinciyutadefuzong。
huiyijieshuhou，tarangwozhenglihetongziliao，yijiaojisongyuhuai。
“neishiwonaxiadexiangmu。”wozuanzhehetongbufang。
“apei，guaiyidian，zheishishuyuahuaidedongxi。”jianqingyueyidianyidianduoqulewodenuli。
congsongyuhuaichuxiankaishi，tadeyanlizaimeilewo。
tarangwobanchuquzhu，rangwodangtamendesiji，songtamenquchifan、quhejiu、quyingchou。
tahezuideshihouwoxiangfuta，songyuhuaihenhentuilewoyiba：“wodouhuilaile，nihaizaizheieraishenmeyan？”
songyuhuaijiangjianqingyuefushangche，taguanshanglechemen。
wokandaojianqingyuelouzhetadebojingqinwen……
wotongkudibishangleyanjing。
meitiandouxianghuozaidiyuzhongjianao。
aolesiwugeyue，jianqingyuezhongyudao：“jintianpeiwomenqukanxiangmudegongdi，kanwanhou，nijiuziyoule。”
“wanghou，nixiangzuoshenmedoukeyi，bushixihuanhuahuama？wohuijiniqianbanhuazhande。”
wohongzheyan：“nideyisishi……”
“tahuilaile，wobuzaixuyaonile。”jianqingyueyiziyidundao。
“suoyi，nicongweiaiguowo。”woyaoyadao。
jianqingyuexiaole：“genlewozheimejiunibukuide，bieshuowanxiaohuale。”
wanxiao，yichangwanxiaokailebanian，sheiganxin？
wopeizhetamenqulegongdi。
jianqingyuejiedaoleyigedianhua，dunshishenqingjinzhang：“shenme，wobieshuzhehuole？womashanghuiqu！”
“gongdimashangkanwanle，yebudanwujifenzhong，biezheji。”songyuhuaixiaodao。
jianqingyuehuitoukanwo，wolengshengdao：“nimenxiankan，wohuiquqiangjiuwodehua，youyifushizhunbeisongjinideshengriliwu。”
“rangtaquba，womenji……”
songyuhuaihuahaimeishuowan，zhijianloushangturanluoxialelianggenjudadepaishanguan。
“ahuai，kuaishankai！”jianqingyuepudaolesongyuhuai。
woxiangdoumeixiang，feishenshangqianyonghoubeihuzhulejianqingyue。
paishanguanzhongzhongdishuaizaiwodehoubeishang，wotuchuleyikouxue。
xianruhunmizhiqian，wokandaojianqingyuejiaojidiwensongyuhuai：“nimeishiba？”
jiuzaineiyike，woturanduijianqingyuechedisixinle……
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woshineimeneimeaijianqingyue。
aidaowufazibadedibu。
wokeyiweileta，bumianbuxiudixuexi，zhiweilezhuigantadejiaobu，weileyouchaoyiri，nengchengweiyuzhipipeidenanren。
wokeyiweileta，xuezhezuotaxihuandefancai，xueleyitaoyouyitao**deshoufa，xuehuihewobuxihuanhedejiu。
wokeyiweileta，yeyijiridigongzuo，buzhipijuandiyingchou，napafanleweibingtengdeyaoyaqiechi，woyemeihangguosheng。
woyiweijianqingyuezongyouyitiannengkandaowodefuchu。
zhiyaotabushimeiyouxin，jiujuebuhuiganshoubudaowodeai。
yuanlaitabushimeiyouxin，tashibatadexinjiaojilebiedenanren。
wodebanian，dibuguosongyuhuaihuilaidediyitian。
wosuoyoudefuchudouchengleyichangyouyichangdexiaohua。
zheixienian，wochongdangtadetezhu、baobiao、shenzhishibaomu，wofangxialesuoyoudezunyan。
yebushimeiyoupijuanguo，yebushimeixiangguofangqi。
taduiwolengdandeshihou，chongwofahuodeshihou，duiwolengchaorefengdeshihou。
tagenwozaiyiqixinbuzaiyandeshihou，siyibawosongjitadeshengriliwusuishourengdiaodeshihou，genxiaonaigoumeilaiyanqudeshihou。
kemeidangwoxiangfangqideshihou，zongnengdedaojianqingyuebujingyidemomotouhuozhejiangliyibandeqinwen。
yushiwozaizheitiaomingwei“ai”deheiandaolushang，yuezouyueyuan。
