hongdeyixia,naohaibeijingdeyipiankongbai。
chengqingyuchadianyabuzhuhoulongdexuexing,nanyizhixin:“……nishuoshenme?”
kehaimeidengdaotanqiyanjieshi,buyuanchudesunmengyaoquejianruicuicu:“qiyange,nibushidayingyaopeiwoqujibaiwobadema?womengaizoule。”
tanqiyanlimatuikai,zhiliuxiayiju:“wowandianzaiqukanni。”
tamenyixingren,congcongshangchelikai。
chengqingyuzaiyicibeipaoxia,tayiweizijiyijingxiguan,kexinkoudetengquezenmeyabuzhu。
jicongconghuidaobingfang,tazhandouzhedaochuzhitengyao,ganyanxiaqu。
yaohenku,kudaoyanleichadianrenbuzhu。
zheishi,bingfangmenturanbeituikai。
shichengkuanquerfufan,shoulihaijiazheyizhixileyibandeyan。
“你来干什么?”
chengqingyufangxiayaoping,zhiqiyaozhanqilai。
tazaiyebuhuishadao,renweitazheige‘haogege’shilaiguanxinta。
gaodadenanrenzoujin,qiangrendeyanweizuanjinbiyi,jiaotanaohaiyizhencitong。
quetingduifangbieniudikaikou:“……niyekandaole,mengyaoshizhendexihuantanqiyan,nibarenrangjitaba。”
huaruliren,mengdiyoutongxiangchengqingyu。
tengtongrangchengqingyuyouqiwuli,tachaofengxiaolesheng:“ge,nihaijide,15suizhiqian,woshinizuitengaidemeimeima?”
程宽沉默。
chengqingyuquejuedemeiyisijile:“wozhendebuzhidaowodaodizuocuoleshenme,shibushiwosile,nimencaihuiganxin?”
“你发什么疯?”
chengkuangaoshenghechi,yangaitadenaoxiuchengnu。
“womeifafeng,zhishirunimensuoyuan,sunmengyaobushiyaowodeyiqiema?nigaosuta,gongxi,henkuaizheiyiqiedoushitadele。”
“nizheihuashenmeyisi?”
chengqingyubunaifan,shenshouzhixiangmenkou:“nidanfanyouyimiaozunzhongwo,jiubugaizaibingfangneixiyan,qingnilikai。”
chengkuanlianseyizhenqingyizhenhong,daodihaishizhuanshenlikai。
chengqingyukanzhetatachufangmen,kanzhezheigeyijingzhaobuhuibandianguanaidegege,zuizhonghaishimeirenzhuhongzheyancishuo——
“ruguonengxuanze,woyidianyebuxiangdangchengqingyu。”
chengkuanjiaobuyidun,suihoulikaidegengkuai。
dengdaowaimianmeiyoushengyin,chengqingyuzaiyerenbuzhu,chongjinxishujiandakoudakououxue。
yikou,liangkou……oubujindexinsuan,tubuwandebiequ。
手机不断传来声音。
taqiangchengzhenaqishouji,shitanqiyanfalaideduanxin。
neixieduanxinrutongshenjingcuoluan,yihuieryaohetafenshou,yihuieryouyaoqiutabuyaolikai。
buyongxiang,tadouzhidaoneidoushisunmengyaodeshoubi。
mingmingyijingjuedingfangqizheiduanganqing,kekanzhezheixie,naohaiqueyizhenzhenteng,xiangbeirennazhejuziyaojukai。
真的太疼了。
tazaiyezhanbuzhu,daodihunleguoqu。
hunchenjian,yebuzhidaoguoleduojiu。
dengdaochengqingyuxinglaideshihou,faxianzijitangzailejizhengdebingchuangshang。
jutongxiangshiyaojiangtadeshenzihuohuopichengliangban。
hushixunwen:“nidejiarenni?”
chengqingyulengzhu,banxiangcaikusekaikou:“wo……meiyoujiaren。”
hushilianmindidijitayizhangzhi。
chengqingyuchengzhezuoqilai,jieguohou,yingmushi‘bingweitongzhishu’jigedazi。
yuanlaitakuaisilea,nanguaizheimetong……
danxianzai,tatongdaolianyanleidoumeiyoule。
hushidoukanbuxiaqu,burenxinquan:“yaobu,wojinidazhitongzhenba?”
“……谢谢了。”
dawanzhitongzhenhou,chengqingyuchengzheqiangbi,yibuyibuxianggepanshanlaorenzouxiangmenwai,buliao,quezaizoulangshangyujianletanqiyan。
tanqiyanshouzhongnazhehenxianyandejiezhihezi,kedengtakandaochengqingyushi,quehuangmangjiangneijiezhihezisaijinlezijikoudai。
suihoutazouguolai,xiangshenmeyemeifashengban,guanqiefuzhechengqingyu:“niliansezenmezheimecangbai,nalibushufu?”
chengqingyutaiyankanxiangzheigezijicengjingzuiaidenanren,tayanlihaizheshuxideguanxin,ketabuzhidao,zheiguanxindaodidaibiaoshenme?
是愧疚还是爱?
“yaoshiwosile,nizhendehaihuixintengma?”
chengqingyuhualuo,tanqiyanlikecumei,buzantongdao:“bieshuoqihua,kuaigenwohuiqu。”
“yijiarenyoushenmejieshidabukaide?”
chengqingyumeiyouliqizhengzha,yilubeiladaolesunmengyaobingfangwai,liangrengangyitingxia,jiutinglimiansunmengyaozaishuo——
“ma,woheqiyandehunli,qingyujiehuilaicanjiama?”