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看见报告单的瞬间。
woguoduanxuanzequxiaohunli。
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我得了阿兹海默症。
kewobuguosanshisuibudao。
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“buguo,nimenbushijinqiyaojiehunma?”
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“zaoshuoa!zaoshuowojiubuquannile!dangnianxuyinhaijiwofaguoshiaiduanxin,houlainimenzaiyiqile,woyebuhaoyisishuo。nizaokanqingyehao!”
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xuyinbuzhidaoshenmeshihouhuilaile,tingjianmudierzi,chenshengwendao:“mudi?niyaojisheimaimudi?nibamabushizaojiuqushilema?”
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“我不想连累她。”
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