kedangtabawoxinkudelaidexiangmuhewodeyejisongjibierendeshihou，tagensongyuhuaijiewendeshihou，rangwosongyifuqujiudiandeshihou……
woyicibiyicipofang，yicibiyicixinrusihui。
woweilezaodiansixin，shenzhiyongxiaohaohunjinlequnli，kanlezhengzhengyizhouzijidexiaohua——
【jiangsongpeia，shuoshijipintiangouyebuweiguole，zheixienian，conglaimeijianguotazhengyankanguobiedenvren。】
【tajiushijianzongshenbianzuizhongchengdegou，huiyaorendeneizhong。】
【buguojianlesongzongcaimingbaijiangtezhuweishenmezheimeduoniandoubuneng“zhuanzheng”，tishenzhongguishitishen。】
【kebushime？zhengzhuhuilailehaibudeguaiguairangweia？】
【daoshizhendetingxiangde，beiying、shencai、shengao，lianwuguandouyoujifenxiang，jiulianyanjiaochudeneikexiaozhidouyimoyiyang，nimenshuo，jiangtezhugensongzonggaibuhuiyoushenmexueyuanguanxiba？】
【bukeneng，songzongchushenyishujiating，shuxiangshijia，jiangsongpeihuishenmea？】
【jianzongdaisongzongyeshizhendehao，mingmingsongzongduishangjieyiqiaobutong，jiuyinweitayijuhua，haishiyuanyirangtadangfuzong。】
【tingshuojianzongzheimeduonianmeijiehun，jiushizaidengsongzonglihunni，liangrenshiqingmeizhuma，yiqizhangdade，yaobushijianzongdangnianchuguojinxiu，zaiguowaijiehunle，yelunbudaotajiangsongpei……】
【nimenbiezheimeshuo，wodaoshijuedejiangtezhutingkeliande，zheibushibeishuadetuantuanzhuanma？tashizhenxinaijianzongde。】
真爱？
谁在意我的爱？
neiyizhouli，meiyitiao**xiaoxi，doushiduiwodelingchi。
yaobushitiangao，wozhenbuzhidaoyuanlaizijizaigongsishihuatidawang。
jianqingyuebushibuzhidaogongsilidajiaruheyilunwo，tashenzhijiuzaineigequnli。
ketacongtouzhiweizhishikanzhe，yiyanbufa。
yexuzaitadexinli，wojiushineiyangdejiaose。
shitayangdexiaobailian，keyizhaozhijilaihuizhijiqu。
kezheixienian，tamingmingyeduiwowenrouguode。
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wocongyoujiyiqijiuzaigueryuanshenghuo。
basuineinian，beiyiduiputongdeyangfumulingyang。
shibasuineinian，yangmuzhongbing，jixuyongqiandeshihou，yangfubasuoyouqiantouqudubo。
bujinruci，haiqianxialegaolidai。
tahedezuixunxunbeizhuizhaideshihoushizuzhuixialelouti，sile。
jiwoliuxialejishiwandezhaiwuyijibingzhongdengqianzhiliaodeyangmu。
gaolidaidekepazhichuzaiyuduanshijianneijiunengjuanchengyigejingrendeshuzi。
jiuzaiwoyichoumozhanzhiji，jianqingyuechuxianle。
tabangwohailezhai，jiangwodeyangmuzhuanqulezuihaodeyiyuan，suiranyangmuhaishimeiyouneigexiatian。
tadaiwoquzuokaiyanjiaodeshoushu，zaiwodeyanjiaochujingquedizhizheyigeweizhi：“zheiliwenyikezhi。”
她将我带回了家。
jianqingyueshuo：“wohaohaopeiyangni，zuowodedelizhushou，wotinihailehenduoqian，suoyiniyaoweiwozhuanhenduoqian。”
我懵懂地点了点头。
tabiwodasisui，qizhichengshuyoumiren，xiangdajiejieyibanxixinzhaoguwo。
rangwobiandudaxuebianxuejingshang，jiwoguoshengri，daiwoqupaowenquan、qudujialvyou。
我在那年成长蜕变。
daqiushiwozhanggao，youyonghetaiquandaoshiwolianchulepiaoliangdejirou。
wozaijianqingyuewenroudemuguangzhong，zhangchengletingbadedashu。
daxuebiyehou，wozheikedashukaishiweitazhefengdangyu。
womendeguanxiyeyuelaiyueaimei。
yicijiuzui，jianqingyuewenlewoyanjiaodezhi。
