第4章活着好累
buzhinalilaideliqi，tangyunanzhenggerendoucongnanrendeshoulizhengzhalechulai，jijindiedaodechaofujinnanpuqu！
“fuxiansheng，jiujiuwo！qiunile，jiuwoyici！”naoziliyipiankongbaidetajinjinzhuazhufujinnandeshoubei，shubuzhizaijiandaotadeneiyikeyanleizaojiushuranluoxia。
“fuzong......”zhoulaobanmingxianyijinghou，lianshangduixiao，“zheiyaoshifuzongrenshideren，wojiu――”
“不认识。”
lengmodesangezi，daduanlezhoulaobanyuanbenxiangmaigerenqingderechen，yejisuiletangyunanzuihoudeyisixiwang！
bujinruci，fujinnanjuejuedebakaijinzhuazaigeboshangdewugenshouzhi，binglengdeyudiaozhichuorenxin，“gun。”
yici，liangci......
tangyunanyijingbujidezheishidijici，tabujinbujiu，faneryaozhitayusidile！
“wogenzheigenvrenmeiyourenheguanxi。zhoulaoban，nisuiyi。”
fujinnandehuayuyouruyibafenglidedao，henhendecharutadexin，fachujianruideshengyin。
suoyi，zheiyici，fujinnanyiranyaobatatuixiangdiyuma？
唐云安彻底绝望。
zhoulaobanzirangaoxingdebuxing，tuozhehaosihunshenshiquleliqiyibandetangyunanjiuyaochaodiantilizouqu。
jiantamianrusihui，zhigougoudidingzheziji，fujinnandewoquandeshoubujuejinlejin，jimiaohou，jiangyingdizhuanguoleshen。
zheishishasilenanadexiongshou，buguantaruhe，doushizuiyouyingdede......tameibiyaoduoxiangshenme。
kuaidaodiantideshihou，tangyunanmengdiyibatuikailenanren，zijiyigerenpaojinqu，guanshanglediantidemen。
“siyatou，jiwodengzhe！”mamalieliedeshengyinchuanruerzhong，tangyunanyegubudeqita，suibianjiuanleyiceng。
diantidakaizhihou，tajixupinmingdewangqianben！
“yourenma？jiuming！”tajihupaixianglezheicengloudemeiyishanmen，dishengqiuzhu。
“站住！”
jigenanrenzaihoumianqiongzhuibushe，tangyunanxintiaokuaidaojijiangzhixi！
tashichuhunshenjieshudepailepaixiayigefangjiandemen，queyouyumenmeiyouguanjin，tatudipudaozaidi。
zhengzhazhezhanqishen，tangyunanwulideguanshanglemen，xiongkouqueyijiujijudeqifu，tabamenshanglesuo。
“kaimen！”qiaomenshengyufabianzhong，tangyunangandaoshifenbuan。
shixianhuangluandesaozhefangjianlidemeiyigejiaoluo，sihuxiangyaozhaoyigedifangduoqilai，jiuzaizheishi，tayingshangleyidaomuguang——
neishiyishuangnanrendeyanjing！shensuierjiongjiongyoushen。
tangyunanshenzhiyiweizijikancuole，rouleroushuangyan，zaiyikan——
zheishigegangchuyudenanren！tajiuzhanzaiyushimenkou。
“给老子开门！”
menkouzaicichuanlainanrendenuhou，tangyunanshentimengdiyizhen，tashenmedougubudele！
“jiuming，qiunile，jiujiuwo......”tahunhunchenchendezouxiangnanren，yuwuluncideshuozhe，shentiquezhibuzhu，diedaozaitadejiaoxia！
nanrenzhouzhemeitou，chiredemuguangzaitashenshangsaoshiliangjiu，caiyixianglemenkou。
“嘭——”
门被猛地砸开！
zhoulaobanhejigenanrentongshichuanglejinlai，jiandaozhiweileyujindenanrenhefuzaitashenpangdetangyunan，liansedabian！
“li、lizong......”zhoulaobantuntuntutudehandao。
