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jiehunqianxi，wohexiaoguzishangjiecaimaijiehunyongpin，tabeirenfanziguaile。
wogenzhezhuilesantiaojieyemeizhuishang，shuaidaozaidi，xigaixianxuelinli。
zhaojunminshuobuguaiwo，quechenmozhebahunyuewuxianyanqile。
weileshuzui，wofangqifanxiang，bugumingyubanjinzhaojiazhaogupopo。
wobaolanlesuoyoujiawu，shuangshouzhujiancucaoshuizhong。
jiulianmuqinshengbingdoutuobukaishenhuiqutanwang。
kezhaojunminshizhongduiwobuxianbudan，bushuoguaizuiyebushuoyuanliang，meiyouhouwen。
我在煎熬中麻木。
zhidaojinri，xiaoguziliuzhenzhenzijizhaolehuilai，woxietianxiedijidongbuyi。
zhaojunminduiwoyetaiduhuanhe，zhongxindingxiahunqi。
woquetingdaoxiaoguzihepengyoushuo：
“wojiazhuangbeiguaide，yaobutamenhunqiruhenengyanhou。”
“wogeyezhidao，taxintengwo，peihewoyanlezheichuxi。”
woshihunluopodilaidaohuochezhan，nachushenshangsuoyouzhiqiandewujian，huanleyizhangsantianhouhuijiadechepiao。
1981年冬。
“tongzhininhao，woxiangmaiyizhangqupingchengdehuochepiao。”
liqiushanzaihanfengzhongzhanlexujiu，zhongyupaidaoshoupiaochuangkou。
gongzuorenyuanshuliancaozuoyifan，zhuantoukanxiangta：
“tongzhi，zuijinyibankaiwangpingchengdehuocheshisantianhou，piaojiaershiyikuaiqimao，ninyaoma？”
“要！”
tacuolecuodonghongdeshuangshou，lianmangbaganggangmailemianaoheyinjiezhihuanlaideqian，yigunaodileguoqu。
henkuaibiannadaolechepiao，tahongzheyankuang，kanleyibianyouyibian。
sannianle，tazhongyukeyihuijiale。
taxiaoxinyiyibachepiaofangjindouli，taiqitouzhenghaokandaodaizhemaozidenvhaiwanzheweihunfuzhaojunmindeshou，zaihoumianpaidui。
shengpabeiliangrenkandao，liqiushanlianmangshanshenduozaizhuzishenhou，zhitanchuyigenaodai。
“junminge，ruguowomeiyoubeiguairangqiushantongzhizhidaole，tahuibuhuijihenwoa，wozhishixiangliuchuyiduanshijianfangxiani，burangniweinan。”nvhaisuosuobozi，kelianbabakanzheshenpangdenanren。
“buhui，tabuhuirangwoweinande。”zhaojunminkanzhenvhaizhuangguaideyangzirenjunbujin。
“zaishuo，woyehuibangnimanzhede。”
buguohaiyouyijuxinlihuatameishuochukou。
neijiushitameiyouzuzhiyangmeidehunao，yeshixiangjiecimomoliqiushandexingzi，guoransannianjian，taguaishunlebushao。
zhaojunminmanyidefangsonglemeiyan。
“buguo，zhihounigaijiaotasaozile。”zhaojunminshouqibiaoqing，zhengshididuinvhaishuochuzheiju。
“zhidaolezhidaole。”nvhaibufuqidipiezui。
zhaojunmindixiatou，bashoulihaimaozhereqidebanlifeikuaisaijinnvhaidezuili。
kanzheliangrenjuzhiqinnidiqishangzixingchelikai，liqiushandixiatoukandaozhongzhiliuxiadeyinji。
turancongbaolichouchushoujuancaleyouca。
真恶心。
zheixienianlaitabeishoujianao，wushiwukebuzaizize。
dangchuruguomeiyoujiaoxiaoguzi，ruguogengjiaxixinyixie，faxianxiaoguzibujianzhuidegengkuaiyixie，
neimetahezhaojunminzheiduixirideairenyebuhuishenglegehe，zoudaoxianzaidejingdi。
zhidaobanyueqianliuzhenzhenzijizhaolehuilai，zhaojunminduitadetaiducaihuanhexialai，dayingsantianhoubianhetajuxinghunli。
tayiweizhongyukujinganlai。
kejiuzaijintianzaoshang，shujishangmenrangtadaolincunbangmangbianpaijiemu，xianliaojiantatingdaozhaojunmindexiaoxi。
“gebicunneigezhaoduizhangzenmesantianliangtouwangzanmencunpao？meicilaishoulihailinzhebushaohaodongxi，mobushikanshanglenajiadeguinv？”
“buhuiba？zaojiutingshuotayouleweihunqi，haishigeweiletafangqifanxiangdezhiqingni，tingshuozhangdekepiaoliangle，yeyouwenhua，zhishimangzhezhaogupopo，buchangchumenjianren。”
renqunzhong，yigepangpangdedashenqingleqingsangzi，manlianshenmi：“xiangzhidaoa？wenwoya，tazudekeshiwojiadeyuanzi~”
“neiyuanzilizhuzhedeshitadeyangmei，woqiaoqiaotingdaoguotamenshuohua，zheimeimeiaxihuangegehenduonianle，yishijieshoubulegegeyaojiehun，youpabeixinniangzizhidao，jiujiazhuangshizongzhudaolezheili。”
“yaowoshuo，zhaoduizhangzheishizuodetingbuhoudaode，tahaibangzhemanzhe，tingshuotaweihunqiyizhihenzizeni。”
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她气得浑身发抖。
zhaojunmindeqipian，manshendepibei，sannianshiguangdecuotuozhibuguoshiweihunfuhongxiaohaideshouduan。
liqiushanjinbishuangyan，leizhuzailianshanghuachuyidaoleleihen，didaodishangxiaoshibujian。
zaizhengyan，tayanshenqingming，longlelongbozishangjinshengdeweijin，nieleniedoulidechepiao，yitouzhajinlelengfengzhong。
zoulesigexiaoshi，tazhongyuzaitianheizhiqianhuidaolezhaojiacun，laoyuanjiukandaocunkoudelaohuaishuxiazhanzheyigeren。
zhaojunminzoujin，kandaotazailingxiadetianqilichuanzhedanbodemaoyi，zhouzhemeitoutuoxiajundayipizaitadejianbangshang，lengshengkaikou：
“haizaiweizhenzhenchuanlenidejiayishengqi？douduodaderenle，haihexiaohaizijijiao。”
“wobazhenzhendangqinmeizi，yaoshinenghetahaohaoxiangchu，wohuianzhaoyuedingquni，yaoshibuneng，niyeshouliandianpiqi，biedongbudongjiuchaonao，ranglinjukanxiaohua。”
shuowan，tazaimeikantayiyan，congtashenbianzouleguoqu。
kanzhetalikaidebeiying，tachuixiayanmou。
zheici，shitabuxiangjiale。