第3章

yeserumo,chenchendiyazaixiaojiaxiaoyuanshang。dongxiangfangxiaoxiaodewulidengyixile,zhiyuyipianjijing,fangfobairilineichangsixinliefeidejuezecongweifasheng。danxibianshufangchuanglingtouchudehunhuangdengguang,quexielulewumiandejianao。

xiaoyeyeduzizuozaihouzhongdehongmushuzhuoqian。yizhanlaoshilvzhaotaidengshiweiyideguangyuan,hunhuangdeguangyunmianqiangzhaoliangzhuoshangyiyu,quejianglaorenjinsuodemeitouhelianshangdegouheyingzhaodegewaishenke。kongqizhongmimanzhejiushuzhizhangteyoude、lvedaimeiweidemoxiang,hunzazheyizhongnanyiyanyudechenzhongjiaolv,yaderentoubuguoqi。

shuzhuoshang,tanzhejizhangxinzhi。pangbiansanluozhejigerouzhoudezhituan,neishitafanfuzhenzhuo、youjuecibudayierfeiqidecaogao。gangbigezaimoshuipingpang,bijianhaicanliuzheweigandemoji。

tazhaixialaohuajing,pibeidiroulerousuanzhangdemeixin。muguangbuyouzizhuditouxiangshuzhuoyijiao——neilibaizheyigexiangkuang,limianshitayinyiweiaodeerzixiaozhenhuaheerxilinjingchuanzhezhanxinjunzhuangdeheying,liangrenxiaorongcanlan,yanshenmingliang,chongmanleduiweilaidechongjing。zhengshineicixiangyingqiushizhangbuduidejinjiyiliaozhiyuanrenwu……tamenzaiyemeinenghuilai。

qiuweiguo,qiushizhang。zheigemingzixiangyikuailuoyin,kezaixiaoyeyedejiyili。

dangnianzhuidaohuishang,neiweishencaikuiwu、mianronggangyidejunren,jinjinwozhetadeshou,shengyingengyan,yandishishenqiedebeitonghewufayanshidekuijiu。“xiaolao,zhenhuahelinjing……shiyingxiong!shiwodehaotongzhi!shiwomei……meibatamenanquandaihuilai!woqiuguodongduibuqininerlao!”neichendiandiandeqianyi,shifazifeifude。

cihoujingnian,qiushizhangdeguanhuaicongweijianduan。nianjiebiyouqinbixinwenhou,zilixingjianshizhanyoudehuainianheduiyigudeqiangua。jintieyezhunshijidao,shuezongbibiaozhungaoxie,xinlizhishuo“jihaizitianjianyishang”。tazongzaixinmozhengzhongchengnuo:“xiaolao,zhenhuahelinjingshiweiguoxishengdegongchen!ninjiadeshi,jiushiwoqiuguodongdeshi!yourenhekunnan,yidinggaosuwo!qianwanbiekeqi!”

xiaozhengqingcongweixiangguodongyongzheifenqingyi。talijiezhanzhengdecanku,lijiejunlingrushan,genggannianqiushizhangduonianruyirideqingyi。zheifenchengnuo,shierzierxiyongshengminghuanlaidechendiandiandejingyi,tazhenshi,gengjuechenzhong,buyuanqingyichupeng。

dancike,weilexiaoxiao……tabiewuxuanze。

sunnvcangbaicuiruodelianpang,juzishangneizhangcimude“zhiqingxiaxiangtongzhishu”,haiyoutasiyarenmingdeneisheng“hao”,xiangshaohongdeluotie,tangdetaxinkoujutong。xiaxiang,duixianzaidexiaoxiaolaishuo,wuyiyusongsi!tabunengyanzhengzhengkanzheerziweiyideguxue,sunnvzheiduohaoburongyicongsangqinzhitongzhongzhengzhahuoxialaidexiaohua,diaolingzaimoshengdetudishang!

tazhongxindaishanglaohuajing,shenxileyikouqi,neiqixidaizhezhanyin。bumanlaonianbandeshouyouxiefadou,queyichangjiandingdinaqileneizhipeibantaduoniandeheisegangbi。bingliangdebiganrushou,fangfozhuruleyisililiang。

bijianxuanzaixinzhishangfang,ningzhilepianke。zuizhong,daizheyizhongpofuchenzhoudejuexin,zhongzhongluoxia:

