zheigemingzi，xianggechenshuilewuniandezhadan，beiluoxiaoyezheikexiaohuoxingzi，“pa”yixiadianranleyinxin。
jiexialaidejitian，woguodetixindiaodan。
kansheidouxianglitingyuanpailaidetanzi。louxiaxinbanlaidelinjuduokanwoliangyan？keyi！xiaoqumenkoumaijianbingdedamajintianmeichutan？shibushibeishoumaile？lianluoxiaoyeyoueryuanneigepanghuhu、xiaoqilaixiangmilefodeyuanzhang，wodoujuedetayanshenlitouzheshenshi。
woxianggejinggongzhiniao，lianrenglajidouhenbudedaigekouzhaomojing。
主要是心虚。
dangnianneishier，xianzaihuixiangqilai，wozijidoujuedegouxuedenengpaibashijilianxuju。
wunianqian，wogangdaxuebiye，weilejiwomachougaoangdeshoushufei，jingrenjieshao，quyijiadingjisirenhuisuo**fuwuyuan。neidifang，denghongjiulv，zhizuijinmi，genwogegeburu。jieguojiuneimedaomeicuide，songjiujinyigedingjibaoxiangshi，beilimianyigehegaoledeershizuchanshang，dongshoudongjiao。
wohedegouqiang，jiupingzidouchadianlunqilai。
jiuzaineiershizudezhuaziyaopengdaowojianbangdeshihou，baoxiangmenkaile。yigegaodadeshenyingnizheguangzhanzaimenkou，shengyinlengdexiangbingchazi：“gunchuqu。”
neiershizushunjianjiuxingledaban，pidoubuganfangyige，liangunpapapaole。
baoxianglizhishengxiawohemenkouneigeren。
guangxianhunan，wokanbuqingtadelian，zhijideneiyapoganjiqiangdegaodalunkuo，haiyoushenshangqinglieyoudaizhedianlengliemuzhixiangdeweidao。tahaoxiangyehelebushao，bulvyoudianchen，zoudaoshafabianzuoxia，rouzhemeixin，meizaikanwo。
wojinghunweiding，douzheshouxiangbajiufangxiaganjinliu。
“dengdeng。”tahurankaikou，shengyindichenshaya。
wojiangzaiyuandi，bugandong。
“倒酒。”
wozhihaoyingzhetoupiguoqu，xiaoxinyiyidijitadaolebeijiu。shoudoudelihai，jiuyesachulaiyidianzaichajishang。
tasihumeizaiyi，duanqijiubeiyiyinerjin。ranhou，tataiqitou。
hunandeguangxianxia，wozhongyukanqingletadelian。yingjundejijugongjixing，wuguanshensuiliti，danyanshenhenchen，daizheyizhongshenbujiandidepibeihe……guji？jiuneimekanzhewo。
guishishenchadi，wonaoziyichou，shuo：“jiu……jiuheduoleshangshen。”shuowanjiuxiangchouzijizuibazi。
talengleyixia，suijichelechezuijiao，neixiaoronghendan，meishenmewendu。“meirenhuizaiyi。”
气氛有点怪。
jiexialaifashengdeshiqing，wanquanchaochulewodekongzhifanwei。huoxushijiujingzuosui，huoxushineiwandeqifentaiguoaimeibuming，huoxushitashenshangneizhongqiangdayoucuiruodeqizhihunzazaiyiqitaiguhuoren……zongzhi，dengwofanyingguolai，woyijingbeitadaidaoleloushangdetaofang。
yiqiefashengdehunluanyoumohu。
zhijidetachiredehuxi，guntangdepifu，qiangshidedongzuo，haiyouzuihoujinjinbaozhewoshi，neiyishengjibukewende、daizhenongnongjuanyidetanxi。
diertiantianmeiliangwojiuhexingle。kanzheshenbianchenshuidenanren，neizhangzaichenguangxiweizhongyijiuwanmeidejingxindongpodelian，wozhijuedewuleihongding。chentameixing，wozhuaqizijizhoubabadeyifu，liangunpapadipaole。xiangzhishoujingguodudetuzi。
我以为这就完了。
yigehuangtangdecuowu，yicicajianerguodelushuiqingyuan。
zhidaolianggeyuehou，woyinweichixudishaohefanweiquyiyuanjiancha。dangyishengmianwubiaoqingdigaosuwo“nihuaiyunle”deshihou，woyanqianyihei，chadiandangchangbiaoyangeyuandiqushi。
孩子的爸爸是谁？
chuleneigelianmingzidoubuzhidaode、qichangnengdongsirendenanren，hainengyoushei？
