第二章
shiwusuideshihouwojiapochan，fumuchengshoubuzhuyaliconggaolouyiyueerxia，woconggaogaozaishangdefujiaqianjinyixiachengweilewufuwumudekelianchong。
cengjingneixiecuyong、bajiewoderenniutouhuanlefuzuilian。
meilewangrisunjiadaxiaojiedeshenfen，wochengletarenqirudeduixiang，youqicengjingneixieandikanbuguanwoderengengshixiaozhangwubi。
woxiangguokenenghuifashengzheizhongjieju，yechangshijieshou，kexianshiyuanbixiangxianggengxiongcanyixie。
wojianjiao，qiurao，douwujiyushi。
zuihouzhinengwulidekanzheandaowubiandeyese，chedijiangrentunmei。。。
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我自杀了。
但是没死。
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shijiantaiguoelie，yourentoutoubaolejing，danshidangshisuoyoucanyurendeshengridouzaixiabanxueqi，julishibasuihaichaneimeliangsangeyue。
zheimezuogenbenmeijitamenzheixierendailaishenmechengfa。
xiangfan，tamenbabudenaqianlaizawo。
zuihoutamenjiwopeilebushaoqian，fuyanwubidedaoleqian。
wodaoxianzaidoujidetamenshuodehua，“xingle，nijiadoupochanle，zhei20wannixingxianzaiyinggainenghuahenjiuba？nibiewangle，nixianzaikeshiqiongguangdan，womenjiniqianshizaibangni，nigaiganxiewomen。biebuzhihaodaixingma？”
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jiyihuilong，wodaidaidekanzheshoujipingmu，jinguanyanleiyijingmohuleshixianwoyouxiekanbuqing，danyijiuyongshoubutingdexiahuazhepingmujiemian。
tamenliaolehenduohenduo，zuikaishishiyinianqian，congyixiejiandandegongzuoneirongdaohoumiandehuxiangwenhou。
zaihoulaitamenkaishihuxiangfenxiangxiewanguodejubenshahechiguobucuodecanting，zhidaobannianqian，manmanfaxianlekongshenqishiyounvpengyou。
tamencongzhiqiandetaolunmanmanzhuanyidaolewodeshenshang，bannianshijian，kongshenhuanmande，jiangtashenyongwubideguowang，wanwanquanquandejiangshujilemanmanting。
jiangtaruhejiuwoyushuihuo，rutongtianshenjianglinbankanzhewoxiesidili，jiangtabulibuqidepeibanwosannianduguodigushiqi，ranhouliangrenzaiyiqi。
kongshengaosumanmantaqishibingbuxihuanwo，danshiyoukanbudeyigenvshengzaoshouzheiyangdadewuru，dangnianbaojingdeshita，jiuwochukuhaideshita。
tashuowoquanyuzhihou，maomaoranlikaihou，pawoshoubule。
shuoneimezuodehuagenzhongxinjiangwotuirushenyuanyoushenmequbie？
ha……woyiweidejiushu，woyiweidexiangzhixiangshouxiangbanxiangai，yuanlaidoushiwodeyixiangqingyuanheduitadetuolei。
kanwantamendesuoyouliaotianjilu，yijingjiejinlingchensidian，wotoutengyulie，keshiwuxinshuimian，wojiangmanmandeliaotiankuangshezhiweiweidu，youjitadeshoujichongshangdianfangzaichuangtouju，yigerenkaozaichuangbanshang，shuangmuwushendedingzheyangtaidechuangliankan。
chuangliandezheguangxinghenhao，yueguangyisidoutoubujinlai，wuneiheituantuandesihuxiangyaojiangworongruqizhong。
cengjingneiyangsixinliefeideguowangfangfojiuzaizuotian，neixiezhenshideshangtongyuxianzaixiangbi，sihuquanbuhuachengleshizhi。
wudian，tianyijingmengmengliangle，woxiachuangzoujinchufang，aolexiaomizhou，xialoumailebaozi。
weiliangdetianqiguoxiezhequanshen，woruyouhunbanmaiwanbaozishanglou，jinruwoshicaihouzhihoujuedefaxianyiwanshangwodoumeiyouweikongshencaxi。
woshilidejiuweisanquyixie，kongshenshuidehenshu，tadeshoujizhongxinliangleqilai，yijiushimanmanfaguolaidexinxi。
[manman：shenge，qilema？woshuibuzhele，najiadezaodianbijiaohaochi？youtuijiandema？]
guolejimiao，duimianyoufalaiyitiaoxinxi。