第1章1
guchengdebaiyueguangxiaoshile，xiaoshizaiwomendinghunyandedangwan。
tayuanhenwoyongshouduanchaisanletamen。
dinghunhoutayeyeshengge，shenbiandenvbanhuanlewushu，meiyigedouyoutabaiyueguangdeyingzi。
guchengshuozheishiweilemabishenjing，wanleilejiuhuihuitou。
tadaidi101genvbanhuilaideneitian，mingdingdazui，zhuazhewodeshouwantongkuliuti：
“suyu，wozhendewangbuleta。”
“ruguobushijiazulianyin，wojuebuhuihenidinghun。”
“jinwanshizuihouyici，zhihouwojiudingxiaxinlai，henihaohaochoubeihunli。”
gucheng，ruguobushiweilejiazudeliyi，woyebuhuitongyizheichanglianyin。
bijing，woduzilidehaizigenbenbushinide。
jiguchengkaimenshi，womeixiangdaojintiantayehuidainvbanhuijia。
bijing，qianyitiantahaixiangwochengnuo，zaiyebuhuidaibusanbusiderenhuilai。
“wowangoule，zhendegoule。congjinyihou，womenhaohaozhunbeihunli，ng？”
“xiageyuewomenjiuyaojuxingyishile，daoshihouwohuijiniyigewanmeidehunli。”
我曾试着去相信。
neimeduohuangtangdeyewanwodourenle，yebuzaihuduodengzheiyici。
kexianshi，zongnengqingyisisuiwomianqiangweichidepingjing。
“su**zaijiaya？wohaiyiweiguzongyigerenzhu，caidayingpeitahuilaideni！”
“nihao，wojiaolinda。”
zheiduanshijian，guchengshenbiandemeiyigenvren，sihudoudaizhetaneigebaiyueguangdemouxietezheng，huoxushixiangsidemeiyan，huoxushixiangsideshengxian，youhuoxushixiangsidexihao。
yibaiduogebutongdemiankong，quedouxiangshineigenvrendecanying。
zheicidelinda，youzhehetayiyangdeheizhangzhi。
guchengzuidebuqing，jiaobuxufu，dabangeshenzidouyizailindashenshang。
tadeshou，yijingbuanfenditanrulelindadequnbai。
“guzong，biezheimexinjima！zheilihaiyourenni......”
“erqie，womenganggang......nidongde，haishixianxiuxiyixiabijiaohaoba？”
guchengdagaishijiujingshangletou，mimengzheshuangyansixiazhangwang。
muguangzuizhongluozaiwoshenshang，tazhizhewo：
“ni，qujiwomenzhunbeidianxingjiutang。”
wokanzhezuiyanmenglongdegucheng，shenxiyikouqi，yaxiaxintoufanyongdeyane：
“linda**shiba，nixianhuiquba，guzongjintianheduole。”
shuowan，wobianyaoqufugucheng。
sheizhiguchengmengdishuaikailewo，liangqiangzhechongdaojiujuqian。
neilifangzheyipingwoteyiweitaxunlaide**banweishiji，benxiangzaijintianyutaxiaozhuoyixia。
tazhizheneipingjiu，huitoukanwo，yanshenlichongmanlechaofenghelengmo：
“suyu，nizhibuzhidao，jintianshiwohetafenshoudejinianri！”
“niguyideshibushi？xiangyongzheizhongfangshitixingwo，shinichaisanlewomen？”
guchengxiangshishikongleyiban，zhuaqijiupingjiuwangdishangzaqu，huposedejiuyehebolisuipianjianleyidi。
manshidoushicibidejiujingweihejiupingsuiliedejianruishengxiang。
guchengmeicidainvrenhuijiadejiekou，zongshineimelizhiqizhuang。
tadeshengri、tamendexiangshijinianri、diyiciyuehuiderizi、shenzhishitalikaidemeiyitian......
meiyigeyutabaiyueguangxiangguanderizi，douchengletafangzongdeliyou。
tahuainianneigenvrendefangshi，zhenshikebeiyoukexiao。
yongyoudeshihoubuzhenxi，shiqulecaiyongzheizhongshanghaibierendefangshilaidaonian。
womomodicongjuzilinachuyiyaoxiang，dunxiashenxiangquchulitashoushangkenengbeibolihuashangdeshangkou：
“dengxiahelexingjiutang，womentantanjiechuhunyuedeshiqing。”
guchengkanzhewoshouzhongdemianqianheyaoshui，lenglepianke，suijilianshangfuxianchuyinlengdexiaorong，yibazhuazhulewodeshouwan：
“xianzaixiangjiechuhunyuele？dangchushisheikuzhehanzhefeiwobujiade？”
guchengyizhirenwei，shiwoyonglebuguangcaideshouduan，cairangtaxinaidenvrenlikaileta。
“yinweiwofaxian，womengenbenbuheshi。”
guchengyanzhongshanguoyisichayi，zhuanshunjishi，jiezhelengxiaozhe：
“suyu，niyouxiangwanshenmebaxi？neitiannishibushiyeyongleshenmeshouduan，cairangtawuhuiwo，ranhoushangxinlikaide？”
“你怎么不去死？”
xiangsidechangjing，youyicishangyan。
tabaiyueguanglikaideneitian，yeshiwomendinghunyandedangwan。
taliuxiadeyifengxin，chedidianranleguchengsuoyoudenuhuo，yerangwoheguchengzhijianbenjiucuiruodehunyueyaoyaoyuzhui。
neitiandeguchenghejintianyiyang，yeshizheiyangzhuazhewodeshouwan，yongzuiedudeyuyangongjiwo，xiuruwo。
taxiangshishiqulelizhideyeshou，wanquanbugujiwodeganshou。
guchengshoushangdelidaoyuelaiyuezhong，shenzhijiangwozhenggerendouzhuaidezhanlibuwen。
wodeduziyinweijinzhanghefennukaishichoutong，huxiyebiandejicuqilai：
“gucheng......”
“fangshou......”
neiyike，woshizhendeyouxiepale。
shuangtuizhijianturanchuanlaiyizhennuanliu，yigunongyudexuexingweimimankailai。
zhanzaiyipangdelindafachulejinghu。
woditoukanzhezijibaisequnbaishangxunsuyunkaideyinhong，lianseshunjiancanbai：
“gucheng，wo......woliuxuele。”
“kuai......kuaisongwoquyiyuan......qiuqiunile......”