wonazhehuayandan，zaiyiyuanzoulangdezhangyishangzuoleyixiawu，naoziyipiankongbai。womadeshoushufeihaimeicouqi，wozijigangzhaodaoyifenmianqianghukoudegongzuo，xianzaiduziliyouduoleyige？
打掉？
zheigeniantoumaochulai，xinjiumengdiyichou。woxiayishidiwuzhulehaihenpingtandexiaofu。yitiaoxiaoshengming，yinweiwodecuowuerjianglindeshengming……wohenbuxiaxin。
留下？
nashenmeyang？zenmemianduiwoma？zenmemianduiyihou？
jiuzaiwoliushenwuzhu，dunzaijiebiankenzhelengmantoudiaoyanleideshihou，yiliangdidiaoshehuadeheisejiaochetingzailewomianqian。chechuangjiangxia，luchuyizhangjingyingfanershizudelian。
“luo**？”neirentuiletuijinsiyanjing，yuqilimaoshuli，“woshilixianshengdezhuli，xingchen。lixianshengxiangjiannin。”
厉先生？
我懵了。
chenzhulidijiwoyizhangmingpian。mingpianshangzhiyouyigetangjindexingshi：li。
wohunhuneedigenzhechenzhuliquleshizhongxinzuigaodangdexieziloudingceng。judadeluodichuangwaishizhenggechengshidefanhuajingxiang。kuandadebangongzhuohou，zuozhedenanren，zhengshineiwanderen。
tachuanzheyuntiedeheisechenshan，xiukouwanqiyijie，luchumingguiwanbiao。yangguanggoulezhetalengyingdecelianxiantiao，bineiwanzaihunandengguangxiagengjuyapogan。tataiyankanwo，yanshenruilidexiangshoushudao，fangfonengbawoconglidaowaipoukaikangetouche。
“luoyunyou？”takaikou，shengyindichenpingwen，tingbuchuqingxu。
wojinzhangdeshouxinquanshihan，zhinengjiangyingdidiandiantou。
“zuo。”tazhilezhiduimiandeyizi。
woxianggetixianmuouyiyangzuoxia，daqibuganchu。
“neiwandeshi，shigeyiwai。”takaimenjianshan，yuqipingdandexiangzaitanluntianqi，“woheduole，baoqian。”
“……”wobuzhidaogaishuoshenme，zhinengdizhetou。
“tingshuonimuqinxuyaoshoushufei？”tanachuyifenwenjian，tuidaozhuoziduimian，“zheilishiwubaiwanzhipiao。qianlezheifenbaomixieyi，qianshinide，haizidadiao。yihou，buyaochuxianzaiwomianqian，yebuyaoduirenherentiqineiwandeshi。”
tadehua，tiaoliqingxi，lengkuwuqing，xiangzaichuliyizhuangshangyebinggouan。
wokanzheneizhangbobode、quedaibiaozhejuecaifudezhipiao，youditoukanlekanzijiyijiupingtandexiaofu。yigujudadequruganhefennumengdichongshangtouding。
tabawodangshenme？jiejuemafandegongju？
haiziyoushishenme？yigexuyaobei“chuli”diaodecuowu？
womengditaiqitou，zhishizhetaneishuangshenbujiandideheimou。neiyike，haipabeiyalexiaqu，zhishengxiayizhongpoguanziposhuaidejueqiang。
“lixiansheng，”wodeshengyinyinweijinzhangerfazhan，dannulitingzhilebeiji，“qian，wobuyao。haizi，shiwodeshi，bulaoninfeixin。neiwandeshi，jiudangbeigoukenle。zaijian，bu，zaiyebujian。”
shuowan，wozhuaqizijidebao，jihushitaoyesidechongchuleneijianbinglenghaohuadebangongshi。menguanshangdeshunjian，wohaoxiangtingdaotasihushuoleyijushenme，danwomeitingqing，yebuxiangting。
houlai，wodongpinxicou，jiashangdajifengong，mianqiangcougoulemamadiyiqishoushudefeiyong。zaihoulai，duzizangbuzhule，wocilegongzuo，tingzheduzihuilelaojianeigexiaoxiancheng。womakanzhewolongqideduzi，shenmedoumeiwen，zhishibaozhewomomoliulei。haizichushengshi，womashentiyijinghenbuhao，dantajianchiyaokanzhewaisunchusheng。xiaoyemanyuemeiduojiu，tajiuzoule。
