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xiangaiwunian，woweinvyoudianranquanchengdeyanhua。
taquechuanzhewosongjitadelifu，zaizhumashengriyanshangqiaoxiaoyanran。
“jinzhou，kuaikan，woweinizhunbeideshengriliwuxihuanma？”
tamingmingchengnuoguohuilaishandingzhaowo，dayingwodeqiuhun。
quezaiwojitadadianhuashi，huangchengzijizaigongsijiaban。
zhidaowoturanzaoyuyiwai，zhuixiashanya，nvyoucaizhongyuhouhuile。
“gusheng，nikeqianwanbunengyoushi，wohaiyaohenijiehunni。”
kewoquebujidetashisheile。
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“gusheng，niyouzainaoshenmepiqi！”
“guawodianhua！haibazijinongchengzheiyang，nishenmeshihoucainengchengshudian！”
gandaoyiyuandejiangshuyuezhouzheliumei，yikaikoujiushizhizeyuhechi，yidianyemeiyoumianduibingrendedanyouheguanxin。
我早已经习惯了。
keyuanbenmamudexinkouhaishiyinyinzuotong。
wolianshangluchukuxiao，buzijuedezuanjinshou，shengyinzhandou。
“neinini？niyouweishenmeyaoguaduanwodedianhua？”
cikedewoquanshendouzaiteng，huixiangqiyishengdaizheyihandehuagengshirangwohunshenfaleng。
“xigaifensuixingguzhe，napazhihaole，dagaiyehuiliuxiahouyizheng，nibunengzaipanyanle。”
“kexi，yaoshizaolainapayigexiaoshijiuhaole......”
womuguangkongdongdewangzhetianhuaban，xinliyongqinongnongdexinsuanhekuse。
yigexiaoshiqian，wozaijijiangshuyuedaqiujiudianhua。
neishiwozaiyinweibaoyuheshandian，daozhixinhaoxiaoshiqianweiyinengbotongdejinjilianxirendianhua。
kejietonghou，shitachongmanlengmohebunaidehuifu。
“wozaigongsikaihui，xiayulenijiuzaishandingduoduobujiuhaolema，jiwodadianhuaganshenme？”
tamingmingjiuzaishanjiaoxiapeianjinzhouguoshengri，quesahuangzaigongsi。
gengshimeijiwoshuomingqingkuangdeshijian，jiuzhijieguaduanledianhua，qiaduanlewozuihoudeqiujiujihui。
mingmingwocaishitananpengyoua。
zaiyiqiwunianle，tacongmeijiwochoubeiguoyicishengri，maiguoyikuaidangao。
queweianjinzhoubaoxialezuihaodexicanting，shenzhibuxijiangwopiandaoshandingfangyanhuajiduifangqingsheng。
ruguobushiwohualuoshanyashi，pengqiaozazaishushang，kongpawozhenggerendouhuibeishuaichengsuipian。
danwoyeweicifuchulecantongdaijia。
woyihoubunengzaizuopanyanyundongyuanle。
我的未来，没了。
“wobushishuolewozaikaihuima，nayoushijian？”
jiusuanshikandaolewodazheshigao，rengranshenchuxuejidetui，jiangshuyueyejinshisaoleyiyan，yuqiyijiubunai。
“suanle，wogongsihaiyoudianjishi，nixianhaohaoxiuxiba......”
shuoba，taguoduanzhuanshenlikai，fangfoduoliuyimiaoduitalaishuodoushilangfei。
wangzhetaliqudebeiying，wokuxiaoleyisheng。
wobenyiweizijiyijingtanranjieshoulebianchengcanfei，yupanyanwuyuandeshishi。
kejiandaojiangshuyuedeshunjian，xinliqueyouyongqibugan。
我不知道该怪谁？
ziji，haishijiangshuyue，youhuozheshianjinzhou？
dancikedewoqueshibuzijuezuanjinchuangdan，xinlifahan。
zheijiushiwoailewunian，qiuhunsanniandenvren。
tajizhelikai，zuilishuozhegongsiyoushi，kewozaojiuzhidaotayaoquganshenme。
anjinzhouyijinggaosuwole。
shoujishangshianjinzhouaitewodepengyouquanxiaoxi。
【zhishiyidianxiaoshang，da**jiuxintengchengzheiyang，yougeaizijidenvrenzhendehenxingfu。】
peitushijiangshuyuejiaojideminglingyisheng，baozhaanjinzhoushoushangbiwenzihaixiaodeshangkoudezhaopian。
tabingbushilaiyiyuankanwode，ershipeizheanjinzhou，shunlueryi。
yeshi，zaitaxinli，anjinzhoushizhongpaidiyi。
而我？
zaitaxinlijiushinaopiqibuchengshudefeiwu。
botongdianhua，woshenxikouqi，qiangrenzheteng，yuqipingjing。
“jiaolian，quwaidiqingxunjididemingehaiyouma？woxiangshenqing。”