第1章

gaokaoneinian,mamamanzhewoshengxiadidi,jialiyiyebaofu。

bamamawoshizaixing,haitamenguoleshijiniankurizi,lianrendaibaojiangwodiuchumen。

xianglaiyubamabuduifudegugu,jingtichushouliuwo。

babayilianbunaifan:“suini,hengshubuquegepeiqianhuo!”

wogentazoule,kantagengufuchaodebukekaijiao,weizheigejiabucixinlao,quecanzaochehuoshenwang。

ergufuquanranbugu,genchezhubaichehou,nazheqianxixiaoyankai,linzouhaibuwangtukoushui,shengchengchuhuiqi。

那晚,我噩梦连连。

hudijingxingshi,yaoshenyibianchenglewoyeye。

1.

mengqiayibadatuihou,wocaijieshoulezheigeshishi。

1992nian,nainaibingzhong,rengxia15suidebabahe14suidegugubiansashourenhuan。

zheinian,babazhengshangchusan,guguyejinsuiqihou。

yeyehangugudaogenqian,paibanjitabantuixue。

tazhongyupanniyihui,qideyeyegaoxueyafazuo,beiwozuanlekong。

wunei,laojiudedengpaoshanshuobuding,gaodewodexinqishangbaxia。

yanqianmianhuangjishou,toufapengluandeminibanguguzhengjuezhezui,jueqiangdidingzhewo。

tachuanzhemanshipodongdekuzi,jiaocaishuangpocaoxie,zaikanshangyi,budingdoutiedebuchengyangle。

dangshineiniandai,nayoushenmepodongku,nanguaimeihuitiqitongnianwangshi,tazongbikoubutan,yuanlaishiparenxiaohua。

womannaozidoushitalinsiqianchichibukenbiyan,yihantanqideyangzi。

shunjianwubixinteng,yanshenyebiandeciaiqilai:“niyaobuxiangtuixueyexing。”

tahuyidipiaowoyiyan:“zhende?”

shengpawoxiayijutichushenmeyaoqiu,putongyishengguidaozaidi,pinmingketouqiuworangtaduxiaqu。

kanzhetaneihuipupudexiaolian,wobitouyisuan。

keliandegugu,jiuyinzheidianxiaoshiduiwoyeganendaide,xinganqingyuanzuotayanglaodegongjuren。

dishangdesisixuejitixingwo,zaibufutaqilai,toukeyaokepole。

woshenchushou,gangyaofuta,yourenturanchongjinmendahan:“bixutuixue!yaobuwoxuefeizaban!”

taitoukanqu,yuanlaishiwoqinaidebaba。

cishitazhengshangchusan,buyingmangzhezhongkaoma?

zenmexuebuhaohaoshang,haixurongxinzuosui,chuanqimingpailai?

zhikexi,zaizenmezhuangban,douyangaibulezheiguangxianlianglidewaibiaoxia,chouloudelinghun!

wonaohaizhongdexieefengkuangjiaoxiao:zhengxiangzhaonini,nidaozijizhaoshangmenlaile。

2.

yeyexianglaixinfeng“duoziduofu”,najiameigenanwachuanzongjiedai,yanxuxianghuo,keyaozaocunlirenxiaohuade。

jiuzheiyang,gugudaizhedajiadeqipan,zainainaijianjiandeduzizhongmanmanzhangda。

danchulaihou,renquedoushaleyan:shibuzhiqiandenvwazi!

xijuxingdinanwabiannvwa,rangyeyezaicunlitoudiujinlianmian。

taduiguguhenzhirugu,liandailaolaoyebeishoulengluo。

queduibabatengaiyoujia,baxiaoxiaoderenerchuishangtian,jiuchameiguaqilai,yucaishenyepingqipingzuogongbai。

haowuyiwen,tadejiaoyushichenggongde。

errumuranxia,babazhangchengletamanyideyangzi——kuangwangzida,ziyiweishi,duiqinmadahoudajiao,duiqinmeigengshiquandajiaoti。

zuoweijializunguidenanding,mamahemeimeijiuxianglianggegongtashihuan,renlaorenyuandemianfeibaomu。

ouerbutongkuaile,laodedongbulejiunaxiaodelaichuqi。

meimeiyaodushu?zenmekeyi!tashenglaijiugaidagongzhuanqiangongtadudaxue,dengdaonianji,zaibazijimaigehaojiaqianjitamaifangquxifu!

