第1章 第一章

“niziduanlexianmai,yangshouzhiyuyizai,duozuodasuanba。”

laoshenxiandehuayouzaierbianhuixiang。

wochengzhebaihe,quwangjianxianfu。

yiwangdoushiyujianfeixingde,xianzaizhinengqushilingshou。

woyourenbuzhukanlekanshoubeishangdeshangkou,shangbazongheng,rangrenbuganxiangxinzheishiyiweixianzideshoubei。

zheixieshangkoushiwozijihuade。

yueqian,wodefujunguanranbeichoudixiadu,hunmibuxing,wodebentishiqiyelian,qiahaonengjiebaidu,yipianxuanlianye,shubainianxiuwei,woyingshengshengziduanwuye,zheicaijiuhuita。

keshiguanranzicongxinglaihou,yilianjiridouzaipeizhexuyinhuan。

他爱的不是我。

yongyixiuzhezhushanghen,yanleishashijianxiongyongerchu。

woyanleyangansedesangziyan。

woshineigejiaoaodexianzia,zhanbaiyaochuwanmo,hejushengsi。

kejinshijinri,wozhishiyigegouyancanchuan,keqiufujunaiyidebanxian。

shoubeiyizhenzhendechoutong,woquansuozaibaihebeishang,renbuzhutonghengleyisheng。

erbianxiangqibaihedechuanyin,“xianzi,nizenmele?”

woyanjiaosuanse,dishengchouqi,meiyouhuida。

baihequetaotaobujuedishuodao,“bienanguo,chedaoshanqianbiyoulu,womenshouyuanzheimezhang,dabuleshuiyijue,zhengkaiyanjiushixinsheng。”

woxilexibizi,menmendengleyisheng。

kewozhishengyiniandeshouminglea。

wokanzhebuyuanchudejianxianfu,zaixinzhongmonian。

一年时日。

wozaiyebuyaolikaiguanran。

baihetingzailejianxianfuqian,wocongdouliquchulingbi。

zhalezhagansedeyan,huanshanglepingriliyundanfengqingdexiaorong,zhishiyanjiaohaiyouxiesuanse。

zaimenqianchichupianke,zhongshidadingzhuyi,bawomingbujiuyideshimanxialai。

我不想让他愧疚。

tuikaimen,quejianguanranzhengzaiwowuneidenghou。

wodelianshangfuxianchuyimojingxi,“anran,nihuilaila。”

tapingshihenshaotazuwodewunei。

“yinhuanqixibuwen,xuyaonidexueningshen,nisuiwoquyitang。”

wogangyangqidexiaorongshunjianningzhizailianshang。

wodefujun,qianlaizhaowo,jingranshiweilexuyinhuan。

xuyinhuan,haizujiaoshezhiling。

taxiulianyudaonanguan,bianhuiyangqiuguanran,quwodexue。

xiangdaozheili,wodexinliyichunongzhongdesuanchu。

zuichunfazhan,haobantiancaizhaohuizijideshengyin,jiansedekaikou,“woshentiyouxiebushi,jintiannengbunengbufangxuelianyao……”

“biemoceng!zhishiqunidexue,youbushiyaonideming。”

tabochunqingxian,sangyincankurudao,yixiajiuguanchuanlewozhenggexiongkou。

血就是我的命啊……

rujinwozhishiyigebanxian。

banxiandexue,yourugankudehubo,wufazaisheng,fangwanjiumeiyoule。

guanranjianwoyiyanbufa,meitouweicu,zoudaowomianqian,mengdizuanqiwoxishoudeshouwan,jiangwowangwaila。

shoubeibenjiushanghenleilei,beitayizhuai,tongdewolenghanwaimao。

wobeizhijiedaijinlexuyinhuandeqindian,haiweizhanwenjiaogen,bianbeitaladeyigelieju,zhongzhongdiedaozaidi。

tashouzhonghuanhuachuyibabishou,fanzheyouyoudelengguang。

“nilai,haishiwolai?”

woxinlimanshikuse,qingfushangfubu,gengyanzhekaikou,“kebukeyidenghaizichusheng?woxueqicanque,taieryehuishouyingxiangde。”

“nifangxin,wohuibaozhutaier。”tadeyuqisiyouhuanhe,yuqiqueyijiuburongzhihui,“yinhuanzheibianbunengdeng。”