lizong？tangyunanyongjinshengdeqingxingyishihuixiangleyixia，dongfangjiudiandezongcai，lijinghui！？
“daraole，lizong......”zhoulaobanluchubaoqiandeshense，dangmuguangwangxiangtangyunanshi，youluchuxiongedebiaoqing，“jiushizheigenvren，guyidashangwo，zhuilejicenglou，juranchuangjinlelizongdefangjian！”
“bushi，wobushiguyide。”tangyunanhuanglehuangtou，xiangyaozijiqingxingyixie，“shita，eyi——”
“bizui！”zhoulaobanxianqidehoudao，“bazhengrendaiguolai。”
证人！？
jiuzaitangyunanchayizhishi，yeweizoulejinlai。
dui，chulezhoulaobanderen，dangshizhiyouyeweizaichangle！tangyunanjuedezijisihukandaolexiwang。
“wokeyizhengming，tajiushiyouyizhongshangzhoulaobande。wojinbaoxiangsongjiudeshihou，qinyankanjiantazhudongtouhuaisongbao，shenzhixiangzhoulaobansuoyaoyidabiqian，zaimeiyoutanlongdeqingkuangxia，fanyaorenyikou，chushouzhongshangzhoulaoban。”yeweihuanzheshuangbei，fangfozijishuodequanshishishi。
“bushizheiyangde！womeiyou！wodoumeiyou！”tangyunanyikoufouren。
hunluandechangmian，zhiyoulijinghuimizheyanmouchenjingdewangzheyiqie，goulegouchun，bumingdexiaoyiliuluchulai。
tawanglewangzhoulaobaneshangyijingganhedexiaoxuekuai，zheimeduandeshijianneinengpingzishendiaojiezhixuedeshangkou，xiangbibingbuyanzhong。
ershenpangdenvrenmanshennongzhongdejiuqi，xianranshizuile。
“jiushini？”lijinghuidiyanwangzhenvren，“yigeqingjiegong，xianglaobansuoqianbucheng，chushoushangren？”
zheiyangdecuoci，weimianyetaihuangtang。
“bushi......”tangyunanzhengzhazhezhanqishen，yaoyaohuanghuangdejieshishuo。
“xingle。jiranshiqingjiegong，jiugaizuohaozijidebenfengongzuo，jiudianlideqingjiegongbupei，ke，zheiyidiannidoubumingbai？”
qingweidexunchiguohou，lijinghuibashixianyixianglezhongren，“wobuxihuanrenao，gaisandesanle。zhoulaobandeshang，womenjiudianhuipeichangsunshifei，zheigeqingjiegong，jiudianyehuijichuxiangyingdechufa。”
biaomianshanghengongzhengdeyitaoshuoci，yeweiquekandechulai，lizongzaihuzheneigenvren，shenseweibian，fuzadeqingxuzaiyandiyongdong，queyezhinenggenzhezhoulaobandengrenlikailefangjian。
“xiaodongxi，zenmebaodawo？”
budengtangyunanhuanguoshen，lijinghuijiuyongyiweibumingdekouqiwendao。
tangyunanxiayishidewanghoutui，nanrenquebubujinbi。zaitui，jiushiqiangbile！
lijinghuishenshouxiangyaobazheigenvrenhuanzhu，quebeitazuanlekongzi，liuchulefangjian。
他勾唇，轻笑。
tangyunanlesuodalaobanbucheng，haifanyaoyikou。zuizhongnaodaozongcaidefangjianli，zuizhongbeiganchulai。
zheiyangdeliuyanfeiyuhenkuaizaijiudianliliuchuankailai，tangyunandemingshenggengshiyiluoqianzhang。
baokuomingbaishiqingyuanweideyewei，yezaiwaizheiyangshuozhe。
“weishenme？”tangyunanzhaoshangta，zhouzhemeitouzhiwen，“weishenmebushuoshihua，fanerdiandaoshifei？”
yeweibuxiedexiaolexiao，“nijiushizheiyangyigebuzhixiuchidenvren，woshuodeyoucuoma？”
xin，beiyitongliangshuiposhi，bingliangrugu。