woshiminguoxizishenqingci，neigebamingjiwodesiguidashuai，chenglewokuabuguodekan。
yizhengyanchuandaobainianhoupianchang，zhengpaiwoliangdenvelian——kegenwoyanduishouxideyingdi，
lianjuranheguyanzhiyimoyiyang！tahoulaihongzheyanquanjiaowo“qingci”shi，wojiuzhidao，zheigoudongxi，
zhuilewoliangbeizi！toutongdexiangshiyaoliekai，erbianshicaozaderensheng，
haiyouyizhongqiguaide、wengwengzuoxiangdejiqisheng。wozhengzhazhezhengkaiyan，rumuquebushishuxide“mingchunban”houtai，
yebushiguyanzhineijianpuzhebosiditan、baizhexiyangliushengjideshufang。shiciyandebaiguang，binglengdejinshuzhijia，
haiyouyizhangzhangchuanzheqizhuangyifudemoshengmiankong。“shenlaoshi，ninxingle？kehesiwomenle，
gangcaininturanjiuyundaole，shibushizhongshule？”yigechuanzhelansemajia、guazhegongzuozhengdexiaoguniangcouguolai，
lianshangmanshiguanqie。shenlaoshi？wolengleleng，xiayishidixiangtaishourourouejiao，
quefaxianshenshangchuandeyebushiwodexifu。shiyizhongzhidirouruan、kuanshiguguaideduanxiuzhangku，liaozihualiuliude，
buxiangmianyebuxiangchou。“zheishi……hechu？”wodeshengyinyouxieshaya，daizheyisilianzijidouweichajuedezhandou。
zhouweiderensihudoulengleyixia，suijineixiaoguniangxiaodao：“shenlaoshininkaiwanxiaoni？
zheishi《fenghuoliyuan》depianchanga，ninwangle？womenzhengzaipaininhelulaoshideduishouxini。”《fenghuoliyuan》？
lulaoshi？moshengdemingzi，moshengdedifang。wohuangusizhou，neixiejudade、huifaguangdebanzi，
neixieduizhewode、heidongdongde“qiangkou”ketamenkanqilaiyoubuxiangqiang，
haiyouyuanchubeijingbanshanghuazhede、bizhenquexujiademinguojiejing……zheiyiqiedourangworuzhuibingku。
wobushiyinggaizaigujiagongguanma？zuoye，guyanzhihaizuozaitaixia，kanwochangwanleyizhengchu《bawangbieji》。
houtaixiezhuangshi，tadiguolaiyibeiwenredecancha，zhijianbujingyicaguowodeshoubei，
daizhetaguanyoude、lvexiancucaodewendu。“qingci，”tashengyindichen，daizhejifenbuyichajuedepibei，
“zuijinbutaiping，biedaochupao，daizaigongguanli，anquan。”woneishihaichenguaitaxiaotidazuo，
shuomingchunbandechangzibunengwu。tameizaiquan，zhishishenshendikanlewoyiyan，neiyanshenfuza，youdanyou，youbushe，
haiyouyizhong……wodangshimeidudongdejuejue。ranhou，houbanyejiuxiangqileqiangsheng。huoguangyinghonglebanbiantian，
zidanhuxiaozhechuantouchuanghu，dasuiletabaizaizhuoshangde、woqinshouhuadeneifumozhu。tabawosisianzaiyijuli，
yongshentidangzhujumen，zhiliujiwoyiju“biepa，dengwo”。waimianshizheneryulongdeqiangxiang，
haiyoutayayidemenhengsheng。wowuzhuzui，buganku，hunshendoudexiangshaikang。zhidaowaimianmeiledongjing，
wocaigantuikaijumen……xuese，manyandexuese。tadaozaixueboli，xiongkouyouhaojigekulong，
shoulihaijinjinzuanzheyibaqiang。neishuangzongshidaizhexiaoyikanwodeyanjing，yongyuandibishangle。
“guyanzhi……”woshishenghuandao，yanleixiongyongerchu。“shenlaoshi？ninzenmele？shibushinalibushufu？
”pangbiandexiaoguniangbeiwodefanyingheleyitiao，lianmangdiguozhijin。zhouweiderenyeweileguolai，
qizuibashediwenzhe。“meishiba？yaobuyaoquyiyuan？”“shibushiyalitaidale？zheijitianganxiqueshilei。
”“luyingdihaizaineibiandengzheni……”luyingdi？zheigemingzixiangyigenzhen，mengdizhajinwodexinli。
woshunzhetamendemuguangkanqu，zhijianbuyuanchudeyinyingli，zhanzheyigenanren。
