第五章渡春河（5）
xiejinghengsongwodezanzihaisanzhebingtoudeguang，wozaizhangxinliquebinglengdihairen。
yongwangzaofandedisitian，pinglexiejinghengdefudi，liandaizhexiejinghengdeneidangdouchanchuleganjing，liufangdeliufang，shatoudeshatou。
tingwenxingxingdeneitian，chaofengdafujuxianghuminggaoshangcang，yongwangshaxiongshifu，bizaofanshi，bainianwuzi，siwuquanshi！
yongwangshahongleyan，lianzhuneiweidafusanzu，yishizhijianchaoyehandong，jingchenghuangkong。
huaniangjiangzheixiezhanzhanjingjingdigaosudewoshihou，woduanqichabei，ananjingjingdizhenleyibeicha。
"然后呢？"
“zhihoubianshixiangshuoyebunengshuole，ruoshibeiyouxinrentingqu，canwoyixia，wodaoshiwusuowei，shenxiawuqinren，biejiaolianleilenimencaihao。”
huaniangshiyanzhiloudetoupai，shilao.baocongsirenduilijianlaide，lao.baoyangzhetazhangda，yeshiwomenzheiqunjiemeidejiejie，suirannianjijiubiwomendaliangsui，danyanranshijiejiedemoyang。
wogangdaoyanzhiloudeshihou，tajianwonianjikanshangquxiao，youbeiqifu，meishaoguanxinwo，toutoumomodaihaochidelaikanwoshichangyoudeshiqing。
zhishidangshidewo，meiyoushenmeshengdeyizhi，duitadehaopaozhunaohou。
我只想苟活着。
wokanzhebeizilijianjianxuankaidelvcha，dandandiwen，“jiejierihouyaozuoshenme？tingshuoyanzhilouyaojiesanle。”
zheijianshiqingshizaisixialichuankaide，yongwangchuzhileyiduihexiejinghengyouranderen，haizaizhuichacengjinghexiejinghengyouqianlianderen，xiejinghengzhiqianyinweiwomeishaolaiyanzhilou，yaoshizhendechaqilai，yanzhiloulideyiduirennantaochufa。
rujinjingchengxingshibuhao，lao.baoyeyouzheyaojinpenxishoudeyisi，wuniangheliuniangzhiqianbeiyongwangshoudixiaderenkanzhong，zheiliangtianneibianderenyijinglaizhaolao.baotanle，yaoshoutamenlianggerenzuoxiaoqie。
lao.baoyeshishizidakaikou，yibailianghuangjinfangleren。
“jiuyibailiangyinzinijiuxianmule？neiri，xiexiaowang......neigeren，takeshihualezhengzhengwubailianghuangjincaibanishuchulaide，nia，bitamendouguini！”
我眼皮一跳。
xiejinghengcongmeigaosuwoshuwohualezheimeduo，tazhishuoshiyidianxiaoqian。
wocaizhidao，woduitadelejiebuguofengmaolingjiao，shaodebunengzaishao。
jianwoxinqingdiluolexialai，huaniangpengqiwodelian，ruanshenganwei，“meishide，huiguoqude，daoshihouwomengenzhesunniangyiqihuixiangxia，worangtadaizheni，nineimenenggan，tabuhuipaoxianide。”
woyangqitou，yanjingmingliangdizhushizheta，“huaniang，nixiangbuxiangguohaorizi？xiangbuxiangchurentoudi？”
huaniangxianranmeidongwodeyisi，“shenme？”
我一字一句，很重。
“genwoyiqijingong，wobanisongshanghuanghoudeweizhi。”