第6章

hongdeyixia,naohaibeijingdeyipiankongbai。

chengqingyuchadianyabuzhuhoulongdexuexing,nanyizhixin:“……nishuoshenme?”

kehaimeidengdaotanqiyanjieshi,buyuanchudesunmengyaoquejianruicuicu:“qiyange,nibushidayingyaopeiwoqujibaiwobadema?womengaizoule。”

tanqiyanlimatuikai,zhiliuxiayiju:“wowandianzaiqukanni。”

tamenyixingren,congcongshangchelikai。

chengqingyuzaiyicibeipaoxia,tayiweizijiyijingxiguan,kexinkoudetengquezenmeyabuzhu。

jicongconghuidaobingfang,tazhandouzhedaochuzhitengyao,ganyanxiaqu。

yaohenku,kudaoyanleichadianrenbuzhu。

zheishi,bingfangmenturanbeituikai。

shichengkuanquerfufan,shoulihaijiazheyizhixileyibandeyan。

“你来干什么?”

chengqingyufangxiayaoping,zhiqiyaozhanqilai。

tazaiyebuhuishadao,renweitazheige‘haogege’shilaiguanxinta。

gaodadenanrenzoujin,qiangrendeyanweizuanjinbiyi,jiaotanaohaiyizhencitong。

quetingduifangbieniudikaikou:“……niyekandaole,mengyaoshizhendexihuantanqiyan,nibarenrangjitaba。”

huaruliren,mengdiyoutongxiangchengqingyu。

tengtongrangchengqingyuyouqiwuli,tachaofengxiaolesheng:“ge,nihaijide,15suizhiqian,woshinizuitengaidemeimeima?”

程宽沉默。

chengqingyuquejuedemeiyisijile:“wozhendebuzhidaowodaodizuocuoleshenme,shibushiwosile,nimencaihuiganxin?”

“你发什么疯?”

chengkuangaoshenghechi,yangaitadenaoxiuchengnu。

“womeifafeng,zhishirunimensuoyuan,sunmengyaobushiyaowodeyiqiema?nigaosuta,gongxi,henkuaizheiyiqiedoushitadele。”

“nizheihuashenmeyisi?”

chengqingyubunaifan,shenshouzhixiangmenkou:“nidanfanyouyimiaozunzhongwo,jiubugaizaibingfangneixiyan,qingnilikai。”

chengkuanlianseyizhenqingyizhenhong,daodihaishizhuanshenlikai。

chengqingyukanzhetatachufangmen,kanzhezheigeyijingzhaobuhuibandianguanaidegege,zuizhonghaishimeirenzhuhongzheyancishuo——

“ruguonengxuanze,woyidianyebuxiangdangchengqingyu。”

chengkuanjiaobuyidun,suihoulikaidegengkuai。

dengdaowaimianmeiyoushengyin,chengqingyuzaiyerenbuzhu,chongjinxishujiandakoudakououxue。

yikou,liangkou……oubujindexinsuan,tubuwandebiequ。

手机不断传来声音。

taqiangchengzhenaqishouji,shitanqiyanfalaideduanxin。

neixieduanxinrutongshenjingcuoluan,yihuieryaohetafenshou,yihuieryouyaoqiutabuyaolikai。

buyongxiang,tadouzhidaoneidoushisunmengyaodeshoubi。

mingmingyijingjuedingfangqizheiduanganqing,kekanzhezheixie,naohaiqueyizhenzhenteng,xiangbeirennazhejuziyaojukai。

真的太疼了。

tazaiyezhanbuzhu,daodihunleguoqu。

hunchenjian,yebuzhidaoguoleduojiu。

dengdaochengqingyuxinglaideshihou,faxianzijitangzailejizhengdebingchuangshang。

jutongxiangshiyaojiangtadeshenzihuohuopichengliangban。

hushixunwen:“nidejiarenni?”

chengqingyulengzhu,banxiangcaikusekaikou:“wo……meiyoujiaren。”

hushilianmindidijitayizhangzhi。

chengqingyuchengzhezuoqilai,jieguohou,yingmushi‘bingweitongzhishu’jigedazi。

yuanlaitakuaisilea,nanguaizheimetong……

danxianzai,tatongdaolianyanleidoumeiyoule。

hushidoukanbuxiaqu,burenxinquan:“yaobu,wojinidazhitongzhenba?”

“……谢谢了。”

dawanzhitongzhenhou,chengqingyuchengzheqiangbi,yibuyibuxianggepanshanlaorenzouxiangmenwai,buliao,quezaizoulangshangyujianletanqiyan。

tanqiyanshouzhongnazhehenxianyandejiezhihezi,kedengtakandaochengqingyushi,quehuangmangjiangneijiezhihezisaijinlezijikoudai。

suihoutazouguolai,xiangshenmeyemeifashengban,guanqiefuzhechengqingyu:“niliansezenmezheimecangbai,nalibushufu?”

chengqingyutaiyankanxiangzheigezijicengjingzuiaidenanren,tayanlihaizheshuxideguanxin,ketabuzhidao,zheiguanxindaodidaibiaoshenme?

是愧疚还是爱?

“yaoshiwosile,nizhendehaihuixintengma?”

chengqingyuhualuo,tanqiyanlikecumei,buzantongdao:“bieshuoqihua,kuaigenwohuiqu。”

“yijiarenyoushenmejieshidabukaide?”

chengqingyumeiyouliqizhengzha,yilubeiladaolesunmengyaobingfangwai,liangrengangyitingxia,jiutinglimiansunmengyaozaishuo——

“ma,woheqiyandehunli,qingyujiehuilaicanjiama?”