第四章这是什么人生
nanrenzuoshouyicheningqingqing，shenzijisudexuanzhuan，kankandeduoguolezheiyijie，zhishiningqingqingbeitalanzhuyaoshenbaozaihuaili，zishihenshiqinniaimei。
zheiduzilihaiyougelailibumingdexiaodouyaer，youbeimoshengdenanrenchiledoufu，ningqingqinghenzhuakuang，hainengbunengyukuaideshenghuole？
“ganqipianbenwang，nimenlianggeyiqiqusiba！”neigelenglidebaiyinanziquerfufan，lengsensendebaojianzhizhiqianxiong，ningqingqinghunshendexueyedouyaoninggule，zheinanren，taikepale。
“daxianikuaijiujiuwo，tashihuairen，toukanwoxizao，haiweixiewoyaoshiganshuochutadexingzongjiushalewo。woyigeruonvzinengzenmebana，jiuzhinengdayingtale。”ningqingqingyanjingyizhuan，guoduandexuanzechumaishenbiandenanren，sidaoyoubusipindao。
tayiliandejingkong，yishuangdayanjinggenshoujingdexiaoluside，shenziyebuandeniulainiuqu。
zhangxianglvedaijifenyaoniedenanrenweizhouleshuangmei，yanjingzaibaiyinanziheningqingqingdeshenshanglaihuiqunxun。zheilianggeren，subuxiangshi？keshi，junlingxiaodeyupeizenmehuizaizheiyatoudeshenshang？
“junlingxiao，xiaoyeshineizhongrenma？”tayizhishoujinjindelouzhuningqingqing，yibianxixidechakanduifangdeshense。
junlingxiaolenghengyisheng：“dongfangye，zheigeshishangjiumeiyoushenmeshinizuobuchulaide。”
dongfangye“chichi”dezhangxiaoqilai，“aiya，kaigewanxiao，nibuyaodangzhenma！nishuonizheimeduonianhuodeqingxinguayude，shirendouchuannibujinnvseshiyinweishenhuanyinji，wojiuxiangfanqidaoerxingzhi，huoxunizhishibuxihuannvreneryi。zuihualoudexiaoguanerhenguide，wojingxinweinitiaoxuanleliangge，panimenbujinxing，caiyongleyidiandianhehuanxiang。nibulingqingjiusuanle，zenmehaienjiangchoubaozhuishawoni？”
“dongfangye，nizhaosi！jingganyongrucixiazuodeshouduansuanjibenwang，henhao，woshixihuannanren，buruniqinzipiguashangzhen，fushibenwangba！”junlingxiaoqideeshangdeqingjinzhitiao，liangdaomuguangliruzhui，hansibing，henbudezaitashenshangchuochujigekulonglai。
tabeidongfangyekuangquleyanhuazhidiyejiubale，zhei**jingranhaijitaanpailelianggenanren！
dongfangyeyizhenehan，zhoushendehanmaodoushuleqilai，ta，bushilaizhendeba？
ningqingqing：“......”
tamenjingranrenshi？haishiyinweizheizhongshiqingfanmuchengchou？
dongfangyezuoshouyitui，ningqingqinggenyifapaodanside，jingzhichonglechuqu。yaobushijunlingxiaofanyingkuai，xunsuchuixialebaojian，tayidinghuibeizhagetouxinlianger。
zheifapaodanbupianbuyideshejinlejunlingxiaodehuaili，dongfangyelangshengyixiao：“wenxiangruanyubaomanhuai，junlingxiao，liangxiaokuduan，niyaojishixinglea！”
tajiaojianeryidiandi，zitaiyoumeidechuanchuangerchu，zhiliuxiayichuaneryiweibumingdexiaosheng。
junlingxiaoyibatuikainingqingqingzhuileshangqu，xiaoyatouyaobushiyouxieshenshoukendingqihunbasudeshuaizaidishang。
temiaode，zheinanrenyidianerdoubuzhidaolianxiangxiyu。
ningqingqingmolemoyupei，youkanleyiyanjinyezi，tazheixinkaiqiderenshengbubujingxina！
zheilianggenanrenlaiqurufeng，suiranfengshiqiangjing，tashenchuxuanworutongdaizaidegaoyang，chadianerxiaomingerbubao。danshi，fengguobuliuhen，tadexiaowuzihenkuaijiuhuifuleanningyujingmi。
ningqingqinghuiguoshenerlai，chuleyiju“wokao”，wuhuakeshuo。
zheiliangge**，doumeidasuanduitafuzema？
