第一章

第一章

我母亲重病住院。

wohaofeilejudadexinsi,haoburongyizhaodaoleshenyuan。

womanxinhuanxijiangzheigexiaoxigaosulezuoweizhuzhiyishengdeqiziqinyan。

tashizheifangmianshoushudezhuanjia。

youleshenyuan,jiashangqizideyishujiachi。

womuqinzheicishoushukendingkeyichenggongduguo。

danrangwomeixiangdaodeshi,qinyanzhuanshoujiangshenyuanjitadebaiyueguangzuolepipei,faxianpipeichenggonghou。

tadiyishijianjibaiyueguanganpaileshoushu。

erwomuqinqueyinweizaidengdaidangzhong,bingfazhengdefazuo,shiqushoushudejihui。

在痛苦当中死去。

wodezhizhenxianghou,zhaodaotadangmianzhiwen。

taquelengbingbingdeshuodao:“qiaoyuan,nibuyaohunaoxingbuxing,nimadebingqinghaikeyiwenzhu,danlinbeidengbujile。”

“fangxin,nimadeshiqingwohuifangzaixinshang,woyijingrangyiyuanjinimaxunzhaoshenyuan,dengzhaodao,woqinzijinimazuoshoushukeyima?”

tashuowanhua,bunaifandeguaduanledianhua。

两个小时后。

woquekandaotadebaiyueguanglinbeifalepengyouquan,“ganxiexiaoyanjingxinweiwozhunbeideqing‘sheng’yan,duokuileta,wocainenghuoxiaqu,yeduokuileta,wocaiyouxianzaidexingfu。”

peitushiliangrenwanzheshou,zhuoshangfangzheyigehendadedangao。

liangrenqinmidezhanzaiyikuai。

yiqichuimielazhudexingfumoyang。

woxinzhongyileng,neixinjidushiwang,taishoupinglun,“zhunimenjiuzheiyangyongyuanxingfuxiaqu。”

......

qinyandedianhuahenkuaijiudaleguolai。

我直接挂断。

没有丝毫理会。

cike,wozhengzuozaiwomademubeiqian,“ma,shidangerzidemeiyong,meibaozhunideming。”

“是我对不起你。”

wozhongzhongdezaiwomademuqiankelesangexiangtou。

youpeizhewomamaliaoleyifan。

想起过往很多事情。

womayizhiyinweiyouqinyanzheiyangyigeerxifujuedejiaoao。

tajingchangduiwaimianshuo,zijierxifushiyimingrenminyisheng,kelihaile。

tahenxihuanqinyan,jingchangweiqinyankaolv。

zaijiagengshiconglaimeiyourangtazuoguojiawushenmede。

youshenmehaoshidiyishijianxiangdaoqinyan,zhiyaowoyoukong,tajiuhuirangwojiqinyansongfanchi,

我要是没空。

tazijiyehuiquyiyuanjitasongfanchi。

tabuhuikaiche,zhuangongjiaoyexuyaoliangsantang,dantaduicilecibupi。

woyeshuoguowoma,rangtabuyaoqujiqinyansongfanchi。

qinyandanweilidouyoufanchi。

womaquezongshuo,“yiyuandefancainengyoumazuodeganjingzuodehaochima?woerxifu,wobutengsheilaiteng?”

kewomarucideshanliang,quehuanlaizheiyangdexiachang。

fangzaimubeipangbiandeshouji,cishizaidu“wengweng”xiangleqilai。

wonaqishoujianxialejietingjian,qinyandecierdeshengyinxiangqi,“qiaoyuan,nidaodijigeyisi,nibuzhidaoxiaobeishenticaigangganghuifuyixiema?niyinyangguaiqideshuoneixiehuashenmeyisi?”

“gangcaixiaobeiwubikuijiu,douyaokule,yigejingjinidaoqian!”

“wozhidaoniyinweiwojiangshenyuanjilexiaobei,niduiwoyouyijian,danwozheiyangzuoyouzijideyuanyin,yishixiaobeishiwanqibingren,ershishenyuanhexiaobeideshentigengpipei,woxiangxinnimazhidaoshiqingzhenxiang,yehuizhichiwode,nizhidaode,nimahentengwo,shenmedoutingwode,buhuixiangnizheiyang,yidianxiaoshijiugenwoshengqi,guaiwo。”

“ng,nishuowanlema?”womeihaoqishuodao。

“zenmele?”taweiweiyizheng,shuodao。

“shuowanle,mingzaowomenminzhengjujian!lihunba。”