woduitayinrendeaiyiyixiazibaofa……
tashiwodenvshen，shiwodeyueliang。
napatajuliwozheimejin，kewocongmeixiangguonenggoudedaota。
kedangwodedaoletadeshentihou，youtanxindixiangyaogengduo。
yushi，wobuyaomingdilaxiangmu、quyingchou。
leidezairenheshijiandouyoukenengshuizhe。
wosongtafangzi、chezi、angguidebaobaohewoqinshouhuadedingzhixianglian。
wodaitaqupashan、qubaifo、qubengji、qutiaosan。
wocengbeitazouguozuiyuandeshanlu，weitabeirenyongjiupingzidadetoupoxueliu。
yecengjingxiaxin，meinianweitahuayifuhua。
tamingmingduiwodehuashiruozhenbao，weishenmeduiwoquerucicanrenni？
neidoushitazuiaidehua，takanzhehuadeshihou，nandaoxiangdeyeshibierenma？
wowenta、aitadeshihou，tayoutouguowoyanjiaodezhikandaoleshei？
ruobushisongyuhuaizheigebaiyueguangdejiaosechuxian，wogenbenbuganxiangxinzijizhishiyigetishen。
wojuede，jianqingyuefenmingyeduiwodongguoqing。
keshibieshuzhehuole，taquexuanzepeizhesongyuhuaijixukangongdi。
shiwotitamendangxialepaishanguan，kejianqingyuedeyanliquezhiyousongyuhuai。
yuanlaineijiushiyasiluotuodezuihouyigendaocao。
原来那就是。
否则，我怎么死心？
damengsanqian，zongyougaixingdeyitian。
“tadeyanjiaoliuleile，tashibushiyaoxingle？yisheng！yisheng……”
erbianchuanlaileyidaoshuxideshengyin。
woyixitingjianyishengduineirendao：“zangqiduochuchuxue，qingkuangfeichangweixian，tadeyoushougujihennanhuifule，yihouzhongwushibunengtile，jingxihuoerye……”
“neibuxing，tahaiyaohuahua！buguanduoshaoqian，yidingyao……”neirendaizhekuqiangdehuabeiyishengdaduan。
“nengliuxiayitiaomingyijingshishenfobaoyoule！niwanglezijiqianleduoshaocibingweitongzhishu？”yishenglengshengdao。
哭声。
是简清月的哭声。
tasihulazhewodeshoutiedaoletadelianshang。
我缓缓睁开了眼睛。
“apei，nizenmeyangle？haitongma？gaosuwo，nalitong？niweishenmeyaobangwodangneiyixia？nizhibuzhidao，wopajile，nichadianerjiusile！”
jianqingyuemanliandoushileishui，xinyouyujidao。
“jing、jingzi……”woshengyinshayadao。
“niyaojingzishima？wonajini，niyaoganshenme？”
jianqingyuecongbaobaolitaochulejingzi，dakaifangdaowodeyanqian。
wojiannanditaiqishou，yongjinquanshendeliqi，jiangyanjiaoneikeaiyandezhihenhendikoulexialai。
连皮带肉。
jianqingyuefachujianjiao：“jiangsongpei，nifenglema？”
wodeyanjiaozhishengyimohongse，zaiyemeileneikezhi。
wonannanziyu：“zheiyangjiubuxiangtale，zaiyebuxiangle。”
jianqingyuewuzhezuibadaku，tashoumangjiaoluandiyongzhijintiwocaxue。
wopijuandibishangleyanjing。
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buzhidaoguoleduozhangshijian，woyoubeigezhonggeyangdezhengchaoshengjingxing。
“nimenliangrangkai，yaobushizheihaizisheshenxiangjiu，zailimiantangzhederenjiushinisongyuhuai！nishenmeshihoubiandezheimezisile？”neishiyidaomoshengdenvsheng。
“ma，tashijiulewomenyiming，jidianqiandafajiuxingle，yongbuzhedangmiandaoxie……”
这是宋予淮的声音。
“qianwoyaoji，renwoyeyaojian，nimenrangkai！”
henkuai，yigekanqilaibishijinianlinggengnianqingdezhongniannvrenzoudaolewodechuangbian。
dangtakandaowodeneiyike，liansedabian。
“ni？haizi，ni、nijiaoshenmemingzi？”
wojiannandihuida：“jiang……songpei。”
“songyuhuai，nijiwogunguolai！”nvrenmanliannuqidao。
