第4章 入狱

我认罪!

suoyoudeyiqie,fuqinde,zijide。

gusibairenshidesuluozaichuangshangfengsaorugu,chuanshangyifujiuganlianpola,tajuebuhuirenshu。

tayuanxiangzheigeguansihaiyaodahenduoci,yisuluodexingzi,tabudamudeshibuhuibaxiude。

dangsuluoshuochu“worenzui”sangezideshihou,gusibaiyizhenhuanghu,tuitinghou,tazuolehenjiuzaizhanqilai。

脑子里嗡嗡乱叫。

“congcihou,womenliangqingle。”

两清?

十年,两清?

“guoqushinian,woconglaimeiyouyujianguoni……”

没有遇见过?

zaitafuqinjinicuneitianzhiqian,tameiyoukanjiantakuguo,xianzaimannaozidoushitalianshangdeleishui。

gusibaishuaileshuaitou,“liangqingle!”

tataibulikaiyuangaoxi,zhiyibu,chadiantakongzhanbuwen。

“liangqingle!”taxiangqitashuochuzheisangezishidejuejue,haoxiangshinazhexiangmubiaoshuaizaihuiyizhuoshang,“zheigexiangmubixushiwode!”

势在必得!

suluo,meiyoutazuobudaodeshiqing。

gusibaichelechelingdai,zouchufating,tayihoudeshenghuozhong,buhuizaiyousuluo。

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监狱

suluozuijiaoliuxueqizaiyigenvfanrendeshenshang,shouzhongdexiebazhangpapashuaizainvfanrendelianshang:“yihouhaiganbugankaojinwo!”

“buganle!buganle!”

“yihouhaiganbuganbachibuxiadedongxidaowocanpan?”shuowan,youshi“papa”liangxiebazhang。

“buganle!buganle!”nvfanlianlianqiurao。

suluolianguotaiquandao,chuledabuguogusibai,yibanrenbushitadeduishou。

zaijianyuzheizhongdifang,nanmianhuibeirenqifu,tabenxiangxishiningren,quebuxiangzheixiegouniangyangdeqirentaishen!

zheigeweixin,tabixuliqilai,buranyihousheidoukeyipadaotadetoushanglai。

zheigeshijieshang,zhiyougusibaikeyiqifuta,bingqierangtahaowufankangdenengli。

dantayezhinengbeitashangzheiyici!

仅此一次!

suoyoudenvyuyou,douhaipasuluo,tajiuxianggemuyechayiyangxionghan。

suluodezhizijihuaiyunshi,shouzuwucuo,tabuzhidaogaizenmeban。

dangxiaochufeitanshisuluoshi,suluozhongyukandaolexiwang,tagezhehouhoudeboli,qiqiudekanzhexiaochufei,“chufei,bangwoyigemangba。”

xiaochufeiyanzhongdesuluoshoudebuxiangyangzi,zuichunqidezhandou,“gusibaiweishenmehuizheiyangduini?tatugeshenme?dangchutajinggaowobuzhunkaojinni,woyiweitashizhendeaini,woshikannineimeaitawocaifangshoude,niweishenmemeiyoudedaoxingfu!”

xiaochufeiyankuangfahong,“suluo!nizheigeshabi!niguoqushiniandeaiqingdouweigoulema?”

suluojinjinminzhezuichun,“ruguomeiyoujingliguo,wozenmehuizhidaozijishishabi?yiqiedoushiyinguo,guoqudejiubutile。”

“butile?pingshenmebutile?taqinshoubanisongjinjianyu!pingshenmebutile?”

“woqiantade,gaihai。”suluoshenhuxi,tajinliangburangzijineibuzhengqideleishuiliuchulai,“xianzaihaiqingle。”

xiaochufeihaixiangshuoshenme,renleren,daozuidehuayandaoleduzili。

suluodao,“bangwoxianggebanfa,niyidingkeyi,wohuaiyunle,bierangwohuaiyundeshiqingrangwaimianderenchadao,jiusuanchadaole,yeyaobangwoxiangbanfazhengmingzheihaizishibierende。”

“顾斯白的孩子?”

“是。”

“为什么不打掉?”

“不能?”

“为什么?”

“woyihou,buhuizaiaishangrenheyigeren,nanren,zheibeiziwodoubuganpengle,dan,haizishiwode。”suluokanzhexiaochufeideyanjing,yanzhongdeleishuizhongyuguanbuzhu,gunluoleyilian。

xiaochufeidequantou,henhenzazaishitaishang,“nijingranweiletayigerenfoudinglesuoyourenma?”

“zhishaoxianzaixinlidexiangfashi,buganzaiyaoaiqingle。”

xiaochufeizhidaosuluoshishangtoule,ertaxianzaibixuyaohaohaodiaozhengziji,fouzehuichushi,tabunengbita。

“我答应你。”

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suluoshengchanneitian,yishengzhouzhemeitoujiyijingquanshenmazuidesuluozuopoufuchanshoushu,“ai,jingjifanzui,qishidouhencongmingderen,donglewaixinsieryi,yaoshibazheixinsiyongzaizhengdaoshang,zenmekenengzoudaozheiyibu?”

“ai,nianjiqingqingde,zhiyouyigeshenle。”

只有一个肾了。

suluomihuzhongtingdaoyishengdetanhua。

fatingshang,takongsuzhe,“wohenbudebamingdoujini,haibugouma?”

gusibai,nizenmenengduiwozheiyanghen?

还好,我们两清了。