第1章,我不后悔

zhireconghoubeimanmandebaoweiguolai,shiredehuxijinshizaierpan,“diyici?”

moshengdeqixiyingraozaierpan,lingrensesefadou,quebuganchusheng。

linxinyansihuganjuedaonanrendunleyixia,erhouzaicixiangqitadeshengyin,“xianzaihouhuihailaideji。”

tajinzhangdezuanjinshuangshou,yaoyaotou,“wobuhouhui——”

tashibasui,zhenghaonianhua,que……

痛!

siliebandetongchurangtazainanrenhuailidouledou。

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tahaosibuhuilei,qianghandegongzhantademeiyicunjifu,zheiyiyetongkuermanzhang……

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jiudiandelouxia,zhanzhejieshaotazheibishengyidezhongniannvren,kanjianlinxinyanzouchulai,dijitayigeheisededaizi,“zheishinidebaochou。”

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yishengtanlekouqi,“buhaoyisi,nididiyijingmeijiule……”

没救了?!

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tong,xiongkouxiangshibeirenyongdaozizaijiaodong,tongdechouchujingluantanzuozaidishang,banianqian,tashisui,babachuguipaoqiletamama,bashenhuaiyouyundemamahetaqiansongdaozheirenshengdibushudeguowai。

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妈妈需要她。

jingguozhiliao,mamashentihaozhuan,danshizhidaodididesi,zhenggerendoubengkuile。

shilinxinyan,baozheta,kuzheshuo,“ma,nihaiyouwo,weilewohaohaohuozhe。”

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zheishengyintashu,jishiyijingshigebanian,tayijiujideqingchutabizhemamahetalihundeyangzi。

batamensongdaozheililaiyihou,congweilaikanguotamenyiyan,jintianquehuranchuxianzaizheilishishenmeyisi?

“zijin,dangchunihezongjiafurenqingtongjiemei,dinglewawaqin,andaolilaishuonidingdewawaqinyinggaiyounidenverlaichujia……”

“linguoannishenmeyisi?!”zhuangzijinshenxingxiaoshoubugushenshanghaiyoushang,zhengzhazheqilaiyaodata,tahaishirenma?

batahenveranzhizaizheirenshengdibushudeguidifang,congweiguanguotamendesihuo,jintianyilaijiushiyaotanverjiaren?

“zongjiadashaoye,yeshinihaopengyoudeerzi,zhangdehao,zongjiademendinishizhidaode,jiaguoquzhihuixiangfu……”shuodaohoumiantadeshengyinxiaolexiaqu。

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嫁过去就是守活寡。

“我嫁。”

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neiyoujialidexiaonverrerenxihuan。

xinzhongdeburenjianlejifen,bijingtazhangdebushineimehaokan,jiusuanjiajiyigebunengrendaodezhangfuyebuhuitaiweiqu。

zheimeyixianglinguoanyebujuedeyoushenmebuhaole,“shenmetiaojian,nishuo。”

“woyaohemamahuiguo,bashuyumamadedongxiquanbuhaijiwomen,wojiudayingnijiaguoqu,”linxinyanfanfanfufuzuanjinshou,manmancaipingjingxialai。

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danshijiusuanshizheiyang,duitalaishuoqueshiyigenenghuiguodehaojihui,liyonghao,hainengduohuimamapeijiaguoqudecaichan。

“yanyan……”zhuangzijinxiangyaoquanshuota,hunyindashibukewanxiao。

tagenzhezijiyijingchilehenduoku,bunengrangtalianhunyinyepeijinqu。

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“mamadepeijiani?”linxinyankanzhezheigetamingyishangdefuqin,shengyinbinglengwubi。

dangchuzhuangzijinjiajitashihou,queshiyoubushaojiazhuang,neishiyibibushaodeshumu,xianzairanglinguoannachulaishifenrouteng。

“ba,woneigemeimeiyinggaizhangdehenpiaoliang,tayinggaiyongyougenghaode,ruoshijiajigeshentiyouquexiandenanren,yibeizijiuwanle,genghekuang,nihewomayijinglihunle,niyinggaiguihaitadaidaolinjiadeqiancai。”

linguoanmuguangshanduoxinxudebugankanta。

tachangnianzaiguowaizenmehuizhidaoneigezongjiadashaoyeshigeshentibuxingdezhu?

linguoannalizhidao,linxinyanbuguoshicaice。

xiangdaotayaojiadeshigebuzhengchangdenanren,linguoanyaoleyaoya,“dengnijiaguoqu,jiujini。”

taxiaonverruhuasiyu,zenmenengjiagebunengrendaodenanren?

zaizungui,bunengxingfuqizhishi,hefeirenyoushenmequbie?

xiangdaozheililinguoanyebuneimenanshoule。

danshixinliduilinxinyanyoutaoyanlejifen,yixinjiuzhixiangzhecongtashoulibaqian。

linguoanlenglengdeqiaotayiyan,“nimameibanijiaoyanghao,yidianlimaobudong!”

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danshitazheigeshihoubunengshuo,tadechoumatairuo,jinulelinguoanduitameihaochu。

“zhunbeiyixia,mingtianhuiqu。”linguoanyishuaiyixiulikaibingfang。