邱师长勋鉴:

jiushuwenhou,jinlaishentikehao?gongzuoxiangbiyijiufanmang。jinritibi,shiyounanyiqichizhiqing,wanwangjianliang。

zhenhuayulinjingquhou,weiyuxiaosunnvxiaoxiaochenghuanxixia。xiaoxiaojinyigaozhongbiye,pinxingchunliang(taxiedaozheili,bijiantingdun,yanqianshanguosunnvxinglaihouneishuangchenjingdebuxiangwangri、fangfokantouyiqiequeyoudaizhepibeideyanmou,momojiangxinzhongyuanbenxiangxiede“jiaoruo”erzihuadiao,gaichengle“pinxingchunliang”),rantizhishaoruo。jinri,shifengzhiqingxiaxiangzhizhengce,xiaoxiaoyizaimingdanzhilie。wofufuerrennianshiyigao,xinlijiaocui,shiburenxinjiantayuanligutu,toushenyumoshengjiankuzhidi。sijici,suyenanmei,youxinrufen。

weiqiuxiaoxiaonengliuyuchengzhong,mianquxiaxiangzhiku,woyulaobansilvzaisan,yuweiqixunyiwentuoqinshi,yianjialuohu。ranchengzhongshilingqingnian,huopinxingbuduan,huojiashifuza,huotiaojianxuanshu,jingnanmiyiliangpei。yankanqixianrijin,wobeixinlijiaocui,shushouwuce。

yijishizhangdangnianchengnuo,zhenhuayulinjingyishizaininhuixiaweiguojinzhong。jinrihouyanxiangqiu,shishuwunai。meisijici,kuiduizhenhualinjingzaitianzhiling,gengjuegufushizhangduonianzhaofuzhiqing,ranshiduzhixinqie,weisunnvji,zhideshecilaolian。kenqingshizhangnianzaizhenhua、linjingxiriweigongjiwofufuchuimuzhinian,nengfouzaijunzhongliuyi,weixiaoxiaowuseyikekao、zhengzhi、shangjinzhiqingnianjunguan?buqiumendixianhe,danqiurenpinguizhong,nengshandaixiaoxiao,jitayigeanwenguisu,miantapiaobozhiku。ruonengyoucijieguo,wofufuganjitiling,zhenhua、linjingjiuquanzhixiayidanghanxiao。

tangtuzhichu,wanwanghaihan。jinghoujiayin。

萧正清敬上

1973年3月2日

zuihouyigeziluoxia,bijianzaizhishangyinkaiyixiaotuanmoji。xiaoyeyefangxiabi,fangfohaojinlequanshenliqi。tazhaixialaohuajing,hunzhuodeleishuizaiyeyizhibuzhu,shunzheshenkerudaokedezhouwenwanyanerxia,diluozaixinzhishang,yunkailejigemohudemodian。

tanaqixinzhi,duizhetaidenghunhuangdeguang,fanfukanlejibian。meiyigezidouxiangzhenyiyangzhazaitaxinshang。kuiduixishengdeerzierxi,kuiduiqiushizhangduoniandeqingyi,gengkuiduizijizuoweiyigezhishifenzideqinggao……keweilexiaoxiao,tazhinengbazheifenqinggaohekuijiu,liantongchenzhongdefubeizeren,yiqifengjinzheibobodexinfengli。

“zhenhua,linjing……bameiyong……baduibuqinimen……”laorenyayidewuyanshengzaijijingdeshufanglididihuidang,chongmanlewujindesuanchuhebeiliang。

diertianqingchen,tianseweiming。xiaoyeyehuanshangleyishenzuizhengjiedezhongshanzhuang,jiangxinfengzixifenghao,tieshanglejiajideguahaoxinyoupiao。tajujuelelaobandepeitong,duziyiren,bulvpanshanqueyichangjiandingdizouxiangzhenshangdeyouju。

youjulvsedechuangkouqian,tazhengzhongdijiangneifengchengzaizhequanbuxiwangyuchenzhongkuijiudexin,dilejinqu。kanzhegongzuorenyuangaishangqingxideyouchuo,nei“dong”deyishengqingxiang,fangfoqiaozailetadexinkanshang。

xin,jichuqule。rutongtourushentandeshizi,buzhihuijiqizenyangdebolan。xiaoyeyezhanzaiyoujumenkou,wangzhexinbeishouzoudechuangkou,jiujiumeiyoudongdan。chushengdechaoyangjiangtadeyingziladehenzhanghenzhang,daizheyizhongguzhuyizhihoudecanglianghemiaomangdeqipan。tasuoyoudeduzhu,douyazaileyuanfangneiweitiexuejunrenqiushizhangdeshenshang。