第2章 (1)我曾为你死去,又因你而活

(1)wocengweinisiqu,youyinnierhuo

jiandaoyigechuanshuoyijingsiquderen,gaiyoushenmefanying?

ruguozheigerencengshinixinkoudezhushazhi,erniweileta,xingshizouroubanhuoleliunian,ketaquehaoduanduande,haofawusun,shenzhihaizaijiudianlidianleyizhuozimeiweijiayao,bujinchidehanchanglinli,haishibushididuizhebiedenanrenxiaodeqianyanghouhe,yifumeixinmeifeidemoyang,niyougaiyoushenmefanying?

sunanbuzhidaobierenhuizenmeyang,zhizhidaozijidexincongzhenjingdaokuangxi、youdaofennu,ruguoshancheyiban,siguoqu,youhuoguolai。

“zenmele?”tongxingdeluolankandaosunanyanzhongdejingtaohailang,youxiehaoqidiwendao。

sunanquezhiruowangwen,turandabuwangqianzouqu,tazoudeneiyangji,fangfozhiyaowanyibu,jiuhuishiquxinzhongzhiaidezhenbao。

luolankanxiangsunandefangxiang,yuanchuzuozheyiduinannv,nandebeiduizheta,kanbudaorongmao,nvderongmaoqiaoli,mingmoushanlai,yishuangyanjingpushanpushande,xiangjiletianshangdexingxing,cishicike,tazhengxiaodeqianyanghouhe,zhenshi,ng,bandianxingxiangyewu,kequefenwaikeai。

gurankandaosunandeshihou,zhengwangzuiliguanlekouguozhi,tayigejinghe,bianbaguozhiqianglechulai。takedemanliantonghong,zuoyouzhangwangleyifan,xiangyaozhaogenengduodedier,ketahaimeihuanguojinglai,neirenyijingjinzaiyanqian。

gurangoujitiaoqiang,wuzhulianbianduojinlezhuozidixia。

“ai,ranranjie,nizenmele?dongxidiaozhuozidixiale?”zuotaduimiandeqinyubumingsuoyi,yihuodiwendao。

gurandelianyouxieniuqu,bupashenyiyangdeduishou,jiupazhuyiyangdeduiyou,tabujiaotamingzihuisima?

gurandehuxibuyoudejiculexie,tayijingkandaoletingzaitamianqiandeheisepixie,ketajiushibuganchuqu,shenzhibugantaitou。

taxiangguotamenhuizhongfeng,yeshexianglehenduochangjing,ketameixiangdaozhenyujianle,zijijingranhaishiheyiqianneiyangmeichuxi,mingmingtameiyouzuokuixinshi,ketajiushibuganjianta。

“guran,chulai。”sunanwanwanmeixiangdaoguranjiandaotadediyifanyingjingranshiduoqilai,dangxiahuomaosanzhang,ketahaishichenzhuqi,yaozheyahuanleyisheng。

lvedaishayadesangyincongtoudingxiangleqilai,daizhejiuweideshuxi,haishineiyanghaoting,keyoufangfoduolesicangsang。gurandexinzhanlezhan,youyuzhexiangyaotaitou,quehaishihaipa,jinguantazijiyebuzhidaozijidaodizaipashenme。

suoyitachenmolebanshang,meizheliangxinfourendao:“nirencuorenle……wobushiguran……”

qinyuhesunandoubeitadebuyaolianjijingdedailedai。

sunanshenshendixilekouqi,ranhouchaofuwuyuanzhaolezhaoshou:“mafanbazheizhangzhuozibankai。”

“biebiebie……wozheijiuchulai……”guranyiting,dunshijile,lianmangjiuyaopachulai,keyigecongmang,tadetoujiuzhuangdaolezhuoshang,tawuzhetoutongdeziyaliezui,turanfaxianmianqianguangxianyiliang——zhuozibeirenbankaile。

talenglengditaitou,yiyanjiukandaolezhanzaitamianqiandesunan。tachuanzheyishenjiancaideyidedingzhixizhuang,haishiheyiqianyiyangyingjunderangrenyibukaiyan,zhishi,zhiyoutazhidao,tacikewubowulandemeiyanxia,qishiyinzangzhetaotiandenuhuo。

keshi,tayoushenmehaoshengqideni?