tachuanzheyishenbitingdeheisezhongshanzhuang，shenxingqizhangtingba，
yirujiyizhongneigechuanzhejunzhuang、yaoganyongyuanbizhideshenying。taweiweicezhetou，zhengzaitingpangbianyigerenshuohua，
celiandelunkuofenming，bilianggaoting，xiahexianqingxililuo。shita？wodehuxishunjiantingzhile，
xinzangxiangshibeiyizhiwuxingdeshouhenhenzuanzhu，tengdewojihuchuanbuguoqi。bukeneng……guyanzhiyijingsile。
sizaineigehunluandeyewan，sizaiwodemianqian，sizaiweilebaohuwodeneiyike。
keyanqianzheigeren……fangfoganyingdaowodemuguang，tazhuanguotoulai。simuxiangduidechanei，shijianfangfojingzhile。
neishuangyanjing。shensui，ruili，daizheyizhongjiujingshangweidechenwenheshuli，keneishuangyanjingdexingzhuang，
neiyandishenchuouershanguodeyisibuyichajuedewenhe，hewojiyilideguyanzhi，fenhaobucha。shita。
zhendeshita。woliangqiangzhehoutuiyibu，chadianzaicishuaidao，duokuipangbiandexiaoguniangfuzhulewo。
“gu……guyanzhi？”wojihushituokouerchu，shengyindoudebuchengyangzi。zhouweiderendoulengzhule，
suijibaofachuyizhendididexiaosheng。“shenlaoshizheishiruxitaishenleba？”“haha，
baluyingdidangchenggudashuaile？”“bieshuo，luyingdizheishenbanxiang，haizhenyouneiguzijunfaweier！
”neinanren——tamenkouzhongdeluyingdi，meitouweibukechadiculeyixia，maikaizhangtuichaowozoulai。
tadebufachenwen，meiyibudouxiangshicaizaiwodexinjianshang。suizhetadekaojin，
neishuxideyapoganhemomingdeanxinganjiaozhizaiyiqi，chongjizhewodeshenjing。“nimeishiba？”takaikou，
shengyindichenyueer，quebushiguyanzhineidaizhedianbeifangkouyinde、lveweishayadesangyin。zheixiweidechabie，
xiangyipenlengshui，jiaodewoshaoweiqingxingleyixie。shia，tabushiguyanzhi。guyanzhiyijingsile。
silekuaiyibainianle。wozheishi……zainali？“wo……”wozhanglezhangzui，quebuzhidaogaishuoshenme。
naozililuanzaozaode，qianshidejiyiheyanqiandejingxiangjiaozhizaiyiqi，rangwofenbuqingxianshihexuhuan。
“kenengshiyoudianzhongshu，”luyingdikanxiangpangbiandefudaoyan，yuqipingdanquedaizheburongzhiyideliliang，
“xianxiuxiyixiaba，zheichangxishaohouzaipai。”“haodehaode，lulaoshishuodeshi。”fudaoyanlianmangdiantou，
youzhuantouduiwodao，“shenlaoshi，ninqupangbiandexiuxishixiehuier，worangzhulijininnongdianjieshudeyao。
”beirenbanfubanchanzhezoudaosuoweide“xiuxishi”，wocaishaoweilengjingleyidian。
zheishiyigelinshidajiandexiaofangjian，limianyoushafa、zhuozi，
haiyouyigenengchuliangfengdeqiguaixiangzihoulaicaizhidaojiaokongdiao。wozuozaishafashang，
kanzhechuangwaineixiechuanzhetxuniuzikuderen，kanzheyuanchuyidongdetiejiazihejudadebaisebanzi，
zhongyubudebujieshouyigehuangdandeshishi——wo，shenqingci，yigehuozaiminguoershiliuniandexizi，
haoxiang……laidaolelingyigeshijie。tamenshuoxianzaishi2025nian，juliguyanzhisideneiyinian，
yijingguoqulejiushibanian。erwo，chuanyuedaoleyigehewotongmingtongxingdenianqingyanyuanshenshang。zheigeyanyuan，
zhengzaipaisheyibuguanyuminguoxizihejunfadedianshiju，ertadeduishouxiyanyuan，shirujinzuizhishoukeredeyingdi，
lujingyan。lujingyan。wozaixinlimonianzhezheigemingzi，yanqianquezongshifuxianchuguyanzhidelian。taixiangle。
bujinjinshilian，lianshenxing，lianouerzhoumeideyangzi，shenzhishizhanzaineilishi，