budui，tabuyaotamenfuze，gundeyueyuanyuehao。neilianggeren，yigexiemeijunmei，wanruohuoluanzhongshengdeyaonie；yigelengjunguhan，fangfodiyulizouchulaidelengmianxiuluo。
都不是好东西！
ningqingqingzaixinlixialedinglun，momodeqidaozheibeizizaiyebuyaoyudaotamen。tazhongxinguanhaolemenchuang，xiangxiangbufangxin，youyongzhuoyifenglegeyanyanshishi，zheicaizhunbeixiuxi。
yexushitaileile，yexushigangcaizheiyimutaiguojingxianhe**，tashuidebingbuanwen。
mengzhongyouyidaoqingxideshengyin：“nvren，niruoshiyouminghuoxiaqu，jiudaizhezheiyupeilaizhaowo，wohuniyishengpingan。”
zheishengyinyizhizaitaerbianhuidang，chaodetatoutongyulie，xinglaizhihouningqingqingfaxian，shoulijinjindizuanzheneiyupei。ertadenaohailiyouyizhangmohudelian，neijunmeidewuguan，neiqinglengdeshengxian，jingrankusijunlingxiao。
takuxiaozheyaoyaotou，zheibeicuiderensheng，shuijuedoubudeanwena！
ningqingqingduizijideweilaiyouhenhaodeguihua，pingtadeshenshou，zuoyixiexingxiazhangyideshanshi，shouquchoulao，yiciweisheng，qiancaiyeyoule，mingshengyeyoule，kebiliuzainingjiazuoneigewonangshouqidesanxiaojieqianglebaibei。
tazhengmeimeidechongjingzheweilai，weiliyizhenfanjiangdaohai，“wa”deyishengtulegetianhundian。
孕吐！
ningqingqingwulidetandaozaichuangshang，tasuoyoudejihuadoubeidaluanle，shenhuaiyouyundeta，shenmedouzuobule！
buxing，zheigehaizibunengyao，taderenshengcaiganggangkaishi，pingshenmetayaotibierendecuowumaidan？
tianliangzhihou，ningqingqingzaozaodelaidaoyijiayiguan。
zuotangdedafushigeshanglenianjidelaozhe，jitazhenmaizhihou，nongqingtadelaiyi，lianshangluchulebonuheqingshi。
“nibuzhidaodataishifanfadema？zijixingweibujiandian，haileyitiaowugudeshengming，hairangfumugenzhenilianshangwuguang。nizouba，zheizhongzaoniedeshiqingwoshibuzuode。”talengzhelianxialezhukeling。
ningqingqingyukuwulei，ganjuezijitiaojinhuangheyexibuqingle。
duimeifaerjieshideshiqing，jiuzhiyouyigebanfa。
tayanjingyizha，dakedakedeyanleidiaolexialai，chouchoudadadekusu：“wobushibuzhixiuchideren，yezhidaoqingbaiduiyigenverjialaishuoshiduomedezhongyao。wojinchengqumaisixian，xiangzhezuoxiezhenxiantiebujiayongde，meixiangdaohuilaidelushangyudaolehuairen，beita...beitajiqifule。”
“wo...wobuxianghuole，keshiwoyaoshisile，niangbingzhe，diediechuqudalinggongle，didimeimeizenmeban？wuwu，wodeminghaokua！”
dafuyileng，liansehuanhelexuduo，zaicibajigenshouzhifangzailetadeshouwanchu。
banshang，dafucaiyaoyaotou：“haizi，bushiwobubangnia，nizheitizhigonghanweileng，buyishouyun，woruoshiyifuyaoxiaqu，shangleshenzi，nirihouzaixianghuaiyunkejiunanle。”
“haiyou，nizheimaixiangqixueliangkui，ruoshidatai，yidanbaoyangbudang，zuiyanzhongdehouguojiushiyishiliangming。suoyi，niyaoxianghaolezaizuojueding。”
ningqingqing：“......”
dalezheigehaizizijiyexingmingkanyou？zheishishenmerensheng！
ningqingqingxieguodafu，fulezhenjinqishengaocile。
huidaokezhantashoushileyiwutuilefang，mozhehaihenpingtandexiaofu，xiangchengwaizouqu。
taxianggenshentideyuanzhulaigechedileduan，kanlaishibukenengdele。ai，zheigehaizidecunzai，jiushiweileyanxuzhiqianderensheng？
bu，tabujieshouzheiyangdeanpai，jiranshizhongxinhuoguo，tayaozaiyishikaichuyiduoxianyandehualai。