songyuhuaizoudaonvrenmianqian，xiayimiao，nvrentaishouhenhenshuailetayibazhang。
“wobanixiaoyilinzhongqianzuihoudexinyuanjiaojileni，nijiushizheiyanghunongwode？zheijinianwowenleniduoshaohui，daodiyoumeiyouzhaodaonidebiaodi，nidoushuomeizhaodao，tani？”
“tagennizhangdeyoujifenxiangsi，nicongmeihuaiyiguo？”nvrendihoudao。
“ma，bukenengshita，tajiushiyigeguer，shiqingyuedetezhubale！”songyuhuaijiaojidao。
“qingyue，niyepeizhetahunao？wowenni，tadaodishishei？shibushiwomeideerzi？zhengjianshiqingnidaodibanyanleyigeshenmejiaose？”
jianqingyuefeikuaidipielewoyiyan，neiyanshenfenmingdaizhexinxu：“ayi，wo、wobuzhidao。”
“bayuanzhangjiaoguolai，chaxiaxuexingjiuzhidaole，wogenwomeidoushixihandexiongmaoxue……”
yigehushijingguo，bujingyidao：“52chuangyeshixiongmaoxueya，diercibingweitongzhishujiushiyinweiyiyuanquexuele，shizheiweinvshiguixiaqiulezheiweixiansheng，tacaixianlexue……”
52床是我。
“zheiweinvshi”shijianqingyue。
er“zheiweixiansheng”zeshisongyuhuai。
nvrenyoushanlesongyuhuaiyibazhang：“nihaiganshuobuzhidao？tajiuleni，rangnixiandianxuenijingranzheimebuqingbuyuan？tashinibiaodi！nandaoniyaokanzhetasicaimanyi？”
“niwanglenixiaoyiyiqianduotengainima？songyuhuai，wokannizhenshifengle！niweishenmeyaozheimezuo？！”nvrenyanmiantongku。
“ayi，wojininjieshiba，yinwei……”jianqingyuelengjinglexialai。
“简清月！”
songyuhuaiehenhendidengzheta：“niyaoshishuochulai，womenzhijianjiuzaiyemeikenengle！”
jianqingyueluchuyigefengcidexiao：“songyuhuai，yaobushijingguolezheicideshi，woyebunengqueding，nizaiwoxinliyijingchengweileguoqushi，zheixienian，woaideshijiangsongpei，bushini。”
“suoyi，tameixingdezheixieririyeye，womeifenmeimiaodouzaihouhui，weishenmeyaodayingbangniyinmantadeshenfen，nipatadecunzaihuiweixiedaoni，yinweinimeiyouyishutianfen，niwaigonggenbenbuxiangrangnijichengtadeshejigongsihehuihuashiye！”
songyuhuaigoujitiaoqiang：“goule！nidangchuxiangtashenchuyuanshoubuguoshixiangbaofuwo，baofuwolikaileni，genbierenjielehun！nijiangtayangzaishenbianbuguojiushiweiledangwodetishen！”
“fouzezenmewoyilihunhuiguo，nijiupobujidaijiangtayijiaochuaikai？”
“jiangsongpei，nibuhuizhenbajianqingyuedangchengnidejiumingdaocaonidenvshenleba？tameizheimeweida！tayizhizhidaonideshenfen，keyecongmeixiangguoyaobangnirenzuguizong！”
“weishenme？yinweitaaideshiwo！zhiyaowoxiangyaode，tadouhuibangwo，takeyihuochumingqujiuwo！”
songyuhuaiyinglailedisangebazhang。
这次是简清月甩的。
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“songyuhuai，wozhenshikancuoleni，wozaogaizhidao，nijiushigehouyan**dezhanan！nipianwolihunshiyinweiduifangchugui，mingmingshinichugui！nizhenshitailingwoexinle，nihailiyongwoshanglenideqinshengbiaodi，yiciyouyici！”
nvrenyaozheyalengshengdao：“songyuhuai，waigongzheibiannishenmeyebiexiangyaole，gunqunibaneibianba！”
“ma，nigenbalihunhou，bayouyouleerzi，genbenjiubuguanwo……”songyuhuaiqideduojiao。
“worangnigun！”nvrenxiesidilidao。
songyuhuaifuqishuaimenlikailebingfang。
woxiaozheliulei：“haoyichudaxi，yaobushiwoqibulai，douxiangjinimenguzhangle。”