dangchumingmingshitashuode——guran,zuihaozheibeizidoubiezairangwojiandaoni。

guranyouxieweiqu,tazheibushiweilebujitatianduma?

weiquguohou,guranyoujuedeyouxiejiong,tabuzhidaobierenyujianqiannanyoudouhuiyouxieshenmefanying,ketazhidaojueduibuhuixiangtazheiyangmeichuxididuojinzhuozidixia。

jianzhi,jianzhidiujinlenvrendelian。

zhengaonaozhe,shouwanyijingbeirenyibazhuazhu,neirenyishuangqingtoudemouzixiangshizhelehuo,sangyinliyiyouxieyaoyaqiechideweidao:“wojinijihuijieshi。”

guranxinxudizhuanlezhuanyanzhuzi,yuguangturanmiaodaocongxishoujianhuilaidehaoyouqinzhao,yanjingdunshiliangleliang。tayingzhetoupiwushisunanzhuozhuodeshixian,kanxiangqinzhaodefangxiang,dao:“neishenme,zhaozhaohuilaile,woqushangxiaxishoujian……”

guranjiazhuangruowuqishidiwangqianzouleyibu,xiangzhechenjizhengtuosunandeshou,ketahaiweizouchudierbu,jiubeisunanyonglidizhuailehuilai。

qinyukandaozheiyimu,youxieyunliwuli,zhengyukaikouzulan,yiyankandaosunandeqinzhaoyijingyigejianbuchongleshanglai,yibajiulanzhuleqinyu,ranhouchongzhesunanluchuyigecanlandexiaorong:“zhenqiaoa,sunan,niheranranhenjiumeijianleba?womenjiubudaraonimenle。”

shuozhe,qinzhaojiulazheqinyulikaizuowei。

qinyuyouxiemobuzhetounao,kanxiangyilianjianxiaodeqinzhao。

“jie,womenjiuzheimezoulehaoma?”

“yourengaixiangsharenle,zheimexuexingdechangmianwomenhaishibiecourenaole……”qinzhaoheheleliangsheng。

“……”

“zhaozhao,womenbushiyuehaoyaoyiqiguangjiedema?”guranjianle,lianmanghandao,shunbianchaoqinzhaoshileshiyanse。

keqinzhaoquesihaomeiyoujieshoudaotadeyisi,fanerzhuangchuyifunamendebiaoqing:“youma?yidingshinijicuole,ai,bushuolea,womahanwomenhuijiachifanni……”

“qinzhao!”gurandengledengyan,zheijiahuozenmekeyizheiyang?zheibushizhitayubuguma?

qinzhaozhuanguotouchouletayiyan,neiyanshenfenmingzaishuo:jieaimonengzhu,niziqiuduofu!

gurandelianzaiyiciniuqule——sunyouguoranshikaobuzhude。

她不得不面对现实。

tazhuanguotou,nulidiaozhengchuyigehaisuanwanmeidexiaorong,kanzhesunan,dao:“neishenme,zhenqiaoa……”

sunandingdingdikanzheta,congkandaotadeneiyikeqi,tadeshixianjiumeiyoulikaiguota,zheigeren,rangtaxianglezheimeduonian,nianlezheimeduonian,tabenyiweizheiyishengdoubuhuizaiyoujihuijiandaota,keyuanlai,tazheimeduoniandeshangxin,buguoshiyigexiaohua,yichangpianju。

yixiangdaoci,tajiuhenbunengqinshouqiasita。

guranxianranganshoudaoletade“shayi”,tadouledoushenzi,dangxialuchuyifuweiqudemoyang,xiaoshengdao:“suiranwomenfenshoule,dansuhuashuodehao,maimaibuzaiqingyizai……”