wodaizhexiaoye，youhuidaolezheigelilitingyuansuozaichengshizuiyuandexiaocheng，zulezuibianyidefangzi，zhaoleyifenwangdiankefudegongzuo，kaishiledanqinmamadejiannanshenghuo。
rizihenku，dankanzhexiaoyeyitiantianzhangda，neizhangxiaolianyuelaiyuexiang……neigenanren，xinliyousuanyoutian。wopinminggongzuo，nulihuozhe，xiaoxinyiyidishouzhezheigemimi，yiweishijiannengmopingyiqie。
zhidaoluoxiaoyezhizhezazhifengmian，jingzhundichuopolewozheiwunianlaikuxinweichidepingjingjiaxiang。
“mama！mama！nikuaikan！”
zheitianshizhoumo，wozhengwozaidiannaoqian，shouzhifanfeiditongshiyingfuzhesangenanchandeguke（“qin，zheigejiagezhendebunengzaidilee~”“qin，zhiliangwentiwomenzhichiqitianwuliyoutuihuande~”“qin，ninxiaoxiaoqi，wojininshenqinggexiaoliwubuchanghaobuhao？”），mangdejiaotoulane。luoxiaoyexianggexiaopaodanyiyangcongketingchongjinwodexiaoshufang，xingfendijuzhetadeertongdianhuashoubiao，xiaoliantonghong。
“kanshenmeyabaobei？mamamangzheni，gukeshishangdi，shangdishengqilemamajiumeifanchile。”wotouyemeitai，shouzhizaijianpanshangqiaodepipaxiang。
“bushi！nikanma！”tazhijiebaxiaoshoubiaoduidaowoyanpizidixia，pingmuliangzhe，xianshizheyige……yuyinfasongchenggongdejiemian？fasongduixiangshiyigemoshengde、yikanjiuhengaodashangdetouxiang——yipianshenchendexingkong。
woxinli“gedeng”yixia，yizhongjiqibumiaodeyuganshunjianjuezhulewo。“luoxiaoye！nijisheifayuyinle？zheisheidetouxiang？”woshengyindoubiandiaole。
xiaoyezhabazhedayanjing，yiliantianzhenwuxiewaijiayidianxiaodeyi：“babaya！”
轰隆！
woganjueyidaotianleizhizhipizailewodetianlinggaishang，bawopidewaijiaolinen，hunfeiposan。
“baba？！”wojianjiaochusheng，yibaduoguotadedianhuashoubiao，shouzhiduosuozhediankaineitiaoyifasongdeyuyin。
shoubiaoli，likechuanchuluoxiaoyeneiqingcuixiangliang、tuziqingxidetongyin，zaixiaoxiaodeshufanglihuidang，meiyigezidouxiangchuizizazaiwoxinkoushang：
“baba！nihao！wojiaoluoxiaoye！woshiniyongguode**biandebaobao！wojinniansisuibanle！wohemamazhuzaiwutongxiang27hao201！mamazuofanhaonanchi！nishenmeshihoulaijiewomenya？woxiangchidacan！”
死寂。
书房里一片死寂。
zhiyoudiannaoyinxiangli，gukebunaifande“dingdong”shenghaizaixiang：“kefu！renni？！daodinengbunengjiejuewenti？！”
woshihuazaiyuandi，shouliniezheneikuaixiaoxiaode、cikequezhongruqianjindeshoubiao，naoziliyipiankongbai。erbianfanfuhuidangzheneijumoyinguaner：“woshiniyongguode**biandebaobao……woshiniyongguode**biandebaobao……”
luoxiaoye！nigexiao**！nidoushicongnalixuedezheixiecier？！
hai“yongguode**”？！hai“biandebaobao”？！
haibaojiatingzhuzhi？！haitucaowozuofannanchi？！
woganjueyigurexuezhichongtianlinggai，yanqianzhenzhenfahei，chadiandangchangjueguoqu。wozhizheneigexingkongtouxiang，shengyindoudexiangfengzhongluoye：“ni……ni……nizenmezhidaozheishita？ninalaidelianxifangshi？！”
xiaoyesuolesuobozi，dagaizhongyuyishidaozijichuanghuole，xiaoshengdunang：“shangcineibenzazhi……fengdi……youdianhua……wotoutoujixialai，cunjinshoubiaolile……”tayueshuoshengyinyuexiao，“wo……wojiuxiangshishima……wanyizhenshibabani……”
zazhifengdi！dianhua！shi？！！
woyanqianyihei，fuzhezhuozicaimeizaidao。litingyuandesirendianhua？！luoxiaoyejuranjitafalezheimeyitiaojingshihaisudeyuyin？！
完了。
这下彻底完了。
跑都来不及了。