wuxingzhizhongsanfachudeneizhongzhangkongyiqiedeqichang，douxiangjile。guyanzhi……shishouwozhongbing，
piqisuanbushanghaodedashuai，zaiwaimianshishuoyibuerderenwu。ketadaiwo，quezongshigewaiyounaixin。
wohaijidediyicijianta，shizaimingchunbandetanghuishang。tachuanzhejunzhuang，zuozaizhuweishang，
mianwubiaoqingdikanzhetaishangdexi，yanshenlengdexiangbing。woneishihougangzouhong，nianshaoqisheng，changdaoxingtoushang，
yigegaonandudefanshen，quebuxiaoxincaikongle，yankanjiuyaoshuaixiataiqu。jiuzaineishi，
yizhiqiangyoulideshoubeiwenwendijiezhulewo。shita。tadeshouzhangkuandaerwennuan，daizhexiaoyanhepigedeweidao，
queqiyidirangwoandingxialai。tabawofuwen，dishengshuoleju“xiaoxin”，ranhoubianzhuanshenhuilezijidezuowei，
fangfoshenmedoumeifashengguo。kewoquejizhuleta。houlai，tachenglemingchunbandechangke。meicilai，doudianwodexi。
《guifeizuijiu》《youyuanjingmeng》《bawangbieji》……tashenmedoukan，zongshiananjingjingdizuozaineili，
yanshenluozaiwoshenshang，zhuanzhuderangwoxinhuang。houtaiderendoushuo，shenlaobanhaofuqi，delegudashuaideqinglai。
kezhiyouwozhidao，neifenqingyanli，zangzhedeshishenme。tahuizaiwochangwanxihou，
songlaiwenredetanggeng；huizaiyourenzhaowomafanshi，budongshengseditiwobaiping；huizaiwoshengbingshi，fangxiajunwu，
qinzishouzaimenwai；huizaiwoduizheyueliangfadaishi，peiwoyiqichenmo，ranhoushuoyiju“qingci，youwozai，
biepa”。womenzhijian，meiyoushuoguoshenmelugudeqinghua。neigeniandai，lianggenanrenzhijiandeqingsu，
zhinengzangzaizuishenchu，xiangmaizaitulidezhongzi，jianbudeguang。kewomendoudong。takanwodeyanshen，
tabujingyidechupeng，tazaiwoyudaoweixianshifenbugushendeyangzi……douzaisushuozhetongyijianshi。woyeyiyang。
wohuizaitadaleshengzhanghuilaishi，jitachangzuixiqingdediaozi；huizaitafanzaoshi，anjingdipeizaitashenbian，
jitaqiyihutaaihedelongjing；huizaitachuanshangjunzhuangzhunbeichufashi，toutouzaitadekoudailisaiyizhangpinganfu。
woyiwei，zhiyaoaoguoleneixiedongdang，womenzongnengzhaodaoyichuanwendedifang，xiangshoudaolao。kewocuole。
tashuditaiduo，neixierendongbuleta，bianbazhuyidadaolewodetoushang。tamenyiweizhuazhulewodebabing，
jiunengyaoxieta。neitianwanshang，tabawozangzaiyijuli，zijidangzaiwaimian。wotingjianleqiangsheng，
tingjianletadetonghu，queshenmeyezuobule。dengwochongchuqudeshihou，tayijingmeiqile。
wobaozhetabinglengdeshenti，yibianbiandijiaotademingzi，ketazaiyebuhuihuiyingwole。houlai，mingchunbansanle，
woyexinsile。shouzhetadepaiwei，zaineizuokongdangdangdegongguanli，huochengleyigemeiyoulinghundequqiao。
zhidaomoutianqingchen，zaiyemeixingguolai。woyiwei，neijiushiwodejieju。quemeixiangdao，huizaizheili，
kandaoyizhanghetayimoyiyangdelian。“koukoukou。”qiaomenshengdaduanlewodesixu。“qingjin。”menbeituikai，
lujingyanzoulejinlai。tayijinghuanxialeneishenzhongshanzhuang，chuanzhejiandandebaisetxuheheisezhangku，
shaolejifenxilideliqi，duolejifenpinghe，keneizhanglian，yijiurangwoxintiaoshixu。“ganjuehaodianlema？
”tashoulinazheyipingshui，dijiwo。wojieguoshui，zhijianbuxiaoxinpengdaoletade，
neishuxidewendurangwomengdisuohuileshou，lianjiayegenzhefatang。“haoduole，xiexielulaoshi。”wodizhetou，
bugankanta。tazaiwoduimiandeshafashangzuoxia，chenmolepianke，caikaikoudao：“gangcai……nijiaowoshenme？