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“daoluzixin、lilunzixin、zhiduzixin、wenhuazixin。”
“fuqiang、minzhu、wenming、hexie，ziyou、pingdeng、gongzheng、fazhi，aiguo、jingye、chengxin、youshan。”
“三步走？”
wokanzhezhishangdeliaoliaoshuyu，meiyibidoushijinghua。
keluodaozuihou，quelingwobujie。
“shenmesanbuzou？nasanbuzoukeyoujiqi？”
“buceng，qianguniangshuobeibuchulaile。”
wokanzheshenpangbanmigaodeshugao，xinzhonggewaishuchang，xiangzhe，yinggaichabuduole。
“zaihehe，yinggaihainengxing。”
我吩咐道。
guobuqiran，meiguoduojiu，zaicitingdaoqiansisizailenggongliaihao。
“baitinglan，nibushirenabushiren！zongbunengrangwojinibeifangnishuiliubuzhunba！”
“yaobunihaishibawoshaleba！”
“wozhendeyididoumeiyoule！”
……
womeilihui，meitianwodouhuibashugaozhengliyibian，jiangzijidexiangfayujiandibeizhuqilai，dengdaihuangdibixiatongyizhihou，biankaishiwangxiatuiguang。
duanduanjiyuedeshijian，baijiadeshuyuanbiandikaihua，nvziyekeruxue，yekekeju。zhenzhi，yetiedengjishugongyiguangfantuiguang，jishuzaiyebushizangzheyezhe，yishizhijian，qiuyueguoxianqileyigusixianghexuexidelangchao。
buguannannvlaoshao，zhongshenxuexi。
但好景不长。
songchengfengzailiufangtuzhongjingrantaozoule，zaichuanbaojingchenglexibeimanyidemoushi，buluogongzhuxiajia，chengweilemanyidezhunfuma。
tayongqiuyueguodedixingtuzuoweijiaohuan，fangdanbeixingengshirangmanyiruhuozhibao。
zheizhongbeixinbujinqingbian，fangyunengliyeshijijia，xibeimanyiduoyimazhan，qingbiandekaijiahuirangtamendongzuoqingyinghenduo。
chulezheixie，jiangluofuyoushizongle。
zheicibushitayoujihuadiqianrudijunzhenying，zhanbaoshuo，tashibeibirujuejing，zhongshangluoruxuanya。
suiranmeiyousouxundaotadeshishen，dankongpashiriwuduo。
wofengleyiyangdichongdaolenggong，qiansisizuijiaodeyouhaimeiyoucaganjing，takanjianwo，lianmangwanghoutuilejibu。
“baitinglan，nizheiyanghaoheren。”
“shuo。fangdanyishiruhe**de！songchengfenghaizhidaoshenme！”
wozhuazhuqiansisidejianbang，lishenghezhe，diyicizairenqianshiletai。
“jiushiyonglvbanjiamian，huibijinjiagengqingbian，shadidongzuogengqingying，waimiankeyifengheshangduogekoudai，daidianlajiaoshui，bishoushenmede，yehenfangbian。”
qiansisituntuntutu，yebugandanwu，yongbizaizhishanghuachulefangdanyideyangshi。
“chulefangdanyi，nihaishuoleshenme？”
wojiaorenkuaimajiabianjiangfangdanyideshiyangtujisongquyanzhi，wobixuhaiyaozhidaosongchengfenghaizhidaolenaxiemifa。
“e，haishuoledengbilihuitu，gangganyuanli……”
wojiantayouyouyuyu，kendinghaiyouwobuzhidaode。
“womeiyoushijiangennihaozaizheier。nideshoufudaren，nidexianggong，rujinpanguo！
“xiangdangchuqiuwoyiyang，qiuqulemanyibuluodegongzhu！”
“nibushishuo，yishengyishiyishuangren？tabeipannikemeiyouyidianyouyu。”
wojiantalengzhengbanshang，yuanyuandeyankuanghongdeciyan，yanleiruduanlexiandezhenzhu，didihualuo。
zhongyuhaishirenbuzhuyongshoucaletayanjiaodelei，huanhuanshuodao：“qiansisi，nigaixingle，tabingbushinideliangren。”
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qiansisiguoranshigedabaozang。