wotanzuozaiyizishang，hunshenfaleng，ganjueshijiemoriyebuguoruci。kanzheerzineizhangkusilitingyuan、cikexiemanwuguheyidiandianxiaotantedelian，wolianmatadeliqidoumeiyoule。mannaozizhiyouyigeniantou：litingyuanshoudaozheitiaoyuyinhuishishenmebiaoqing？tahuizenmezuo？wubaiwanmaiduan？haishi……zhijiepairenlaibawomenmuziliangchenjiang？
jiexialaidemeiyifenmeiyimiao，douchenglejianao。wozuolibuan，shibuxiayan，kansheidouxianglitingyuanpailaideshashou。shoujiyixiang，wojiuhedeyiduosuo，yiweishichenzhulibinglengwuqingdetongzhidianhua。
yitianguoqule，meidongjing。
liangtianguoqule，haishimeidongjing。
disantianxiawu，wozhengyibianxinbuzaiyandizhuzhemiantiao（qidaozheicibiezhuhule），yibianshuzheerduotingmenkoudedongjing，xinlineigenxianbengdekuaiyaoduanle。
“笃、笃、笃。”
敲门声响起。
henqing，danhenyouli，daizheyizhongburonghushidejiezougan。
wodexintiaoshunjianbiaodaoyibaiba，shoulidekuaizi“pada”diaozaidishang。laile！gailaidehaishilaile！
luoxiaoyezhengzuozaidibanshangdajimu，tingdaoqiaomensheng，yanjing“shua”diliangle，xiangliangkexiaodengpao，diuxiajimujiuyaowangmenkouchong：“baba！”
“zhanzhu！”wodihouyisheng，yibalaozhuta，batasisianzaihuaili，xinzangzaixiongqianglifengkuangleigu。woshenxiyikouqi，baozheshisiruguidexintai，yibubunuodaomenbian，congmaoyanwangwaikan。
menwai，zhanzhelianggenanren。
qianmianneige，shenxingjiqigaodatingba，jihudangzhulezhenggemaoyandeshiye。yishenjiancaiwanmeideshenhuiseyangrongdayi，chendetajiankuantuizhang，qichangporen。neizhanglian……jishigezhemohudemaoyan，yeqingxiderangrenzhixi。meiyanshensui，bilianggaoting，bochunjinminchengyitiaolengyingdezhixian。zhengshizazhifengmianshangdeneizhanglian——litingyuanbenren。
tashenhoubanbu，zhanzheneigeshuxidejinsiyanjing——chenzhuli。chenzhulishouli，hailinzheyige……kanqilaixiangshizhuangyiliaoqixiedeyinseshoutixiang？qinzijianding？！zheimekuai？！
wotuiyiruan，chadianzhijiejimenbanguixia。
“mama，shibabama？kuaikaimenya！”huailidexiaoyeniudongzhe，xingfendixiaoshengcuicu。
kaimen？kaishenmemen？zheishikaimenma？zheishidakaipanduolamohe！
wodouzheshou，modaomensuo，ganjueneibinglengdejinshudouzaichaoxiaowodeyuchun。taolewunian，zuihoubeizijiqinerziyigedianhuashoubiaosongshanglemen。
拼了！
womengdiyiyaoya，ningkailemensuo。
门开了。
loudaolihunandeguangxianyongjinlai，litingyuangaodadeshenyingjihuduzhulezhenggemenkuang。tabiwojiyizhonggenggao，yapogangengqiang。neishuangshenbujiandideheimou，xiangcuilebingdehantan，jingzhundiluozaiwolianshang，ruilidefangfoyaojiangwochuantou。muguangbingleng，shenshi，daizheyisibuyichajuede……fengbaoqiandeyayi。
空气瞬间凝固了。
wobaozhexiaoye，jiangzaimenkou，ganjuexueyedoudongzhule。xiaoyeyeanjingxialai，haoqididaliangzhemenwaizheigehetazhangdechaoxiangde“shushu”。
litingyuandemuguang，zaiwolianshangtingliulejimiao，neiyanshenfuzadewodubudong。ranhou，tadeshixianhuanhuanxiayi，luozailewohuailideluoxiaoyeshenshang。
neiyishunjian，woqingxidikandao，tabingshanbandelianshang，chuxianleyisijiqixiweide、jinhuliehendezhendong。tadetongkong，sihushousuoleyixia，jinjindingzhexiaoyeneizhanghetarutongfukedexiaolian。shijianfangfotingzhilejimiao。