wogaoershi,tabianjinggaowo:“laozidezhongzigeerhaibulejie?nineinaozijiugenniguyigeyang,dushangquyebaidu!gancuishoushituixuezhuanqian,meizhungandeshanggongnididudaxue!”

woyiwei,neizhishikezaitanaohailidefengjiansixiang,quandangwanxiaohuating,meixiangquechenglezhen。

gaokaowanhuijia,jiaohaimeitajinmen,jiuxitidabaofuwu,waizengwodizheigedajingxi。

bababorandanu:“nijiushigezaixingzhuanshi!haiwomenguoleshijiniankurizihaiganhuilai!gunyuandian!zaigankaojinxiaoxinwoningduannidebozi!”

wokanxiangmama,taquelehedidoudidiwan,liangeyanshendoubushedeshishe。

fandaoshixianglaiyubamabuduifudegugu,shangqiantiwoshuohua:“hudushangqiebushizi,nimenzenmerenxin!nimenbuyang,woyang!”

“suini,hengshubuquegepeiqianhuo!meiyoujingangzuanhaixianglanciqihuo?qiongguijiazaixing,zhihuigengdaomeilou。”

tahahadaxiao,zhuantouyongzhemamajinmen,yijiasankouqilerongrong。

gugudingzheyali,zaiwushucizhengchaohou,zhongyujiangwoliuxia。

weilezheigejia,tabuxiqizaotanhei,baitianlianjiansanfengong,xialebanyoujinchangjianxiantou,zhiweiduozhuanjifenqian。

jibianruci,tayemeibanfenbaoyuan,shenzhizaiwokuijiuzizeshi,haianweiwo:“kan,jintianzhengleyibaini!yiyizhenshigugudexiaofuxing!”

kemashengzhuantiaoxichuduan,eyunpianzhaokumingren。

yankanshenghuojiuyaohaoqilai,chehuoquedaizouleta。

tadeyisheng,fangfojiushikunandezhenshixiezhao。

diebutengniangbuai,zaijiachongqiliangsuangechuqitong,jiarenhouyoucaolaowusuozhong。

danwojiranchenglewoyeye,yiqiejiuyougaibiandexiwang,juebunengzairangtazoushanglaolu!

zhiyuwoba,haoriziyijingdaojintoule!

3.

xianzaideta,haishigexiaozi,meifazhandaodingzuidarendedibu。

gengbieti,rujinwocaishitadie!

woyaleyazuijiao,yizhizhuneixindekuangxi,baichuyifuyansudeyangzi:“nixiaozi,shuoshenmehuhuani!youshouyoujiaobuhuizhengshiba?jingjilaozixiarangrang!”

babayanshenzhongmanshibujie,mianshangrengbufuqi:“ba,wozheishuangshoukeshiyaokaodaxuede,nanengzuozheizhongshi?jiangjieerbuyiyang,shenglaijiugaigansihourendehuo,rangtatuixuezhengqiangongwodushutianjingdiyi!”

taqingmiedisaoleguguyiyan,zhuanerchixiao。

sandaidanchuannandingjitadezixin,rangtameiliyouxiangxinzheigehuangmiudeshuofa。

henhao,woerhuabushuo,chaoqishenpangdesaozhouwangtabeishangchou:“woshinibahaishinishiwobaa?laozizuoshihaixuyaonilaijiao?”

bababiedemanliantonghong:“ba,nihutula?yaowozhengqianneishuzanian?laojiangjiadeguangrongshiminghaidekaowowanchengni!”

taguyihoudedasheng,henbudesuoyourenlaiweiguan,titapingli。

cunlitoubaguadeponiangmen,henkuaiganlaicourenao。

“laifushuodedui,jiangshuninjinergefanhutula?dushukaodaxue,guangzongyaozudedashilei。”

“xiaoyatoupianzi,nengrenjigezijiuhaola,yihoujiarenzhidaobangchenjialijiucheng。”

buchuyiliao,tamendouzhandaobabaneibian,fenfenquandaowo。

babadezuijiaoqiaodelaogaole。

“kebushima,fumuzhainanhaiyo,haihaoshenzizaokaiqiao,chuoxuezhuanqian,huiniangjiabeilaotaitainiantaozhexiaoshunni。”

woshunzheshengyinwangleguoqu。

o,yuanlaishicunlitouyoumingde“dazibushi”——wangdajiaowangshen。

taqianzhegugudeshou,buyanqifanxuanyaozijidewangshi。

guguliandouzhoukuaichengkuguale,shoujinjinzhuazhekutuibufang。

haoxiao!shenmeshihoubeiguanshangdaodedegaomao,chenglezhidexuanyangdemeishile?