tashuo，songchengfengdefangdanyishiyongrou-ruandemianbuzuode，suiranshuoyouyidingdefanghuli，danhuipahuo。
zhiyaoshaodiaowaiyi，lvbanjiuhuidiaoluo。
ruoshiyongjinshusixianzhichengwaitao，taozhulvban，xiaoguohuigenghao。
wowenqiansisiweishenmehuizheimezhudongdibangwomen。
qiansisishuo：“shehuizhuyihexinjiazhiguanjidema？aiguoshimeiyigegongmindejibensuyang！panguodedoujiwosi！”
“woyizhijuedeshoufushinanzhuneishibiaopei，meixiangdao，xiaoshuolidedoushipianrende！pei！”
“yaozhan，chelie，lingchi，yishou，pengzhu，gongxing，yuexingzheixiedouyaoyongzaitadeshenshang！”
“什么玩意儿！”
“渣男，辣鸡！”
……
yishizhijian，wojingxiangjitapaishouguzhang。
yindelehuangdideenzhun，woheqiansisiyilubeishang，chulejiangsuoxudewuzisongdajunying，haijisongchengfengzhunbeileyifendali。
zhuzhadejunyingzaijulimuchengdeyibailiwai，shoujundejiangshishuo，“manyiruchengbirantucheng，shaoshaqianglve，shirenmingrucaojie。dangchumuchengbeikunshijiri，chengzhongdanjinliangjue，shijiangdasimatuweierchu，cairangyibufenbaixingdeyitaotuo。”
“zhishi……jiangdasimaqueyincisangleming。”
xibeidehanfengsinve，gouhuozaifengzhongzizizuoxiang，shibushibengchuyixiehuoxinglai。
wojiezhegouhuokanzhezhouweideshibing，tamenyoudeshangleyanjing，youdemeilegebo，youdemeiletui，danshitamendemuguangjianding，yanshenzhuozhuo。
tamenkandeshiyuanchuderucheng，kandeshihuimiejiaxiangdechouren，kandeshiqianqianwanwandebaixing。
wohuranyixiazimingbai，zaitamendeyanzhong，jiangluofushitamendeyingxiong，tadejingshen，chengweileshibingmendexinyang。
“weidasima-baochou！”
“weidasima-baochou！”
“weidasima-baochou！”
shengyinzheneryulong，rumianqiandexiongxiongliehuo，yixiazijiangwoquanbuqinran！
wokaishihouhui，huoxu，woneiribugaishuo……zaiyebujiande。
“neigezhuinidedasimaganjuehaibucuoa。”
qiansisizoudaowoshenbianlai，tuiletuiwodebeibang，meiyousihaodeliyiguiju。
“什么追……”
我瞪她一眼。
“nidouzhidaoneimeduowomenneigeshidaideshi，zenmehuibuzhidaozhuideyisi。tazheizhongzhinan，zhuinvrendoubuhuishuodianhaotingde，nayourenjiandaonvhaizijiushuoyaojiehunde。danshiyehao，zuiqimabuhuixiangsongchengfengzheigezhananhuayanqiaoyu，kaonvrenshangwei。”
qiansisiwaizhetoukanwo：“neitiantaweilejinichuqi，haishuoyaoquwo。xishengzheimeda，doumeigandongni？”
“ta……tabuguoshiyinweidangchuzhaoxukaoshi，woxuanlediermingdesongchengfeng，meixuantabaofuwobale。”
buzhiweihe，wojingranbeiqiansisidingdelianjiafare，zheixibeidehanfengdoumeibanfarangtatunqu。
“wokebujuede，yigerenrenjingyangdedasimahuiyinweiyicishilijiubaofuyigenvren。zaishuo，dangnidezhangfu，keshiyaofangqihenduodongxide。zhishao，tadoubunengshizhanzijidebaofule，bushima？”
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chengruqiansisisuoshuo，baijiasuiranshiqiuyueguozuigaoguideshizu，danruguoshinanziruzhuijinbaijia，bidingshibaijiajiayedekuilei，xianzhiyuci，wufayouzijidetiandi。
woxiangderushen，queyouxiangzheneirijiangluofubeibitiaoxiaxuanya……