“……”zheishenmepobiyu?sunandangxiaheilelian。

guranyefajuezijicuociyouwenti,yushiyouxiaoshengbuchongleyiju:“wohaihuozhe,nibushiyinggaiweiwogaoxingma?”

huayingangluo,tadeshenzijiubeilanruyigewennuandehuaibao,tajinjindibaozheta,lidaodadejihurangtachuanbuguoqilai,tatingdaotayayideshengyinzaierbianxiangqi:“gaoxing,wozhengaoxing。”

tahaihuozhe,bianyijingshishangtianciyutazuihaodeliwu,tazennengbugaoxing?

gurandexinlibuyoudeyouxiesuanse,yanzhongyifuxianchuyicengbowu。

“menkouyoujizhe。”guranhaimeilaidejiku,jiujianyigeshencaitingbademoshengnanrenkuaibuzoushangqianlai,shengyinbudabuxiao,ganghaonengrangtamentingdao。

sunanchenmolehuier,fangkaileguran,zhishiyoushouqueshijinjindiwozhutadeshou,takanleyanluolan,youkanxiangguran,dao:“womenxianhuifangjian。”

sunanshuowan,bianlazhegurancongcongjinledianti,zhijieshanglejiudiandingloudezongtongtaofang。

luolangenzaitamenliangshenhou,ruoyousuosidikanzhetamenliangjinjinwozhedeshou,jinridesunankeweishirangtadadieleyiciyanjing,ruoshibeijizhepaidao,zhipazhenggeyinlejiedouyaozhenjingle。

luolanzhengzhuomozhe,sunanyijinglazheguranjinlefangjian,tazhengzhunbeigenshangqu,damenjiu“pa”deyishengguanshangle,luolanwuzhechadianxuejiandangchangdebizi,chitongdizhoumaleyisheng:“sunannigejiansewangyoudehundan!”

guranbeisunanlazhe,naoziyunyunhuhude,tadeshoujinjinguozhezijide,neiyangwennuan,yirucongqian,taxiangqizaimeiguodezheiliangqiangeririyeye,xiangqineimanzhangyouhanlengdeliugedongtian,tadoukewangyouneimeyizhishou,keyijizijichuandiwennuan。

dengdaoliangrendaolefangjian,zhouweishunjiananjingxialai,guranrumengchuxing。

doushiqiannanyoule,tahaihuanxianggemao?guranzaixindibishilezijiyiba。

tataiqitou,guzuyongqizhishisunan,dao:“jintianyudaoni,wohenkaixin。”

sunanmianwubiaoqingdikanletayiyan:“guran,nishuoqihuanghualaihaizhenshiyanjingdoubuzhayixia。”

yijiandaotajiuduojinzhuozidixiazheizhongjudong,jingyenengchengzhiweikaixin?

当他是傻子?

guranxinxudikeleliangsheng,guzuoyoueryanta:“shijianbuzaole,woxianhuifangle。”

“ninaeryebuxuqu,jinwannizaizheilishui。”

“……”guranyouxiejiong,youyulebanshangcaikailekou,“zheibuhaoba,zhaozhaoyibangwodingfangjian。”

gunanguanvgongchuyishi,tayaoshibachibuzhuzenmeban?qingboqiannanyouzheizhongshi,tahaishizuodechulaide。

nazhitagangshuowan,sunandeliansejiuchenlechen,tazhuaizhetazhijiejinlezhuwo,henxiongdidengletayiyan,dao:“woshuoleninaeryebuxuqu!”

shuowan,sunanjiudabuzouchufangjian,ranhouhenhendibamenguanshangle。

guranyouxiemeng,suijitingdaoyaochizhuandongdeshengyin,taxinxiayilin,lianmangchongdaomenbian,zhuailezhuaimenba,faxianwensibudong。tayouxiedai,tabamensuoshangganshenme?

guranfalebantiandai,ranhouhuangulexiakuanchangyouhaohuadefangjian,youxiejuewudixiang:shuinaerbushishuini?genghekuangtahaimeishuiguozongtongtaofang!