zijimeidianjianshi,quezhanzhanzixi,larengongchenlun,xiangdoubiexiang!

wozhongzhongtuikaita,bagugudaidaoshenhou,xiaodao:“wangqiucao,niniubinidiyi,nizaihailikaifeijixingleba。”

xiayimiao,tajingjiaoxiuwulian:“jiligualashuoshaanbudong,yaokuajiuzhijiedian。”

zhouweirendouhahadaxiaoqilai,yumeiwuzhi,kexiaoyoukelian。

zaidajiadechaoxiaoshengzhong,tazhongyuyishidaobuduijing,henhenwanwoyiyanhouluohuangertao。

nazhirengangzou,babayoulaizuoyao:“ba,nizenmenengqifurenwangshenni!tayeshikanjiangjieermeiniangguanjiao,caihaoxinjiaotazuoren。”

4.

ehuo,xiangbawojiazaidaodedezhigaodianshangshenpanshiba?

ba,woyebuxiangjiachouwaiyang,kenifeiyaobiwo,neijiumeibanfale。

wogouqichunjiao,yi**tanzuozaidi,dangchangzhanshi“wumiaoluolei”dedumenjueji。

biankubianzhizheta:“dajiahuodoulaiquananlaotouzi,kenimenbuzhidaoshiqingna。laifuxuehuaile,rangrangxuefeibugou,qishidouchuanshenshangle。”

meidanggugubutinghua,yeyejiugezhongbiehuai。

buxiangfangqizhongkao,yeyekujidahuokan;bukencongzhongzhuanchuoxuejiaren,yeyezhijienaodaojuweihuiqu;tanqindaibianyihuo,yeyezhisangmahuai,banyueshuluobuxiabaici。

zheixie,douchenglebamaxianbaidetanzi。

zhibuguo,tiandaohaolunhui,cangtianraoguoshei。

babayongyuanbuhuixiangdao,youyitian,zheiyitaohuiyongdaozijishenshang。

wohegugudeyifu,zaibabayishenmingpaidechentuoxia,yuefaxiandepojiu。

zaikanneidiaoqideqiangbi,poniangmenlimaweidaotashenpangshuojiao。

“laifu,nibaburongyi,haizhiwangnini,yaochuandengjieergongzuohoujinimai。”

“nanhaizichuanzheixielisuoyingdang,dannidexiangxiangjiangshua,zenmedushubaliangxindoudumeileni?”

shuolaishuoqu,daodishebudeshanghaitacuiruodeneixin。

danyezugourangtacongshunfengshunshuideshenghuochulai,ganshouxiafengyanfengyule。

tapinmingwujinerduo,xiangtaoli。

zuihou,zhengtuobucheng,fachupaoxiao:“wojiurongyima!pingshenmedajiasuisuibianbianchuanmingpai,chidacan,erwoqueyaoyonghuangyanlaitianbu!”

taqi,meiyoushengzaifuguijia,meiyoubieshudacanhemingpai,zhinengyongchuiniulaizhaohuizijideyouyuegan。

keyeyejibianweiquziji,daiguguguokurizi,yeyaobazuihaodejita。

xiangdaozheiwojiulaiqi,dajiaoyitai,haobuliuqingchuaixiangtaduzi。

“nigebuxiaozi!laozizaoshenmenieshenglenizheigezaoxinwanyi!”

kanwoqidexiongkoujulieqifu,yourenkaishigongqingqilai:“laifu,nigexiaowawa,zenmenengaimuxurongni?”

“zancunkemeizheitiaojian,nibaleisileihuo,shenmedouyini,nikebunengzheiyangyo!”

“kanlainibashuodemeicuo,youshouyoujiao,jiugairangnichikuduanlian。”

babahaizaibianbo,kequeyuemiaoyuehei。

yaozhidao,cunlideponiangyiqinjianchijiazhucheng,duidacanmingpaigengshichizhiyibi。

sandaidanchuannandingdeshenfen,zaizheishizhihuichengweichenzhongdeshitou,yadetachuanbuguoqilai。

erwo,yanshendoulandejita,lazhegugutouyebuhuizoule。

tazaineibianshuishenhuore,wozaigonganjuledezizai。