第一章
“erzi，nizhendexianghaolema？genzhewodekekaoduiqunanjidehua，duanqineishihuibulejiangchengde，erqieneibianxinhaocha，tiaojianyoujianku。”
“xianghaole，ninbangwodingjipiaoba。”
lujingnianqiangchengzhejichugexiaorong，bashenfenzhengdiguoqu。
lufuquehaishiyouxieyouyu。
“zhiqingneibian......”
“woyijinggentashuohaole，erqietazuijinjiaonanpengyoule，wozongdaizaipangbianyebufangbian，baba，ninnandaobuxianggenwoyiqishenghuoma？”
当然是想的！
kezijiaerziyouduonianxuzhiqing，tabisheidouqingchu。
gaozhongbiyeshijitaanpaileguowaidedaxue，lujingnianxiangdoumeixiangjiujujuele，qunianbenlaikeyishenqingchangchuntengdeshuoshi，yeyinweishebudexuzhiqingfangqile。
erzheici，lujingnianturanchuchehuo，shoudaoxiaoxihou，lufudiyishijianjiushizhaoxuzhiqing，quefaxiantaguanjile，zhidaolianggexiaoshiqiancaihuidian。
xuzhiqingshuolehuilikeganguolai，daoxianzaidoumeidaoyingzi。
tamenliangzhijian，yidingchuleshenmewenti。
“haolebaba，buyaohusiluanxiang。”
lujingnianpaipaitadeshou，“woyijingbiyele，haoburongzhaodaozheimehaodeshixigangwei，duoshaorenxianmubulaideshi，ninyinggaigaoxinga。”
“也是。”
lufudiandiantou，“wohuitougenyuanlidashengzhaohu，kaochaduixiazhouerhuicongjiangchengzhuanji，daoshihouzanmenjichangjian，haobuhao？”
tashiyanjiunengyuande，yanjiuyuanliyiduijihuodengzhegan，shoudaolujingnianxinglaiyijingshijixian，xianzaibudebuzoule。
“ninhuiquba，wokeyizhaoguziji，erqiezhiqingjiemashangyelaile，zhishisitianeryi，yihouwojiukeyiyongyuangenbabazaiyiqile。”
lufulaoleizonghengdizoule。
病房空了下来。
lujingnianjingjingtangzaichuangshang，xiangqizijitichuqufuqinyanjiuyuanyingpinshixigangshi，tawanxiaosidedaqu。
“womenneikeshihenmangde，zhengtianmanshijieluanfei，yaoshizhenluqudehua，henkenengzaiyejianbudaonizuiaidezhiqingjiejiele，nengshedema？”
许知晴......
xiangqizheigemingzi，lujingnianxinzangmodiyiteng，zheicaixiangqizijizhuyuandeyuanyin。
tashiwusuibeijiyangzaixujia，shibasuiqingdouchukai，aishangledawusuidexuzhiqing。
lujingnianxihuantasannian，kukuzhuiqiuquecanzaojujue，kejibianzuobuchengqinglv，tamenzhijianzhishaohaiyoujiedideqingfen，xuzhiqingquebatadexinnanyouzhouxuan，daiqucanjialetadebiyedianli。
huilaidelushang，lujingniandaodimeibiezhuqi，qiangleliangju，beitarengzaijiaoqudegonglushang。
dangshitianyijingheitoule，neimedadeyu，tadoudabudaoche。
kewulunjixuzhiqingdaduoshaodianhua，doumeiyoudengdaoyigehuitou。
neiliangshikongdechezhuanglaishi，xuzhiqingdeshengyinzhongyucongshoujilichuanlai。
“lujingnian，nizhicuolemei？”
xiayike，shentibeizhenggezhuangfeichuqu，guroubeisichedejutongranglujingnianlianshengyindoufabuchulai。
到处都是尖叫声。
zhidaobeitaishangjiuhuche，lujingniandousisiwozheshouji，jianruidedudushengjihuyaozhensuitadeermo，biyanqian，taweiyideniantouyiranshi——
zijidaodicuozainaerle？
dangshiyishengyaodadianhuatongzhijiashu，ke“shoushang”lianggezigangchukou，jiutingdaoxuzhiqingxianedao：“niyouxianggaoshenmemingtang？yaosijiuganjin，biezailaifanwo。”
xuzhiqinggancuililuogualedianhua，zaidaguoqu，yijingguanjile。
jiuhucheshangguiyiyangdechenmo，yihurenyuanmianmianxiangqu，mingmingshentilidexuehaixianhuodiliuzhe，lujingnianqueruzhuibingku。
jinshoushushiqian，lujingnianbotongfuqindedianhua，zhongyuxiadingjuexin，xuanzelikai。
tasuirannianjibushihenda，danyeyouzizunxin。
父亲问自己舍得吗？
lujingnianchechugezichaodexiao，yiqianhuoxubuxing，danxianzai，tazhixiangzaiyebujian。
senhandeqiufengchuangjinshinei，huanxinglezoushendelujingnian。
taxianglexujiu，zuihouzhongyuxiadingjuexin，jiangbozishangdexianglianzhaixialai。
neishitashibasuishengrishi，xuzhiqingqinshouzuode。
shitasongdediyijianliwu。
lujingnianzixikanlehenjiu，zhidaoyandifanchuzhibuzhudesuanyi，caiyaoyajiangtarengjinlelajitong。
yucitongshi，xuzhiqingdaizhenuqideshengyincongmenkouchuanlai。
“你在干什么！”