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yiwozheihairendezhangxiang，quanxiaoshangxiashizaizhaobuchuyigexihuanwodelaoshi。
weiyihuizaiketangshangduiwotouyixinshangdeyuwenlaoshiyezaipoliusuanshijianhouturanlizhi。
chuyuanhouwowenbiansuoyourendoudebudaotadexinquchu。
tongyangshipoliusuanshijianshouhairenhaiyoubanzhuren，taweicishiqulepingyouxiujiaoshizhichengdezigehaibeikouchunianzhongjiang。
congneiyihou，banzhurenhaobuyanshiduiwodeyane。
renyoubanshangxiaotuantiduiwoshishibaoli，duizheiyiqieshiruowudu。
banzhurennachuzaozaoweiwozhunbeihaodejiechi：“tingshuowomenbanyoutongxuefanqiangchuqu。”
songmuyanzuozaibanzhurenshenbianyilianjiaozongkanzhewo。
takaozheyifupinangjiunengqingyidedaosuoyourendepianai。
wozhidaozijibuguanzenmejieshidoumianbulezheiyidunda，suoxingzhijieshenshoudichudoudoutie：“songmuxueyaodedoudoutie。”
banzhurenningjinmeitoudaotuiyibu，wubishanfeng：
“nayuanyidian！zangsile。songmuxuetongxuetianshenglizhi，haoduanduandezenmehuizhangdoudou？”
“tingshuoxianzaitadeyifudoushinixide，shibushinishenshangdezangbingchuanranjitale？！”
banzhurenxintengdebuzhisongmuxuedelian，haiyoutawanhuiyouxiujiaoshizhichengdejihui。
xuexiaocengcengshaixuantiaozhongsongmuxuedexingxiang，youzhuanmenpailaoshikaixiaokezhidaota，jiuweileyizhouhoudeshengjizhuchirendasai。
zhiyaotanengshangshengjidianshitaiweixuexiaozhengguang，banzhurenjiuyoujihuishengzhijiaxin。
songmuyangengzhenxizheicijihui，tayixinxiangkaomeimaojinjiyulequan，erneiqunpingweiliqiahaoyouliangweizishendaoyan。
guoran，banzhurenxiayijujiutanchuyikouzhangqi：
“xiazhoujiuyaoshangdianshitai，woxianshangbaonizhiqiandecaipaishipin。ruguozheiliangtianhaihaobule，xuexiaokendinghuihuanren。”
xiangdaosongmuxueyoukenengshangbuletai，youhuiyingxiangdaotadekaohe。
banzhurenrangwoshenchushou，najiechihenhenbianzaiwodeshouxin，
“wozenmedaoledameipengshangnizheimegeduliuxuesheng。wojintianbudaniyibaixiabanzidouduibuqiwodenianzhongjiang！”
jiaoshilisuoyourendoubingchizhekanhaoxidexinfachuxisuixiaosheng。
daohoulai，zhenggejiaoshizhihuidangzhejiechizaikongzhonglinliecierdefengsheng。
dadaodiliushixia，banzhurenmingxiantilibuzhi。
woshenshanglenghanyiranjinshizhengjianxiaofu，kanzheshouzhangxinliekaiderou，tiexindixiangbanzhurentiyi：
“laoshinindaleile，yaoburangsongmuxuelaiba。”
banzhurenmianlucuoe，xiangshijianleguiyiyang，danhenkuaiyoupumanlebiyi。
tabajiechidijisongmuxue。
songmuxuexiangjinyulequandemengxiangyaoyaoyuzhui，zhengchouyouqiwuchufaxie，tamaozulejinger。
dawanzuihousishixiabanzi，zhidaowodeshouxinderouwaifan，xuesinianzaijiechishang。
banshangyoudetongxuekanbuxiaqu，zhijiewuzhuleyanjing。
erbianxitongyinsuizhemeiyicibiandazengzhang：
寄生进度：
60%
70%
75%
…
songmuxuelianshangdenongdourouyankejianzhangdadingdiaoledoudoutie。
tamianrongkaishibiandeyouxiezhengningqilai。
jindudaole80%deshihou。
shengxiasishibanziyijingquanbudawanle。
wowozhefamadeshoudaoxiyikouliangqi。
banzhurenxianwodexuebujili，shifenyanededuomenerchu。
songmuxueyongxiaodushijinjieguodoudoutie，yibianqiangjiudoudou，yibianyongzhiyouwomenliangrennengtingdaodeshengyinjinggaodao：
“liangtianhoubanzhurenyaoshibawodejihuichele，wojiuzhaorennongsini。”
qishicongshizhizhong，wodoubumingbaisongmuyanyigetianzhijiaonvweishenmehuiduiwoyouneimedadeeyi。
xieyutuowojincangkuneitian，wocengxiesidiliwenguota。
songmuyanjugaolinxia，qingqingtusangezi：
“因为丑。”
丑，是我的原罪。