第一章
wodenvyouzuijinzongshimanlianleihen,duozhewozou,hetadeguimisihumimouzheshenme。
wocailehenjiu,zhinengcaichutashixianghewofenshou,huozhexiangwoqiuhun。
keshimeixiangdao,youyitianwojurankandaolefuzaiwotoudingdedanmu,
shangmianshuo,wodenvyoudelezhongbing,dasuanjiwoluzhiyixieshipindangzuotadesiqianzoumadeng。
haidasuanyongtachuguiledemingyihewofenshou,rangwozaoribuzainanguo。
zheizenmexing?napashirenshengdezuihouyike,woyeyaodaizaitashenbian。
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“woduibuqita......”tadeshengyinduanduanxuxu,daizhewufayizhidetongku。
lisijieqingpaizhetadebei,shengyindidejihutingbuqingchu:
“niyijingzuolezheimeduozhunbei,tanenglijiede。”
gangcongsushechulai,yizhuantou,
wokandaolenvyousongbaiwanzhengquansuozaitadeguimilisijiedehuailichouqi。
我的心猛地一沉。
taduibuqishei?zuoleshenmezhunbei?tacongbuqingyidiaoyanlei,gengbietirucishikong。
woxiangshangqian,quemeimaichuyibu。
jiaoxiadeluoyefachuweiruodeshengyin,woganjinpingzhuhuxi,duozaishuyingli。
jiuzaizheishi,yiduanwenzituranchuxianzaiwodeshiyeli:
“qiuzhu:wodelejuezheng,buxiangrangnanpengyounanguo,qingwendajiayoushenmejianyima?”
wodengdayan,zhouweidejingwufangfobeichoukong,zhishengxianeixiezixuanfuzaiyanqian。
woxiayishiroulerouyan,xiangquerenzijishibushikancuole。
danwenziyijiuqingxi,xiangkezaikongqizhong。
jiezhe,gengduowenziluxuchuxian:
——“gaosutanichuguile,rangtachedisixin。
dengtaqingxuwending,zaibaluhaodeshipinfajita,rangtamingbainideyongxin。”
——“louzhuzhenburongyi,zhuhaoyun。”
——louzhuhuifu:“xiexiedajia,wohuishishi。”
wodeshouzhijiangying,huxiyetingzhilejimiao。
zheishishenme?yishunjian,danmulide“louzhu”heyanqiandesongbaiwanzhongdiezaileyiqi。
songbaiwanzhendedelejuezheng?zhendezaichouhuazheizhonghuangtangyoujuewangdeshi?
bu,bukeneng。zheiyidingshiwoxiangduole。
tadeshentijiankangdehen,zuotianhaizaitushuguanbangwozhenglifuxiziliao;
tashineimeaiwo,zenmehuixiangzheyong“chugui”zheizhongshishanghaiwo?
keshizuijintadexingweiquerangwoshengyi:
tazongshibikaiwodemuguang,xiaorongyedandexiangyicengwu。
shoujicongbulishen,lianjiandandewenhouyechangchangcongcongdaiguo。
wozuanjinquantou,shituyaxiaxinlidehunluan,dandanmudeneirongquerutongwangudehuichen,yuecayuexianyan。
zheishi,lisijiechanfuzhesongbaiwanzhanqilai。tadelianmaizailisijiedejianbangshang,kanbuqingbiaoqing。
wobuganhuxi,zhinengyanzhengzhengkanzhetamendebeiyingxiaoshizailoudaokou。
diertian,wojiazhuangwushifasheng,yuetayiqichifan。
songbaiwanzuozaiwoduimian,dizhetou,shouzhiraozheshoujiqiaobianyuanzhuanquan。
tadeshenqingyouli,xiangshizaoyibazhuyilifangzailebiechu。
“nizuijinhaihaoma?”woguzuosuiyidiwen。
“tinghaode。”tataiyansaolewoyiyan,suijiditoujixubonongshouji。
wanfanchidechenmen,womeiyouwengengduo。
kedangyeshenrenjing,wodingzhetianhuabanshi,neixiedanmudewenziyicicifuxianzaiwodenaohai。
yuexiang,xinlidebuanyueshifanyongbuzhi。
ruguodanmulishuodeshizhende,taweishenmebugaosuwo?
ruguoshizhende,taweishenmeyaoxuanzheiyangjiduandefangshi?zheixiewentixiangchanraodexian,yuezhengzha,yuejin。
woxiangzhidaozhenxiang,queyouhaipamianduizhenxiang。