第二章 自欺欺人

“qiua,ni……”benlaixingchongchongdexianggaosuyuqiuhaoxiaoxideguanxuyipaileyixiatadejianbang,jiangyuanbenzaihekafeidetabanzhuanshen,hudezhengzhu,shengyinyehaoxiangbeitundiaoyiyangjiaranerzhi。

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“en?”yuqiulanlandetaiyanyikan,sihaobuzaiyitadeshitaibaoluzaitademianqian。zaitamianqianconglaibuyongyanshi,chule……neijianshi。

“zenmelea?”liangjiudengbudaodaandeyuqiuyouxieyihuo,daidaolianshangdeleishuiwanquanfengganlezhihoucaizhenzhengzhengyankanlekanyanqianzheinanren,jurankandaozheinanrenjiaozhuzijizhihouzhanzaiyuandifadai,yishizhijianyebuzhidaozenmebanle,xiangyaowenzenmele,huranfaxianzijimeiyouzige,daolekoubiandehuayixiazitunlehuiqu。

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“……e,qiunizenmele?”roushengyiwen,haobulinsedefuchuwenroushixuyiduidainvrendefangshi。genghekuangduifanghaishizijirenshilebaniandesidang。

“ng?shenme?”liangliangdeyiwen,meitingqingchuxuyishuoleshenme,anmazijihuachideyuqiuzaiyicimishizaiayibuzijuedewenrouzhong。

“wowen,nizaikushenme?”haopiqidexuyiyouzhongfuleyibian,chouqishengsiqi,yuqiuzheicaizhuyidaozaikafeidianyangtaishangdetamenzaoyichengweizhongrenzhumudejiaodian,zhunquedeshuo,tamenzhushidezhiyouguanxuyiyiren。

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