xinzhongbeijiaodenanshou，buxiangbeiqiansisikanjian，qishencongconglikaihuidaoyingzhangzhizhong，meiyoutingdaotamenzaiwoshenhouqieqiesiyu。
“woshibushiyoushuocuohuale？”
“dasimadouyijingxisheng，ninzheimeshuo，bushirangguniangshangxinma？”
“zheizheizhei，woyebushiguyidea……”
……
yinzhixiaosongchengfengyijingjiangditujiaochuqule，fanxianglaishuo，datizhidaoletamengongdadefangxiang，xibeimanyiduoweiqibing，suoyidangxiajiujuedingcongmapirushou。
mapixuyaodaliangdegancao，dangancaorongyizhehuo。
yushibingfensanlu，daduirenmazairuchengxiyinhuoli，lingpaiyizhixiaoduiwuzaichengyangxiaodaolanjieliangcao，zuihoudezhipaiwurenxiaoduiqushaodiaomanyidegancaoduo。
ruchengdazhan，zhanhuomiman，shuangfangjiesunshicanzhong，yishizhijianjiangchibuxia。
woyeshidiyicijianxuezhanroubo，xianxuelinzaizhanqishang，piaosanzailangyanzhizhong；
diyicijianhengshibianye，tamenxinhuaizhuangzhilaicongjun，biyandeshihou，kesitaxiang，lianyifuwanzhengdeshigudoushisheqiu。
yezhiyouzaizheili，renmingrucaojie，buzaishixingrongci。
wokandaoqiansisizaiwoshenbianwuwudiku，tashuo：“wobuyao……wobuyaozaizheierle……taikepale，wuwuwu……jiubunengbudazhangma？hepingyidianerbuhaoma？”
和平……谈何容易？
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jingxideshi，chuledaduiwuzhiwai，lingwailianggexiaofenduidoudeleshou，manyimapimeiyougancao，shouruobushao，manyimeiyouliangshizhinengshimaguofu。
双方僵持一月有余。
zuihousongchengfengtichuhetan，danshiyaowoheqiansisiruchengyutamianduimianhetan。
“不能去！”
qiansisibiaoshifandui，zhujianghuangjiangjunyejuedebukexing。
“liangfanghetan，buzhanlaishi，buhuiyouwentide。”
“zhiyaowomenzaijianchijianchi，tamenjiuhuibuzhanerjiang。”
“ruoshitamenpinjinquanli，zuihouhaishihuisihenduoren。hetanshizuikuaidejiejuebanfa。”
worengranjianchi，“erqie，wozhishiyigeshangreneryi，zheiliyouhuangjiangjunzai，youqianqianwanwandejiangshizai，meiwentide。”
“ruoshiwozhenchuleshenmeshi，jizhu，buyaoshoutamendeweixie，yijianshesiwojike。”
qiansisijianwojianjue，zhidaoquanbuhuilai，tahenhendituilewoyixia。
“baitinglan，nizhenshirangrentaoyan！”
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我一人只身入汝城。
ruchengneihengshifuchou，echoujidurangwozuoou，kezuizhonghaishijianchidaojiandaolesongchengfeng。
“baitinglan，haojiubujian。”
songchengfengcongneitangzouchulai，xianxiachuanzhemanyitezhidehupiao，waimiantaoleyicengfangdanyi，huchamanlian，yanwoshenshenaoxianjinqu，zaoyibushidangniandeyiqifengfadeshoufudaren。
“好久不见。”
wozhanzaiyuandi，tasuirangaoda，danxiguanlefushikanta，yixiazijingmeigaiguolai。
“baitinglan，nizhidaowozuitaoyannishenmema？jiushinixianzaikanwodeyanshen。xiangkanyigechongwu，meiyousihaodezunzhong！nigenbenjiubuzhidaoshenmejiaozuozunzhong！”
songchengfengmengdipaileyixiazhuozi，shengyinzhouranbianda，ruoshipangren，ziranbeitaxianzaizheifuyangzihuzhule。
kexitamianduideshiwo，woketailejietale。
“songchengfeng，ruguonijuedezijishichongwu，neiyewukehoufei。buguo，jinri，woshilaihetande，bingbushitingnilaishuozheixiefeihuade。”