xiaoyebeitakandeyoudianhaixiu，baxiaonaodaiwangwohuailimailemai，danyourenbuzhutoutoutaiyankanta。
litingyuandehoujie，jiqiqingweidigundongleyixia。
xiayimiao，takaikoule，shengyinbiwoxiangxiangdehaiyaodichenlengying，xiangshicongbingcengxiajichulai：“luoyunyou？”
wohoulongfajin，zhinengjiannandidiandiantou。
“ta，”tademuguangyijiusuozaixiaoyeshenshang，yuqizhandingjietie，burongzhiyi，“wode？”
zheisangezi，xiangsankuaijushi，henhenzazaiwoxinshang。
wozhanglezhangzui，xiangfouren，xiangshuo“bushi”，dankanzhexiaoyeneizhanglian，huangyankazaihoulongli，yigeziyetubuchulai。shishishengyuxiongbian。
wodechenmo，xianranbeitadangchenglemoren。
litingyuanzhoushendeqiyashunjianyoudilehaojidu，yanshenruilidexiangdaozi，guazaiwolianshang：“wubaiwanbugou？suoyiyonghaizidangchouma？luoyunyou，nidanzibuxiao。”
“womeiyou！”wobeitabinglengdezhikongjidemengditaiqitou，yiguweiquhefennuchongshangtouding，yaguolekongju，“womeixiangyaonideqian！dangnianwojiumeiyao！zheihaizishiwode！woyigerenshengde，yigerenyangde！gennimeiguanxi！womeixiangyongtaweixienishenme！”
“meiguanxi？”litingyuanxiangshitingdaoleshenmetiandadexiaohua，chunjiaogouqiyimojiqibinglengdehudu，yanshenquegengchenle。tashangqianyibu，judadeyinyinglongzhaoxialai，porendeqixirangwojihuzhixi。“daizhewodeerzi，duozaizheizhongdifangwunian，xianzaishuogenwomeiguanxi？”
tashenchushou，mubiaomingque，zhizhiwohuailideluoxiaoye，yuqishiburongkangjudemingling：“haizi，jiwo。”
“buji！”woxianghuzaidemushou，mengdihoutuiyibu，baxiaoyesisihuzaishenhou，shengyinyinweijidongerjianli，“nixiangganshenme？litingyuan！tashiwodeming！nixiuxiangqiangzouta！”
“qiang？”litingyuanyanshengengleng，daizheyizhongjugaolinxiadeyapo，“taxingli，shiwodexuemai。wozhishinahuishuyuwodedongxi。”
tadeshouyijiuxuanzaibankong，daizheyizhongzhangkongyiqiedeqiangshi。
“tabuxingli！taxingluo！jiaoluoxiaoye！”wogengzhebozi，cunbuburang，yanleizaiyankuanglidazhuan，sisidengzheta，“nichuletigongyike**，haizuoguoshenme？nizhidaotajidianchushengma？nizhidaotadiyicijiaomamashishenmeshihouma？nizhidaotabanyefashaowobaozhetapaoleduoyuanquyiyuanma？nizhidaotazuixihuanchishenmezuipashenmema？nishenmedoubuzhidao！nipingshenmeshuotashinidedongxi？！”
wodehua，xianglianzhupaoyiyangzachuqu。litingyuandelianse，rouyankejiandichenlexiaqu，heimouzhongfanyongzhewokanbudongdeanliu。tashenchudeshou，huanhuanwochenglequan，shoubeishangqingjinyinxian。
qifenjianbanuzhang，yichujifa。
jiuzaizheizhixideduizhizhong，yigeqingcuidexiaonaiyin，dapolejiangju。
“爸爸。”
luoxiaoyecongwoshenhoutanchuxiaonaodai，dayanjingqingchedikanzhelitingyuan，meiyouhaipa，zhiyouhaoqihe……yisisibuyichajuedeqidai。tashenchurouhuhudexiaoshou，zhizhelitingyuanjinwodequantou，yuchujingren：
“niquantouniezheimejin，shixiangdamamama？laoshishuo，danvrendenanren，shihuaidane。”
“……”
空气，再次凝固了。
litingyuanneiwannianbingfengdelianshang，diyicichuxianlemingxiande、kanchengcuoedeliehen。taditou，kanzhezijijinwodequantou，youkanxiangyilianrenzhen“jiaoyu”tadexiaodouding，sihubeizheituruqilaidelinghunkaowenjizhengbuhuile。
jiuliantashenhouyizhimiantanliandechenzhuli，jinsiyanjingdouweiweihualuoleyidian，zuijiaokeyidichoudongleyixia。
