第一章
hanliutuxi，baoxuefengcheng。
zhangfudiuxiahuaiyundewo，daizoulejinshengdewuziquzhaoxiaoqingmei。
erwozaijialibeidongdesizhijiangying，shentishiwen，liuchanjianhong。
weilebaozhuhaizi，wofengkuangjizhangfudadianhua，qiutahuilaijiujiuwohehaizi，quehuanlaitayidunpitougailiandexunchi。
“xingle！zheishenmeshihoule，nihaiyaohetiantianzhengfengchicu？ninengbunengbuyaotianluan？zhengrihuanghualianpian！”
“tiantiandemaodoudongsile，tabininanguoyibaibei！”
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woyijingbeidongdekuaiyaoshuobuchuhuale。
lingxiaershijidudejihantianqi。
暖气断了。
天然气也停了。
shuidianlutongtongdoudonghuaile。
jiulianweiyiqunuandenuanbaobaotieyebeizhuangzhikaidaizoule。
jialideshushipinyebeinazoule，lianzhuoshangbaowenpinglidereshuidoumeile。
fangjianlihuangruobingjiaoyiyanghanleng。
我怎么还能说谎？
wozhandouzhe，yadoukezaileyiqi，jihukuaiyaoshiwenle，zhinengbeiweiyangqiuta。
“womeishuohuang，zhikai，wozhendehenbushufu。”
“wozenmekenengyonghaiziqushuohuangni？zuotianwanshangtingdiantingnuandaoxianzai，wohaihuaizheyun，zhendejianchibuxiaqule。”
“zhikai，qiuqiunile，huilaijiujiuwohehaiziba！”
说着。
chuangwaixiangqileshequgongzuorenyuanyongdalabajiaohandeshengyin。
yijingyoujiuyuanduiwuzaizuzhizhuhuchelile，danbixuyaoxialouqu**，ranhouyiqizutuanlikai。
zhuangzhikaiyetingjianle，qidezaidianhuaneitoudishengsihou。
“nizijitingting！waimiandouzaijiaohanchelile，nigenzhetamenqubujiushile！weishenmefeiyaodadianhuajiwo？”
“zhengjiaoyue，wohaibuzhidaonidexinsi？nibujiushikanwolaizhaotiantianle，nijiuzhengfengchicuxianghanwohuiquma！genbenyidiantongqingxindoumeiyou。”
“tiantianyigerenzaizheigechengshiwuyiwukao，wobangbangtazenmele？nifeiyaozheimejiuzhebufang？”
我真的百口莫辩。
zhinengsisiqiazheshoujikusu。
“waimianqiwenhendi，loutishangdoujiebingle，zhikai，womeibanfaxiaqu。”
“zhiyaozouchuquwojiuhuihuadao，bacenglougao，wogenbenzoubuxiaqu，erqiewoxianzaiyeyijingyouliuchanxianxiangle，qingkuangzhendehenbuleguan。”
“zhikai，wozhendemeishuohuang，jiuzheiyici，jiuzheiyicinibangbangwohehaizihaobuhao？”
我本来体质就不好。
而且五年未孕。
jiashangzuolesancishiguanshoushu，qianliangcidoushenghualiuchanle，zheiyicihaoburongyicaibaozhulezheigehaizi。
我真的不想失去。
tingjianwoyibianyouyibiandekenqiuhekusu，zhuangzhikaiyexinruanle。
wobenyiweiwohehaizidejiule，quetingjiandianhuaneitouchuanlairentiantianjiaochendesangyin。
“zhikaige，niyaozoulema？yaodiuxiawoyigerenzaizheilima？”
“wozhendemeibanfarushui，zhiyaoyibishangyanjing，wonaozilijiufuxianchuletangyuanbeidongsidemoyang，douguaiwo，douguaiwo。”
“tangyuanpeibanlewoyinian，rutongwodejiarenyiban，neihaishinicengjingqinshousongjiwode，meixiangdaojiuzheimedongsile......”
henghengjijidekuqishengcongdianhuaneitouchuanlai。
zhuangzhikaiyigaichangtai，bianchengleshifenrouhedeshengyinzaihongzherentiantian。
woyuganbumiao，jiuzaidianhuazheitoucuiculezhuangzhikaijiju，rangtaganjinguolaijiujiuwohehaizi。
meixiangdaoquebatarefanle。
“行了！”
“zhengjiaoyue，wokannidetilihaihenhao，nijiubiezaizhuangsimaihuole，nizhidaode，tiantianzhiqianyiyuguoyiduanshijian，taxianzaihenyoukenengbingfa，wobixuyaoshouzheta。”
“nigenzhejiuyuanduixialouqujiumeishile！wohenkuaijiuhuiqu，nifangxinba！jiuzheiyici，woanfuyixiatiantianjiuhuiquzhaoni。”
burongwoshuohua，zhuangzhikaiguaduanledianhua。
wozaidaguoqujiubeilaheile。
zhihouwoshoujiyeguanjile，fangliweiyideguangyuanyemiele。