“heng，baitinglan，niyiweinixianzaihaichudequma？”
songchengfengyigeyanshen，bianrangpangbiandeshibingjiangwoshenhouderenjikouyaleqilai。
wojianzhuang，yazhuneixindejinghuang，jueduibunengzaisongchengfengmianqianluqie。
“liangfanghetan，buzhanlaishi。woquannizuihaobabugaiyoudexinsidoushouqilai。”
“哈哈哈哈！”
songchengfengkankanshenbianderen，huransuoyourendouxiaoleqilai。
“哈哈哈……”
“nimenzhongyuanrenjiangdeneixieguiju，duiwomenkebuheshi！nimenbushishuowomenshimanyima？jinri，jiurangnijianshijianshi！”
qizhongyigelianshangdaizhedaobadezhuanghanzhengyuxiangwozoulai，manlianjianxiezhise。
quebeisongchengfengjilanzhule：“dengdeng，liuzhetahaiyouyong。”
“shuo！nimenbaijiadejiazhukeyinzainali？”
womengditaiyankanta！tajuranzhidaojiazhudiaoyin！
delebaijiajiazhudiaoyin，biankediaodongbaijiasuoyoudezichanherenmai，yikaozheixie，songchengfengbiranlongluozhumanyishoulingdexin，ersanbaiyunianlai，qiuyueguohuangshihebaishixianzufeijinxinxuechuanglideguojiayehuiqianchuangbaikong，manmuchuangyi。
“不可能！”
“yuyigenvrenfeihuaneimeduozuoshen！xianshale，batadetouluguazaichengqiangzhishang，rangzheixierendoukankan，womenkebushihaoqifude！”
yipangdedaobananrendedaojiazaiwodebozishang，zhiyaowoshaoweidongyixia，neidaojianbianhuihuapowodehoulong。
wodiyiciganjuedaosiliworucijin。
“songchengfeng！meixiangdaonilianzuihoudeyidianlianchidoubuyaole！yaoshabiansha！wobaishinvzi，qishitanshengpasizhibei！”
“xiangsi？zenmekeneng！baishinvkedayouyongchu，mingri，wobianjiangnideyifutuole，zhiguayuchengmenzhishang，yebuzhitamenkandaozuoheganxiang？”
songchengfengniezhewodexiaba，manshibaofudeyishixianzhengningzhise。
“你卑鄙！”
wopeileyikoutandaosongchengfengdelianshang，tabunufanxiao，chaofengdehuahaimeishuochukou，wobianjuedeyizhenfengcongwoerbianhuxiaoerguo！
yigeyuangunluozaidishang，suijifachuqiangliedenongyan！shiyanwudan！
zaitaitoukansongchengfeng，yiganhongyingzhangqiangzhizhididingrusongchengfengdexiongtang！
tamanyancuoe，lianxuedouweicengjianchujidi。
“有刺客！”
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woyankanzheyirenchaozheyingmianbenlai，tashenzheheiyijingzhuang，lianjiayoushouruojingganlejifen。
bujiasisuo，talanzhuwodeyao，jiangwohuzaishenhou，qingshengduiwoshuodao：“haohaodaizhe。”
wozuoshouyiquanzhengzhongqianlaigongjidedaobanandelian，duoguotashoulidezhangdao，madao：“worennihenjiule！”
jiangluofuzanshangdikanwoyiyan，dao：“lidugoule，jiqiaobuzu，wojiaoni。”
yushiwojianjiangluofuzhuanshen，tengkong，feiti，luojiaoyiqihecheng，zuojiaozhijieluozaineidaobanandelianshang，henhennianyalejixia。
“是不是很帅？”
tayibianchaozhewobiaoqingshifenqianzou，yibianzhuantoutouruzhandou，direnyuanyuanbuduanyongru。
wojiantacongrongyingdui，zhangqiangyudaojianxiangkang，fachu“chengcheng”jinming，dangzhenrangwokandaoletayiyidibaidemoyang。
houlaiwocaizhidao，jiangluofutiaoyashizaoyouanpai，cifanhehuangjiangjunliyingwaihe，chuqibuyi，suiranxianxianghuansheng，danzongguishiyoujingwuxian。