我：“……”
erzi，gandepiaoliang！suiranchanghebutaidui，danmamaxiangjinidianzan！
litingyuanchenmolejimiao，neizhijinwodequantou，jiqihuanmandi、daizhedianjiangyingdeyiwei，songkaile。tashenxiyikouqi，zaikanxiangluoxiaoyeshi，yanshenlidebinghansihuliekaileyidaofengxi，touchuyisijiqifuzadeqingxu。
“bushi。”tazhongyukaikou，shengyinyijiudichen，dansihushaolediangangcaideliqi，takanxiangwo，yanshenyijiuruili，queduoleyifenshenshi，“wocongbudanvren。”zheihuaxiangshiduixiaoyeshuo，yexiangshiduiwoshuo。
taweiweiceshen，duishenhoudechenzhulishiyileyixia。chenzhulilikeshangqianyibu，mianwubiaoqingdidakaileneigeyinseshoutixiang。
wodexinshunjiantidaolesangziyan。qinzijianding！guoranlaile！
xiangzilimian，bushiwoxiangxiangzhongdeshiguanmianqian，ershi……haojifenzhuangdinghaodewenjian？zuishangmianyifen，fengmianheranyinzhejigejiacuheitizi：qinziguanxijiandingbaogao。
chenzhulijiangbaogaodixianglitingyuan。
litingyuanquemeijie，tademuguangzaiciluozaiwoshenshang，daizheyizhongburongzhiyidejueduan：“luoyunyou，xianzai，niyoulianggexuanze。”
tayusubukuai，queziziqingxi，daizhezhangkongyiqiedeyapogan。
“diyi，daizhehaizi，genwozou。huilijia。tashilijiadehaizi，gairenzuguizong，jieshouzuihaodejiaoyuheshenghuo。zhiyuni……”tadunledun，yanshenlengmo，“zuoweihaizideshengmu，lijiabuhuikuidaini，danjinxianyuci。”
wodexinmengdiyichen。renzuguizong？ranhouwoni？yigeyifuyuta、yangrenbixide“shengmu”？xiangtayangzailongzilidejinsique？dangnianwobuyaoneiwubaiwan，jiushiweilebaoliuzijizuihoudezunyan。wunianle，wodaizhexiaoyeaoguozuinandeshiguang，bushiweilejintianqudanggejirenlixiade“fushupin”！
“dier，”litingyuandeshengyingenglenglejifen，yanshenruilirudao，“nikeyijujue。danwohuilikeqidongfalvchengxu，zhengduohaizidefuyangquan。yilishidenengli，nijuede，niyouduoshaoshengsuan？”
**裸的威胁！
xiangyipenbingshui，doutoujiaoxia，rangwohunshenbingleng。
fuyangquan……shia，wozenmegentazheng？woyoushenme？yifenmianqianghukoudewangdiankefugongzuo？yigezulaide、zhiyousishipingdelaopoxiao？erta，shilishijituandezhangduoren，zuoyongyiwancaifu，nengjixiaoyetigongwopinjinquanliyejibuledeshenghuoheweilai。
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xiaoyesihuganshoudaolewodekongjuhebeishang，shenchuxiaoshou，benzhuodijiwocayanlei：“mamabuku……”taniutoukanxianglitingyuan，xiaomeitouzhoudejinjinde，xianggexiaodaren：“huaibaba！nibamamanongkule！wobuyaogennizou！woyaogenmamazaiyiqi！”
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chenzhulishishididishangyifenwenjian，dishengtixing：“lizong，baogaojieguo……”
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tadehua，xiangzuihoudetongdie，yexiangyakualuotuodezuihouyigendaocao。
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“litingyuan，”wotingdaozijideshengyinzaidou，quedaizheyizhongguzhuyizhidejuejue，“niyiweiyouqianyoushi，jiunengzhangkongyiqiema？jiunengmaiduanxueyuan，maiduanganqingma？”
wobaojinxiaoye，xiangshibaozhewozaizheishishangweiyidefumu。
“daguansijiudaguansi！jiusuanshudeqingjiadangchan，shudeyiwusuoyou，woyeyaozhengdaodi！xiaoyeshiwodeming！chufeiwosi，fouzesheiyebiexiangbatacongwoshenbianqiangzou！”