jianqingyueguizaiwodebingchuangqian，zhuazhewodeshou：“apei，bushizheiyangde，wobaniliuzaiwoshenbian，shiyinweiwoaini，wopa……wopanilikaiwoa！”
“songyuhuaizoule，suoyinixuyaowo，pawolikaini，songyuhuaihuilaihou，woaiyanle，suoyinibawodanglajiyiyangrengle。”
jianqingyueyaotou：“bushi！bushizheiyangde！”
“jianqingyue，nibuaiwo，nizhiainiziji。”wotanxidao。
“bushide，woaideshini！wozhishiyiweizijihaimeiwangjisongyuhuai。”
“niaiwo，querenyoubierenshanghaiwo，wozuodeyiqie，zainiyanli，doushilisuodangrande，shenzhi，nijiuzaineigequnli，queyiyanbufa，yinweinijuede，tamenmeiyoushuocuoshenme。”
“jianqingyue，aibushizheiyangde，woaini，wodezhenxinjiunengbeinishuaizaidishangcaima？！kekeke……”
“haizi，nibiejidong。”nvrenanweiwo，huitouduijianqingyuedao：“nibiezaizheili**tale。”
jianqingyuecaganyanlei：“dengnijingshenhaodianwozailaikanni。”
“bielaile。”woqingshengdao。
jianqingyuedeyanleiyouduokuangerchu，diediezhuangzhuangdilikaibingfang。
“haizi，zheimeduonian，nishoukule，woshinideyimaluwan，nidemamashiwodeluanshengmeimei，mingjiaoluting，zhenshenqi，nigenyuhuai，douxianglewogenluting。”
“haohaoxiuyang，dengkangfule，wodainihuijia。”luwanwenroudimoquwoyanjiaodelei。
三天后。
luwandaizheyibenhouhoudexiangcelaikanwo。
“zheijiushinimama，bieguaita，tayizhihenxiangnianni，henxiangbanizhaohuijia，zhishidangshituofufeiren，jiumeilenidexiaoxi，talinsiqian，yizhihenxiangjianniyimian。”
xiangceshangdenvrenzhangdeguorangenluwanhenxiang，xiaorongdaizheyisiaichou。
“weishenme？”wonannandao。
“weihunxianyun，niwaigongbitaduotai，tashitoutoushengxianide，nidefuqinshenfenbutaiguangcai，buguoyebuzaile……”
“yuhuaimeiyouyishutianfen，niwaigongqianliangniandezhinidecunzaihou，yizhicuiwojinkuaizhaodaoni。”
“womeixiangdaoyuhuaijingranzheimerenxing，yimabuqiuniyuanliangta，zhiqiuninenghuijia，lujiadeyiqie，shishuyunide。”
“wozaoyixiguanlemeiyoujia。”woheshangleneibenxiangce。
“nibushixihuanhuihuama？niwaigongshiguohuadashi，henchumingde，yifuhuanengjiazhiqianwan，nandaonibuxiangchuanchengtadeshouyima？”luwanjimangdao。
woxiaozhetaiqiyoushou：“zheishouweilenaxiayigexiangmu，beirenzafeile，neigexiangmubeijianqingyuesongjilesongyuhuai，wokongpawufachuanchengnimenlujiadeshouyile。”
qiahaotingdaowozheijuhuadejianqingyuezhanzaibingfangmenkouqifendao：“weishenmebugaosuwo？weishenmebugaosuwoneige**zalenideshou？yaobushiyishenggaosuwo，woquchalejiankong，doubuzhidaoneige**jingranzheimeguofen！”
wolengxiao，“neiwan，womailenizuiaidetangchaolizihuijia，nizaigensongyuhuaitongshipin，nilianmenglihandedoushitademingzi，nirangwoshuoshenme？”
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luwandagaitingdaotaerzidemingzijiutouteng，yaotoudao：“nimennianqingrenmanmanliaoba，songpei，nishangzheimezhong，youhunmilezheimejiu，bietaijidong。”
我点了点头。
“apei，zahuainideshouhepaishanguanzhuiluodeshidoushizhaoquandazuode，woyijingshoujizhengjujiaojijingfangle，jingfangxianzaiyijingjierudiaocha，tafeilenideshou，zheigexiangmuwoningkehuiyueyebuhuirangtahaoguo！”
jianqingyuejiangyizhongjitangfangzaizhuozishang，muguangsenlengdao。
zhaoquandajiushineigehezuofang。