第1章

womamudedaozaidishang,sizhibingliang。

血流了一地……

wocengjingshuadaoguoyitiaopengyouquan,yisiyourenxuanchengyiyuzhengxiangyaozisha,tazaipengyouquandatantetan,xuanyaozijizhishi:

“zhenzhengxiangsideren,shibuhuishuode。erneixieshuochulaide,zhishiboqutarentongqingdexijing。”

wobaneigepengyoulaheidetongshi,yexiangguo,rendaodishiyaoduojuewang,caihuifangqihuodexiwang。

dangwoxinglai,faxianzijichengleyigeyinchanhouyiyugewanzishadenvrenshi,zhiyishunjiandejinghuang。jinjiezhe,shiputiangaidicongxindiyonglaidejuewang。

zheizhongbengkuidebingzheng,yourufuguzhiquchanrao。

wotangzhe,shenzhiyouxielengmo。

jiuzheiyangsiqu,yetinghaode……

woduizijishuo,jiuzheiyang,zaizheiheiandeshijieli,siqu,renpingzijifalan,fachou,fanzhengyemeiyourenzhidao,meiyourenfaxian。

keshi,woshixiangqideyingertiku,lahuilewodesixu,yerangwochedidelengjingqingxing。

我不是那个女人。

wozhengzhazhecongyugangliqishen,cetoukanleyiyanshouwanshangdaokeruguqiexueliuruzhudeshangkou,jinxinglejiandandebaozha,suijizoudaowoshi,jianghaizibaoleqilai。

haizidexiaoliankudezhanghong,woditoukanzhe,quemeiyouyidianmuxingdebenneng,zhiyoumanmandeyanehefanzao。

wozhidao,zheiyeshiyiyuzhengdebingzhengzhiyi。

woshenxileyikouqi,quehaishilagaoleyifu……

naixingweipubi,duiyuhuaizhongdeyingereryan,queshizuimeihaodeyingyangji,tajinhutanqiudeyaozhulewo,zhuixindetengtongxijuanquanshen,rangwohenbudezaiqusiyici。

danshiwomeiyou,wodanshoubaozhehaizi,tengchuyizhishou,nachushouji,mianwubiaoqingdebotongle120。

【nihao,xuanhualuchengjianhuayuan3dong1109,youyiweinvxingzishaweisui。】

wobushineigenvren,woxianghuozhe。ruoxianghuoxiaqu,bixuzijiu!

……

jiuhuchegandaodeshihou,zhikandaowomianwubiaoqingdebaozhehaiziweinai,eryoushoushouwanshangdeshangkou,ranhongleyiquanshabu,shunzheshabuyunranledapiandiban。

henkuai,wobianbeisongquleyiyuan,tamenyelianxishanglewodejiaren。

erwohaoburongyigangshuofuzijichuanshuledeshishi,jiukandaoyigenvrenlianseyinyudechaowozoulai。

he,guoranheyuanshuzhongyiyangni。

zuixianlaide,bushiyuanzhudezhangfu,ershitadepopo。

zaishuzhong,yuanzhudepopobingbushitazhangfudeqinshengmuqin,danshiquebiqinshengmuqingengjiaguanxintamendehunhoushenghuo,dongzhebianwendongwenxi,zhishouhuajiao。zuijinshengwanhaizi,gengshidaolemeiribi“guanxin”dedibu。

tadeguanhuai,yejiazhongleyuanzhudebingqing……

yiliaozhizhong,tayilai,jiushidamianjideruma。

dazhijiushi“yuanzhubushitaiju,nverxinxinkuku,haiyaozuoyao,jiushigereshijing……”

zuihouhaishihushirenwukeren,chusheng:

【ayi,nizhibuzhidao,chanhouyiyuderenshihencuiruode!】

脆弱?

womuguangqinglengdetingzhe,quewudongyuzhong。

cengjing,woduichanhouyiyudenvrenfeichangbulijie,juedetamengenbenshijiaoqinghewubingshen/yin,danshixianzaidangwochengweilezheiyangdenvren,cainengtihuidao,zifeiyuyanzhiyu……

ririyeye,wodouzaizaoyuziwofoudingheduiweilaishenghuodemimang,haiyouneimanwubianjidetaozhaishishenghuo,meiyouzhuxingu,meiyouziwo……

buguo,zheidouyijingguoqule,wobushita,haizhiwangwogenyuanzhuyiyangyinrenbufa,tadesuanpandacuole!

wotaiqitou,lengmodekanxiangyanqianzheigemianrongchoulouzhengningdelaonvren,diyici,sipolelian。

【gunchuqu,nihenchao。】

shuochulaideneiyike,wodexinlizhouranchangkuai。

yuanlaixiangzhaodaoyayidefaxiekou,rucijiandan……

mianqiandenvrensihushibeiwohedaole,takenengmeixiangdaoyixiangyinrenchenmodeworuhehuiyixiazibaofa,dantayezhishilengleyihuier,jinjiezhe,jiubaofalegengdadenuhuo。

【nijuranmuwuzunzhang,nixinbuxin,worangwoerzihenilihun!】