qiansisideyanwudanhelajiaodanzaizhanchangshangqiledazuoyong，xibeimanyiyouruchengkaishichetui，wangtucongbianjiezhouweichenghuanbaogongjiqiuyueguo。
keyoulejiangluofuzai，qiuyuejunduiyuezhanyueyong，shirupozhu，genbenbujimanyijihui，fanerdadetamenlianlianqiuhe。
youlezhiqiandeneicihuiyue，jiangluofujiejikaishisuoyaoxibeimaoniu，mapi，hutongshangyedeng，yaoqiuniannianshanggong，zheshidachuxue。
wozezaidouchengyingjietakaixuanerlai。
jiangluofushangchaoshoufenghoujianwodiyijuhuabianshishuowoweitaqianlisongfangdanyi，youdayifusidemoyangzeihaokan，yinyuantianzhuding。suoyikanwonengbunengkaolvtayixia。bukaolvshuobuguoqu。
womeidaying，zhishuorangtajiaowolianqiang。
woniangshuodehaishibudui，zheichishoukongquan，zhongjiudabuguonabingqide。
19jiangluofubixuyaoshuodehua
neiniankaoshi，wozhunbeilehenjiu。
woconghenzaoyiqianjiuzhidaobaitinglanle，tashiwojianguozuihaokandexiaoguniang，liandanyuanyuande，bai**nen，tairangrenxiangnieyibale。
dangbaijiachuzhaoxukaoshideshihou，wodiyigebaodeming。
kaoshizhiqian，wogenwoniangshuohaole，jialifanzhengneimeduoerzi，buchawozheiyige，yihouwoyeshiyouniangziderenle。
lingwogenggaoxingdeshi，wonaletouchou。
neiriwojianxiaofentuanzizoudaowomianqian，wokandaotadexiaoshoupanghuhude，tashenshouxiangyaoqianwo。
我却木住了。
woyijinzhangbianmeiyourenhebiaoqing，shoujiaobingleng，bantiandoumeiyoushenchushou，qulatade。
mingming……zheikeshiwoxiangleyizhengniandexiaoshou！
ranhou，wojiukandaodiermingneigegouzeipengdeyishengguizaidishang，shuozheqiuguniangkelianzhileidehua！
kelianwodexiaokeaijingranqingxinlechanyan！
我落选了。
我没媳妇儿疼了。
都怪我自己不争气！
wokuleyizhengwan，woniangxiaolewoyizhengwan。
buguo，tayouyijuhuadianxinglewo，wendebuxinglaiwude，rangtachenniyuwodenanxingmeili，jiuhuijuedegouzeineiyangdexiaobailianshizaimeishenmekantou。
我深以为然。
yushiwopinminglianwu，dazhang。zaijunduilidequexuedaolehenduo，zuipiziyelisuolehenduo。
kejiushimeicitajiandaowodoushifenxianqi。
daodinalichulewenti，wobudong。
danzonggui，woniangshuodeshiduide，xiaokeaihaishichenmiyuwonanxingmeilizhixiale，zheiganjuezeihao。
20钱思思的不甘心
wochuanyueerlai，yuanbenyiweizijinaleshunvnixidejuben，congdoudimu，dadijie，yudaoshoufudaren，yishengyishiyishuangren。
nalixiaode，baitinglanshuo，yiqianyouhaojigechuanyuenvlaiguo，haigenbaishijiuchanbuqing。
于是，我真相了。
zheigejubenzaojiubengtale，zuozhegujikandiyigenanzhu，yejiushishoufudarenbushunyan，rangnanpeishangweile。
可苦了我了……
wozaigonglichulechifan，jiushibeishu，baitinglansihuduizhengzhitebieganxingqu。
yaozhidao，woyigexuefuzhuangshejibiyedezhongzhuanshengbeizhongxiaoxueshengxingweizhunzedaoshikeyi，fangnishuiliubuzhunyexing，wozhengzhilandeyipi，kexianzaiwoxuyaozhengzhijiuming。
唉……
wanwanmeixiangdao，baitinglanjuranhuibawobeidezhongxiaoxueshengzhunzetuiguangchuqu，erwoyechengweileyimingzhiyixiansheng，meitianjiaojiaoyixiexiaohaizixuexijishu，hainengjiechudaogudaidejingzhangongyi，shenghuoguodedaoshitingzirunde。
ruguo，woderenshengzhongmeiyouchuxiansongchengfengzheigezhananjiugenghaole。